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Xena and Gabrielle: Character study thesis

This is a character study thesis for explaining and understanding how and why Xena and Gabrielle are, as I always like to call them, the human representation of โ€˜Yin-yang'. Putting forth a point of view that clearly identifies and exemplifies that they are one soul in two bodies throughout the whole show, and as you watch each episode in sequence, it becomes apparent that they swap over roles and become each other.

Section 1: What โ€˜Xena: Warrior Princessโ€™ is about.

What is the show about to begin with and how does it change to represent stronger and more substantiated content, that inadvertently revolutionizes the show passed its initial premise and delivers excellently written character development?

I could just say it's an action/drama/comedy show about a female ex-warlord who has turned good and now helps the innocent to seek redemption for the evil things she's done in her past, but that's honestly not the truthโ€ฆ at leastโ€ฆ not the whole truth. That's just how it starts off. The show becomes much more than was ever intended for its original plan, and it seems almost by accident that it happens. What it becomes is something else entirely. What โ€˜Xena: Warrior Princess' is about, throughout all its seasons, is an EPIC romance about soulmates who find each other at the most critical time. The entire show is dedicated to the growth of these characters both as individuals and as a couple. They bring out the best in each other. It is a slow burn romance of best friends evolving into lovers. Very slow. But you see their connection from the very beginning. The evolution of these characters, in their individual storylines, and the storylines they have together, will be the main factor in the postulated idea that they were one soul in two bodies that eventually passed into each other. As you watch them, episode to episode, you see for yourself the evidence of that.

What my intention is with this character study is to point out when and where Xena and Gabrielle show signs of their spiritual essences permeating into each other through how much they influence each other's mindset and personality. I don't want to state the case that they turn into each other because they make each other that way. More so that they become each other because they are already whole at the soul level, but that it takes a lot of life experience in the negatives and positives to bring that out at the human level. It takes meeting each other and travelling together to set in motion the events of the indications of their oneness. To prove to them that they are indeed a part of each other because they are two parts of one whole. That's what I will try to explain as best I can in this thesis to help you recognize this same perspective and understand as to why it's important to be aware of as you watch the show. So that you can see and appreciate for yourself that stronger and substantiated content that shows you that you're watching a story of the romance that is just as good, or in my opinion, BETTER than those classic love stories, such as โ€˜Romeo and Juliet' or โ€˜Guinevere and Lancelot.'

Section 2: In the right place at the right time.

How does meeting each other play a huge part in the changing of Xena and Gabrielleโ€™s lives, and why was it exactly at that moment in exactly that way that they did meet when it could have been at any other time and in any other place?

Forget about Xena's introduction in โ€˜Hercules: The Legendary Journeys' because this is really where it all starts. Not only Xena's individual storyline in seeking her redemption for the sins of her past but also hers and Gabrielle's storyline of going from sheer strangers to the most loyal of partners. They meet each other in the most unusual of circumstances. While during a fight. Gabrielle, as well as most of her town, including her mother and sister, gets taken hostage by Draco's henchmen, Hector and his band of thugs. He has plans to take them to the ruthless warlord and sell them off to the highest bidder. Xena runs for the cover of the nearby bushes and watches as the young blonde bravely steps forward and demands from him to take her in exchange for letting the rest of the captured go. He raises his hand ready to whip her and that's when our lead protagonist steps in to stop the situation. This saves Gabrielle from a severe beating, that in her brittle form, she probably wouldn't have ever recovered from and eventually died.

Unbeknownst to the audience on a first watch, it is also the moment when Xena's about to commit suicide. So, we take in the information that Gabrielle saved Xena's life at the same time Xena saved hers. It's so subtle, that if you don't pay attention, you will miss this, and it will take you a couple of run-throughs watching the scene to notice it. There is evidence for this interpretation as it is revealed in Season 6, during the episode โ€˜Legacy', where Xena admits to Gabrielle that she changed her mind, or rather, took over it enough so that she didn't go through with it. This information changes the tone of the entire show, I would say, as it immediately brings you right into what it is that Xena and Gabrielle do best for one another. Change and save each other's lives. Constantly preventing these dark tendencies of suicidal or self-sacrificial instances to keep each other alive. Therefore, they meet then and there to do just that. Change and save each other's lives. The circumstances were foretold. It was destined that they should discover each other in and at that precise moment. For in that lifetime, if they had followed through with those events, they never would have discovered each other at all, as they would both be dead.

Section 3: The balance of โ€˜Yin and Yangโ€™.

What is it that makes two completely opposite and contradictory forces interconnected and complementary, and how does this relate to Xena and Gabrielle and explain the intensity and seemingly intrinsic nature of their relationship so accurately?

I've been developing a theory for a while now about Xena and Gabrielle that's about how they influenced each other in personality and changed each other emotionally. I sometimes refer to Xena and Gabrielle as โ€˜Yin and Yang', as to me, they are the perfect human representation of duality. Basically, what I mean by that is that they are each other's balance. Their spiritual essences permeate into each other throughout the course of the show, and this is my theory that they become as one by the end of it. I wanted to present that as an overall thesis because there was so much within the episodes that showed this incredible spiritual connection between these two characters that you just don't pick up unless you are conscious of the perspective in the first place.ย 

Before we go into it, I first want to explain what I interpret โ€˜Yin and Yang' to mean. โ€˜Yin and Yang' are two polar oppositions. For example; the Dark principle and the Light principle. The principles are contradictory, but they complement each other in that one principle can provide what the other principle does not have. I use the analogy of a puzzle piece to explain this. A puzzle piece can only connect into another piece if that piece is the perfect opposite to it, otherwise, it can't fit and therefore won't connect. The pieces in a puzzle are designed in such a way so that they can fit into each other to create a bigger picture. It's just the same as a soulmate, but I prefer to use the term puzzle piece, as it makes far more sense to me. โ€˜Yin and Yang' are never separate as one needs the other to exist. Much like how you can't have space without solid or solid without space. It cannot be either solid or space as neither principle can exist without the other there. It needs its polarity to exist in the first place. Even if these principles appear to be separated, they are not, as neither is what it is without its significant other, or it cannot function properly without it. Understand what I mean by that? "Shadow and Light are two sides of the same coin, one cannot exist without the other", as Zelda so beautifully put it in โ€˜The Legend Of Zelda: Twilight Princess' game.

