happy holidays everyone <3 i’ll be very straight to the point with this post as this is already long overdue, but until further notice i’m discontinuing this account.

just as a bit of an explanation for my disappearance, i haven’t been in the right mindset to do anything quite frankly. school has me occupied, my grandma recently passed away, my mental and physical health is definitely deteriorating, and i’ve just needed time and space from everything hence why i’ve distanced myself from not only social media but also in person friendships and things like that. not just for myself but for the people i interact with because i realize the things i’ve been going through have likely affected others poorly too.

thank you to everyone who’s supported me and my account, i truly love all of you and i’m sorry for just leaving as if none of it mattered. this account and all the friendships it’s allowed me to make really do mean so much to me.

to anybody reading this, i hope you have a happy holiday season and i wish you the best of luck with everything! you’re so loved.

love u with my whole heart,

kay <3

get to know me tag !!!

name:

kay

birthday:

june 24

best friend:

victoria @drydrops891 !!! my soulmate the loml my number one my everything xx

relationship status:

single

# of piercings:

meaning behind url:

doie = doyoung | dreams = daydreams | doiedreams = doyoung daydreams

favorite band at the moment:

weston estate (not kpop btw)

favorite movie:

train to busan

face about my personality:

～(^з^)-♡ and (*/ω＼*) and alternatively, 🥴

what i love most about myself:

while it’s both a blessing and a curse, i love my high empathy because it enables me to help people emotionally.

what i hate most about myself:

i feel too much, care too much, think too much, and don’t know what to do with 95% of my thoughts and feelings so i just end up distant and detached or isolated and it’s just extremely confusing for everybody. i want to say that im working on this but i can’t say i’ve made any progress yet. i still feel like i’m losing everyone or on my way to doing so. (if this has affected you as my friend i am so sorry by the way, i love you sm)

what i want to be when i get older:

child psychiatrist or emergency psychiatrist

idea of a perfect date:

seeing a live sports game or going to an arcade or something of that sort. a cafe date also sounds nice

things i hate most:

ignorance, hate, and disrespect. the inability to mind the business that pays you.

phobias:

fear of insects (entomophobia)

what i hate most about school:

the workload + stress.

things i find most attractive in a partner:

ambition, respect, kindness, very caring, protective

biggest turn ons:

quality music taste <3

biggest turn offs:

disrespectful, nonchalant, apathetic, has no drive or ambition, careless, judgmental, short-tempered.

something i need to get off my chest:

i don’t know really, i just hope i find my way again. i feel a bit lost.

last time i cried and why:

a couple days ago bc (tw: illness) my grandma’s on dialysis and not getting much better.

by gods grace she’ll pull through and she’ll be ok.

a description of a person i hate and why i hate them:

no one

looks or personality:

personality. looks can get them there but personality keeps them there.

a shitty personality makes you ugly by default bsf

tagged by: @dreamcities

tagging: @drydrops891 @pastelsicheng @crisi-stown @give-seconds @little-cold-hands

@ anybody else that wants to do this!! (srsly!)

i’m sorry if you were already tagged

I just went from getting up at 2pm everyday to getting up at 6am … first day of school bsfs, see you on the other side </3

you guys i’ve been so inactive ???? i mean i’m sure you’ve already noticed that :( but hey i’m very much here and alive <3 i hope you’ve all been doing well, and if not, feel free to tell me about it! my dms and ask box are always open <3

ᜊ I’m back! ᜊ

I’m going to be active again! (slowly but surely)

In case you haven’t noticed, my period of inactivity lasted much longer than expected. I apologize for going away for so long without an update.

During my break from tumblr, as I mentioned before, I was wrapping up my school year as well as focusing on my athletics. I ended up getting promoted to varsity which I was extremely excited for and things got much busier until I unfortunately ended my season a bit short with a torn acl and meniscus :( I’m currently recovering from the injury and I’ll have surgery in 10 days. From then on, I’ll be doing physical therapy and rehab for the next 6-8 months to fully recover in time for next season!

So with that being said, I didn’t expect to be inactive for so long, but now that the school year and soccer season is over, I should have much more time on my hands to run this blog and write! But a lot of my time and energy this summer will be put into rehab for my knee injury so please be mindful of that as well.

Thanks for sticking with me and thank you to anyone and everyone that sent in an ask <3 I’m sorry I wasn’t able to get to it quickly. Love you all and missed you!!! Especially my moots </3 sobs. Don’t be a stranger loves, my ask box is very much open 24/7. Okay sorry for the lengthy update post. Much love!! 💕

Kay loves you ♡