break this heart for extraordinary things

Yes I like fictional characters a very normal amount. Don’t look at my blog.

I don’t care how contrived it is. I will always enjoy two characters who don’t like each other somehow getting trapped in the same place, and having to work together to escape, while at the same time growing closer and learning that maybe, the other person isn’t so bad after all.

beloved exy boyfriends 🤲

Not a spoiler but I just wanted to draw him saying his catchphrase lol

morning walk to practice

+ kevin fanboy

Gonna post a tone of aftg stuff I've drawn this past month

Taking the red hats off of half a dozen gnomes and loading them carefully, tearfully, into a revolver.

Please could you gnomes just hold the fuck still- wait

Where’s the sixth one

runs away as fast as fuckign possible coughing and and hacking and wheezing and crying

Had a dream last night that i was a knight and this bigger scarier knight had me on the ground and right before he swung his sword at my neck he said smth like "i mourn the loss of life for the tree who will become your coffin" which shouldnt of turned me on like it did but alas

it’s soooooo embarrassing being obsessed with a character and it’s a blond guy ? like omg can i please get well soon

I found the making of video of this dress!

being on doxxing terms with a tumblr mutual is kinda funny like we met at yaoi university and now an year later we both know each other's exact locations

realizing that neil "I'm fine" josten is my spirit animal because I accidentally got stabbed in the neck yesterday and sword instructor saw, asked me if I was okay and without missing a beat I replied "I'm good"

my "I'm fine"s are now getting ignored 😭 instructor went to check on me even after I said I was fine when I quit sparring early

my favorite scene in all of literature is when Neil Josten wakes up in Columbia after being drugged, hurls an alarm clock at Aaron, dumps his water on the floor and throws the cup at Aaron, stuff his clothes down the toilet and squeezes out through the window, has the foresight to call Matt from a pay phone to protect his shit, hitch hikes back to campus, eyes back to brown?? shows up on Wymack’s door like 😜 and reveals he could speak German the whole time?? CHARACTER OF ALL TIME, that is a protagonist who knows how MOVE THE MFING PLOT ALONG

Because he's been meme-ified a lot over the years, I feel the need to point out how smart he is. I mean, yes, he comes across as this feral, impulsive sort of character (and he has a lot of dumb energy, lol), but he's also really logical and precise. I love how complex and multilayered his character is. Nora did such a fabulous job writing him.

Man if I was Andrew I'd be PISSED every time someone used Neil to ask me something stupid. You're telling me you cowards needed to use the human embodiment of my mortal weaknesses to ask if I wanna go to the club? To watch some movies together? Grow up.

happy birthday neil abram josten.

you are real. you are alive.

theyre matching 3s in this universe :)

me in real life: torture and murder are horrible and you shouldn't do them.

me in fiction: torture and murder are literally the two sexiest and most fun things you could possibly do and you should do them all the time.