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my fake cc cover compilation of 2020

(congrats on merthur’s rise on tumblr’s ship ranking! and it once again proves that my drawings are so painfully shitty ppl give zero eff about it despite the popularity of the ship whoa)

if anyone’s interested, i’m writing a drabble collection based on each one of these fake cc covers: https://archiveofourown.org/series/2070306

His king is the Sun in heaven, like what’s written in poetry.

Merlin, though, isn’t the Moon chasing him across the sky. Merlin is gravity, gas and dust. The particles of matter, the forces of nature. Stars are born and burn out in his cold, cold bosom.

a bit of explanation for the caption if anyone’s interested:

However dazzling the king might be, he is only mortal, while Merlin isn’t really. Kings rise, Kings fall, Merlin is always there, a phlegmatic, celestial soul.

In Taoism it says “the heaven and earth have no mercy; they simply treat everything and everyone like a straw” which represents an aura i always feel around merlin. (idk if there’s an equivalent concept in other cultures, perhaps eldritch beings like Cthulhu? it’s not intentional wickedness, they just don’t care.)

Just finished watching The Fall recently, and I think Merlin’s amorality probably could be classified under this “treatable but incurable” category, or even untraceable. His deeds surely results from his obsession with Arthur and his solitariness/alienation to some extent, but they mostly only bring out what has been in merlin for a long time (in my headcanon).

His obsession for Arthur is like a habit of collecting dolls or some godlike sense of control. Despite the apparent imbalance in their relationship, the sacrifice in the name of love is more of a self-satisfying mannerism for him, along with his characteristic self-destructiveness.

As for his loneliness, even though he doesn’t have a father figure or a mentor, he grows up in the care of Hunith and Will, which should be considered a loving environment. of course childhood trauma could originate in rather trivial, one-time thing, but I think (or I’d like to think) his deviance isn’t caused by the surroundings (and on the contrary, it’s the said surroundings that condition him into conforming the societal norm just fine when life was more mundane as a peasant).

One thing particularly unsettles me through the show is his lack of suffering from PTSD. (i know it’s a kid show featuring a lot of bad writings but still.) Most of his emotional reactions function well. he is able to genuinely laugh and cry and get angry, but then those feelings seem quite shifting/inconsistent sometimes, e.g. how easily he is cheered by Arthur’s head-lock shortly after Freya’s death, or he never appears eaten by guilt afterwards or afraid of how easy violence is with his power when he is often quite generous to shows some compassion like “I don’t want it either but you’re not making this easy” but then kills with an attitude like “Oh no, anyway. Last week...” and it’s not even a gradual process, his unaffectedness starts in 101 when he chooses to stay even after witnessing the execution which is just too sociopathic for me.

All in all, what I’m trying to say here is that merlin is everything, yet he is never man.

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〜 Guinevere and Morgana: la fillette révolutionnaire 〜

A friend told me a while ago that she didn't understand how Morgana could be so cruel to Gwen who was once so dear to her. My take on this is that it’s exactly because Gwen was once so dear to her that Morgana is pained so much by Gwen’s endorsement of Pendragon regime, by her choice of the other side which denies Morgana's being. I get Gwen’s pragmatic choice of settling for a marriage to an acceptable man in power given her predicament after her old master’s revolt and her father’s execution (also being the one with the least privileges as a commoner as well as a muggle among the main four) but still, a betrayal is a betrayal. it's like that famous Baldwin quote "we can disagree and still love each other, unless your disagreement is rooted in my oppression and denial of my humanity and right to exist." (To be frankly I have no idea how people could downplay Morgana and Mordred and so many others' sufferings with "Can't we all just get along?")

If it was an (obnoxiously) Americanized Netflix show, Gwen would crusade against tyrannical Camelot because she finally understood JFK's "freedom is indivisible" after her father's unfair death. And she would likely be the one saving the world at the end of the day when Morgana was reduced to the opportunist-masquerading-as-activist kind of terrorist, and Merthur were busy playing house, pretending Arthur’s weight management and daddy issues or Merlin’s control freakiness was important than the Magical Lives Matter campaign or anything else.

my fake cc cover compilation of 2020

(congrats on merthur’s rise on tumblr’s ship ranking! and it once again proves that my drawings are so painfully shitty ppl give zero eff about it despite the popularity of the ship whoa)