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From Bucharest

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After the events of Captain America: Winter Soldier and Age of Ultron, Bec Fegan, a professor of political science with a special interest in the Sokovia Accords, takes a job at the University of Bucharest. Excited with the prospect of challenging current Romanian politics, she's set on making a name for herself in a new country with new colleagues. However, her ambitions are short lived when she comes across a mysterious stranger with a haunted past who saves her life, unknowingly triggering a series of events that would bring them both closer to having to choose between their missions and their hearts.

Trigger Warning - 18+ for Violence, Sexual Themes, Trauma, Torture, Drugs, Death, Language.

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  • Last Updated: April 5, 2025
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From Bucharest

Chapter 20 - Baron

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Summary: Another unexpected wrench is thrown into the mix as Bec and Bucky try to grapple with what to do next.

Trigger Warning: 18+ for Violence, Sexual Themes, Trauma, Torture, Drugs, Death, Language.

Bec considered leaving the apartment without Bucky, but she didn't know what that would do to his already fragile mind. Coming back to an empty apartment might actually break him, so she waited, pacing the living room and occasionally checking the time. 

She had no idea who might have texted her. The details of her mission had been kept on the low down, only Fury and Agent Hill had known everything about her assignment. And while HYDRA was intensely secretive and The Winter Soldier's missions were certainly kept confidential, it was entirely possible that any one of his enemies could've sent the text, Alexei included. 

Bec knew enough about super serum that she hadn't felt too guilty about shooting The Red Guardian in the back, even if he had gotten the upper hand on her. 

The meeting location wasn't too far from the apartment, but they needed to prepare, to decide on a tactic regardless of who had sent the text. She briefly contemplated asking Bucky to stay behind, but she decided against it, knowing that The Winter Soldier wouldn't let her out of his sight, and keeping their appearance was just as important now as finishing their respective missions. 

Several more minutes passed, and Bec contemplated going out to look for him, but a frazzled Bucky finally came through the door, nearly tripping as he shut it quickly behind him. He looked almost out of breath and slightly afraid. 

"What happened? Are you ok?" she asked, stopping to watch him from behind the couch. He had his back to the door, and she let herself finally breath when she realized he was laughing. 

He looked up, surprise etched across his face, as if he had forgotten she was there. He cleared his throat, the laugh lines near his eyes disappearing. "Um, your neighbor didn't take too kindly to me trying to help her with her groceries." 

"Oh," Bec replied, not expecting that to be his response. 

"She beat me with her purse all the way back outside. I barely made it back in and up the stairs." 

Bec giggled, imagining how the event had played out, a tiny, frail, old woman hitting a trained assassin with her handbag. 

Bucky finally smiled again. The Winter Soldier had attempted to smile once or twice, but this smile was different; genuine, real. 

"Well, it isn't the 1940s anymore. People aren't as accepting of other people's help now a days unfortunately." 

Bucky nodded, sweeping his long hair from his eyes. "What is it?" he asked, noticing that Bec hadn't moved and most likely sensing the anxiety that was ebbing off of her. 

She didn't think she was that easy to read, but she sighed heavily and laid out the situation, explaining Emil's involvement in the address to Parliament. She listed the possible scenarios; Alexei, perhaps someone from HYDRA, or a person who may have beef with Fury. Bucky listened carefully, but Bec could see his apprehension and discomfort. 

"I think it's best if we go together. Whoever it is, we have to maintain our covers; both of them," she finished. She could see him finally understanding their situation as he sagged under the pressure and impending realization that he would need to be The Winter Soldier again.  

"Can you do this?" she asked, hoping to see something that would indicate he was capable of this ask, but he was unreadable and still. "Bucky?" 

He nodded once and disappeared into the bedroom. She followed him to find him standing in front of the dresser where she had laid out his tactical gear to dry. He took in one short breath before beginning to put on The Winter Soldier's uniform. 

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Bucky had a horrible feeling that they were about to walk into a trap, but Bec sauntered beside him looking as though she didn't have a care in the world. He skimmed her fit body, the tight black leggings and maroon mid drift top making her look more like a HYDRA asset than he did. 

The only things missing were any weapons; the electricity running through her veins more than enough to defend herself. 

She had explained that what had happened with The Red Guardian was a slip up, that not having used her abilities in a while had sent them into an almost dormant state, but while Bucky had been getting some air, she had essentially recharged her battery. 

He enjoyed watching her speak. She always seemed happy even when the topic wasn't. She chattered on beside him about wishing they were back at her original apartment in Bucharest, that the landlady made the best Mititei. He couldn't help but smile down at her. She glanced up, stopping mid sentence to smile back at him. 

"You would love them. They're a whole new flavor profile," she continued before checking her phone again to note both the time and their location. "Should be just up there, and we're five minutes early."  

Bucky gripped his knife still sheathed at his hip. It felt good to hold onto something, even if he didn't intend on using it unless he had to. He sensed Bec's current of electricity even though he didn't see it. She was also most likely preparing for the worst. 

They heard him before they saw him as he rounded the corner, and he spoke in a thick accent Bucky couldn't quite place. "Winter Soldier, so good to see you. I was pleased to hear that HYDRA had plucked you back up after D.C. That would've been such a waste." 

The man wore a purple mask, shrouding his entire head, and his clothing looked indulgent, a long wool overcoat with a fur neckline and the shiniest shoes without a mark on them. Bucky didn't recognize him, and the way Bec also stared daggers at the man had him guessing she didn't either. 

"Rebecca Fegan. I read your book. While I found several of your claims to be faulty in logic, it was a very interesting read. I can see why HYDRA wanted to use you. I imagine you will be very persuasive during your address to Parliament." 

"And you are?" Bec asked. 

"You can call me Baron." 

"Emil. Did you kill him?" There was a hint of emotion edging her words, but she remained tall, confidence exuding off of her. 

"I hadn't intended to, but he unfortunately did not react well when I took him and his daughter." He tossed a small polaroid to the ground in front of them. Bucky could make out a scared young girl only around twelve or thirteen years old. Her mouth was taped shut, but he saw recognition on Bec's face. "And I can assure you she will face the same fate unless you do what I ask?" 

Out of the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of Bec's current, the blue light just a flash across the back of her hand. "And what's that?" she said, her voice flat. 

"I need absolute assurance that you will make sure the Accords happen. While I know HYDRA wants the same thing, I don't trust their...somewhat sloppy approach. This is just a little extra, shall we say, insurance." 

Bucky considered throwing the knife still clenched under his fist, but before he could make a decision, he felt a small shift at his side. It was so slight he almost didn't catch it. Bec had sent a small shock between them, the spark just touching the tip of this finger. It was almost like she was reassuring him. 

"I'll present in favor of the Accords, but only if we have your word that Emil's daughter will be released as soon as Parliament has made a decision." 

"Agreed." 

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Baron exchanged a few more unnecessary words with them before disappearing around the corner and looking very pleased with himself. 

Bec turned back in the direction of the apartment and pulled out her phone, smiling down at the screen as she watched the small dot move across the map. 

"Smart," Bucky said, nodding as he too looked down at the slowly moving dot. 

"He made it easy with all that talking. Took me a minute to even think of it, but I just linked our phones. A simple change in the radio frequencies. It was lucky he had his bluetooth on. An idiot and he doesn't even know it." 

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From Bucharest

Chapter 19 - Accords

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Summary: Bucky must face coming back to himself after his memory is triggered and Bec realizes her own mission may be a little more difficult than she had anticipated.

Trigger Warning: 18+ for Violence, Sexual Themes, Trauma, Torture, Drugs, Death, Language.

Bucky sensed her before he heard her. Even despite her abilities, there was something that he could only describe as electric between them. He had felt it the moment he had laid eyes on her. And even despite the chaos roaring inside his head, her being there seemed to calm him, help him recenter. 

"You ok?" she asked, coming to stand behind him. He nodded, scooting over in invitation. She sat next to him on the ledge, squinting into the darkness. 

"You?" he asked, attempting to break up the awkward silence. 

"Oh, I'm fine." She absentmindedly placed her hand next to his as she leaned forward to make out a few pedestrians on the street below, most likely making their way home from an evening out to dinner or drinks. 

He wanted to reach out and touch her hand, but he forced himself to remain still. He let the sensation of her presence wash over him though, the buzzing that seemed to quiet the noises inside. 

"I'm sorry," he said again, the guilt of what had happened nearly crushing him. He jolted when he felt her hand touch his, bridging the distance he had wanted to cross. She squeezed his hand, and he was grateful she had sat to his right so he could really feel her touch against his skin. 

"I was sent here to help you, Bucky, not condemn you. I know what it's like to not have any control of what happens to you. I get it, I really do." She faced him, swinging her left leg over to straddle the ledge. "I don't blame you for what happened. I don't think anyone would." 

He nodded, but inside he knew his acceptance of her words wasn't entirely true. He could've fought harder, he could've done more. 

"You know, Rebecca was my sister's name." 

"Was it?" she said, picking at a speck of dirt on the ledge between them. "I was named after Daphne du Maurier's Rebecca--."

"If only there could be an invention that bottled up a memory, like scent. And it never faded, and it never got stale. And then, when one wanted it, the bottle could be uncorked, and it would be like living the moment all over again," Bucky recited allowed. Bec looked up, surprised and she nodded, smiling as he spoke. "I read the book in Austria when I was stationed there with the 107th. A nurse must've left it behind. I found it in one of the towns we moved through." 

He recalled the moment he had discovered the small book covered in soot and rubble under a half crumbled church that had once been a makeshift hospital. Its residents had long since moved on as the fighting spread, and he remembered wondering who had owned the book, who's hands had flipped through the pages. 

"I suppose I would like to haunt someone one day," Bec said, laughing as she looked back out over the city. 

They both tensed at the sound of laughter below; a couple walked by the entrance to the building looking slightly tipsy. Bucky glanced over at Bec and caught her smiling, a wide smile that had him wishing it was for him. He looked back at the couple who had stopped briefly to exchange a quick kiss before disappearing around the corner. 

"What was your sister like?" Bec asked, pulling his attention back to her. She still sat straddling the ledge, and he wished the moon was just a bit brighter so he could make out more of her features. 