Let's get on to how Xena and Gabrielle are the perfect human representation of โ€˜Yin and Yang', and how they influenced each other in personality and changed each other emotionally because they are soulmates. Think about how opposite the pair is and how that might be beneficial to them in a relationship. Xena is very mind-orientated. She thinks three steps ahead of the game. Constantly thinking, planning and measuring. This gives her extreme advantage in battle, as she always knows what to do before she does it. To begin with, she has a lot of trouble with intimacy and emotion and is very stiff and stoic. So she isn't much of a talker, other than the few well-thought-out intimidating lines to her foes. But because of this, she's very good at listening to others and listening to her surroundings, which proves to be very useful to Gabrielle, who is very heart-orientated. Gabrielle feels, and she feels very deeply. This causes her to act before she thinks and that gets her into a lot of trouble in the early episodes of the show, which Xena just happens to have the ability and the quick strategic thinking to sort out. To begin with, Gabrielle is naรฏve and idealistic. But because of this, she is a fantastic storyteller and is very compassionate, therefore can offer emotional support and healing to those that need a bit of a pick me up at times, such as Xena. Do you see how their differences in strengths and weaknesses help to aid each other? One can give what the other lacks. They feed off each other. They fill the empty spaces in their lives as individuals by being together. They need each other to be all that they are and to evolve as people. Together, they are a complete whole. This is precisely what โ€˜Yin and Yang' stands for. It's balance. The scales are equal in the principles when together but unequal when apart. They balance each other out.

So, as I've stated above, this leads me to a theory that because Xena and Gabrielle can influence each other in personality and change each other emotionally like this, eventually they swap over roles. The principles correlate with each other so much that they end up passing into each other and by the end of the show, Xena and Gabrielle become each other.

Section 4: A dark heart is shadowed until the light shines in.

How do the consequences of a dark past have an extremely effective influence over the thoughts and feelings of the Warrior Princess, and why isn't a guilty conscience enough for her to stay on the road to redemption and walk it without promising to her compassionate companion that she would not return to her old ways?

The introduction of the character Callisto to the show adds a much heavier layer to what is already an overwhelming story of redemption, vengeance, love, forgiveness and balance, which are to me, the main themes in the show that are reiterated repeatedly as it progresses in writing, production and direction. Callisto becomes the main villain in the show, but she isn't your run-of-the-mill evil villain. Oh, no, no, no. I like to think of Callisto as more of an antagonist than a villain. She has an extremely complicated storyline of her own that inexplicably ties in with Xena's because Xena murdered her family, or so that's what she adamantly believes. It's hard to explain or understand just how much this character is an integral reason for Xena's reformation from being an evil warlord to a heroine for good, and how the consequences of her dark past have really screwed Callisto up and turned her into, for lack of a better word, a psychopath who is absolutely bent on destroying everything that makes Xena who she is. Starting with her reputation, and eventually escalating to the people she loves and cares about in all the world. This character is so crucial to โ€˜Xena: Warrior Princess', that there is never any way to stop her even when she dies. She's that dedicated to ruining Xena and Gabrielle's lives. Callisto doesn't just want to kill Xena. She wants to kill her soul because that is what Xena has done to her. It's hard to think of Callisto as any kind of villain because you develop such sympathy for her throughout all her appearances in the show. She's so messed up in the head that you just don't think of her as an evil person, just an extremely depressed and misunderstood one. What happens to her, in the end, is something that needed to happen, and I was unbelievably happy did. She did terrible things, but she needed the opportunity to be saved and forgiven as Xena did, and fortunately, the show's producers gave her the ending she deserved.

This leads me on to what happens when Callisto meets Xena face to face for the first time in the late Season 1 episode, titled โ€˜Callisto', and how Gabrielle plays a part in stopping Xena from crumbling down in guilt and regret and letting her go because of it once they captured her. Xena doesn't blame Callisto for how she ended up, knowing that it was her own fault she became that way in the first place. Even if she didn't mean for her family to be killed in the fire her own men started against her orders all those years ago in โ€˜Cirra', Callisto's hometown, she still felt solely responsible for the consequences that followed.

There is a very important scene, which I call โ€˜The Promise' scene, from this episode where Gabrielle asks Xena to promise her that if anything happened to her in their travels together, that she would not turn away from her path of atonement, and rampage like a raving blood-lusted lunatic the way Callisto was. You see for the first time Xena's vulnerability and struggle with sensitivity. She was finding it so difficult to cry in front of Gabrielle. She tries to send her off to bed before she could see the tears streaming down her face, but Gabrielle wasn't having it. She made sure she promised her, and that she was sincere with the words. She sees the tears and tries to brush them away from her face. Xena immediately turns away from her and tells her to go to bed, but she doesn't move. Gabrielle just sits there by her side sharing her pain and accepting her for who she is now, which I find extremely powerful and beautiful. Xena has probably never encountered acceptance like that in her life before, or she wasn't paying enough attention to see it. The fact that Gabrielle refuses to leave her must have thrown her off. She left herself unguarded for the very first time in her life in front of this young woman. As the flickering flames danced before them, illuminating their faces, we see the Warrior Princess' walls down for the very first time. The Bard had succeeded in bringing out her sensitive side, if only just for a moment. This would be the beginning of a transformation so intense, it would completely change Xena's personality and mindset forevermore. Love and forgiveness would be her saving grace, and the beautiful soul sat across from her would be the reason why it happened at all.

Flashing forward to Season 4โ€ฆ When Xena lost Gabrielle she focused on trying to see her again instead of going back to her old ways. In โ€˜Adventures In The Sin Trade', while searching for her, she realizes she had to put something right that she caused to happen in her history. Keeping her promise to Gabrielle, she tells her that she can't carry on in her search for her. Sticking to โ€˜The Greater Good', as that is what she would want her to do.

The final sections to this character study thesis are to tie up loose ends in the perspective and conclude the overall point that there was a lot of logic and reasoning to give the opinion that Xena and Gabrielle are the human representation of โ€˜Yin-yang', that served on the basis of proof that they passed into and became each other in the end, as one, and will forever be together in all the alternative realities, soul reincarnations, and any denominations of the afterlife they would experience because their love was just that strong.

Section 5:ย The three-way love triangle.

How does Gabrielle and Ares' interesting dynamic significantly impact Xena, and what is it that seems to make the Warrior Princess side with the Battling Bard and reject the God of War, despite having an unwillingness to do so, and no control over the situations she's put in?

To start off, we'll talk about what it is that Gabrielle and Ares have in common if anything. Obviously, it's Xena. They both have a thing for her, but it's more than that. They both also have an influence on her in different ways. It appears that Ares is Xena's Dark side and Gabrielle is Xena's Light side. This is what I really want to explain in-depth here to show the significant changes in Xena's personality and mindset in her daily life travelling with Gabrielle and not being guided by Ares anymore. So, we've established that Gabrielle is Xena's Light. Xena even refers to her as that in โ€˜Adventures In The Sin Trade', just as she was deciding on what to do between looking for her or helping the Amazon tribe pass over into eternity. She chooses to do the latter, as she knows it's what Gabrielle would want her to do, and she dedicates that specific good deed to her later in the second part of the story, exclaiming, "This one's for you, Gabrielle." So Gabrielle's influence on Xena was for her to dedicate her time, energy and life to โ€˜The Greater Good'. Helping others and being a heroine for the world.

