Ash / Vince

please do not send hate! I am trying to be respectful!

I would like some things explained to me, radqueers

Just like...

Why do you identify the way you do? I don't mean things like transhaircolor or something, I mean like transabled and rcta

I understand atypical dysphoria is a thing (and also that one disorder where you wanna be disabled idk what it's called)

But

Why do you say you're trans-*insert thing here*, instead of just saying you have atypical dysphoria? It doesn't really make sense to me

I have a lot more identities than this, but I will explain the more common ones. Also, this is like saying, "why dont transgender folk just say they have gender dsyphoria instead of trans man/woman?" Because they want to be seen as their desired gender. Just like how transage folk want to be seen as their desired age or species their desired species. /info

Transspecies: You have no idea how long I've had species dsyphoria, it's before I ever even knew radqueer was a thing. I call myself a dog because I prefer people see me as such.

Polyage: Sometimes I'm not content with being 19-20, sometimes I have severe dsyphoria about not being younger or older. It changes, kind of like genderfluid.

Transendogenic / nulltrauma: I don't want to get rid of our system, but I HATE hearing us be referred to as traumagenic or remembering our trauma. This is more of a comfort identity if anything.

Permahappy: :3 :D I dunno what to say here, I successfully transitioned into being permanently happy.

Transabled: I only really identify as transNPD because I'm 99% sure we're cis, but until I have confirmation, I still want to be referred to as having NPD

I hope I could explain some things! At least show you a new perspective!!!

up early in the morning with this, but as the little over 80 something of you guys know, my name is deimos. im seventeen and i’m a concept writer, a reblogger, and am currently new to transid coining and things of that such.

yesterday i was informed about my ex, Nikolai/Lucas, known as @sacrificalhandler/@traumaarchivo/@sermilitares talking about me. obviously i went to read it and i was understandably pissed, i hate people making up lies about me, and i damn sure wasn’t about to let some pervert lie on me to some gullible people on tumblr LOL. a majority of you saw the post made after but had asked me for the full story, here this is.

i met him little over two weeks ago in a partner system server of my own making, he joined, we talked, we dated. there were multiple instances when he was overly aggressive with me under the guise of it being some mental health problem he had. then came when i joined tumblr with him, i got an anonymous messages saying he was a liar and cheater, obviously im confused. ive come to understand it was my now friend @cannibalcvnt warning me, in my own mind though, i ignored it, and sent a friend of mine to talk to him using the @ he sent me, my friend told me he was talking nothing important, so i assumed it was a troll and moved on.

we broke up because i found out he was cheating on me with alek / @cannibalcvnt, who’s sixteen years old, and in my opinion, more emotionally susceptible to manipulation. nikolai had aleks location ( mine as well, but no threat was there as he was halfway across the world ), his school email, nudes he had forced alek to send him, and more. obviously i was disgusted with this, and alek was scared of him. it took a few days of talking back and forth but by the end of it both alek and i had him blocked. during this time as i was getting information on him i could contact the authorities as well as make a cyber tip about him, i got in touch with someone he knew irl, so said he tried to stab his ex and then raped them. currently this is an allegation, but considering how he is i wouldn’t put it past him.

days went by and i personally watched in real time as he targeted @derwiintersoldat.

i’d like to preface that alek, myself, and soldat are all ramcoa complex did systems, who are programmed/have programmed alters, he used this heavily against alek, he used it against soldat, who he claims consented to it, but he hasn’t brought forward any substantial proof, and soldat a headmate steven would like it to be known soldat was manic and going through an episode, therefore this was under the guise of concent by someone who was already laying their affection on them heavy, which nikolai is known to do.

you all already know how this story with soldat and nikolai ended so i wont push it further, he was in a “conabuse” relationship but there was no consent, so it was just abusive. he made a post saying that both me and alek had agreed to a similar relationship, we didn’t. from what i understand alek met him in a sourcemates server and they started off as friends before nikolai preyed on them ( and this happened little over a month ago, he has no idea how to take a break between these crimes i guess ) and ive already said that our relationship was purely romantic until towards the end our winter soldier introject, sengphet, started dating their rumlow introject.

i think it’s disgusting, i think it’s sick. if you’re coming from his page YES i was manipulating him last night, YES i was lying to him, and yes i do stalk him, he’s talking about people being posers but can’t take a few extra eyes on him and he lost his already shriveled mind, practice what you fucking preach. i wanted a fucking laugh and more evidence so i could make this post, lmao. never in my seventeen years would i want to be friends with a fucking loser like that.

if this guy is your follower/mutual, do yourself a favor and block him because the tl:dr is —

nikolai is a pro contact pedophile who got sexual with a 16 year old at his big age of 19, talks to minors constantly under the guise of being “friends,” lies, abuses programmed people to get himself off, and he’s running all around Europe to evade the authorities, because he’s wrong, and he knows it.

ALL screenshots and such will be my next post, this is already long as hell.

do NOT develop a parasocial relationship with that internet person they WILL disappoint u. not me though. u can all be parasocial with me, i will never hurt u like that

The masculine urge to start a whole new persona online, start over, and make up everything about them like an oc. New communities, new identities, new hobbies, just be a whole new person.

I decided that once I start the transage school, I WILL infact be doing this and making a whole new discord and social media presence.

We do we do we doo!~ Stealing from the same shitty person, it's always moral to steal from sysmeds!

Aaandy, I am instantly never going to leave you alone now. Look what you did / silly