"Quiet and a bit shy, but very loyal. She and Steve made a fearsome duo." 

"He misses you, you know," Bec said, her eyes fierce as she watched him. He didn't react, just continued to stare at the place where the couple had stopped to kiss. 

"He doesn't want to see me." 

"You're wrong." 

Bucky turned away from her, and stood from the ledge. He didn't know how to tell her that it didn't matter what Steve thought or didn't think. He wasn't worthy of Steve's friendship. He wasn't worthy of people caring for him. He was a killer, an assassin trained for only one thing, good for only one thing. 

"Are you going to be ok if I go for a walk?" he asked, glancing over his shoulder. Bec hadn't stood, but was staring up at the sky, the moon half hidden behind a layer of pink and red clouds. 

"Promise you'll come back?" she asked, not bothering to face him. 

He nodded, knowing she couldn't see it, and left. 

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Bec returned to the apartment, casting her current through the stove to turn on one of the burners. She grabbed the tea kettle, filled it with water, and placed it over the hot ring. 

She was on radio silence with Fury, so her cover was entirely up to her, but she knew Bucky would need to check in with HYDRA at some point and she wondered if he would be able to convince them he was still The Winter Soldier. 

She shrugged off the thought as it was something they could deal with later. In that moment, her concern was whether Bucky was going to be ok or not. The last time he had come back to himself, he had disappeared off the face of the earth. No one knew what he had done or been through as he struggled to regain himself, but she imagined it hadn't been a picnic. She worried she wasn't quite prepared to deal with the trauma and how he might react to it. 

Bec pulled out her cellphone and scrolled through it. There were a few more emails from students, but she noticed a text from an unknown number. She had already used her abilities to clear out any HYDRA tracking, but it had been a dummy phone they had given The Winter Soldier, and she was skeptical that anyone was truly who they said they were in the contacts stored on the device. She opened the text and read through it several times. 

Emil is dead. 

The kettle screamed from the stove, causing Bec to jump and nearly drop the phone. She pulled the kettle from the hot burner and moved to sit behind the island where she typed another number into a new message. Thankfully, she had memorized several important numbers before HYDRA had taken her, Emil's being one of them. 

Emil, are you ok?  

The message remained green and then flashed a failed to deliver message. 

"Damnit." She knew Emil had likely been in danger with his strong stance against the Accords, but she had never imagined that HYDRA would move this quickly when she was still a delicate asset. His disappearance might've triggered something in her, the person HYDRA thought she was, but for a second, Bec wondered if this may not be HYDRA at all. Were there other organizations involved now? 

She opened the text from the unknown number and typed back. 

Who is this? What do you mean Emil is dead?"

The text went through, and she watched as a bubble appeared, indicating the person on the other end was typing. It disappeared and reappeared several times before a final text came through. 

Meet me at the corner of Franklin and Golescu N. in 1 hour. Alone. 

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From Bucharest

Chapter 18 - Bec

Summary: Bec and Bucky must deal with their true identities and decide how they will move forward to accomplish both of their missions.

Trigger Warning: 18+ for Violence, Sexual Themes, Trauma, Torture, Drugs, Death, Language.

If you’re new to this story, start at the beginning: Masterlist From Bucharest

"How long has it been?" Bucky asked, pulling on a red t-shirt he found in a backpack near the closet door. 

Bec moved to the living room, sensing Bucky following behind her. "Since Washington, D.C., so a year give or take." 

"Fuck." 

"You went completely quiet until about a month ago. We started hearing chatter from some HYDRA moles that the Winter Soldier was back. We'd been trying to track you ever since you went down with the Helicarrier." 

Bec poured herself a glass of water from the kitchen sink before returning to the living room to sit on the couch. She watched patiently as Bucky paced back and forth, the memories certainly flooding back in painful waves. Whatever he had done to fix his arm had triggered something in his brain, bringing him back to his true self. 

"HYDRA found me not long after I pulled Steve from the water, when I came here, to Bucharest." He stopped, a look of fear and pain spreading across his face. "What did I do?" 

Bec gestured for him to sit on the loveseat next to her, but he shook his head, continuing to pace. 

"The Winter Soldier was rather quiet from what we could tell. There were two suspected hits, but you...he...seemed to be waiting for something. Turned out he was waiting for me" 

"You?" 

"I guess I'm rather popular at the moment." 

Bucky stopped pacing and slumped heavily into the loveseat. His expressions seemed slightly softer than she had seen on The Winter Soldier, but that pull toward him was still there. While Bec had had to pretend around him, she quickly realized that that feeling had been true. She had known she wasn't interacting with the true Bucky, but The Winter Soldier had put on a very good act, so much so that she almost forgot at times that the Winter Soldier was a completely different person than the Bucky who sat before her. 

 "You were my...his mission?" he asked. 

Bec nodded. 

"Do you know why?" He shifted uncomfortably in the loveseat as if he knew he should put more distance between the two of them, his instinct to protect others from that side of him. 

"I was recruited not long ago by Nick Fury when talks of the Sokovia Accords were circulating. This was very early on in the creation of the accords. I was a highly accredited Poli Sci professor, my area of expertise being in international law. I was already doing research on the Accords when Fury approached me. And I added some additional value to him as well." Bec opened her hand, finally letting the electric current move across her fingertips, blue sparks lighting up the darkening room. 

Bucky remained still, but his body tensed and she eyed his metal hand grip into a fist. 

"Mutant abilities," she said simply, closing her hand to cut off the current. "Unlike you, I was born this way." 

"And HYDRA? Why were you the target?" he asked, rubbing at his shoulder. A habit both Bucky and the Winter Soldier seemed to share. 

"The Winter Soldier's mission was to find me and turn me over to HYDRA. I believe we came across some Russian assets that put a small hitch in The Winter Soldier's plan initially, but he eventually brought me to HYDRA where they attempted to brainwash me. Their plan was to use The Winter Soldier to turn me into a HYDRA asset, but with my nifty little gift," she snapped her fingers, sending a small blue shock up into the air. "I could shift the electric current they pumped into my brain, so that when they tasked The Winter Soldier with turning me, I just had to play along while also figuring out how to get you back."  

"How did you do it?" 

"I didn't. You did. Someone The Winter Soldier knew, The Red Guardian, intercepted us. He broke that arm. Whatever The Winter Soldier did to fix it jolted something in your brain. It knocked him out, but when you came to, well, you were you."  

"I...." He stood and moved toward the window behind the couch, rubbing his metal hand through his hair. He looked down at the hand; his response to the limb was one of hatred, while The Winter Soldier had been nearly indifferent to it. "I didn't hurt, did I?" 

Bec stood and moved near him, but stopped short when she noticed him tense again. He was afraid of himself, afraid of what he had done and couldn't remember, afraid of what he was capable of. "I'm ok, Bucky. I can take care of myself. The Red Guardian on the other hand was a bit of a challenge. The old bastard was stronger than I anticipated, but I was still ok." He nodded slowly as if reassuring himself that Bec was indeed ok, that he hadn't hurt her. 

"What now?" he asked finally, watching the sun set past the horizon. The sky shown in an interesting shade of red that reflected across his metal arm, casting a dull glow across his face. 

"We are going to need to stay as we are." 

Bucky's eyebrow rose, shooting me a quizzical look. 

"My focus on the Sokovia Accords is important to both Fury and HYDRA. I will most likely have some sway as to whether or not Romania joins the accords. HYDRA wants them to join, while Fury is skeptical of what will happen if Romania decides to. We need to bide our time until my address with them. It's less than a week away, but HYDRA can't know that you're you. I don't think Fury should know either. So, we move forward with our respective missions." 

"And then?" 

"I'll get you home." 

Bucky stared out the window again, hard, as if looking for something. 

"Home?" 

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Memories were trickling back in. First it had been a flood of them, now it was just a trickle of fragmented images. Everything was disjointed and it was sometimes nearly impossible to track what had come before and what had come after. 

He remembered Steve, he remembered his mother and his sister, he remembered his childhood and the war, but things after the train were in pieces. Trying to place them in any logical order was like piecing together a stained glass window. 

He had found a way to the roof of the building after having felt claustrophobic in Bec's apartment, or HYDRAs apartment was what she had told him. She had mentioned that she had searched the space for any surveillance devices, using her abilities to change the radio frequencies so they only picked up what she wanted them to. But he still felt small, trapped, taking to the roof to try to make sense of everything. 

Bucky didn't really have a choice but to follow Bec. He owed her that at least, but entering into another fight, another battle was what he had been trying to avoid when he came to Bucharest. HYDRA had found him easily only a few short weeks after he arrived. The memory still incomplete in his fractured brain, but he recalled the pain, and not just the physical kind, but the pain of realizing he was once again going to be their puppet. 

He felt himself on the verge of tears and screamed into the void. He didn't care if anyone heard him. He hoped someone did, at least that would mean it was real, that he was real. 

Bucky sat on the edge of the roof, his feet dangling over the edge until most of the street lamps went out and the darkness swallowed him. 

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From Bucharest

Chapter 17 - Bucky

Summary: Many secrets are revealed as Bec and James must face who they are and why they have found each other.

Trigger Warning: 18+ for Violence, Sexual Themes, Trauma, Torture, Drugs, Death, Language.

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She had left James in the bathroom, returning to the bedroom where she changed into another pair of pajamas. James had appeared in the doorway minutes later, leaning against the doorframe, his arm clasped tight across his chest and gripping the metal bicep. 

"I need the whole truth, James. No more dancing around it. I'm almost certain we aren't friends; never have been. For all I know you could be a complete stranger taking advantage of my concussed brain." Bec let the words tumble out, the thoughts bouncing around in her head, each point falling out like a ball tumbling from a bingo cage. 

Bec tossed a pair of sweatpants for him to change into, his leather ones dripping water around his bare feet. She sat down on the other side of the bed, her back to him as she spoke. 

"I was probably an easy target, someone you could take advantage of. But I don't want to believe that. I've been trying to convince myself that you're the good guy, making excuses for everything that's happened, probably because I felt something, something between us, but James." She angled toward him. He still stood in the doorframe, the pair of sweatpants hanging low on his hips. "I could've died. I fucking draw the line there. So either you tell me the truth, and for heaven's sake, it better be good, or I'm walking right out that door." 

