I’m so sorry )-: it’s totally normal to feel homesick, the last month I was abroad I really struggled. I would constantly remind myself that it was such a gift to be there and that it was ONE SEASON. Realizing the impermanence of it all helped me to be more grateful. I lost a loved one while abroad and it made things pretty difficult emotionally (and then also me and Caleb broke up) and both of those experiences made me constantly want to know what was going on at home - maybe you have that too? Kinda like FOMO in a way- but just feeling very distant from things? To help with that I made a list of goals for myself each week- I would look up things I wanted to do or see, self-care type things (I would take a train just to go run!), and journaling. I also set time aside to talk to friends back home. I know how hard it is and that feeling of almost being upset with yourself for not being fully present, but try to take it easy on yourself! You are human and the fact that you miss home shows that you love well and deep. Write down everything you are thankful for at the end of each day and reflect on that! I hope maybe something in here helps a little bit :-)