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π’Šπ’π’•π’ 𝒕𝒉𝒆 π’…π’‚π’“π’Œ

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greatundoings asked:

MELANCHOLY: receiver shares a childhood memory with sender β€” thisla fml

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malboraslihan answered:

πŸ’—Β Β Β π•π€π‹π„ππ“πˆππ„'𝐒  π–π„π„πŠΒ  ππ‘πŽπŒππ“π’

chill Β  breeze Β  hits Β  him Β  as Β  soon Β  as Β  he Β  opens Β  the Β  door, Β  nose Β  scrunching Β  as Β  he Β  adjusts Β  to Β  the Β  weather, Β  inhaling Β  quick Β  breaths Β  for Β  a Β  moment Β  before Β  he Β  manages Β  to Β  gather Β  himself. Β  it Β  wasn't Β  usually Β  like Β  this Β  β€” Β  overwhelming Β  β€” Β  to Β  be Β  around Β  isla's Β  family. Β  saved Β  for Β  a Β  couple Β  months Β  that Β  followed Β  their Β  break Β  up Β  and Β  the Β  few Β  arguments Β  with Β  milo, Β  the Β  glances Β  coming Β  her Β  parents Β  held Β  a Β  glimpse Β  of Β  care Β  that Β  he Β  didn't Β  deserve Β  anymore. Β  and Β  then Β  again Β  the Β  moment Β  he Β  stepped Β  out Β  of Β  rehab, Β  welcoming Β  him Β  with Β  open Β  arms Β  despite Β  everything Β  he Β  had Β  put Β  her, Β  and Β  them, Β  by Β  proxy, Β  through. Β  she Β  was Β  kind Β  enough Β  to Β  allow Β  him Β  back Β  into Β  her Β  life Β  and Β  they Β  followed. Β  no Β  wariness Β  expressed Β  for Β  him Β  to Β  see. spending Β  time Β  with Β  them Β  was Β  a Β  given Β  from Β  the Β  moment Β  they Β  started Β  dating, Β  many Β  years Β  ago. Β  isla Β  was Β  close Β  with Β  her Β  parents Β  in Β  a Β  way Β  he Β  couldn't Β  understand, Β  not Β  because Β  they Β  didn't Β  deserve Β  it Β  but Β  because Β  he Β  had Β  never Β  experienced Β  it, Β  or Β  witnessed. Β  sure, Β  there Β  were Β  parts Β  of Β  the Β  sykes' Β  routine Β  that Β  matched Β  his Β  own Β  at Β  home. Β  the Β  family Β  dinners, Β  the Β  house Β  packed Β  for Β  christmas' Β  eve Β  and Β  the Β  big Β  birthday Β  parties. Β  but Β  they Β  were Β  never Β  quite Β  the Β  same. Β  he Β  had Β  never Β  seen Β  isla's Β  mom Β  walk Β  back Β  to Β  her Β  room Β  with Β  her Β  head Β  down Β  after Β  her Β  dad Β  had Β  a Β  few Β  too Β  many Β  drinks. Β  things Β  were Β  different Β  at Β  her Β  house. Β  their Β  parties Β  were Β  just Β  as Β  loud, Β  but Β  for Β  different Β  reasons. Β  their Β  christmas' Β  tree Β  was Β  filled Β  with Β  presents, Β  but Β  things Β  they Β  actually Β  bought Β  for Β  each Β  other Β  and Β  not Β  picked Β  from Β  some Β  magazine's Β  list Β  of Β  most Β  purchased Β  toys Β  for Β  kids. Β  they Β  were Β  warm, Β  even Β  if Β  one Β  of Β  their Β  favorite Β  family Β  tradition Β  was Β  to Β  be Β  stuck Β  in Β  a Β  cabin Β  in Β  aspen Β  during Β  the Β  holidays. he Β  doesn't Β  have Β  to Β  look Β  up Β  to Β  know Β  who's Β  walking Β  into Β  the Β  balcony Β  as Β  he Β  hears Β  the Β  door Β  sliding Β  again, Β  face Β  softening Β  before Β  he Β  searches Β  her Β  eyes. Β  an Β  apologetic Β  look Β  reaches Β  his Β  face, Β  followed Β  by Β  a Β  deep Β  exhale Β  he Β  can't Β  contain. Β  he Β  knew Β  she'd Β  follow, Β  just Β  as Β  he Β  knew Β  their Β  presence Β  would Β  be Β  noticed Β  by Β  everyone Β  else. Β  and Β  he Β  hated Β  it. Β  putting Β  a Β  damp Β  on Β  their Β  celebrations, Β  even Β  if Β  he Β  knew Β  they'd Β  go Β  out Β  of Β  their Β  way Β  to Β  assure Β  him Β  he Β  wasn't Β  doing Β  it. Β  theo Β  slides Β  to Β  the Β  side Β  on Β  the Β  couch, Β  opening Β  up Β  space Β  for Β  isla Β  and Β  wrapping Β  his Β  arm Β  around Β  her Β  body Β  as Β  soon Β  as Β  she's Β  close Β  enough. Β  " Β  i'll Β  go Β  back Β  in Β  a Β  bit, Β  i Β  promise. Β  i'm Β  fine Β  " Β  and Β  he Β  was, Β  or Β  he Β  would Β  be. Β  a Β  few Β  minutes Β  of Β  silence Β  was Β  all Β  he Β  needed, Β  a Β  few Β  minutes Β  to Β  reorganize Β  his Β  thought Β  and Β  remind Β  himself Β  where Β  he Β  was Β  and Β  how Β  he Β  got Β  there Β  β€” Β  and Β  all Β  the Β  other Β  seven Β  steps Β  his Β  therapist Β  had Β  walked Β  him Β  through Β  so Β  many Β  times.