In Season 5, in the episode โ€˜Succession', after Gabrielle's physical transformation into a sai-wielding warrior, Ares offers Gabrielle a chance to become his โ€˜Warrior Queen', even though he has absolutely no interest in her at all when it comes to who deserves the opportunity to carry on the God of Wars' mantle. He wouldn't give it to Mavican, and at that time, she was clearly the better fighter. So why was it that he was offering the position to Gabrielle of all people? Why is he giving her a chance to prove herself as a worthy candidate? Twice, in fact, he makes this odd proposition to her. Now, this isn't really brought up in the show, but I personally think it comes down to his tendency to use people as leverage to get to others. In this case, Xena. I personally feel he had no intention of giving Gabrielle the honour of what he would gladly give Xena if she were to take it. But he knew if there was one thing that would make her take it, Gabrielle would be it. Gabrielle was his sway over her resolve. This, I believe, was a plan he was concocting for a long time since he knew that Gabrielle was her weakness, and yet the only thing that stood against him when it came to manipulating Xena into being triggered into her warlord ways again. It wasn't her father or her mother or even her son. It was always Gabrielle. Gabrielle was the ticket to getting his way, and he used her in โ€˜Succession' and โ€˜Seeds Of Faith' as a ploy to force Xena to say "yes" to being his โ€˜Warrior Queen'.

Which then leads us on to the way Gabrielle thought about Ares. Her opinion of what his constant attempts to try winning Xena over from her would ultimately do to her. It would destroy her and everything she's worked for in seeking her redemption. According to Gabrielle, he would be her downfall to be a better person. A person that wasn't necessarily good or bad, but someone who would always choose the selfish route because she wouldn't be given the choice to do the opposite. THIS WAS IT! This was why Gabrielle always won the battle for Xena's love and affection. That choice of being good or evil. Gabrielle gave her a CHOICE, whereas Ares never did. Gabrielle did not try to manipulate, condition or control Xena. What she did was something far greater than that. She showed her that living for others would be more fulfilling than living for herself. She reminded her that although she could do anything she desired, the consequences were that she would never be truly happy, and innocents would suffer. Gabrielle had so much faith in Xena, that even when she did do something wrong, she trusted that Xena could find her own way out of it when it was showcased several times in the show that she could not without her help. Xena loved her immensely for this reason and despised Ares because he provided her with no other alternative. Before Gabrielle came into Xena's life, Xena thought Ares' ways were all there was for her, and she just couldn't live with herself anymore.

So now we come to the overall impact this Light and Dark dynamic had on Xena. The events in the episode, โ€˜Chakram', told Gabrielle that Xena couldn't be entirely on one side of the spectrum or the other. She needed both her Light and Dark to be the best warrior she could be and to do the most good she could. But she didn't need Ares because Gabrielle succeeded in doing what Ares never could. That was bringing her back into the Dark enough to balance her as a person. Enough to bring her sense-of-self back. You see, despite wanting Xena to be in complete opposition to that, Gabrielle was able to understand how much both sides were needed, and the importance of that duality. This means we've uncovered something amazing to do with Gabrielle's individual influence over Xena. That Gabrielle wasn't just her Light. She was also her way of staying balanced. She was the reason the real Xena, as we know her to be, existed, as the Light cannot exist without the Dark, as previously stated in Section 3 of this thesis. Gabrielle was her balance. Her reason for existing, at least, until the moment came when she had to sacrifice her life and her happiness to follow the โ€˜Way Of The Warrior' and be ultimately redeemed.

Section 6: No going back and no way forward.

How does being in an alternative reality affect the Battling Bard's personality and mindset once she encounters Xena within it, why does she behave so differently and aggressively in this reality, and what made her make such a drastic decision to destroy โ€˜The Universe' when we, as the audience, know how much she values the peace and well-being of human life?

Gabrielle, to begin with, is idealistic, empathetic, persuasive, philosophical, spiritual, kind, compassionate, naรฏve, enthusiastic; the labels that define one being heart-orientated. That changes as the show progresses. Gabrielle becomes quite a complex character that has a lot of layers to her as she's making her transition through the show. A lot of her personality becomes very nuanced. You'll have to look quite deeply into her character to pick up her personality later in the show, much like you do with Xena in the earlier episodes. Xena, to begin with, does not put her heart on her sleeve. She is so stoic that one can't have a solid grasp on her true personality because her heart is guarded, and she protects it by being strong-minded. By not talking or expressing herself in any audible way. She has issues with showing intimacy and emotion. That starts happening to Gabrielle too with all that happens to her in Season 3 and 4. She develops that stoic-ness, only she's a lot more able to handle it because she has a lot more emotional strength and is much more expressive than Xena is. She's able to express how she feels when she's upset easier than Xena can. She's able to be that emotional person without lashing out and going way over-the-top with it or holding it all in so that eventually it all explodes anyway.

The one time when this doesn't happen, and she does indeed go over-the-top and lash out emotionally, is in the Season 6 episode โ€˜When Fates Collide'. Not only does she, in her blind rage and desperation, disregard all consequences for humanity and reality as she knew it, and destroys the alternative Universe, but she also makes it very apparent that she blames โ€˜The Fates' for the mess of the loom, and the situation her and Xena were in, rather than Caesar. That is very uncharacteristic of her. That doesn't sound like the Gabrielle we know, that would always take in all information first before making such judgement, and that would always see the good in all before accusing them of any kind of wrongdoing. What happened? Where's our compassionate gal gone? Why is this how she acts in this episode? You could make the argument that she was living such a peaceful life in this alternative Universe that any kind of brush with danger and trauma would fire her up immediately, making her extremely angry and reckless, and make her do something she would possibly end up regretting. Selfishly and heartlessly putting all of humankind aside just to vent her emotions. That is a valid argumentโ€ฆ However, I think it has more to do with the fact that Gabrielle, regardless of which Universe she's in, is one of these people that just can't be at peace with doing the same thing day in and day out, and not having any sort of surprise or shock or thrill. Not having a change in the schedule. After all, isn't that why she left her home to travel with Xena in the primary Universe? Itโ€™s because she was sick of the conservative, boring lifestyle and wanted an adventurous, exciting lifestyle where no two days were ever the same.

So, you see, it's not uncalled for that Gabrielle would react like this although it seems that way. There is sufficient reasoning behind it. But what strikes me most is how quickly she breaks the mould of the peaceful playwright, as she's known to be in this Universe, as soon as she comes into contact with Xena, who is known as the Empress Of Rome. Despite knowing her for a few candle marks at best, she is already so invested in her that she becomes this emotional and aggressive when Julius Caesar sentences Xena to death and wants to do something about the unfortunate condition she's in. We know it's because they're soulmates, but these characters don't know that. They aren't aware of everything to do with the former reality, so why is Gabrielle acting this way despite living a tranquil life? Something within her changed, and it was a quick change because in the former reality this was always her fate. That she'd never remain the Gabrielle that was innocent and sweet and calm when her karma comes to intertwine with Xena's so strongly. There was a fire in her. A rebellious attitude that was just waiting to be unleashed. This was meant to be, and somehow, she knew that. She knew that's the way it was supposed to be. So she didn't care. She chose to destroy 'The Universe' because living an entire lifetime without Xena just wasn't acceptable. Xena and Gabrielle were so much a part of each other, that it didn't matter how long or little they knew each other for in any lifetime. They were connected in every single one of them and would be for eternity. This much, made sense to Gabrielle, that nothing else was beyond or above it. She wanted to get back to the life where she never felt empty or lost or bored. She wanted Xena and she didn't care what she had to do or had to give up to get her.