James approached the bed, sitting on the end of it. "You're right. We aren't friends. We don't really know each other, or, well, we didn't before I found you." 

"Found me?" 

James nodded, rubbing his hand through his damp hair. "You were in the wrong place at the wrong time, and I guess I was in the right place at the right time."  

"So I did hit my head?" 

"I can't be certain. But," He paused as if weighing his next words. Bec stood, moving to sit next to him, their shoulders brushing briefly. 

"Why did you lie?" 

James sighed heavily, rubbing his palm against the front of his pants. He toyed briefly with the drawstring on his sweatpants and then turned to face Bec fully. 

"What happened to you was because of me. I didn't know how to keep you safe without lying. Would you have taken well to me telling you the truth, that I just found you unconscious? I thought it would be easier if you thought we knew each other."  

"Well, that's kind of fucked up, James, but what does finding me have anything to do with you?" 

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James had stood in front of the mirror in the bathroom for several minutes before following Bec to the bedroom. He knew he would have to tell her something, and most likely she wouldn't accept or even believe anything but the truth. He clenched his fingers over the edge of the sink, wondering how things had gone so poorly, so quickly. HYDRA had prepared him, but he had let his fucking feelings get in the way. He had been careless. 

He knew he would need to tell her parts of the truth, revealing things that might suffice her. He had lied on certainly more than one occasion before this. Whatever it took to complete his mission. But he found himself desperately wanting to tell her the truth, all of it. Who he was, who HYDRA was, who Alexei was, and most of all, why she was so important. To both HYDRA and to him. 

Now sitting so close to her on the bed, having tried his best to tell her what he could without risking his mission, he wanted to face her fully and share everything. 

"You know the man who kidnapped you?" She nodded, scratching at her neck where the bruise was continuing to blossom. He could see the outline of Alexei's fingers, and it made him sick. "His name is Alexei Shostakov. In Russia they call him the Red Guardian." 

"The Red Guardian?" There was a tone of amusement in Bec's question, but her features were serious as she waited for James to continue. 

"I've known him for...a very long time. You could say we both dabble in the same field and we're...competitors. I was his target, and like I said, you were simply in the wrong place at the wrong time." He paused, gauging her expressions, her body language to see if he would need to continue spinning more webs of half truths. 

She nodded slowly, leaning forward, her hands gripping the edge of the bed. "And why did he call you that? Bucky?" 

"I don't know." This time the truth was easy. In all honesty, he didn't know. The name sounded familiar, almost comfortable, especially when she said it, but it wasn't something he recognized, not in a way that was clear. 

"That all makes sense, but what I don't understand is if we didn't know each other...before all of this, how did you know where I lived? And how did you know about my address to parliament, about the Sokovia Accords?" 

James stood, wishing his arm was fully functional. Another problem, he wasn't sure he was ready to face. Anger was boiling inside of him, a deep festering frustration that had him grinding his teeth. He paced several times in front of Bec before stopping and leaning against the adjacent wall. 

He gritted his teeth, knowing that what he was about to do was going to hurt like hell. He had been postponing it, the repair of his arm. It was a matter of readjusting the connection. It often shifted out of place, but this was different, deeper. A connection more internal that when repaired would shoot pain down his entire body, and up into his brain. 

"James?" 

He raised his hand to stop her. "Just...give me a second." 

"What are you doing?" she asked, following his hand as it gripped around his forearm. He took in two short breaths, before pushing up and around while simultaneously jamming his shoulder into the wall. 

The pain was horrendous and the last thing he remembered was a jolt to the brain that he only could think was like getting struck by lightening and then seeing Bec rushing toward him. 

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"Open your eyes, James! Fucking open your eyes." Bec shook James' shoulders. His body was sprawled out on the floor; whatever he had done to his shoulder had had him screaming in pain, louder and more desperate than even when Alexei had been beating the shit out of him. 

She tried slapping him across the face to get him to wake up, but his head only rolled to one side, no recognition at all. 

"Shit, James. What the hell did you do?" Bec checked his breathing and put her hand over his heart, both were strong and steady. She shook his shoulders again. "Please wake up." 

James stirred, groaning and rolling onto his side. 

"Dear Lord, James. Did you really have to do that now?" She could see that his metal arm was functioning again. His fingers flexed as the rest of it shifted into place allowing him to push himself up. 

He sat up fully, rubbing has hands across his face and pushing his fingers into his forehead. 

"Are you ok?" 

He stopped and dropped his hands to look at her. 

"Who are you?" he asked, confusion etched across his face. 

"Very funny, James," Bec said, rolling back onto her butt and crossing her legs. She was still breathing heavily, the shock of his falling body sending her again into overdrive. 

He stood up quickly, backing away from her. "Who are you, and where the hell am I?"  

Bec stood with him and watched as he scanned the room before looking down at his metal arm. His eyes shot open and he examined the limb, shock and something close to awe on his face. His expression softened as if he finally recognized the prosthetic. 

"Fuck," he whispered, his eyes now darting around the room looking for what Bec knew was an easy exit. 

She put her hands up, a sense of great relief flooding through her. Finally.  

"Bucky?" she asked. His eyes shot up, meeting hers, and he nodded slowly. 

"How long has it been?" he asked quietly. 

"You don't know me?" she asked, and he shook his head. 

"I thought maybe that was the case. I wasn't certain back at the fruit stand if it was you or if HYDRA still had you. But it appears they did." 

"I knew this would happen," He groaned, rubbing his hands down his face again. 

"Bucky, my name is Rebecca." 

He nodded tracking her words. He glanced down at his hands as if trying to see if he could make out the blood that had surely been on them.   

"Who sent you?" he asked, still staring down at his palms. 

"Nick Fury sent me." 

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From Bucharest

Chapter 16 - 107th

Summary: Bec and James share another sexually charged moment as they both grapple with the events of the last day. James is conflicted about his feelings toward Bec, but Bec wants answers and she won't let avoidance or excuses fly any longer.

Trigger Warning: 18+ for Violence, Sexual Themes, Trauma, Torture, Drugs, Death, Language.

If you’re new to this story, start at the beginning: Masterlist From Bucharest

It was decided that they would hold off on trying to fix James' arm until after they both got some rest, so they tucked his metal arm against his chest with another band of gauze. He was looking remarkably better, and his wounds were healing at an unfathomably fast rate, but Bec could still see the pain etched across his face anytime he moved too much. 

Bec was still damp from the rainstorm, and mud had started to dry across the front of her pants and under her fingernails. She definitely needed a shower. 

"Anything I can get you?" she asked, scratching at her throat where the Russian had choked her. It didn't really hurt that much, but the bruise was still noticeable, a dull ache, that brought back a flood of memories and fear.

He shook his head, rubbing again at his shoulder. It must've irritated him, not having the use of his arm, and it made her wonder again what had actually happened to him. 

"Ok, well I might go take a quick shower, if you're sure you're ok." 

He nodded, his gaze trailing to where she was already fumbling with the hem of her shirt. She was desperate to remove the sticky clothing, but stopped when she noticed him eyeing her. 

"Just holler if you need me." And she left the bedroom, a catch in her chest as she replayed the way his eyelids had grown heavy. She was certainly becoming increasingly suspicious that James was in fact not an old friend or even a new friend, but the events of the day were enough to have her avoiding really any of the strange things that had happened recently due to pure exhaustion. 

In the bathroom, she turned on the water, keeping her hands under the flow until she was sure it was hot enough. She stripped off her clothing wondering if she was going to have to pitch the outfit rather than even attempt to launder it, and she stepped into the shower letting out an audible sigh as the stream ran across her face and down her shoulders. 

When she got a good look at herself, she found splatters of blood across her forearms and down her ankles. It ran along her skin like a river and then flowed down the drain. She scrubbed her skin hard, trying to erase the memory of the sound of the gun going off and the way the Russian had crumpled to the ground. 

She squeezed her eyes shut, trying to erase the memory as she scrubbed even harder until her skin felt raw under the heat of the water. 

The sound of the bathroom door creaking open had her pausing. She glanced around the shower, looking for something heavy, as she couldn't even consider the possibility that it was James. For one he had made himself very clear, several times, that they were just friends and that there was nothing between them, and two, he was still in bed, most likely unable to stand. 

She gripped the bar of soap and slowly peered around the shower curtain. She dropped the bar, letting it tumble toward the drain without making an attempt to recover it. 

James stood in the bathroom, the steam rising around him, making him look more like a ghost than a living, breathing human. His chest was still bare save the band of gauze holding up his arm and the strip covering his stomach. 

He was breathing deeply, his eyes heavy with indecency. James' pupils were blown wide and he looked almost crazed. 

"What are you doing in he-." 

His mouth cut her off, having moved so quickly, the space between them was gone and his lips were over hers. Using his functioning hand, he wrapped his large fingers around the back of her neck. He was taller than her and needed to lean over, bending her neck back in the process. 

It was a heavy, almost frantic kiss, laden with relief and surrender. He deepened it, moving his hand down along the side of Bec's throat and gripping her shoulder as if to restrain himself from doing anything more. 

She kissed him back, letting her own hands slide around his hips and up his back until they were almost flush against one another. She tried her best to avoid his wounds, but he flinched sightly when she dug in her fingertips up near his shoulders. 

"Sorry," she whispered, shuddering at the distance she had created between them when she had let go of him. 

He increased the distance between them, running his hand through his hair. His features were hidden in the shadows, but she could feel his regret and his internal struggle to stay or to leave. 

He turned to leave. 

"Don't go." Bec surprised herself with the words, and she quickly reached around to grab the towel hanging nearby, having forgotten her nakedness. She wrapped herself in it, tucking it in around her chest. 

He had paused, half turned toward the door. She slowly approached him. "Come here," she said, putting a hand on his back and guiding him toward the shower. "Um, can that get wet?" She gestured at his arm. A small pull at his lips let her know he found this question amusing. She nodded, pulling back the shower curtain. She looked down briefly at his pants. "You can take them off if you want. I won't mind. But I really do think you should shower. I'll help you." She nodded again towards his arm, as she slowly unwrapped the gauze holding it to his side. She set it aside and peeled back the patch over the wound. 

