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don't cry, okay? maybe butch scotty is somewhere out there for reals...

(and if he is. can he call me... please i need more butches in my life pl

elizabeth schuyler was a sister and a daughter. elizabeth hamilton is all that, and a revolutionary's wife, and then the wife of the secretary of the treasury, scorned.

she burns letters, and she commits his penmanship to memory. he only began to loop the H in his name after the end of the war. he used to write like a hurricane was at his heels, in his youth. every poem etched with a shard of his soul, bleeding light like cathedral glass.

she loves him, still. she doesn't think she could ever stop. but she lets him think she has, and eliza is many things, but now, above all else, she is a mother.

so she burns every letter he has written her-- burns months and years and decades-- and she rereads her life in reverse, in the light of her candle flame. she erases his past, every bit of it with love, for her children, for him.

years of her life crumble into ash beside his.

looking at the choir, ocean wishes she'd realized it sooner-- you were good enough, after all.

all of you were good enough.

rtc doodles... figuring out my jane doe design

really wanted to focus on the uncanniness of the doll head (especially because to me her arc is about acceptance-- being accepted by the choir externally and accepting her lack of identity as an identity internally) and emphasizing the inherent alienation of being unable to emote is something that i think is really fun to play with!

...and of course my yuri 🙏🏼 i'm obsessed with themmm

@fizzyxapple tysm for the kind words 🥺 i'd be honoured if you ate my art ahah (hopefully you like this electricity yuri as much as i do!!)

i uhhh. really really enjoy the lighting in rtc... can you tell?

colors my beloved <3333 anyway obviously my karnak and virgil are yuri.

i haven't actually looked up their designs in the production i was doodling but honestly noone can stop me from completely unabashedly making them hot and codependent. i will say i LOVE their dynamic... many many thoughts about them.

哇哈哈谁懂

jim says, like he's any better when anything happens to his xo and cmo...

listened to the rtc soundtrack for the first time and started doodling. it's growing on me i think...

niche yuri is my weakness sorry... especially period drama yuri. did i mention i'm writing fic for them (i'm beyond help 🙏🏼🫡) doesn't help that araleyn is catnip to me!

translation: although it seems so improbable, i think, i've fallen in love with you. i know that in this life, we were never destined for love-- but, regardless, i hope you can allow me to keep on loving you.

six the musical araleyn for a change! them sharing a dressing room is a fact that rotates in my brain permanently.

i have cried over the tudors an embarrassing amount of times (probably what got me attached ngl xDD) and ugh it's just so dear to me.

so i *did* end up starting that araleyn animatic after all xDD. non-six song six the musical animatic... possibly a world first?

it'll be so funny if i actually end up finishing this thing because it'll be the worst editing anyone has ever seen (<-- guy who is using flipaclip at 2 fps and manually adjusting the amount of frames of each drawing. 💀⚰️🌱🌈⁉️ the things i do for yuri... i'm committing to the horrible terrible no good inefficient chaos though rip i'm in too deep already! might as well!)

ugh the gay urge to do an animatic for the tudors. (yes the show!) and not even like to a song. it could honestly be a comic but i have no excuse!! i just have Emotions about some scenes. i mean nobody cares (that's okay, btw) and i should be doing more urgent things with my time (like seriously.)!!! but i can physically feel it taking root in my brain so i guess that means it'll get done one way or another 😬. but also can you believe i have found a muse in yet another show where i've become completely invested (in over my head!) in niche yuri and only passingly intentional themes of womanhood. this is how it feels to fandom at a higher plane of existence isn't it. i'm seeing shrimp colors... nobody out there to match my freak 😔what the fuuuuck

not to mention i've been sort of eyeing the possibility of making yet another animatic for six but like not to a six song LMAO. (...frawley's if i don't laugh, i'll cry) got araleyn on the fucking brain you guys seriously i'm going to explode. maybe my secret coping mechanism has been completely unironically exploring characterization nuances for arbitrary characters all along. (screaming into the void!) free therapy for me specifically i guess???

woof 👀

gonna be so real for a sec lads i think i totally could have done better with the colouring. like, i was so excited to go all out on the lighting? but if i layer on anything more in this file i am genuinely afraid my ipad will explode. maybe i'll rework it eventually? but really at this point i'm just sort of tired of looking at it loll

do you think the bridge crew did each other's makeup sometimes...

jim is 100% that girl who goes like, i can do your eyeliner but only if i do it like i'm doing *my* eyeliner because he relies on muscle memory (ends up pressed against spock's back doing his winged eyeliner for him lmaoo. not that spock's complaining. good for him! he gets to be felt up by his boyfriend while watching his other boyfriend being sunshiney with uhura)

off topic but i have such a soft spot for uhura/len tbh 🤭 i have this Vision ok maybe i'll talk abt it eventually

so i forgot about valentine's day buuut i have this homoerotically charged chanduke argument which is pretty much the same thing right?

💚💖 give it up for the beheaded cousins!

oh gosh, that's so sweet of you to say 🥺 side note, i love your url hehe (so much so that the mental image inspired a short silly comic! hope you enjoy <33)