AVOIDING INTIMACY WITH YEONJUN BC OF YOUR SCARS
REQ . . i was wondering if you’d be willing to write an imagine (or whatever u think works best) where the reader is avoiding being intimate with yeonjun because of her/their s3lf harm scars? they end up opening up to him and he’s so understanding about it,,, and from that day on he’s so sweet when it comes to intimacy.
˒ i hope you guys all enjoy these! obv content warnings for mentions of s*lf h*rm, so please don’t read if you think that may be triggering for you. no graphic depictions tho!
also the smut includes light impact play and some mentions of punishment (though lighthearted). it’s mostly very soft and sweet and it’s all at the end so you can skip it if you want to!
you didn’t bother lifting your head from yeonjun’s chest, shaking your head against his neck with a whiny little humph over your nap being interrupted.
yeonjun laughed, reaching up to stroke your cheek with his thumb. “you’re shivering, baby. don’t you want a blanket?”
you finally open your eyes, shifting so that you’re resting your chin on his chest, focusing your glare on your boyfriend’s admittedly very pretty face.
“i didn’t until you woke me up.”
“you’re so cute when you’re mad,” jun smiles, leaning forward a little bit to kiss the tip of your nose. you scrunch it, making him laugh again. “cute.”
slowly, he presses light little kisses to your cheeks, trailing them down your jaw until he reaches your lips. he kisses you deeply then, his hands squeezing your waist. you sigh into the kiss, completely into it until you register yeonjun’s hands slipping under your shirt to lift it upwards.
before yeonjun can fully understand what’s happening, you pull away from him, tugging your shirt back down.
“what’s wro—?” yeonjun stops, surprised at the expression on your face.
“nothing! i just have to pee.”
and before he can even call you on that obvious lie, you’ve darted into the bathroom and locked the door behind you. yeonjun props himself up on his elbows in bed and stares after you, completely confused.
what could he have done wrong? he replays the past few minutes in his mind, trying to figure out when it all went south. the memory of his hands beneath your shirt comes back to him and suddenly he’s remembering other things, like how you always wear one pieces at the beach, how you always have sex in the dark and you never let him touch your waist.
yeonjun decides to let it go, but for the next week he can’t stop thinking about what happened. what could you have to be insecure about? is it him? do you just not trust him yet? or maybe you’re not as attracted to him as he thought you were. the thought makes him sad, but he wishes you would just tell him what’s going on with you.
by the end of the week, yeonjun is tired of losing sleep over all of this overthinking and so he invites you over to watch a movie, which usually means that one or both of you will be naked before it’s over.
jun behaves himself for the first half of the movie, focusing on what’s happening on screen and keeping his arm around your shoulders, but as the night progresses the two of you sort of melt into the couch and you end up spooning with yeonjun’s arm around your waist instead.
“i’ve missed you,” yeonjun keeps his voice soft. you can feel his lips move against the bare skin on your shoulder. it makes you smile.
“i missed you, too. you’re too busy.”
jun hums, pressing a kiss to your exposed shoulder. the hand around your waist has remained safely over your clothes for now, but now yeonjun decides he needs to figure out whether he’s been freaking out over nothing. not to mention the feeling of you pressed up against him for the past twenty minutes hasn’t exactly evoked the purest of thoughts.
he kisses you again and slides his hand a little bit lower, before he tries to slip your shirt up over your head. you actually scream, pushing yeonjun away from you far more forcefully than you meant to, and to even your complete shock, promptly burst into tears. you feel embarrassed more than anything, your whole body burning with the shame of what feels like a complete overreaction.
S*LF H*RM MENTION & SMUT BELOW THE CUT