She tried to hide her surprise, but a small gasp escaped when she found the wound was now just a surface level cut. She padded softly at it, and James grabbed her hand. 

"That tickles," he said, watching her carefully. She glanced over at their intertwined hands and gripped tighter as she guided him into the shower. 

The water was still running, but she switched the shower head off, letting the faucet run instead to fill the tub. Bec gently pushed against his good shoulder, helping him down until he was sitting in the tub.  

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James felt safe with Bec, but at the same time this sort of vulnerability was new, uncomfortable, and in total contradiction to who he was as The Winter Soldier.  

He had been programmed not to care about anyone or anything...other than the mission. He knew his mission better than he knew himself, but there was something about Bec that had his brain malfunctioning into a chaotic mix of emotions he hadn't felt in a very long time, if ever. 

The water was already turning a muddy brown from his thick leather pants, and Bec had grabbed a bar of soap, rubbing it into a small washcloth. She started at the back of his head, ringing the washcloth out, so the water dripped down through his hair. 

She trailed the cloth down along the back of his neck, scrubbing a little harder over his good shoulder. He shuddered under her touch as she trailed down his arm. 

"Is it cold?" she muttered, taking his hand to wash over his palm and around his fingers, the skin there caked with blood. He shook his head, watching as she moved his palm over hers, squeezing before starting around the other shoulder, careful to avoid where this metal arm joined with the rest of him. 

Her hair tickled his chest as she leaned over him, moving the washcloth down over his chest. "Can I?" He followed her gaze to his metal arm, useless across his lap. He nodded. 

She picked up the hand, carefully washing each digit and around each joint. The metal throughout the limb met like small discs, shifting and moving like his own internal muscles might, but he couldn't feel anything. The arm moved and operated like his normal one, and his brain recognized when he grabbed an item or pulled a trigger, but he felt no real sensation there. 

She followed up the arm, getting all the caked mud scrubbed away. "Did it hurt?" she asked, stopping at the large jagged scar that encircled his entire shoulder. James froze, unsure how or if he could answer her question. It had hurt more than he thought humanly possible, but that time was separated from him. That person HYDRA had transformed into the Winter Soldier no longer existed and with it, that pain was also a separate entity. 

"I...I'm not sure I can put it into words...," he said simply. She nodded, ringing out the washcloth before draping it over the side of the tub. She leaned back on her heels, the towel tightening around her chest. He looked back up at her face, stopping on her lips. They were still slightly swollen, and all he could think about was how they had felt against his. But the moment and those feelings, so strong, were cut short with her next question. 

"James, we need to talk about what happened, about what's been happening. I'm trying my best to be patient, but I need an explanation...now." 

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From Bucharest

Chapter 15 - Nothing to Prove

Summary: After saving The Winter Soldier from The Red Guardian, Bec must figure out how to get him to safety and treat his wounds.

Trigger Warning: Language and Strong Depictions of Injuries.

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Bec quickly assessed James' wounds, a deep gash across his stomach, a broken knee cap, and what she could only gather was a dislocated shoulder where his metal arm attached. 

His breathing was ragged, and she wasn't even sure how he was even still alive. On top of that, the skies had opened up, releasing a rain storm that made it difficult for her to see several feet in front of her. 

"I need to get you to a hospital," she said, wiping his wet hair away from his face. 

He shook his head, groaning from the movement. "No hospitals." 

"What do you mean, no hospitals? James, I'm not even sure how you're still alive. This wound is deep. I mean really deep." 

"Just get me back to your apartment." 

"Where's your phone? I'm going to call an ambulance," she said, beginning to search through his pockets. James grabbed her wrist, raising it away from his pants. She stared down at his hand in shock, the rain clouding her vision. 

"No hospitals," he said again. She sighed, leaning back, and he let go of her. 

"Then what do you propose I do? Obviously, you're too heavy for me to carry home." 

"Just help me get to my feet. Your apartment isn't that far." 

Bec made to argue, but the set look on James' face told her he wasn't going to take no for an answer. She sighed, kneeling next to his normal shoulder. She pushed her arm under him, helping him into a seated position. He groaned, choking up a mouthful of blood. 

"James, please." 

He shook his head. They both rolled onto their knees, and Bec used all of her strength to bolster them both to their feet. James swayed, his eyes rolling back, but he closed them and took in a deep breath, steadying himself. 

She took one slow step, leading him forward, but the simple movement of bending his knee had him screaming out in pain. 

"Fuck!" he yelled, gripping her shoulder with his good hand. It hurt, but she let him do it, know he was in way more pain. 

"Are you sure-," 

"No hospitals." 

It took twice as long to get to the lobby of the apartment building than it normally would have, and by the time they stood in front of the stairs, Bec was certain James was on the verge of passing out. It took even longer to get him up the stairs, and she breathed a sigh of relief when she was able to lower him onto her bed. 

"Who was that?" she asked, quickly unclipping his holster and unbuckling his tactical vest. She carefully pulled away the leather, revealing the deepest gash she had ever seen. She had to swallow down the bile that had collected in the back of her throat. "Fuck, James. This is bad, really bad." 

He glanced down at the wound and quickly grabbed her hand, pressing it tightly over the gash. 

"Keep pressure on it," he grunted, reaching over to the nightstand and pulling out a small first-aid kit. She thought it odd she would've put one there, as she historically often resorted to paper towels to stem the bleeding from a cut. "Here, use this." He handed Bec a large square of gauze. 

Blood was still pooling under her hand, but the amount had slowed somewhat. "I don't think this is going to work, James. You really need stitches or even probably surgery." 

"I'll sew it up once the bleeding has stopped." 

"You'll sew it...James, what the fuck is going on? Who was that? He fucking kidnapped me and then beat the shit out of you." James groaned again, and Bec realized she was pushing a little too hard on the wound. "Sorry." She released the pressure, checking under the gauze. The blood was clotting, surprisingly. Bec didn't know much about medical care, but she could tell this sort of clotting wasn't normal compared to the severity of the injury.  

James' eyes held steady on Bec's hands as she replaced the gauze with a new piece. She noticed that his breathing had steadied and while he still appeared to be in a lot of pain, he no longer looked like he was on the verge of death. 

"Are you hurt?" he whispered, placing his hand over hers. She stared down it and in a sudden rush the fear and the realization of what had just occurred, rushed over her.

She let out a ragged, unexpected sob. "I'm sorry," she said, tears streaming down her cheeks; the dam had broken and the emotions that had been hidden behind all the adrenaline and shock were allowed to flood forward.  

James reached up, stopping short of her cheek. She wanted to lean into his hand, make contact with more of him, but she cleared her throat, shaking her head. "I'm sorry. How stupid of me. I shouldn't be crying. I'm not the one who was literally bleeding out just moments ago." 

She stood in a rush and left the room, excusing herself to grab them both some water. Once in the kitchen, she braced the counter and let herself really cry. She hadn't been in Romania that long, only a few weeks, and so much shit had happened. It was almost comical, and just thinking about how extreme everything had been, how ridiculous it all was, she started to laugh. 

After a few moments of letting herself shift between crying and laughing, sometimes both at the same time, she wiped away the tears, filled two water glasses, and returned to the bedroom. 

James was sitting up, leaning against the headboard. His metal arm hung lifeless, but he had managed to place a full wrap of gauze around his stomach. He still looked horrible, several more large bruises blooming across his cheek and around his eye, but he was alive. 

"Is it broken?" Bec asked, nodding toward the limp arm and handing him the glass of water. He gulped it down in one go, placing it on the nightstand. He nodded, pushing on the joint. She heard several clicks and noticed a slight grimace appear across James' face. 

"I may need your help with it," he said, taking her empty glass and setting it beside his. 

"I'm no expert in progressive prosthetics," she said facetiously. He simply smiled before tilting his head back against the headboard and closing his eyes. 

"What happened to...to your arm? The real one I mean," she asked, trying her best to avoid the biggest elephant in the room. 

"Wounded in action," he said simply, not bothering to elaborate. 

"James, I'm not going to push it now, but once you're healed up, I'm gonna need some answers." 

He nodded, shifting uncomfortably on the bed. 

"Ok, good. Now, about your arm." 

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From Bucharest

Chapter 14 - Red Guardian

Summary: The Winter Soldier must confront the Red Guardian to save Bec.

Trigger Warning: Graphic Depictions of Violence.

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The Winter Soldier made his way to the adjacent building, ascending the fire escape with little effort. He hoisted himself over the side, hearing his metal arm shift into place as he pulled himself up. 

Finding the M249 he had stashed there several nights before and concentrating through the scope, he scanned the area. His breath caught when he thought he spotted Bec's long blonde hair, but it was only a student.

Becoming increasingly frustrated, he stowed the weapon across his back and jumped from the roof, landing in a crouch that scared a young couple who had been sitting on a nearby bench, deep in what appeared to be a philosophical discussion. 

He ignored their gasps of surprise and took off into a run in the direction of the apartment. He halted when his cellphone rang. Bec's name appearing across the top of the screen. 

He nearly fumbled to answer it, the metal of his finger scratching across the surface. "Bec, where are you?" he asked, his voice a desperate knot of fear and anxiety. 

"Bucky, my boy, good to hear your voice." It certainly wasn't Bec's, but he recognized the deep vibrato immediately. Alexei Shostakov, the Red Guardian. "It's been a long time. 25 years give or take." 

"Where is she? Is she hurt?" 

"Nice to speak with you too," Alexei said, laughing over the line, a sarcastic note that made James want to punch through the device. "She's fine. A little bruised, but still breathing...for now." 

"Let her go." 

"You know I can't do that. You need her, and unfortunately, I need you. So I suppose we are at an impasse, unless you are willing to turn yourself over. Then I might be prepared to deliver an exchange." 

James could've sworn he heard a train echo in the background over the phone. He paused, moving the phone away and listened. His hearing along with several other senses had improved after HYDRA had injected him with the super serum, but he couldn't hear anything that sounded similar to what was coming from the other end.  

He returned the phone to his ear. "What do you propose?" he asked, clenching the phone so tightly, he heard the plastic cover groan under his grip. 

"Interesting. This female must have a strange hold on you. First you tell her your real name, then you're so willing to give yourself over for her. I'd say you might have a little crush, huh Buck."  

