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hi im monty

psychonarc -> egopathic

white jew, any prns, adult (mid 20s)

this is mostly an anti troubled teen industry blog. i was held in a series of programs, from wilderness to long term psych wards to group homes. my advocacy centers children incarcerated in all kinds of institutionalized settings all over the world.

join the fight for a world where severely mentally ill and traumatized youth are treated with respect and dignity.

new to the troubled teen industry?⬇️

what is the troubled teen industry?

link to advocacy group breaking code silence

link to advocacy group unsilenced

for survivors of the tti ⬇️

find other survivors on the troubled teen subreddit

i talk openly about being diagnosed with ASPD, NPD and other stigmatized disorders that affect my daily life and are disabling. if you’re a narc abuse truther, this will not be an enjoyable space for you.

yes, i use DSM terms on here and i do go to therapy. and sorry, that doesn’t disqualify me from antipsych. mental illness and the psych system control my life, i can’t drive or work a normal job or buy a firearm or spend a whole year without being baker act’d lol. as someone at the mercy of the state because of my documented severe mental illnesses, i can’t just say ‘fuck it all’. i tried that and they locked me in the looney bin. i can hate the system that runs my life while still operating under it and acknowledging that my specific diagnoses are part of a collection of “bad people disorders” that beget specific kinds of experiences and institutional abuse.

main is mean/slavic (no slash, and be cool in front of the irls ok all they know is some silly stuff happened before they met me) and i put recipes on @montymakesthings

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a drawing of two stick figures, one is decapitating the other with a large sword, his head is flying off and there is blood flying from his neck
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5 years since my boyfriend committed suicide. reach out to someone you love and tell them you care about em.

if you don’t have someone to reach out to, then just know i love you. and someone (me, but also probably someone else too) would miss you terribly if you weren’t around.

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“oh no one would miss me”

do you not smile when one of your mutuals likes your post? would you not be confused, sad maybe, if they disappeared? you never notice the random people around your neighborhood? you wouldn’t bat an eye if the dude who walks past your window with a dog just stopped coming around? you don’t like seeing a familiar, kind barista, a nice person working the register at the grocery store or a delivery guy who always gets to you on time? you wouldn’t miss them??

there are a million people who have noticed you and smiled, online, in real life, through a car window or while they were working. and they would miss you. i promise.

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guys i love working at the sex store. i love sex stores. go to your local sex store. just say hey.

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my manager hit me with an electro stim flogger in front of a customer…🩷

#it’s literally a flogger that electrocutes you.#i squealed like a stuck pig bro that thing is like a regular electro stim (tattoo-ish sensation but electric) x1000#my fingers moved uncontrollably. if u are into electro floggers u are seriously stronger than any us marine. i salute you 07
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guys i love working at the sex store. i love sex stores. go to your local sex store. just say hey.

#already better than 90% of their jobs i’ve worked. and 100% better than specifically my other retail jobs.#i love it so much. a 70 year old man with a dildo and anal relaxer in his hands told me that i’m a very beautiful full blooded irish woman#reader please take note that i am not a full blooded irish woman. i am not any of those words at all.#but yeah i took the compliment and i’m pretty sure im irish by proxy now
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my family threw out my social security card and didn’t even take a picture of it. they also didn’t mention it until the day i needed it to start this job. what. the. fuck. i can’t start my job.

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jk i’m so smart i loopholed it. big overreactor over here.

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are you a survivor of the troubled teen industry?

do you live on the west coast?

do you seek connection with other survivors?

survivors unrestrained (a registered nonprofit ran by and for TTI survivors) is having their FIRST west coast meet up!!!

i’m not part of survivors unrestrained (maybe someday) but i will be at the portland meet up on april 28th!!

here’s the link to the reddit post with the dates and the information to contact survivors unrestrained

Reddit - The heart of the internet
Reddit - The heart of the internet
reddit.com

if you can’t join, you can donate to fund these meetups for other survivors here:

Survivors Unrestrained West Coast Meetup Road Trip
🚗💜 West Coast Survivor Meetup Road Trip Fundraiser 💜🚗April 25th – May 3rd, 2025Survivors Unrestrained is a 501(c)(3) nonprofit dedicated to
Zeffy
#antipsych#youth liberation#youth rights#survivor support#anti psychiatry#psych survivor#troubled teen industry#institutional abuse#ableism#tti
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Anonymous asked:

Re: exposure therapy, do you find that your linear memory of the events improved, or did it feel like they just came to you during the session?