It is my personal belief that Gabrielle behaved this way because it was inevitable that she would become just like Xena, as her original wish was to be just that. Xena would permeate into her personality so much that it would ultimately and completely change her emotionally. Even using such terms and phrases the likes Xena would use to get her way, such as "so be it!" For better or worse she was the other half of Xena's soul and although their personalities were so contradictory, they complemented each other so perfectly that they eventually passed into each other, so that even their personalities were the same. It really didn't matter what timeline, Universe, dimension, reincarnation or afterlife they were inโ€ฆ they still weren't balanced or whole without each other because they were one. They were one whole soul.ย 

Section 7: โ€œYouโ€™re where I belong, I belong with you.โ€

How does travelling with Xena all those years make Gabrielle feel about her, and why does she choose to be with Xena's family over her own family, or even her Amazon tribe, when she finally would be laid to rest?

In the episode from Season 6, titled โ€˜The Abyss', Gabrielle gets wounded and is on the verge of dying from pneumonia. She confesses to Xena that her dying wish was to be buried with Xena's family; Cyrene and Lyceus. This confession threw Xena off-guard, as that is probably the most tragically romantic thing you could ever say to someone. Furthermore, she explains why she'd rather be buried with Xena's family than her own. She's basically saying, "I'm dying, but I still want to be with you. You are more important to me than anyone else in my life", and that's pretty freaking intense. I do not blame Xena for the tears rolling down her cheek. It's a beautiful statement, and yet so upsetting at the same time. She has taken Gabrielle away from her family, even if she didn't mean to, and she's chastising herself mentally for it, as we see a little later in the scene where she says she's lead her on a path she was never meant to walk. To Gabrielle, she couldn't be more wrong. Gabrielle has always considered Xena her "home". She's stated several times that with and to Xena is where she belongs. Xena is her path. So it's not surprising that she would have a wish like this. It's a testament to show how much Gabrielle is invested in Xena's life. From the very start when she met her and chose to travel with her on the road, to the very end, when she stated that Xena was her whole life and that she refused to lose her.

Itโ€™s sad, but beautiful and romantic at the same time. Tragic romance. Itโ€™s kind of like โ€˜Romeo and Julietโ€™, only she never took her own life at the reality of Xena being dead and staying that way. At least, I hope she didnโ€™t, because that would be truly tragic.ย The overall point is that no matter what, Gabrielle would always choose Xena. Itโ€™s paramount to her to always be with Xena. Even in death. You donโ€™t make a statement like the one she did in this episode unless you are 100%, unequivocally, unconditionally in love with the person.

This is a character study video showcasing how much Xena and Gabrielle need each other in their lives to stay on the right path for themselves. Xena seeking her redemption and being a fighter for โ€˜The Greater Goodโ€™. Gabrielle transitioning from a simple village girl into a warrior. This video looks into what it is they most desire in their hearts. To belong. They belong to and with each other. This is a collaboration between me andย @warriorbard-always.

Conclusion: โ€œIn a flurry of snow, two breaths of wind unite and become as one, and then disappear into each other.โ€

How will Gabrielle deal with the shocking, unannounced death of her beloved, and will she respect her wish and love her enough to let her go so she can receive her ultimate redemption and an eternal rest?

After being told that Xena has to stay dead, Gabrielle goes through the motions of understanding as to why. She takes the information in and ponders it, but you can see the defiance on her face. The morally justified Bard makes a bold statement, exclaiming that she doesn't care about the 40,000 souls that would be eternally damned if Xena were brought back to life. She doesn't agree. She doesn't think it's right. She wrestles with her own code of conduct. The same code she asked Xena to stick to all those years ago in that longhouse in Tripolis when she was wounded by a poisoned arrow and had only hours to live. Back then it felt right to say โ€˜The Greater Good' was more important than her own life. But of course, it's not her own life she is losing now, is it? Gabrielle, once again, is stuck between a rock and a hard place. She must decide whether to accept the consequences of her beloved passing on into eternity or denying her an eternal rest, and her ultimate redemption. It may be the hardest choice she has ever made. The poetic verse in the title of the final section of this thesis perfectly describes exactly what happened to Xena and Gabrielle throughout the course of the entire show, which leads me to the conclusion of it. When Xena disappeared at the end of the final episode of โ€˜Xena: Warrior Princess', โ€˜A Friend In Need Part II', what happened was she transferred over the last of her spiritual essence into Gabrielle. Gabrielle had a lot of her spirit already within her, which is what allowed her to touch Xena physically when material objects like her chakram just went right through her. That didn't happen with Gabrielle because they shared a spiritual connection that was so intense, it proved to us that they are one soul in two bodies. One body of which no longer existed, but the spirit still lived on in Gabrielle, so that instead, they became one soul in one body. This meant that Gabrielle was now just as much of a capable warrior as Xena was and would be just fine on her own in carrying on the legacy of the Warrior Princess because she never really was on her own at all. Ever. Xena was always with her. She was just inside her, and therefore, had the ability to appear beside her in ethereal form, from the other side, even though she no longer had a physical body. This is just how Gabrielle remembered her in her heart. With such a graphic imagination as hers and hundreds of self-written stories describing her, she could create the exact form of the woman she fell in love with standing right beside her whenever she wanted and could still physically touch her and hold her.

At the apex of it all, Xena and Gabrielle weren't just perfectly balanced, they were also physically complete. This is the true nature of โ€˜Yin-yang'. My most personal headcanon for the show is the belief that when it did come time for Gabrielle to die, she chose to be cremated like Xena, so she could combine her ashes with Xena's. Knowing because they're soulmates, they're connected as one and will be together for eternity, in many lifetimes and beyond.

Summary: You can love someone so deeply and so intensely that you become one with them, and not only that, but you can also pass into them, so that you become them, and they become you. It's through this that you will come to the realization that you are one in the same. There was never any separation between you, and there never will be because there was never a beginning, nor will there be an end. You and them and your love can only be an end in itself, as you were always one soul in two bodies all along. This is how beautiful and powerful true love between soulmates is.

"The highest state of human love is the unity of one soul in two bodies." - Sri Aurobindo.

My character study video for Xena, detailing the challenges she went through both when she was evil and good, showing that she needed both to become the hero she does, and commit to โ€˜The Greater Goodโ€™.

Dear Xena,
You have been through so many challenges that took a toll on your heart and soul in your search for redemption. There were times when you let yourself slip back into your old ways out of anger and hatred, but with the help of your Light, you found the willpower to get yourself back on track again. You were finally able to reconcile with your Dark side, knowing that without it, you would not be the force you need to be for โ€˜The Greater Good'. You came to understand how important it was for you to stay balanced so that you would always have the skill, strength and determination to fight evil, and be the Warrior Princess we all know and love.