He didn't recognize the name Alexei kept using, but it made his stomach churn a little, an undecipherable reaction. "Don't call me that." 

"Whatever you say, brother. Meet me in an hour at Cișmigiu Park and we can chat. I look forward to seeing you. It's been way too long." 

He shoved the phone into his pocket, a snarl of frustration rippling through his gritted teeth. He checked his watch. The park was only a kilometer from the University, giving him plenty of time to stop at the apartment. 

Alexei was getting up there in age but not to be underestimated. They had crossed paths several times before, and while The Winter Soldier knew his skills and strength were superior, The Red Guardian had always left a mark or two. 

And this time, Alexei had a hand he could play. 

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James frantically gathered every weapon he had hidden around the apartment into the black backpack he had taken with him from HYDRA. He hadn't anticipated needing to don his Winter Soldier gear on this particular mission, but he strapped on his tactical vest, clipping the gun holster over his shoulder. 

He checked his watch again, loaded his M249, and left for Cișmigiu Park. 

The sky outside was a dull grey; large storm clouds rolling in. James checked the cache of combat knives along his hip and down his thigh. He slowed when he rounded the corner to the park. It was pretty much empty with the impending storm, but he spotted Alexei alone on a small bridge that extended across an idyllic pond. A strange juxtaposition if there ever was one.

Alexei waved, a goofy smile on his face. He was never the soundest of mind, but he looked even more manic than the last time James had seen him. 

"Where is she?" James called out.

"She's safe. For now." 

James approached the bridge, stopping where the path met the bridge's cobble stones. Alexei leaned against the railing, resting his elbows in a position of relaxation. 

"It's been a long time. You look...older," Alexei said, a deep laugh following. "I suppose a century will do that to a person."

"I could say the same about you," James replied, resting his hand over his hip. 

"You flatter me. Anyways, let's not beat around the bush. You for her, agreed?" 

"You know that's not going to happen," James said, pulling his M249 from over his shoulder and cocking it. 

Alexei moved off the railing, lifting his hands in the air. "Woah, woah. Take it easy, Bucky." 

"Stop calling me that." Before he finished speaking, James shot the rifle, the bullet pinging off the railing just inches from Alexei's thigh. 

"Now, now, now. I thought maybe we could play nice, but I guess not." Alexei barreled toward James, giving him little time to react, but Alexei was slower than the last time they had come face to face. James had just enough time to step out of the way, slicing through Alexei's shoulder with the combat knife he had withdrawn from his hip. 

The two collided, James' rifle was knocked from his grip as Alexei struck him with the back of his elbow, stunning him slightly and giving Alexei enough time to wrap his bicep around James' throat until he was behind him, pulling his neck into a chokehold. 

James bent back, giving himself enough space to slip out of Alexei's grasp. He twisted in one fluid motion, bashing his forehead into Alexei's face. He heard Alexei's nose crunch and several teeth spewed from his mouth. They both watched the teeth fall and bounce around on the ground. 

Alexei laughed, blood bubbling around his lips. James stepped back, giving himself enough time to reassess. But Alexei was one step ahead, spitting the blood dribbling down his chin straight into James' eyes.

James felt a stabbing pain in his gut right below his ribs. He yelled out, grabbing at the open wound now gushing warm liquid down his front. The blood slicked his normal hand, making it hard for him to keep hold on his knife. As he managed to take in a breath, staggering back, Alexei bashed his fist into James' shoulder, knocking his metal arm nearly out of the surgically built socket.  

While James moved to knock the arm back in place, Alexei managed to get in a kick to James' knee sending him stumbling. 

"I can do this all day, old timer," Alexei chided. 

James quickly took inventory; his stomach was bleeding heavier now, which made him think that Alexei had punctured his liver. His metal arm wasn't working properly, the mechanisms connecting the limb to his shoulder and therefore to his brain had most likely been knocked out of place. 

"Ah, perhaps you are starting to realize the small predicament you have found yourself in," Alexei said, pushing against James' good shoulder until he was on his knees in front of the Red Guardian.  

A glint of black chrome, caught James' eye. His M249 was a few feet away, behind Alexei's left foot, but with his metal arm malfunctioning, he would need to grab it with his right hand. 

Alexei landed an upper cut, snapping James' head back. He kept himself up, bracing himself with his good arm. And that's when he heard it, a loud shot ring out. He waited for pain to spread through him again, but none came. He looked up to find Alexei falling over, his body as limp as the dead. 

James scrambled back to avoid Alexei, slipping onto his back. He could hear that Alexei was still breathing despite looking like a corpse next to him; the super soldier serum coursing through him would be able to recover his body even after a bullet to the back, which he could now see near Alexei's hip bubbling with blood. 

James rolled onto his side, taking in ragged breaths, each one feeling a claw was running across the gash in his gut. He knew he wasn't going to die, but he also knew he wasn't exactly in the best situation. Alexei could wake up at any moment, granted he was also in pretty bad shape, and not to mention the possible threat from whoever had made that shot. 

He closed his eyes briefly, focusing on his heart beating and taking in enough air that he would need to push himself to his feet. 

"Shit, James." The curse was both music to his hears and a shock to his system. He peaked through his heavy eyelids to see Bec standing over him. She looked mostly unharmed save a small bruise around her throat and his M249 was still clutched in her shaking hands. "Can you stand?" 

He groaned, trying and failing to roll over on his front so he could prop himself up. 

"It's ok. I got you." 

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From Bucharest

Chapter 13 - Freight Car

Summary: Bec settles back into her tasks at work, beginning again on her address to Parliament, until an unexpected visitor kidnaps her. The Winter Soldier realizes too late that he should've stayed with Bec, regardless of his need to maintain his cover.

Trigger Warning: 18+ for Violence, Sexual Themes, Trauma, Torture, Drugs, Death, Language.

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Emil was not in his office, apparently having come down with some sort of virus. Bec finished her first class of the morning, feeling a little out of sorts, but she knew her lesson plans like the back of her hand, and her students were ever so gracious about her recent absence. 

When she finally had some down time, returning to her office, she pulled out her research notes and reviewed a few bullet points she had already jotted down in the folder titled Parliament Address

She could tell her past self had been struggling with what to include in her presentation, but she easily fell into stride again, creating a comprehensive outline she would continue to build on throughout the week she had left to prepare. She wished Emil wasn't "deathly ill", as his assistant had claimed, but she would send him her final notes for feedback and approval. 

A quiet knock sounded from the other side of her closed office door. She checked her phone. It was outside of office hours, but she had assigned a rather intense research paper that morning, so it was probably a student already panicking. 

"Come in," she said, closing her notes and moving her laptop to the side. 

The door opened, revealing a rather large man. He was tall, really tall, and sported a long greying beard. He wore a pair of black slacks with a red shirt and a dark jacket. He looked almost professorial, but Bec was pretty certain she had never seen him around campus, at least before the accident. 

"Professor Fegan?" he asked, shutting the door behind him. He had a thick accent, a little different than the Romanian one she had become accustomed to; perhaps Russian. 

"Um, Bec. You can call me Bec. How can I help you?" she said, shifting a little in her chair. 

"This is a...nice campus. I didn't know what I was expecting, but certainly not this." He dropped his large frame into the small chair opposite her desk, draping his massive arms over his knees. 

"Yes, it's...ah...nice." She glanced at the door, wondering if she would be fast enough to get there before he did. She cleared her throat, pushing the thought aside. She was being paranoid. He was probably just a concerned parent. 

When she looked back at the man, she realized he had noticed her movements, and a small smile spread across his face. 

Perhaps she wasn't overreacting. 

"Bec is it? My name is Alexei. I'm a friend of the Winter Soldier." He stood, moving around the desk until he stood next to her, rather close, too close. She moved back in her chair. "Or does he go by Bucky with you?" She blinked. "James?" He saw the recognition on her face. "Interesting." A small, low chuckle. 

"What do you want?" she whispered, her vocal cords nearly frozen with fear. 

"I was hoping Bucky would be with you, but you'll have to do...for now." His large hand came down, wrapping around her throat. She clawed at his massive fingers and felt her chair tip backward, creaking under the force of this massive figure. 

"Shhh, this will only take a second. Try not to fight it, it's easier that way." 

His grip tightened and she kicked her foot out, making contact with his groin, but he didn't react at all. He simply smiled and grabbed her ankle, holding it there as he continued to squeeze her throat. 

His growing smile was the last thing she saw before darkness clouded her vision.

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The Winter Soldier sat in the booth, checking the analogue clock on the cafeteria wall. She was late. He squeezed his hands together, the leather of his gloves groaning from the pressure. He knew he never should've left her alone, but maintaining his cover had been more important in that moment. She needed to believe he was her friend, nothing more, nothing less. And she had been right. His constant presence was getting weird. 

He had retreated to a nearby roof, watching the Poli Sci building, but his vantage point was crap, and he could only see the side door and nothing really inside the building through the windows. At exactly noon, he purchased two plates of Sarmales from the cafeteria and found a secluded booth in the corner. 

He would give her five more minutes. 

While he waited, watching the hand on the clock tick slowly, he thought about the night before. Sleeping had been a mistake. He never should've let his guard down that way. He never should've let her see him that...weak.  

He rubbed at his shoulder, remembering the feeling of her touch there. She was so slight, her skin so soft, yet he couldn't help but think about her strength and boldness. She was a contradiction, a small exterior with a massively tough interior. 

He shifted in the booth, forcing his thoughts to return to his mission. 

Turn Her. 

HYDRA desperately wanted her as an asset. Even after her address to Parliament, she would be useful to them. Her background and knowledge about all things foreign politics and her standing as a top researcher in her field would lend to other things, even beyond the Sokovia Accords. 

Five minutes came and went. He stood from the booth, leaving the untouched plates of Sarmales behind. He patted the knife hidden at his hip, and made his way toward the Poli Sci building. 

The Winter Soldier had to wait a few more agonizing minutes before he was able to sneak inside behind a student. He didn't really know where he was going, but he followed the student up to the second floor where he found a board with a list of faculty and their corresponding office numbers. 

Professor Rebecca Fegan, Office 203. 