For me, I don't really remember many of my traumatic memories in a linear fashion, just bits and pieces and often out of order. I've considered/my therapist has brought up the possibility of doing that kind of therapy, but I worry that it wouldn't be effective since my memories can be a jumbled mess.

great question. i’m choosing specific memories that i have at least a pretty organized “story”, like i can remember a few events in the order that they happened. my timeline isn’t perfect though.

for prolonged exposure, a lot of it is based on the details you remember, but if you want to try it, it’s definitely possible it could be beneficial. i definitely remembered more stuff as we went through each round of retelling, because the exposure is based on teaching yourself not to avoid the memories.

if it doesn’t appeal to you at all though, there’s other, similarly evidence therapies for ptsd that dont have the same limitations. has your therapist mentioned cognitive processing therapy? there’s also newer therapies that have fewer studies done about them, like brief eclectic psychotherapy, written exposure therapy or eye movement desensitization and reprocessing (EMDR)

if not, maybe look through these and do a little research. for me personally, i know what modalities of therapy haven’t worked for me in the past (CBT, regular DBT without RO) and i avoid them. if you have the experience to know what doesn’t work for you, do the same. if not, it can be helpful to research the data on outcomes of each and discuss w/ your therapist (if they’re a trusted one)

#questions and answers#btw the absolute STATE of ptsd research for anyone who’s not a veteran….bro
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prolonged exposure therapy for cPTSD patient experience report

(prolonged exposure is one of the most effective evidence based therapies for PTSD and cPTSD. the sessions look like repetitious recounting of particularly visual memories from trauma as though they were happening in the moment. i’m going to be doing this in combination with other types of therapy for my less “visually vivid” memories)

experience after 1st sesh:

ok so it’s hard. i was like 100% right back in the moment that i was working through. this first memory im tackling was really bad group “therapy” that was just conversion bullshit and culty mormon babble. during the second run-through i started twisting the ring that i wore every day at group home like i used to when i was stressed. but i wasn’t wearing the ring. it was wild to experience. i was shaking throughout the whole thing, definitely not for the faint of heart and i feel like dog shit now. hoping dearly that this will pay off lol.

current PCL-5 score: 71 (cPTSD has taken over my life. i can’t hold a full time job and i havent had a year without involuntary hospitalization since i was 14)

(i will update after a couple months of this therapy to see if i’m seeing symptom reduction.)

if anyone’s considering this kind of therapy, feel free to ask me about my experience/why i chose this modality

#ptsd#complex ptsd#actually traumatized
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interview at a sex shop tomorrow. mentally prepping myself so as to not come off with this vibe

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dude i fucking killed it. the woman interviewing me said i was sent from heaven to work there.

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it's important to talk about how pop psychology sucks ass. but that shouldn't distract you from also talking about how Serious, Official, Legitimate Psychology also sucks ass.

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major issues with psychology/psychiatry as it currently exists:

  • an insistence on viewing different mental types through the lens of "illnesses" that need to be "treated"- it's obvious that different people have minds that work in different ways, but instead of trying to understand the different advantages and disadvantages of different mental states, and trying to help each person reach their full potential with the mind they have, psychology/psychiatry imagines a hypothetical person who's way of thinking never hinders them in any way, and then treats everyone who doesn't fit this imagined model as Sick. because every single person will always have certain situations where their style of thinking hinders them, psychology increasingly pathologizes more and more mindsets and behaviors. in pop psychology this reaches the absurd endpoint of claiming "everyone is mentally ill to some degree", but ultimately this is just an overt stating of what's implied in Legitimate Psychology.

  • an over-focus on neurology which ignores obvious social/memetic factors. you'll see someone who falls into right-wing conspiracy theory hysteria, with the flat earth and the reptilians and so forth, get diagnosed as "schizophrenic", and there's an assumption that it's something innate to their neurology that led them to these beliefs, but like, if you look at the mechanisms of what's occurring when someone adopts these sort of beliefs, the primary thing that's happening is they're getting indoctrinated into an ideology by a group. maybe there are certain neurological factors which led them to be more vulnerable to that, but if you're trying to "treat" them by treating beliefs they were indoctrinated into by other people as though they sprung forth fully formed from their "schizophrenic neurology" then you're missing at least 80% of the picture.
#antipsych
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They’re scared because they know that the public is with Luigi.

They’re violating his rights because they need to maintain capitalism.

Keep talking about Luigi.

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Exclusive: Intelligence Dossier Compares Luigi Mangione to ‘Robin Hood’
The document from a state fusion center cites high health care costs as a key source of instability in the country.
The American Prospect

“The dossier adds that the public ‘may view the ensuing manhunt and subsequent arrest of Mangione as NYPD, and largely policing as a whole, as a tool that is willing to expend massive resources to protect the wealthy, while the average citizen is left to their own means for personal security.’”

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