My character study video for Gabrielle that tookย 2 days to make. It is in dedication to my favourite character of all time, with the greatest written character development and evolution that I have ever seen in my entire life.ย Itโ€™s about time she was honoured as the true warrior and hero she is.

Dear Gabrielle,
In your immense journey in evolving into a warrior, you learned that the fighting, violence and pain was inevitable and unavoidable. Despite all you had to go through and all you've overcome, you've still managed to remain on the side of โ€˜The Greater Good', when so many things and unfair experiences that happened to you were completely the total opposite from anywhere even close to great or good. It got really Dark for you at times, yet you never lost your Light. You only ever realized that it was worth fighting for it. I respect and admire you for the huge amount of emotional strength you had to have in order to be able to stay sane. My incredible Battling Bardโ€ฆ I really hope I did you justice!
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Debate: Is Gabrielle gay or bi?

I wanted to talk about something a lot of Xenites seem to have different opinions and interpretations on. Gabrielleโ€™s sexuality throughout the ENTIRE show.ย 

Weโ€™ve established Xena is in fact bisexual and not a lesbian and this is something Lucy Lawless has confirmed herself. Xena had both MALE and FEMALE love interests and/or relationships all the way through the show. From Season 1 to Season 6. In fact this was true even before she met Gabrielle.ย 

Female love interests and/or relationships: Lao Ma, Anakin, Akemi, Mโ€™Lila, Alti and of courseโ€ฆ Gabrielle.

Male love interests and/or relationships: Borias, Ares, Marcus, Ulysses, Lucifer, Caesar, Petracles, Draco, Rafe, Iolas and of courseโ€ฆ Hercules.

If Iโ€™ve missed any, point them out. No, I do not consider Callisto to be one of her female love interests. Bitch was fucked up and Xena fucked her up. There was a sexy energy between them and a kiss between her and Callistoโ€™s โ€œillusionโ€ in โ€˜The Bitter Suiteโ€™ but clearly the characters themselves hated each otherโ€™s guts. No love and/or attraction. Alti - only when Xena was evil, possibly, I donโ€™t know. It seemed like Xena liked her anyway so Iโ€™ve put her in the list.

Now for Gabrielle (this is going to be long so read at your own digression)โ€ฆย 

Now this is purely my personal opinion of her sexuality and my interpretation with her identifying it and accepting it. A lot of Xenites believe Gabrielle to be bisexual and thatโ€™s absolutely fine. Renee Oโ€™Connor has never outright confirmed anything about Gabrielleโ€™s sexuality other than that she loved Xena with everything in her. But letโ€™s consider something I believe to be very important to determining whether she was bisexual or not. All of her male love interests and/or relationships where she RECIPROCATED all happened in Season 1 and early Season 2. After the death of Perdicus there was none. Literally none.ย 

Lin Chi, Eli, Joxer and Joxerโ€™s son Virgil are the only males that even seem interested with her past Season 2 and she never reciprocated any of them. Joxer PINED for her. We know that, and yeah, I would say if there was any male she could of had any interest for romantically/sexually it would of been him. But she didnโ€™t and she made that clear in Eternal Bonds. It was purely a brotherly/sisterly type of relationship. She loved him like he was a brother to her but he loved her way more than that. With Lin Chi, there appeared to be somewhat of a connection between them and she gave him a few smiles but again, Gabrielle made it very clear when she saidย โ€œYou know, some people think a home is a place. It can be a personโ€, which clearly she was referring to Xena. He got the message from that that he had no chance with her. As for Virgilโ€ฆ it was nothing but a drunken haze. She was definitely not interested in him. He had a thing for her much like his father but there was no reciprocation from Gabrielle at all. Okay, so thatโ€™s the male love interests out the way. ย If Iโ€™ve missed anyone, please let me know. Donโ€™t say Ares. I am not a Gabares shipper or whatever the hell you call that ship. There was nothing there at any point.

Female love interests. Now this was different in the sense that there COULD of been something that transpired between either Thalassa,ย Najara and Brunhilda as all these women evidently had interest in herโ€ฆ It seemed Gabrielle had a connection with Najara especially and if Xena didnโ€™t find out she was such a wacko, there could of been a relationship between them,ย 

She was rooted on Xena. Completely loyal to Xena. She explained to any love interests she had be it male or female that it was Xena that was her way, her โ€œpathโ€ as she referred to it. I would say her sexuality was Xena and that she was definitely a lesbian, only she didnโ€™t realize it at first. She confused her romantic/sexual attraction to Xena with hero worship in Season 1 and 2 because of the heteronormativity in her hometown and her strict religious and conservative family upbringing. It was compulsory for her to marry a man, bear his children and be the pretty little housewife. She knew she didnโ€™t want that and so she ran away with Xena to avoid it. She was truly the only gay in the village and didnโ€™t even realize it until the influence of the Amazons and her sexual/romantic endeavours with Xena. Midway Season 1 she met Perdicus again, the man she was to marry and eventually did. She said in her own wordsย โ€œI fell in love with him at Troyโ€ in Return Of Callisto when she married him. But why did she marry him? It was a straight โ€˜noโ€™ until he manipulated her by appealing to her sense of wanting to help people. He played into her attraction/fetish for that. Did she love him or did she just love the idea of him? It was a mistake and she eventually realized that after his death.ย 

She was โ€œsearchingโ€, I believe up until midway Season 4 and her physique and clothing changed to represent her newfound spirituality and I would say her acceptance on her sexuality as well. The philosophy Eli taught her. How much she listened to him. They had a strange relationshipโ€ฆ I would actually say it was more of aย โ€œmentorshipโ€, I didnโ€™t see anything even remotely romantic there between them, although the heteronormatives probably would.ย 

It was a running joke between the cast and crew that everybody loves Gabrielle. But Gabrielle only loves Xena. Throughout the entire show to me she was โ€œsearchingโ€ but eventually fully realized, accepted and embraced her gayness with Xena. She thought she had to be with a man to be happy and so she wouldnโ€™t wind up someย โ€œlonely pathetic womanโ€ as she put it. She didnโ€™t realize women were an option. Hell, does any of us that are brought up in heteronormativity realize this until we can get away from it? I certainly didnโ€™t.ย 

Thoughts? Opinions? ย Lets start a healthy debate going. Do you think Gabrielle is gay or bisexual? Explain why. Take into consideration the ENTIRETY of the show and not just Season 1 and 2.

Heads up that Steven L. Sears believes Gabrielle is a lesbian and was under comphet for the early seasons.

He says as much in the She Nerds Out Podcast.

He says sheโ€™s the character that represents people not being able to identify by their true sexuality because of the time/place and of social norms and economics.

Steven L. Sears never created the character but he is responsible for at least 80% of her individual arc.

So Iโ€™d say itโ€™s a safe bet that comphet Gabs is canon.