He located her office right away, finding the door ajar and her chair pushed into the corner away from her desk, as if she had left her office in a hurry. Her laptop was still open on her desk, but the lock screen had appeared, a photo of Bec and a dark haired woman smiling up at him. He shut the laptop, glancing around the room once more. 

The walls were lined with bookshelves filled to the brim with textbooks, novels, and knick knacks. He knew Bec had only been in Romania for a short time, but she had already made herself at home here. 

A small head poked in through the doorway. A slight woman with purple strands offsetting her dark hair. She had several facial piercings and wore almost all black save a few purple bracelets.  

"Can I help you?" she asked.

The Winter Soldier straightened, stepping out from behind the desk. "I'm looking for Professor Fegan." 

The woman looked him over, arching an eyebrow. He knew he probably looked out of place, neither a young student nor a professor-type dressed in gingham or khaki. 

"You just missed her." 

"Do you know where she went?" 

"Not sure. They looked like they were in a hurry. They probably went to the infirmary. She looked a little ill." 

"They?" 

"Yeah, she was with a guy. Tall, big beard. Never seen him before, but they looked like they knew each other." 

Shit!  

The Winter Soldier pushed passed the woman, nearly knocking her over. She shouted at him as he ran through the hallway, down the stairs, and through the front door. He halted once outside, glancing in either direction and around the campus courtyard. They could be anywhere by now. 

And he had an inkling that he knew exactly who had come for her. For him. 

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From Bucharest

Chapter 12 - One

Summary: After a sexually charged moment between Bec and James, Bec must return to campus to resume preparing for her address to the Romanian Parliament. James is conflicted when he realizes he can't keep as close an eye on her as he had originally planned.

Trigger Warning: 18+ for Violence, Sexual Themes, Trauma, Torture, Drugs, Death, Language.

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Bec and James stared at each other for several long moments before James finally sat up, Bec's hand drifted down and away from his scar, landing in her lap. They sat there like that, both unsure how to diffuse the tension between them. 

"I'm sorry," James finally said, rubbing his shoulder absentmindedly where Bec's hand had been. Bec nodded, rolling off her knees to sit cross-legged in front of him. He looked surprised to see she wasn't leaving, but settled back against the side of the couch behind him. 

"Does that happen often?" she asked, pulling one of the blankets James had put out but hadn't used and wrapped it around her shoulders. 

James tracked her every movement, as if trying to memorize each bend of her elbow and strain of her neck. It should've unnerved her how intensely he watched her, but she didn't really mind it. 

"I'm sorry," he said again, bending one leg up and propping his metal arm over his knee. 

"James, I'm not mad. I was actually really worried." She paused, scratching the back of her neck. "I don't think I've ever heard anyone scream like that before. It sounded...it sounded like you were dying." 

His hair was slick with sweat and strands had fallen over his eyes. He rubbed his normal hand across his face, taking in a deep steadying breath. 

"Can I ask you something?" he finally spoke. She nodded. 

"Tell me about your work. You have a presentation coming up, don't you?" 

"Yeah, I do." She frowned, a vague memory of her last conversation with Emil about the parliament address. She made a mental note to touch base with him when she returned to campus in the morning. 

"What's it about?" 

"Just a boring international law; the Sokovia Accords." A strange sensation ran through her, a weird feeling that she should, no...needed to keep talking about it. "I wrote a book last year. Nothing special, but the Romanian government is going to be in session soon to discuss whether or not they want to be part of the accords. I was asked to present them with some additional information." 

"What do you think?" James asked. 

"Hm?" she said, thinking about all she still needed to prepare for the address. This supposed fall had come at the most inopportune time. If she had started to prepare, all that was gone, a missing memory that had disappeared when she hit her head. She would need to start over. 

"Do you think they should join the accords?" 

"Um, I'm not really supposed to have an opinion. I'm just presenting the facts." Another flash of memory, somewhat disjointed, of Emil, caught her attention. He had asked her if she would take a stance, but the words, the two of them sitting in his office, faded away into nothing. 

"But you do, right?" 

She thought about it for a moment before answering. She wanted to say she did, but when she really considered it, she couldn't put anything into words. 

"I don't really know, to be honest." She rolled onto her knees and stood. It was late and she wanted to get a little more sleep before she would need to be at her first class. 

He watched her, remaining on the floor. Bec leaned forward and touched his shoulder gently. He tracked her movement, and she could've sworn that his right hand had started to reach toward hers, but he cleared his throat and the motion halted. 

"Sorry," he said again. 

"You sure you want to stay here? The bed is much more comfortable. These floors might be the reason you had nightmares," she said, trying to lighten the mood. 

"I'm ok. It won't happen again. Go back to bed." 

She returned to the bedroom and slipped back into bed, the thoughts of the accords now taking over anything that had occurred between the two of them. 

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Bec had showered and changed before the sun had risen. She brewed some coffee, searching everywhere for a travel mug, only finding four nondescript mugs that would have to suffice. 

James had disappeared into the bathroom while she was dressing, and he soon reappeared in the living room, his hair still dripping; a fresh black t-shirt, dark jeans, and a pair of thick combat boots on. He approached her, leaning against the island. 

"Want some?" she asked, grabbing a second mug and the pot. He nodded, taking the mug from her. She noticed how he took it without his fingers making contact with hers, a deliberate attempt to avoid contact with her. She knew she hadn't imagined the moment they had shared last night, and this behavior definitely rubbed her the wrong way. 

He took a long sip and set the mug on the counter. Grabbing a hair tie from his pocket, he moved to pull his hair back. 

"I like it like that," Bec said without thinking, staring up at his hair, now fully revealing the curve of his cheeks and the deep blue of his eyes. 

She clamped her mouth shot, surprised by her reaction. 

He stopped, his hands still behind his head. A small grin cocked to the side, and he finished, dropping his hands to grab the mug again. He moved into the living room, looking out the window he had been obsessing over the night before. 

"I need to leave soon. My class starts in less than an hour." 

She drained her own mug, setting it in the sink to clean later. He nodded, doing the same.  

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James followed her up the steps to the Poli Sci building; this time her key fob in hand. She turned to say goodbye, but realized he intended to follow her inside. 

"You can't come in with me," she said, feeling the amusement cross her cheeks. 

"What do you mean?" he said, letting go of the door handle. 

"This is a university, James, with students. Strangers can't just come in and hang out. That's sort of an unspoken rule at most offices." 

"I told the doctors I would-," 

"I'm sure I will be fine for a few hours. Besides my coworkers are aware of what happened. I am sure they will make sure to keep an eye on me. Go home or...go to work, do whatever you normally do. We can meet for lunch. If I recall, the cafeteria usually has some pretty good Sarmales." 

"I can't leave y-," 

"James, I appreciate it, but this whole protector thing is starting to get a little old, if not weird." 

She scanned her key fob, hearing the click of the lock. James stepped back, still looking conflicted as he nodded shortly. 

"I'll see you at noon?" he asked. 

"I'll see you at noon, I promise." 

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From Bucharest

Chapter 11 - Homecoming

Summary: The Winter Soldier and Bec share several intense, sexually charged moments that make it clear to both of them that there is something more between them, something that could potentially jeopardize everything.

Trigger Warning 18+ for Violence, Sexual Themes, Trauma, Torture, Drugs, Death, Language.

If you’re new to this story, start at the beginning: Masterlist From Bucharest

"Do you know which way campus is?" Bec asked, glancing both directions when they had crossed the street. She could feel James' eyes following as he stepped up onto the sidewalk beside her. 

"I really think we should go back inside. You need to..." 

"I'm fine. My head doesn't even hurt." 

He huffed, folding his arms across his chest. 

"Are you even sure I fell on my head?" 

"Am I sur....Bec, I was there when you fell. It wasn't pretty." He ran his metal hand through his hair as he glanced to the left and pointed behind her. "I think campus is that way."  

Bec turned in the direction he was pointing and picked up the pace. She could hear James jog behind her. 

"Where are you going?" he asked, easily catching up to her. 

"Emil should still be in his office," she replied, checking the clock on her phone. It was late Friday afternoon, but she remembered that Emil had mentioned he liked to work late on Fridays to get ahead of his lesson plans for the next week. 

"Bec, I must insist we head back home." 

"I won't be long, I promise." 

After a longer walk than Bec had anticipated and several wrong turns, they stood in front of the Poli Sci building. The campus was deserted, not surprising for a Friday afternoon, and Emil wasn't answering any of Bec's texts. She hadn't even thought about grabbing her employee ID and key fob before leaving the apartment. 

"Now what?" James asked, standing behind her. Bec could feel the annoyance rolling off of him, and when she turned to face him, she found his arms crossed over his chest with a look she could only read as annoyance mixed with a bit of smugness. 

"Ugh, fine. Let's go back," she said, purposefully bumping his metal arm as she passed him. 

His metal hand shot out, grabbing her wrist. His grip was tight but gentle. She looked up at him, finding a stern expression that had her gut reacting in a way that told her she should pull away, but her only thoughts were to lean into him. 

"Don't do that," he said, bending down over her. 

She swallowed, returning her gaze to his hand. "Do what?" she whispered. 

He pulled her closer, his thumb brushing along the inside of her wrist. She had to angle her head back to see him. His eyes were dark and his jaw ticked, but he didn't say anything. He just stared down at her for another moment before dropping her hand. He moved around her, already several steps away before she realized he had left. She swallowed again, taking in a deep breath and clearing her throat. 

Bec looked down at her wrist, the cold sensation from his metal hand still present there and the hunger in eyes still stirring something in her stomach. 

She trailed behind him the rest of the way back to her apartment, watching the stiffness in his shoulders and the way he consistently clenched and unclenched his fists. 

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An uncomfortable silence filled the apartment as Bec continued to snoop around the rooms. She couldn't really pinpoint what she was looking for, only that something was missing. She finally gave up late into the evening when fatigue began to overcome her. 

Bec found James in the living room standing in front of a small window. He leaned against the frame, seemingly deep in thought. Bec cleared her throat, wondering if he had heard her come in. He didn't flinch, but turned slowly to face her, presumably having already sensed her presence. 

