But still beautiful. Still Dean Winchester.

it always ‘ily’ never ‘cihychmtwyaintlissyymbfbijlygciwetaiwwiidkwigsaijkiktiijabtawtgbijicoaicicsinmhbhbiwtijcsiaaifyocifyisitmslisitmtntsiciss’

wait a fucking minute.

so billie, who has established before that she can and WILL yeet dean winchester into the empty as soon as he dies, meets dean when he k*lls himself in 13x05. and comes to the revelation that dean WANTS to die.

dean who can’t get over cas’s death, who prayed to god for cas back, and knows that dying means he will get sent to the empty, decides to k*ll himself in the middle of a standard MOTW case knowing full well he may not come out of this alive, but knows exactly where he’s going. and who’s going to be there.

So Deans true happiness was in having him, not in saying it. He could have said it, it was THEE moment to do so, but he was happy with having him back. The first time of the season. So he swallowed his emotions. The tears in his eyes.

And Sam knows. He knows.

Cas is the hum and the light of an old tube TV illuminating a living room, volume practically muted because of the late hour. Sam is the sound of the birds chirping and the deer looking for the right place to curl up as the sun starts rising in the sky. Jack is the sunlight that shines directly in the windows during midday, making patches of extra warm spots as the room's temperature rises & almost lulls you into a nap. Dean is the bright blurs of the street lamps you watch with your head leaning against the glass car window as you travel down an empty stretch of road & a light patter of rain falls on the world around you.

oh they REALLY had dean carry his dead bride over the threshold of a house that’s not theirs and wrap him in a funeral shroud and those pastel yellow curtains and then he scattered his ashes at an idyllic spot for a lover’s picnic like what the fuck is wrong with SPN

FOR THE FIRST TIME ALL SEASON. HE IS HAPPY

happiness isn't in the having. it's in just being

Ugh. He wears his dads jacket. He wears his dads jacket. And it doesn’t even fit.

draw ALL the versions of destiel

hopefully it’s obvious which dean this is (hopefully it’s obvious that it’s dean, since his face is giving me problems rn)

edit: this was intended to be 2009 dean but it could be viewed either way now that i think about it. so… yep

Did someone say Cas in a meadow?

[Field of forget-me-nots photo credit]

@hannahcoded had the idea that angel ashes could be a force for creation (like Anna's angel grace), leading Cas to wake up in a meadow of flowers when there was only grass before. And I said to myself, well what if it was- What if blue forget-me-nots grew where Cas' ashes were spread?

@bikerdean you. You get it

AU where spn is the same except it’s an open secret that dean is bisexual and frequently hooks up with men. like it’s something everyone knows but We Do Not Talk About. 

john ignores it altogether. sam sometimes tries to bring it up after stanford and have like a Moment with dean about it but dean is not having it. sometimes on cases they bump into other hunters dean has hooked up with or really wants to hook up with and there’s that same kind of flirting dean does with other men in canon except now there’s also the occasional sex scene. 

then after cas is introduced in season 4 and sam meets him for the first time and sees the way his brother looks at him, he flat out tells dean,

“don’t fuck the angel.”

“i’m not gonna fuck the angel,” dean says, outraged, because he’s comfortably bi but cas is still this unknown entity who scares and fascinates him in equal measures.

then, a few episodes later, once they’re a bit closer and dean is seeing cas as like an actual person, he goes up to sam and says,

“heads up, i’m probably gonna fuck the angel.”

y’know what fuck it. it needs to be said. cain’s a dilf. daddy of murder’s a dilf and i’m not going to continue pretending like he isn’t the most fuckable senior citizen here

recolored these screencaps and it was really hard because every second spent looking at this much raw love felt like another kick to the lungs thank you💗

winchester derangement syndrome patient zero, or, what losing dean winchester does to a mfer