I got to say to add to the debate as to whether Gabrielle is gay or bisexual canonically, I do love explaining that when people point out that she had no interest back in the various female love interests she had throughout the show, that she only rejected them because of Xena. She never gives the indication that sheโ€™s not attracted to females romantically/sexually. Only that sheโ€™s not interested in them in that way because she already has a romantic/sexual partner - who is female. And the reason why the debate is whether sheโ€™s gay or bi, rather than gay or straight is because they keep this ambiguous enough between males and females. Itโ€™s easy enough to rule out that her sexuality is straight. Whatโ€™s not easy is figuring out whether sheโ€™s gay or bi, whereas this is very easy to deduce for Xena since she has both male and female romantic/sexual partners in her past and male and female love relationships/interests in her present.

I personally think the narrative makes much more sense to understand Gabrielle as a gay character but initially struggling under compulsive heterosexuality because after โ€˜The Questโ€™ (that is after the kiss with Xena and becoming Queen of the Amazons) she had absolutely no male love interests where she appeared to reciprocate romantic/sexual interest back. Only female love interests where she was clearly attracted, but very conscious of the fact that sheโ€™s with Xena (or at least romantically/sexually involved with Xena) and therefore has no desire to get involved with anyone else - male or female - after the point of โ€˜The Questโ€™.

โ€˜The Questโ€™ seemed to be what solidified things as far as where Gabrielleโ€™s romantic/sexual interests lie. And it is primarily in the โ€œfemaleโ€ category, so if she is bi, then she very heavily leans towards females more. But I think it makes more sense to understand her as gay because her character development is more profound as what her character represents is constant change.

Like I said - interpreting and viewing the show as an epic romance/love story between the main female protagonists holds much more value in watching it.

I agree with you on this. I read Gabrielle as a lesbian leaving on a conservative village and at first she didnโ€™t know it was an option. Itโ€™s very clear that she was interested in the guys she met because she wanted romance, she want the love story, and the only ones she knew was between a man and a woman so of course she was looking for men. I think this is is true even when you read Gabrielle as bi and not a lesbian.

Because she only knew romance or adventures from books she had that as reference and tried to live it out the same way she read. I agree that Perdicus manipulated her because he was interested, it was never really a thing that came from her independent of him.

Also thematically I read Gabrielleโ€™s arc as comphet lesbian figuring herself out once she can explore herself and what she wants for her life. Obviously Xena being in the center of her life helps but even without Xena, everything else that happens to her read as a lesbian characters in a time that you couldnโ€™t be open about it so they tell that story in a way they could.

I donโ€™t think that was the plan but like you wrote in your thesis about the series, I think thatโ€™s how her character developed and the way she becomes an amazon and Dahak arc and the pacifist arc, and finally understanding who she was reads very lesbian to me.

I wish we had more comphet lesbians stories from a conservative and/or religious (Iโ€™m thinking christian but it doesnโ€™t necessarily have to be) family that develops through seasons and is not the main point of the series but a important part of one of the main characters. Iโ€™ve been waiting to watch one with a character I like for so long. I wish it was Quinn Fabray, it got close but not quite even if we got non straight Quinn in glee it was still a little more than a joke and fan service not a journey through a few seasons.

I think Gabrielle hits lots of those boxes even if not as textual as I wish it was. So yeah, comphet lesbian Gabrielle is my read of her.

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Things in fandom would be a lot easier if only fans would learn how to talk to each other without offending.

This is why I stay away from โ€œstanโ€ fandoms

Iโ€™m too intelligent and mature for that bullshit.

Sometimes it gets to you no matter what ๐Ÿคฆโ€โ™€๏ธ

Not if you know how to use the block button properly.

Iโ€™ve just realized something. Itโ€™s not until the early 00โ€™s that canon long term WLW ships were permissible on screen. Xena ended in 2001. So itโ€™s technically the first canon (or as close to canon as possible for the times) longterm lead WLW ship. So it truly was the green light because thereafter fully canon long term WLW ships were starting to be represented on major TV networks.

They literally didnโ€™t exist in TV shows before Xena. ๐Ÿ˜ฎ

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Happy to see Xena and Gabrielle is on the list ๐Ÿ˜

Episode 5 of season 2. I am still not over that.

I tend to realise I ship a couple all at once after a particularly good episode, and for them that was it ๐Ÿ‘Œ

@willnotacceptalifeundeserved thatโ€™s wonderful. For me they have such a long slow burn that that really isnโ€™t something I consider to be all that significant for them.

Wait till you get to โ€˜The Questโ€™. ๐Ÿ˜š๐Ÿคญ

I have seen that episode title floating around quite a lot and somehow magically avoided spoilers ... ๐Ÿ‘€ very interesting ...

And I think I can pretty much pinpoint the exact moment or episode I started shipping all of these couples, it's kind of fun as it makes me retroactively appreciate their previous scenes more

Well what happens with Xena and Gabrielle will definitely make you think like that. I always say to people that have finished their first watch of the show to go back to it and only view it as a love story from start to finish. Itโ€™s insane how much more valuable it is.

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Things in fandom would be a lot easier if only fans would learn how to talk to each other without offending.

This is why I stay away from โ€œstanโ€ fandoms

Iโ€™m too intelligent and mature for that bullshit.

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tumblr is not social media. idk how to explain but its so calm here. like this is the field and the valleys. over there is the town and people. but here we are little sheep in our pastures eating our grass and laying in the sun <3

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Happy to see Xena and Gabrielle is on the list ๐Ÿ˜

Episode 5 of season 2. I am still not over that.

I tend to realise I ship a couple all at once after a particularly good episode, and for them that was it ๐Ÿ‘Œ

@willnotacceptalifeundeserved thatโ€™s wonderful. For me they have such a long slow burn that that really isnโ€™t something I consider to be all that significant for them.

Wait till you get to โ€˜The Questโ€™. ๐Ÿ˜š๐Ÿคญ

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@blackdalek I changed Abby and Eric to something else. As much as I shipped them when watching the show, itโ€™s not really something I think about all that much anymore. If youโ€™ve noticed, a lot of my ships are friends-to-lovers or enemies-to-lovers because I love characters that go on a huge ass journey together and the dynamic between them is all about traversing and navigating that. Not necessarily that theyโ€™re a couple.

I find ships that are only just about the lovers aspect boring. There has to be much more to them than that.

For example with Spike and Buffy. Some people ask me why I ship them when their dynamic is so negative and abusive. And I explain that shipping is not necessarily about that I want them to be a couple. I mean some would argue that Spike and Buffy never do - and for good reason - but itโ€™s the journey with them that Iโ€™m invested in. I find that very interesting and compelling regardless of whether theyโ€™re an actual couple or not.

If I just did a list of characters I like as a couple or want to be a couple, my list would be very short because thatโ€™s not really something Iโ€™m bothered about with ships at all and therefore I donโ€™t โ€œshipโ€ many of them.

Itโ€™s about the storytelling and journey between them.

Thatโ€™s why I pay attention. Actually โ€œshippingโ€ them together isnโ€™t that important to me and never will be.

That's a good insight on how you ship and why. The characters dynamic on ships are also very important to me, especially if I engage with the ship in more than just reblogging gifsets sometimes so I get it. I'm not canon oriented like you but the ships I like to engage with fanwork also have, or would have, a dynamic between the characters in the ship to me so I totally get it.