"I'm heading to bed." She pushed her hair away from her face and over her shoulder and adjusted the set of PJs around her waist, a small pair of pink silk shorts with a matching tank top. Again the outfit didn't feel quite like her, but it was all she could find after she had brushed her teeth and combed her hair. 

James' eyes shuddered as they roamed over her before landing and staying fixed on her socked feet. 

"Are you going to stay or go home?" she finally asked, breaking up the tension. 

"Go home?" he asked. 

"Yeah, back to your home, apartment, whatever. We aren't together, so I assumed you have your own accommodations?" 

James shook his head as he moved away from the window. "I told the doctor I would stay with you for a couple days, to monitor you." 

"Oh...ok. Well, I'm going to bed." She turned to leave, but stopped, realizing the apartment only had one bedroom and a couch that she wasn't even comfortable sitting on. "Um, where are you going to sleep?" 

He shrugged, gesturing toward the couch.  

Bec laughed, shaking her head. "I wouldn't want even my worst enemy to suffer on that insufferable thing. My bed is big enough." 

He was already shaking his head before she finished speaking, turning back to look out the window. "That's not a good idea. Besides, I can sleep anywhere. The couch or even the floor will be fine. I know where the blankets are. Go to bed, Bec." 

She hesitated, wanting to push the matter, but his appearance, tense again, let her know that the conversation was over. She nodded and returned to the bedroom, tucking herself into the more than adequate bed.  

She took a sip of water from the bottle on her nightstand and turned out the light. It didn't take long for the exhaustion of the last few days...hours...however long it had been to drag her into sleep. 

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Yelling, no screaming, was what woke Bec up. She sat up, clutching at her chest. The sounds stirred something in her, something that triggered flashes of a dark room and visceral pain through her mind. She squeezed her eyes shut, willing the sounds to stop, but she quickly realized the screams were coming from the living room, from James. 

She hopped out of bed and ran out into the hallway, the yells getting louder and more desperate. Bec rounded the corner, skidding to a halt when she found James half naked on the floor in the fetal position. 

He was covered in sweat and breathing heavily as scream after scream escaped through his gritted teeth. His arms were wrapped around his bare chest as if he were trying to protect himself from something.

Bec thought she could make out several words here and there, but they were either unrecognizable or spoken in a different language. 

She approached him slowly, quietly calling his name, but his screams drowned out any noises she made. She was afraid if she got too close, he might react, not realizing that he was asleep and that it was only her there with him.  

She knelt down next to him, close but far enough that he would hopefully wake up before being able to reach her. "James, wake up. It's just a nightmare." She inched a little closer, wondering if she would be able to reach out a hand to maybe touch his leg. 

She waited for several more moments until his screams finally subsided to small whimpers. 

"James." She reached out a hesitant hand, leaning a little closer and grazing his metal shoulder. No reaction. Her fingers moved over his bicep, the strange metal providing no give as she squeezed. She trailed her hand up over his shoulder, until her fingertips brushed against the long scar where the limb was attached. 

She hadn't noticed that his whimpering had stopped completely until her gaze fell over his face. His eyes were open, watching her fingers move across his bare skin. Tears welled around his eyes and then they met hers and they simply looked at one another. 

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From Bucharest

Chapter 10 - Benign

Pairing: The Winter Soldier/OC Female, Bec Fegan

Summary: After leaving HYDRA with a newly wiped Bec, The Winter Soldier must begin his mission of turning her into a HYDRA asset, but his heart may be leading him on a very different mission altogether.

Trigger Warning 18+ for Violence, Sexual Themes, Trauma, Torture, Drugs, Death, Language.

If you’re new to this story, start at the beginning: Masterlist From Bucharest

James laid out a pair of pajamas HYDRA had left in the bedroom dresser. Bec had been in the shower for several minutes before he heard her start to cry. He left to give her some privacy, making his way back into the bedroom where he found it filled with all of Bec's supposed items. 

A water bottle sat on the side table next to the bed, and the closet and dresser were full of women's clothing all in her size. HYDRA had crossed every T and dotted every I. While he knew these items weren't really hers, he would pretend they were. 

It made him wonder what clothes she did actually like to wear, and what her nightly routine was before bed. He touched the hem of the shirt he had laid out for her, but quickly retracted, pushing the thoughts out of his mind. He needed to focus. He knew thoughts like that would quickly get them both into trouble. 

"Are those mine?" 

He jumped, not having heard her leave the bathroom. He nodded, following her gaze to the clothes on the bed. She was wrapped in a towel, but he couldn't help glancing back up at her slim shoulders and grazing up her neck to the curve of her mouth. 

"Hm." She approached the bed, a frown on her face. 

"What?" he asked, an unease spreading through his gut. 

"It's just, I didn't take myself for a pink person." She picked up the top, a short sleeve, light pink shirt. "Are you sure these are mine?" 

She shuffled through the rest of the items, holding up the pair of black lace underwear and giggled. 

"They were in your dresser," James responded, feeling a slight smile begin to form. It surprised him, the smile. He hadn't done that in...well...he didn't know how long. 

She dropped the towel, pulling on the underwear. Bec apparently had very few inhibitions when it came to James seeing her body. He blushed, moving to turn around again. 

"Are you sure this is my place, James?" she asked, causing him to pause. She reached behind to clip on her bra, her hair falling over her shoulders. He felt the urge to move forward and run his fingers through her hair, but he remained still. "It's just none of this looks familiar, none of it...feels right." 

"It's your apartment, Bec." 

She slipped on the jeans and tugged the shirt over her head. Pink may not be her favorite color, but it certainly looked good on her, causing the blue of her eyes and the red of her lips to pop. 

"If you say so." 

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Bec explored the apartment, her apartment. There were items that probably should hold some sentimental value for her, but her memory was...fragmented. 

She could recall her life in California perfectly. Her long dead parents, and the best friend she had left behind when she made the decision to move to Bucharest, but the rest was fuzzy and disjointed. 

She had no recollection of the man standing in her kitchen watching her as she snooped around her own living room. She had little recollection of her first week in Bucharest besides some flashes of her boss Emil and a fruit stand she had an apparent affinity for. And she had absolutely zero memory of this supposed fall. 

But for some reason, she felt safe around James. She knew she should probably be questioning what had happened, but all she wanted to do was get to know him better. 

"Could you get me a glass of water?" she asked, hugging one of the pillows over her stomach. He pushed himself away from the counter and searched the cabinets for a glass. He found one, grabbing it with his metal arm. 

It moved just like his normal arm, but was unlike any other prosthetic she had seen before. There had been great advances in technology and medicine within the last few decades, especially from Stark Industries, but she hadn't seen anything like what was attached to his shoulder, at least not in person. 

He caught her staring at him and smiled. Well, sort of. She had noticed that most of his actions seemed forced, like he was acting or at least trying to hide his true feelings or motivations. 

"You wouldn't happen to know where my phone is, would you?" she asked, having kept an eye out for the device after her shower, but coming up empty. He finished filling the glass with water from the tap and approached her, grabbing a backpack from the kitchen island. 

She thanked him for the water, and watched as he searched through the bag, pulling out her blue-cased phone. She took it, setting the glass on the coffee table. 

Bec stared at the lock screen, a swirl of colors; the default iPhone wallpaper. She frowned, wondering why she hadn't even bothered to set a more personalized lock screen. The phone opened, recognizing her face, and several notifications popped up. 

An email from the department administrator, letting her know her missed class had been covered by one of the TAs, and a text from a coworker checking in to make sure she was ok. 

Bec texted back, letting them know she was ok and resting at home, and that she would be back at school in the morning. She scrolled through the rest of her phone, somewhat surprised to see how few numbers she had in her contacts. 

She sighed, tucking the phone into the front pocket of her jeans and standing. James stood, following her. 

Bec stopped. "I think I'm gonna go for a walk." James was already shaking his head, but she turned and moved to find her shoes by the door. "I know, I need to rest, I hit my head, but James, I feel fine. I just...I need some air." 

She pulled on her tennis shoes and opened the hallway closet to find two jackets hanging inside. She grabbed the smaller one, pulling it on, before handing the larger one to James who had moved closer to her. 

"I'm going for a walk. You can join me if you're so worried." 

James paused for a second, looking as though he might argue with her, before finally nodding and taking his jacket. 

Bec unlocked the door and stepped into the hallway, waiting for James to follow her out. 

"Just stick close. I don't want to have to jump for you if you decide to fall again," he said, locking the door behind them. 

She laughed, leaning into him as they made their way through the tight hallway and down the stairs to the front door. 

Bec had a hinting feeling that she hadn't seen the sun in a while. When she exited out onto the street, she stood still for a moment, closing her eyes and letting the cool breeze wrap around her. 

When she opened them, she found James staring down at her, a look on his face that she took as curiosity and perhaps a hint of admiration. She smiled up at him and tucked her arm around the elbow of his metal one. 

"Loosen up, James. You're wound tighter than a bishop's balls in a brothel." 

James made a small coughing noise, as if choking, before lifting his head back and letting out a true and genuine laugh. 

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From Bucharest

Chapter 9 - Nine

Pairing: The Winter Soldier/OC Female, Bec Fegan

Summary: After leaving HYDRA with a newly wiped Bec, The Winter Soldier must begin his mission of turning her into a HYDRA asset, but his heart may be leading on a very different mission altogether.

Trigger Warning: 18+ for Violence, Sexual Themes, Trauma, Torture, Drugs, Death, Language.

If you’re new to this story, start at the beginning: Masterlist From Bucharest

The Winter Soldier looked down at Bec where he had placed her on the bed in the apartment HYDRA had secured for them. A bruise covered her left cheek, but the rest of her was otherwise unharmed. Her hair was a little greasy and her clothes were snagged in several places, but she looked somewhat peaceful, as if this was her normal routine, sleeping next to him. 

He brushed a strand of blonde hair out of her eyes, remembering them being a pleasant shade of blue. She stirred but didn't wake up. He wanted to let her sleep, but he knew he had a mission to complete.

"Bec?" he whispered, gently gripping her shoulders. She groaned, swatting at his metal hand, but his hands remained firm around her. "Open your eyes, Bec."

Her eyelids parted slightly and then shot open, fear flooding across her face. She sat up, shrinking away from him. 

