Loop’s dialogue has so many facets and potential interpretations…when they are talking about or to Siffrin, exactly how much of it is a direct reflection of how they view themself, either now or in the past?
how much of it is it a deliberate projection—things they wish they had been kinder to themself about and make an effort to verbalize now that they have this external perspective, or things they still hate themself for and can’t help but deride when it’s thrown in their face by this copy—and how much is subconscious, an instinctual reaction to seeing their own traits in “another”?
and conversely, how much of what they say is an attempt to draw a hard line in the sand between them, this is you and this is me, the success story and the discarded failure? coming from the same origin point but diverging beyond reconciliation, the differences cementing their stations as the favored and the forgotten?
they were they same but they aren’t anymore but they are still but they’re different now but they are and aren’t and are and aren’t—
how often do they feel like they’re talking to a mirror, a glassy, empty reflection of their own flaws and mistakes, rather than a whole and complete person who shares their love and pain? how much does the line between those perceptions blur and shift from moment to moment, how much do they let themself be aware of it, how much do they agonize over it?
they’re just. such a mess of contradictions and complications. i need to lie down.