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a way of understanding

@hardly-an-escape

"Fantasy is hardly an escape from reality. It's a way of understanding it." — Lloyd Alexander
she/her ~ 30s ~ fandom sideblog ~ 70% reblogs 20% shitposting 10% I actually write things
AO3 profile here.
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  • who are you? I'm Nora. I'm an adult. I like thunderstorms and cooking and getting excited about things.
  • what's your deal? I write things sometimes and have feelings about things nearly all the time. this is a sideblog so there are limitations inherent to the medium (ie you’re not getting followed by this blog I’m sorry).
  • fandoms? right now, mainly The Sandman (Dreamling) and 9-1-1 (BuckTommy), but also Dead Boy Detectives, The Witcher, Stranger Things, a bit of MCU (Stucky and Clintasha), and some others sprinkled in here and there.
  • NSFW? yes. I do my best to tag thoroughly, but this blog as a whole should be considered NSFW.
  • important links? well! since you asked.... my AO3 (fics are locked, DM if you need an invite) my Dreamling fic masterlist my BuckTommy fic masterlist my Dreamling Bingo 2023 masterpost my Dreamling Bingo 2024 masterpost my writing tag for the full unedited experience
  • what's your icon? this adorable Dreamling art by @mayhemspreadingguy
  • what if I'm a terf and/or a fascist? fuck off and lie down in traffic and block me.
  • what's the airspeed velocity of an unladen swallow? you know, I'm actually a big fan of pineapple on pizza and I don't care who knows it.
#about me#pinned post#I feel like this is a little more streamlined than the old one
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if you've tagged me in a writing game in the last..... while. thank you and I'm sorry I haven't gotten to it. my brain is soup and that's probably not likely to change any time soon. I've been working a lot and we have some crazy stressful real life stuff going on right now and all my downtime is basically spent trying to turn off my brain... I simply haven't had much energy for creative pursuits I'm afraid. but I see your tags and I appreciate it so much <3

#my writing
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I’ve been waiting for this.

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I deleted my other post because I realised it made it sound like I made this meme - which I didn’t! Finally found the original post but can’t find my reblog sadly.

Anyway this meme was how I first found out about bucktommy. I remember reblogging it like - I don’t go here but I’m so happy for you all! - hadn’t watched 911 a day in my life and barely knew who Evan Buckley was!

I think I wrote my first 911 fic a month and a half later. Now look at me 😆🤦‍♀️

JK. I love it here ❤️🥰

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and then you dragged me down with you (and I’m so glad you did 😍)

#bucktommy
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One year. It’s been one year since Buck realized that he’s bi; one year since this missing piece of him slotted into place, since this thing that’s been clouding his vision his whole life came into focus. One year since he stopped flinching away from this thing inside of him. One year since he settled, soft and happy, into this deeper acceptance of himself.

He’s bigger now. He stands taller; head held high and shoulders pushed back. He’s not afraid of his own size, doesn’t try to make himself look smaller and tighter. His clothes are baggier than he’s ever worn them. He doesn’t need to hide or to show off: being comfortable is enough. His hair is longer, more natural. He doesn’t spend half an hour every morning blowing it straight and fussing over standing it up just so. He washes it, puts some product in, and allows it the freedom to do what it wants. It looks better now, he thinks. He looks better now. For one year, Buck has been able to look into a mirror and finally see himself as he is.

One year since Tommy kissed him and the press of those lips finally calmed some restless part of him down after decades of it screaming and shifting and acting out. He gets it now, why he looks at some men and flushes warm. He understands that the feeling in the pit of his stomach isn’t envy or rage or awe but lust, pure and simple. He understands it so well that he’s a little embarrassed he hadn’t put the pieces together on his own. Putting a name to the feeling has made it less scary. Putting a name to the feeling has made it beautiful.

It’s been one year, and his life is so radically different now that he feels a little dizzy with it. But it’s not a disorienting dizziness, not a nauseating one; more like he’s at the top of a tall mountain looking down with perfect clarity, or like the mist he’s fought his whole life to see through has dissipated, and everything is coming into view. Sure, Eddie and Chris are gone and he’s still broken up with Tommy, but even with that wrongness there’s still something that tells Buck he’s moving in the right direction. He’s learning, he’s trying, he’s waiting. He’s ready, he’s open, and now he knows what he wants.

It’s been a year since the last time Buck questioned what he was ready for. He knows now. He’s just waiting for his next opportunity to grab it.

#evan buckley#fic rec#happy bi buckiversary#lovely ♥️
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Reblogged tj-dragonblade
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me, vibrating out of my skin : hey can I talk to you about this piece of media real quick? I pinky promise I'll be So Normal about it, like there's no reason to be concerned that this will turn into a three hour long monologue. Like I Prommy that I'm not gonna be a freak about it.

#sometimes my real life bestie will ask me about my Fandom Activities#(which she knows about but does not really participate in herself)#and I can tell it's because she thinks I need enrichment in my enclosure and it's so sweet and weird and I love it#fandom
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Reblogged newtkelly
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pinch hit hero (4/4)

buck x tommy | porn star AU | rated e | est. 35k words

available on ao3 here

A stylized graphic fades onto the screen: Station 118 Presents… Blind Dates. Behind the text, Buck lounges on a bed in a pair of basketball shorts and a t-shirt. “I’m pumped,” he says with a laugh as the title card fades away. He bounces on the mattress, shifting his weight to cross his legs. “No, yeah, I’m not gonna bother to play it cool. I’m fucking psyched.” Footage cuts to Tommy, sitting alone on the same bed in a loose-fitting tank top and a pair of gray sweatpants. His attention is fixed somewhere off-camera, but there’s a faint smile on his face. “I didn’t know he filmed with men,” Tommy says in response to an unheard question, “so this wasn’t even a vague possibility in the back of my mind. But I’m— yeah, I’m excited. He’s a great guy.” - or: the aftermath
#hallelujah#wait it’s lent I’m not supposed to say that#anyway read this fic it’s so hot and so so so good#bucktommy#fic rec
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