Β  silence Β  sits Β  between Β  them Β  for Β  a Β  beat Β  and Β  he Β  can Β  feel Β  worry Β  radiating Β  off Β  of Β  her Β  body, Β  even Β  as Β  she Β  attempts Β  to Β  hide Β  it Β  by Β  burying Β  her Β  head Β  against Β  his Β  neck. Β  " Β  nothing Β  happened, Β  it's Β  justβ€” Β  " Β  his Β  voice Β  crack Β  and Β  he Β  hates Β  it, Β  even Β  more Β  now. Β  his Β  attempt Β  to Β  assure Β  her Β  fails Β  before Β  he Β  even Β  starts. Β  he's Β  back Β  at Β  start Β  before Β  he Β  tries Β  again, Β  quick Β  breaths Β  as Β  arm Β  falls Β  down Β  from Β  her Β  shoulder Β  to Β  reach Β  for Β  her Β  hand, Β  intertwining Β  their Β  fingers Β  and Β  tucking Β  them Β  safely Β  into Β  the Β  pocket Β  of Β  his Β  jacket. Β  " Β  i'm Β  really Β  glad Β  your Β  christmas' Β  eve Β  looks Β  like Β  that Β  " Β  he Β  whispers, Β  ignoring Β  the Β  pressure Β  that Β  grows Β  behind Β  his Β  eyes. Β  " Β  it Β  means Β  our Β  kids Β  will Β  have Β  that Β  someday Β  " Β  there's Β  a Β  hint Β  of Β  a Β  grin Β  that Β  grows Β  across Β  his Β  face Β  with Β  the Β  thought, Β  of Β  their Β  family Β  having Β  something Β  nicer Β  than Β  what Β  he Β  was Β  given. Β  " Β  i Β  don't Β  think Β  i Β  ever Β  had Β  both Β  of Β  my Β  parents Β  home Β  for Β  christmas, Β  unless Β  we Β  were Β  spending Β  with Β  some Β  other Β  family Β  " Β  and Β  even Β  then, Β  they Β  would Β  still Β  find Β  ways Β  to Β  ignore Β  him. Β  " Β  this Β  is Β  nice, Β  i Β  promise Β  " Β  overwhelming, Β  but Β  definitely Β  nice. Β  a Β  type Β  of Β  happiness Β  he Β  would Β  have Β  to Β  get Β  used Β  to.
a Β  few Β  minutes Β  pass Β  without Β  him Β  saying Β  anything Β  else, Β  his Β  breath Β  slowing Β  down Β  as Β  thumb Β  draws Β  small Β  circles Β  against Β  her Β  skin. Β  he Β  presses Β  a Β  kiss Β  on Β  the Β  top Β  of Β  her Β  head, Β  inhaling Β  the Β  scent Β  of Β  shampoo Β  combined Β  with Β  something Β  he Β  can't Β  quite Β  pinpoint, Β  maybe Β  the Β  smell Β  of Β  the Β  cookies Β  she Β  tried Β  to Β  bake Β  with Β  maddie Β  earlier. Β  " Β  milo Β  was Β  definitely Β  hiding Β  a Β  card Β  under Β  his Β  seat Β  " Β  he Β  mutters, Β  all Β  of Β  the Β  sudden, Β  offering Β  a Β  smile Β  when Β  she Β  finally Β  looks Β  up Β  to Β  him. Β  there's Β  a Β  bit Β  of Β  fake Β  confidence Β  feeding Β  him Β  right Β  now Β  but Β  he Β  doesn't Β  care. Β  he Β  wouldn't Β  want Β  her Β  to Β  spend Β  any Β  more Β  minutes Β  outside Β  because Β  of Β  him, Β  almost Β  as Β  much Β  as Β  he Β  doesn't Β  wanna Β  miss Β  out Β  on Β  the Β  warm Β  her Β  family Β  is Β  offering Β  him Β  in Β  the Β  living Β  room Β  right Β  now. Β  " Β  he Β  always Β  tucks Β  it Β  down Β  when Β  you Β  take Β  a Β  sip, Β  keep Β  the Β  eyes Β  out Β  " Β  he Β  carries Β  on Β  the Β  subject, Β  rising Β  from Β  the Β  couch Β  and Β  pulling Β  her Β  hand Β  with Β  him, Β  offering Β  another Β  assuring Β  smile Β  before Β  pressing Β  a Β  kiss Β  to Β  her Β  lips. Β  " Β  let's Β  go, Β  i'll Β  watch Β  him Β  for Β  you Β  this Β  time Β  "
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#isla / theo#malboraslihan#no i’m so sick#when he brought up their kids#ugh my babies#the sykes family is ji’s family now#they’re gonna love him so good
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don’t understand where people get the energy to be an active participant in their own lives. the days just happen to me for real

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