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hidey | they/them | 20s | eng/中文
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guardian/镇魂, the first shot/雪迷宫

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“i’m not the same as who i was before [x] thing happened to me” does it help to know that you would not have stayed that person regardless

added a graphic to elaborate on the specifics of what i’m trying to say.

basically, everybody changes all the time for all sorts of reasons. don’t let the myth of static selfhood trick you into thinking you’re unworthy. the only way to go is forward, which would be the case no matter what, and that’s okay.

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To Be Hero X Characters + Name Meanings

Grabbed these images from the official website and thought I’d share them here for easy reference. Characters are listed by their hero ranking:

Edit: The rankings from the site are actually by fan popularity, oops

1. X

2. Queen

女王 (Nǚ Wáng) = Literally, female wang/king. But yeah, it’s just the word Queen

3. Lucky Cyan

幸运青 (Xìngyùn Qīng) = Xingyun is “lucky,” while Qing refers to a color that can either be green or blue, so it’s often translated as azure or cyan.

4. Nice

奈斯 (Nài Sī) = transliteration of his name, but dictionary definition of nai is “how can one help”

5. Ghostblade

默杀 (Mò Shā) = Silent Kill

6. Dragon Boy

梁龙 (Liáng Lóng) = dictionary definition is “diplodocus,” which is uuhh a type of dinosaur. A big one. But literally, the name means “bridge dragon.”

7. The Johnnies

大小强 (Dà Xiǎo Qiáng) = Literally, Big Little Strong. But “Little Strong” is slang for cockroach. They’re called as such because of how hard they are to kill. (thank you @rainibao for explaining this!)

Edit: Okay, apparently it’s Da Xiao Qiang coz there’s one Big (Da) and one Little (Xiao). Xiaoqiang is just an unfortunate coincidence 😂

8. E-Soul

魂电 (Hún Diàn) = Hun refers to the immortal soul (one that can be detached from the body), which is in contrast to the Po (mortal soul attached to the body). Dian means electric.

9. Loli

罗莉 (Luó Lì) = transliteration of Loli, but literally means gauze/collect + jasmine

10. Ahu

阿虎 (Ā’Hǔ) = a/ah is a prefix used before monosyllabic names to indicate familiarity, while hu means… tiger

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i’m soooo normal about two people fucking but thinking of someone else the whole time i’m soooo normal about it. wanting someone unhaveable so badly you jam another body into the mold. as if personhood works that way. ough

It is simply not fulfilling to enjoy media in the height of its popularity. You need to show up so late to the party that everybody else is gone and the hosts are asleep so you can rummage through their trash for chip dip and stale hors d’oeurves to eat alone in the dark like a dirty little raccoon secret

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do y'all write like this? (this is for one chapter. I can only go chapter by chapter or I will lose motivation)

  • outline, outline, outline
  • write a version of the chapter that is "John went over here. John said this. John felt this. John wanted this." Some flashes of usable dialogue/narration, but most of it is quite bad! I can't skip this phase with stuff like "[something cool happens here]." I won't write anything that way.
  • revise revise revise
  • basically, translate all of the "placeholder" narration into actual narration. (like isn't that penultimate chapter of Persuasion by Jane Austen placeholder narration bc she died and didn't get to revise it????)
  • Filter words! Show not tell!
  • Then put in bolded, highlighted notes that yell things like [SUBVERT EXPECTATIONS!!!!!] who tf am i yelling at
  • print out the chapter to revise again. I print out everything. This is the Jokes Pass where I'm like "heh heh...how do i make this funny"
  • I finish a chapter, but because I'm going chapter by chapter I know I'll have to go back and go over the entire novel to make it cohesive
  • revise it again like two weeks later to procrastinate working on next chapter
  • i feel like i write like a comic book artist draws lmao. "Oh you gotta sketch the thing then refine it when you do pencils and then you ink it and color"

@doodlebug-aboo YES. NO LIKE, EXACTLY!!!! YOUR TAGS!!!!

With writing I am taking a full-ass sketch and lowering the opacity to 5% and hitting ctrl+Z trying to draw pencils like "uhhh okay. Uhhh okay. Ummm yeah that looks right. Uhhhhhh fix later."

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watching this interview where zhu yilong got asked what part of the guardian novel left the deepest impression on him and he just DODGED THE QUESTION >:(

No no sir pls do tell us about those ‘small changes’ i’d love to hear you explain. Also pls do tell us what part of the novel you read that finally convinced you that the only right way to play shen wei (correct btw) was to look at your costar as if you wanted to eat him? We’re waiting!

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