Iโ€™m not about canon either. If I was, I wouldnโ€™t love Xena and Gabrielle so much because even though everybody and their dog agrees that they are lovers - they werenโ€™t confirmed as that in the show itself. Not explicitly.

I didn't mean canon oriented as ships being canon, I mean their relationship (any kind) and their dynamic in canon so even when they are not canon, their dynamic is close to it. Like Xena/Gabrielle or Regina/Emma.

I also like that a lot but sometimes is about the potential behind it that was never explore between characters, not as a ship but just in general, maybe they didn't have that many scenes together or never hang out much in the same group, and I just think would make a good couple and I want to explore how they would mix and how their world would mix or how they could get along together as well. Idk if you have those but they don't appear much on your top 10 which doesn't necessarily mean anything because they don't exactly show up in mine, maybe Faberry but they still are intertwine in canon enough that idk if they fit lol maybe later seasons

Well. I really hate queerbaiting so a lot of them donโ€™t. No.

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@blackdalek I changed Abby and Eric to something else. As much as I shipped them when watching the show, itโ€™s not really something I think about all that much anymore. If youโ€™ve noticed, a lot of my ships are friends-to-lovers or enemies-to-lovers because I love characters that go on a huge ass journey together and the dynamic between them is all about traversing and navigating that. Not necessarily that theyโ€™re a couple.

I find ships that are only just about the lovers aspect boring. There has to be much more to them than that.

For example with Spike and Buffy. Some people ask me why I ship them when their dynamic is so negative and abusive. And I explain that shipping is not necessarily about that I want them to be a couple. I mean some would argue that Spike and Buffy never do - and for good reason - but itโ€™s the journey with them that Iโ€™m invested in. I find that very interesting and compelling regardless of whether theyโ€™re an actual couple or not.

If I just did a list of characters I like as a couple or want to be a couple, my list would be very short because thatโ€™s not really something Iโ€™m bothered about with ships at all and therefore I donโ€™t โ€œshipโ€ many of them.

Itโ€™s about the storytelling and journey between them.

Thatโ€™s why I pay attention. Actually โ€œshippingโ€ them together isnโ€™t that important to me and never will be.

That's a good insight on how you ship and why. The characters dynamic on ships are also very important to me, especially if I engage with the ship in more than just reblogging gifsets sometimes so I get it. I'm not canon oriented like you but the ships I like to engage with fanwork also have, or would have, a dynamic between the characters in the ship to me so I totally get it.

Iโ€™m not about canon either. If I was, I wouldnโ€™t love Xena and Gabrielle so much because even though everybody and their dog agrees that they are lovers - they werenโ€™t confirmed as that in the show itself. Not explicitly.

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Fuck it. I'm going to keep uploading them because I keep finding even more amazing validation. I swear I love the creators/cast/crew even more after watching these things. I didn't think that was possible.

"We just want to correct history for women and women loving women" is basically the jist of every single one of these things.

And the loose excuses are bloody hilarious to me.

NETWORK: "Why does Xena have to kiss Gabrielle?"

SHOWRUNNER: "She needs to be awakened."

NETWORK: "But why does it have to be like that?"

SHOWRUNNER: "Because it makes the most sense like that!"

NETWORK: "But... but...-"

SHOWRUNNER: "Look, are you losing viewers?"

NETWORK: "Well, no but..."

SHOWRUNNER: "Then shut up then. We know what we're doing."

Truimphed through 90's censorship? More like bulldozed over it and Xena was the one driving the vehicle, knocking down homophobes as she went. Picking up all her girlfriends on the way. This is great! ๐Ÿ˜‚

I think it's the greatest thing ever that both showrunners are like this. I wonder what Sam Raimi would say. Still haven't come across his commentary. Got shit loads from Tapert and Stewart but no Raimi.

Ted Raimi, yes. but not Sam. Yet he is an executive producer too. ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ

But more showrunners that have a WLW ship in their show need to be this damn brave and adamant. Need to really rally behind their fans. The thing is... if they do... they'll get it right back. I'll make very sure of it because I don't fucking show up for what doesn't show up for me.

@mooingwithmidnight Interesting. So what would that entail and how would Xenaโ€™s The Ring Trilogy fit into it?

Execs: You can't make Xena and Gabrielle openly lesbian!

Showrunners: We can't make Xena and Gabrielle openly lesbian?

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TARA: "Buffy, I promise there's nothing wrong with you."

BUFFY: "There has to be. This can't be me. It isn't me."

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TARA: "It's not that simple."

BUFFY: "It is. It's wrong. I'm wrong. Tell me that I'm wrong, please."

Buffy and Tara have a short but very significant dynamic. I've talked about it before when writing about Tara's use and representation in each individual dream in 'Restless'. That for Buffy Tara is a means of identifying and communicating with the deepest parts of herself. A narrative and thematic vehicle for understanding her identity and nature. The parts of herself that she doesn't love and doesn't have any appreciation for. The parts of herself that make her feel wrong and ashamed of herself. The parts of herself that she wants to escape from and hide away. 'BtVS' effectively uses the metaphor or allegory of being a supernatural being like a witch or a slayer or a werewolf or a vampire for being queer. For being an outsider. Cut off from others. Cut off from humanity. And they do it in such a way where you're not meant to believe it as such but to just acknowledge it and entertain the thought that the characters themselves think and feel this way about themselves because they're not really shown or told the contrary until they interact with each other and learn and grow together in solidarity in their experiences of being different from the norm. The writers are basically showing through characters like Buffy, Willow, Tara, Oz and Spike that the supernatural equates to queerness either in identity, sexuality, gender or just in general beingness. Just in being the person that you are. In being yourself.

There's added layers on to it when it comes to the dynamics between Buffy and Spike and Tara and Willow specifically in that it could also mean that they are actually evil in nature as well as queer but going down that route leads to controversial misinterpretations and I don't want to fall into that considering sometimes my words can get me into trouble and I end up insulting or offending a lot of people when I don't mean to. I personally think it's a compelling topical area to explore but I'm not writing this piece of writing today to explore it. Only in what it means regarding being and feeling queer in oneself and, for me, the dynamic Buffy and Tara have best represents that. I suppose for some people who haven't identified and accepted that they're queer, it can come across as feeling evil depending on their cultural background. Their family and home life in particular. And I think the episode 'Family' does a great deal for and in addressing this. Tara has, up to this point, spent her whole life being told by her biological relatives that she's evil or would turn evil. She's been gaslighted and psychologically conditioned to think, feel and believe that her identity and nature as who she is as a person naturally is wrong and is something that she should be ashamed about all because she can do magic. All because she can do things that normal people cannot do - and thus - she's not normal - she's not natural - she's not human. In some ways the demonization of being or feeling queer has a lot of significance and therefore merit in providing overwhelming narrative and thematic substance and depth for 'BtVS's clever take on characterization in a supernatural Universe.