"Who the fuck are you?" Her head snapped around as she scanned the room. "Where am I?"

The Winter Soldier raised his hands trying to signal to Bec that he meant her no harm, but the fear radiating from her became even more intense when she noticed his arm. 

"I'm not going to hurt you," he said, lowering his arms and tucking the metal hand into his pocket. He had removed his jacket and gloves when he had ensured that they were safely tucked away from prying eyes inside the apartment. He didn't really have any sensation in the metal arm, but the gloves always made it harder to maneuver around simple tasks. 

Her eyes shifted to the door behind him, and he anticipated that she might try to run. He backed up until he was against the closed door, blocking her exit. "You have to trust me. I'm not going to hurt you." 

"Then tell me where I am," she said, rubbing her forehead. He watched her take in the rest of the room, including her own appearance. She touched her hair, rubbing her fingers through the greasy strands, and she eyed her clothes, picking at several of the rips in the knees of her pants. 

"You're safe." He paused, making sure she wasn't going to try anything stupid. "Do you remember what happened?" 

Her eyes glazed slightly, skipping back and forth as she tried to recall...anything. She shook her head, rubbing at her forehead again. 

"It's ok. You're ok. You had a bit of a fall. This is your apartment. I'm your...I'm James." 

"James?" She looked up at him, her gaze intent on tracking every feature. He knew she was trying to grasp on to something, anything to recognize the person before her. He had been through the same thing. Waking up at HYDRA only days ago, he had felt a subconscious recognition of the people around him, but their faces were new, almost distant as if looking through a long tunnel. It was a strange feeling to both know and not know someone. 

He nodded, moving slowly to sit next to her on the bed. 

"This is my apartment?" she asked. 

He nodded again. 

"I...I don't remember." 

"It's ok. You hit your head pretty hard. The doctor said it might take a few days for you to remember certain things. But you know who you are, right?" 

She cocked her head, staring down at her hands. She picked at her fingernails with her thumb, dirt caked under several of them. 

"Rebecca Fegan, but people call me Bec." 

He paused at this, not realizing that Bec's full name was Rebecca. It meant something to him, but he wasn't sure what. 

"I'm a professor. Shit, I'm a professor. My class. What time is it?" 

She stood quickly, surprising him. He jumped up, catching her around the waist before she could fall. Her eyes fluttered closed as she tried to steady herself. He had grabbed her with his metal arm, and she winced at the hard surface across her back. 

He let go, leading her to sit again with his other hand. "Take it easy." 

She stared again at his arm, thoughts of her class seemingly gone from her mind. 

He raised the metal limb, opening and closing his fist before her. She watched it, slightly more interested now than fearful. 

"It's harmless...most of the time," he said, trying to lighten the mood. She smiled, reaching out to touch the metal. He knew it was cold against her touch. 

She took his hand in hers and followed the metal up until her eyes stopped at his shoulder. 

"I've never seen anything like it." 

"One of a kind, I suppose," he said. 

"Why...," she started, but stopped, a slight blush spreading across her cheeks. 

"Why do I have a metal arm?" he finished for her. He shrugged. "Just lucky, I guess." 

He tried to pull away, but she held his hand tight now, her eyes welling with tears. 

"Let's get you cleaned up," he said, lifting her slowly to her feet. "It's been a long day, and I imagine you might want a shower."

She nodded, rubbing her eyes with the back of her other hand. 

He guided her out of the bedroom and down the hall to the main bathroom. With her hand still in his, he reached beyond the shower curtain and turned on the water, testing the temperature under his fingers. 

"Towel is behind the door. I'll be just outside." 

She nodded, wrapping her free arm around her stomach. 

He went to leave, pulling away from her, but she held tight. "Will you stay here?" 

James stopped, looking down at their still intertwined hands. 

"I just don't want to be alone." She let go then, moving toward the shower. She hesitated for only a moment, before peeling off her shirt. James turned away, intending to give her some semblance of privacy. He had already seen most of her body when he had brought her into HYDRA, her clothing nearly falling off of her before the agents had replaced them with another set. 

He heard her giggle softly, and he glanced over his shoulder. 

She faced him, only wearing her underwear now. "James, I assume you've seen me naked before." 

He froze, clearing his throat, and her smile widened.  

"I may not remember you very well at the moment, but I know what this is." She gestured back and forth between the two of them. He didn't move and didn't smile or nod. Her expression slackened, then grew surprised. "Oh, sorry. Sorry, I assumed we were..." 

She turned around, stepping into the shower and dragging the curtain closed. 

James ran a hand down his face. He probably should've been clear about their supposed relationship from the beginning. According to his mission briefing, he was supposed to be an acquaintance. Any kind of romantic pairing would...complicate things. 

But she wasn't wrong, there was something there...something that might make this harder than he had anticipated. 

From Bucharest

Chapter 8 - Furnace

Trigger Warning - 18+ for Violence, Sexual Themes, Trauma, Torture, Drugs, Death, Language.

If you’re new to this story, start at the beginning: Masterlist From Bucharest

Bec was certain her screams of agony could be heard throughout the entire HYDRA facility, and even with the bite guard in place and several agents holding her down so she wouldn't break a bone from all the thrashing, nothing could block out the pain that was rolling through every muscle, joint, ligament, and tendon in her body. 

Dr. Pirigov had placed a contraption around her head, similar looking to an ECT machine, but ECT was painless. This was decidedly not painless. 

"Again," Dr. Pirigov commanded. 

"Wait, please don't. I'll do it. I'll convince parliament." 

"Again," he repeated, ignoring her. 

Another blast of pain and more screaming. Sweat poured into her eyes, blurring her vision, but she could make out several more figures enter the room. 

"Please, please. I'll do anything." 

"It's too late for that, Bec. I cannot risk your true feelings jeopardizing this mission. If you had admitted you were in support of the accords, we would be in an entirely different position, but alas, I cannot have an agent with any ideals other than HYDRA ideals." 

"I can present information that will convince them." 

"I fear facts and numbers may not convince parliament at this time, and we cannot risk that." 

"Then just let me go or kill me. Why the torture? I don't understand."

"You will understand, Bec." He patted her knee, before gesturing to the nearby surgical tech. "Again." 

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He watched her thrash in the chair, the same chair he had sat in many times. He knew her pain, he knew the agony running through her body. 

But he pushed those thoughts out of his mind, crossing his arms over his chest. 

Dr. Pirigov spotted him standing the doorway, and waved for the surgical tech to suspend the machine. "Mission report," he said, standing in front of him. He pulled off his glasses and tucked them in the front pocket of his coat. 

"Completed." 

"Excellent. It shouldn't be too much longer here. I anticipate we will have completed her wipe in an hour or two. Meanwhile, you should prepare. Everything will be in order once you leave here." 

The Winter Soldier nodded, turning to leave. 

"One more thing. It is important that you ensure her mind is changed completely. There cannot be any room for error. Understood?" 

He nodded, her screams echoing in waves over him. She thrashed so hard, he was certain he may have heard a small pop either from her shoulder or elbow. 

"Good. You may leave. She'll be ready for you shortly." 

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The Winter Soldier shed his HYDRA uniform, rubbing at the scar that traced along where his metal arm connected to his shoulder. Anytime he acknowledged the foreign limb, flashes of the painful surgeries to fit him with it, many with little to no anesthetic, plagued his split and altered memory.  

He shrugged the shoulder, trying but failing to release the lingering pain there. 

The reflection in the mirror was also something that both baffled and plagued him. His eyes were shallow and his hair had grown almost to his shoulders. He didn't often recognize the man that stared back at him, but he had long since stopped trying. 

A pair of jeans, a blue t-shirt, and a hooded jacket hung on the back of the bathroom door for him. He would need to blend in as best he could. 

Rubbing his shoulder again, he put on the clothes and the pair of leather gloves that rested on the side of the sink. He looked almost normal, like a man who could be out in public with a woman like Bec. 

But his ruptured brain reminded him of his true purpose. 

Change her mind. 

Turn Her. 

With a swing of his arm, he knocked the metal limb back in place and left the bathroom. Bec would be waiting for him, her memory all but missing, with perhaps several implanted fictional scenarios that he would be able to take advantage of. 

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"Where is she?" he asked the agent standing next to the tunnel exit that kept the HYDRA facility all but invisible to the general public. 

"Still with Dr. Pirigov." 

The Winter Soldier nodded, tossing a small backpack over his shoulder. An agent had given it to him, and he was slightly surprised to see that it was filled with several pairs of Bec's clothing. Gaining her trust would be difficult, but this peace offering would be a good start. 

He swiped a strand of hair out of his eyes and leaned against the wall. 

The agent eyed him up and down, moving from foot to foot as if uncomfortable in his presence. This wasn't an uncommon reaction around HYDRA. Dr. Pirigov and several other higher ups were the few who seemed to have any confidence regarding their safety around him. 

But they should be afraid. 

The slight agent was half his size and no super serum was flowing through his veins.  The Winter Soldier could snap his neck before the agent even realized he had moved. 

The radio on the agent's hip, crackled. "She's on her way." He jumped, not expecting the sound to break the uncomfortable silence. "Copy," he replied, stepping aside from the exit. 

The Winter Soldier moved from the wall, and turned to face the direction he had come from. He could make out several shadows, and two agents appeared from around the corner, Bec, a limp body, being dragged between them. 

Dr. Pirigov followed, wiping blood with a small handkerchief from the corner of his mouth.  

"She was more of a fighter than we anticipated," he said, moving around them to approach him. "Mission?" 

"Turn her," he said as he took Bec from the agents, his metal arm shifting around her back and the other under her legs. She was lighter than he expected. 

"Excellent. I expect daily reports, understood. It's important that she comes to the decision on her own. Or at least that's what she needs to believe." 

He nodded, shifting his arm to support her head. 

"You have one week. I expect results...or there will be consequences, for both of you." 

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Not enough people are talking about how, although Bucky is right-handed, he wears his watch on his dominant hand.

I don't know why, but it makes my stomach hurt for him. 🥺💔

While his vibranium arm functions like his normal arm, it probably still feels and looks somewhat foreign to him, not to mention, the watch may not fit properly on his vibranium arm.

I notice it every time I rewatch Falcon and Winter Soldier.

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