When it comes to the episode 'Dead Things' Buffy is undergoing severe depression and is doing incredibly self-destructive things to feel something again. Something other than her deep despair at being pulled out of heaven by her friends - Tara included. She obviously doesn't like feeling the way she does when she does it but her justification for doing those self-destructive things is because she's come back to life wrong. When she goes to Tara to ask her to check out the spell that resurrected her and Tara comes back to her to tell her that she hasn't come back wrong - that she isn't wrong - she completely breaks down because now that means that she has no justification for doing what she's doing. For using Spike for sexual and emotional gratification, for neglecting her sister and letting her get injured by another one of her friends that's also fell off the wagon - so to speak - and is also involving herself in self-destructive relationships and behaviours with being addicted to magic and numbing herself to her experience, for not making an effort. All of this now is something that she has to question herself on. That if there's not something wrong with her mentally - why is she like this? Why is she doing this? She's just at a complete loss for logic, for reason, for understanding. It's a very effective and meaningful allegory for being queer and not understanding why. Especially because it's Tara she's crying into the lap of in that moment who is queer and can completely empathise with Buffy's experience of being attracted to somebody who she shouldn't be attracted to. And there is a line of dialogue that was removed from the final cut of the scene that explicitly compares Tara being a lesbian and having romantic/sexual feelings for girls to Buffy having feelings for Spike. She gets it because she's been there. She's felt that way too. May even still does even if she's fully out and fully accepted her sexuality. But she knows all too well what it's like to feel wrong for being queer.

Therefore there's a lot to glean about Buffy and Tara's dynamic and what it represents, what its significance is, despite being so short and non-detailed. You could even go as far as saying the metaphor or allegory isn't really one at all because Buffy is actually queer in both identity and sexuality. I mean the narrative hints at this being truth enough times in the show that you could definitely see it happening or becoming a possibility at some point in her character arc. And you know, with the whole Faith thing, it's not exactly well hidden either. Even though I don't ship them at all, Buffy and Faith definitely have something romantic/sexual there that all but makes the metaphor or allegory negated as far as sexuality goes. Identity is another story. And one of Buffy's core themes for her characterization is identity - which is why the Tara = witch/Buffy = slayer parallels work so well and why they so brilliantly convey the notion of queer/gay solidarity.

As for whether that makes them evil or means that they can be evil... that's a topic better left alone but I think it does present a compelling case study for a queer person's experience when they do not understand nor accept themselves for being as they naturally are, which I think is something that makes a lot of sense for the character arcs of Willow, Spike and Oz too in that they have trouble reconciling with their dark sides and that there's much of themselves that they suppress or repress so they don't have to feel like who they are is wrong or evil or a burden to the ones they love and that love them. And that they can be involved and fully connect with others healthily as opposed to destroying themselves and each other in the process like Buffy and Spike do so frequently in their S6 enemies-to-lovers dance of death, abuse and pain sorely mistaken for life, love and pleasure.

There's definitely a compelling case study for all of that to be unpacked and I probably will unpack it at some point once I can figure out how to articulate it so that it doesn't come off as offensive to the people who identify themselves to any of these characters because my intention is never to offend. Only to teach and enlighten. Okay, maybe I don't have the right or authority to do that but I write my meta for me just as much as I do for other people and so I certainly have the right and authority to teach and enlighten myself. And if I feel that I want to write about that topic at some point, I will. And I will do so through the fiction of art/entertainment and my favourite characters because that's the best way that I know how. If it comes across as offensive, all I can do is apologize for it but all I'm intentionally trying to do with doing it is expand my consciousness. I'm an INTP, a Virgo and Claircognizant - this is just how things work with me. I need to write to get a better understanding of who I am. My wording isn't the greatest, I know that. But I'm trying my best. So please - if you read what I write and you feel offended by it, reach out to me and I WILL explain to you that my heart is in the right place. That I just want to learn and understand and evolve. That's all it is.

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Rules: Without naming them, post a gif of ten of your favourite ships (any media), then tag ten people to do the same.

Tagged by @girl4music. Thank you.

at least it's a ship right NOW

I love how most people that are doing this thing put Xena and Gabrielle. Shows you how iconic they are.

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Perhaps what really sets Xena and Gabrielle apart from all other WLW ships in TV art/entertainment is the fact that the creators kept up putting obstacles in their way or come up with ways to divert their paths from and to each other and it never made any difference because the narrative itself was showing that it cannot happen.

I mean they face the biggest, highest, deepest conflicts but absolutely nothing could destroy or deter their love for and devotion to each other. Not even death or injury.

When so many WLW ships end up broken or in tragedy in TV art/entertainmentโ€ฆ the Universe in Xena either says that itโ€™s not possible or it cannot remain that way. They might part ways but theyโ€™ll inevitably come back together because thatโ€™s just the way of their destinies.

That fact is brought up so succinctly in โ€˜The Ringโ€™ by Gabrielle to Brunhilda - who believes she can be the one to break that design - only to end up reinforcing it. Only to have a conclusion of being part of the design that proves Xena and Gabrielle cannot remain separated.

โ€œXena and I have a connection. Itโ€™s stronger than either one of us. Weโ€™re soulmates โ€ฆ Xena and I are meant to be together. We didnโ€™t make it that way. It just is.โ€œ

Xena and Gabrielleโ€™s love is the beating heart of the entire show quite simply and honestly because there wouldnโ€™t even be a show without it because thereโ€™d be no characters to have that show with. Itโ€™s fundamental.

Doing and committing to such a daring concept as that always results in a very deep and strong epic love story.

But guess what? Apart from a rare beloved few (I can count some on one hand and hope to discover others) - thatโ€™s never WLW. Thatโ€™s why Xena is so damn iconic in the LGTBQ+ community. Theyโ€™re relentless with this.

With showing you that true love between women wins.

@blackdalek This is what I mean. Obviously I actually ship this couple but I really wouldnโ€™t without all the other stuff involved. Without the journey in between.

@blackdalek I changed Abby and Eric to something else. As much as I shipped them when watching the show, itโ€™s not really something I think about all that much anymore. If youโ€™ve noticed, a lot of my ships are friends-to-lovers or enemies-to-lovers because I love characters that go on a huge ass journey together and the dynamic between them is all about traversing and navigating that. Not necessarily that theyโ€™re a couple.

I find ships that are only just about the lovers aspect boring. There has to be much more to them than that.

For example with Spike and Buffy. Some people ask me why I ship them when their dynamic is so negative and abusive. And I explain that shipping is not necessarily about that I want them to be a couple. I mean some would argue that Spike and Buffy never do - and for good reason - but itโ€™s the journey with them that Iโ€™m invested in. I find that very interesting and compelling regardless of whether theyโ€™re an actual couple or not.

If I just did a list of characters I like as a couple or want to be a couple, my list would be very short because thatโ€™s not really something Iโ€™m bothered about with ships at all and therefore I donโ€™t โ€œshipโ€ many of them.

Itโ€™s about the storytelling and journey between them.

Thatโ€™s why I pay attention. Actually โ€œshippingโ€ them together isnโ€™t that important to me and never will be.

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