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ᴘᴏᴡᴇʀ ᴄᴏᴜᴘʟᴇChoi Su Bong

social media au || cupid3clipse

a/n : ignore the fact that this took about like two weeks to do.. this is js part one and there is more to come, lmk what u guys think of this feel free to give feedback. also i was wondering if i should add the rest of the thanos group (se mi, min su, gyeong su) and maybe the others? LET ME KNOW!!! hope u guys liked this xx

seven, blurry steps

6386 words

The first thing Seorin noticed when she stirred awake was the heaviness in her body. It wasn't the comforting kind, the sort that came from being wrapped in warm blankets or from the deep exhaustion of a long journey. No—this was different. This was the kind of weight that settled deep in her limbs, making her feel like she was sinking into the hard wooden floor beneath her.

Then came the dull, relentless pounding in her head.

It was a slow, rhythmic throb, pressing against the inside of her skull like a steady drumbeat, dull but unshakable. It wasn't the sharp kind of headache she got when she was dehydrated, nor the fleeting discomfort of waking up too fast. This was heavier. More persistent. More wrong.

Her eyelids fluttered open, and immediately, her vision swayed.

The dim glow of early morning trickled in through the tiny window above, casting the small room in a soft, bluish-gray hue. The outlines of the furniture—the old wooden dresser, the small television, the fan humming steadily in the corner—blurred at the edges before sharpening again as she blinked.

The next thing she became aware of was the warmth surrounding her.

Hae-Jo.

His arm was still draped over her waist, his chest a steady, solid presence against her back. His breaths were deep and slow, fanning lightly against the nape of her neck. He smelled like faded cologne, clean cotton, and something distinctly him—something familiar, something that sent an ache through her chest.

If she closed her eyes, if she ignored the pounding in her head, she could almost pretend it was years ago, back when she would wake up every morning just like this. Back when she didn't have to miss him.

But she couldn't ignore it.

She couldn't ignore the growing discomfort in her body, the way her stomach felt unsettled—not quite nauseous, but as if something wasn't sitting right. She shifted slightly, and the dull ache in her joints became more noticeable. There was a strange tension in her fingers, as if they were stiff, like she had been clenching them in her sleep.

She swallowed, realizing belatedly how dry her throat felt.

Something was wrong.

Carefully, she moved to slip out from under Hae-Jo's arm, but the moment she shifted, his fingers tightened around her hip instinctively.

A low, sleepy grumble rumbled in his throat. "Mm... where are you going?"

His voice was thick with sleep, raspy and warm against her ear.

Seorin hesitated. "Just... bathroom."

He made a low hum in response, his grip loosening just enough for her to escape.

She barely managed to push herself upright before the dizziness hit.

The room swayed, the walls seeming to tilt for just a moment before steadying again.

She sucked in a slow breath, pressing a hand against the floor to ground herself. Breathe. Just breathe.

Forcing herself to her feet, she made her way toward the small bathroom in the corner, each step heavier than the last. By the time she reached the sink, her fingers were trembling.

She gripped the edge of the worn porcelain, staring at herself in the tiny mirror above it.

Her reflection didn't look right.

Her skin was paler than usual, her lips slightly chapped. But what unsettled her the most was her eyes—the slight puffiness around them, the dark shadows that seemed deeper than before.

Her breath came out shakily as she lifted a hand to her cheek, pressing lightly against the skin. It wasn't a dramatic difference, but she could tell. Something was off.

A wave of exhaustion rolled over her, so sudden that she had to brace herself against the sink.

She reached for the faucet with trembling fingers, twisting the handle until cold water gushed out. She cupped some in her hands, splashing it over her face, hoping the shock of it would clear her mind.

It helped—only slightly.

Her stomach twisted uncomfortably.

She wasn't panicking yet. No, not yet. But there was a quiet, creeping fear slithering into her thoughts, whispering things she didn't want to hear.

What if something's wrong?

What if this isn't normal?

She had read about pregnancy symptoms, about fatigue and dizziness. But this—this felt different. This felt like her body was trying to tell her something.

She closed her eyes, taking another slow breath.

A soft creak sounded behind her.

Her eyelids snapped open, her heart lurching slightly as she turned.

Hae-Jo stood in the doorway, his silhouette outlined by the dim morning light. His hair was disheveled from sleep, his jeans hanging low on his hips, his shirt wrinkled from where he had been curled up against the blankets. His gaze was laced with drowsy concern, his sharp eyes scanning her face.

"You okay?" His voice was quieter now, more awake.

Seorin forced a small smile, though it didn't quite reach her eyes. "Yeah. Just thirsty."

His eyes flickered toward the sink, then back to her. He didn't look convinced.

For a moment, it felt like he was going to push—like he was going to call her out, press her until she admitted that something wasn't right.

But instead, he let out a slow breath, rubbing a hand over his face before tilting his head toward the bed.

"Come back to bed," he murmured, his voice low, softer than usual.

She hesitated, glancing at herself in the mirror one last time before shutting off the faucet.

Whatever this was—whatever this strange, creeping feeling was—she would deal with it later.

For now, she nodded and let him take her hand, his fingers curling around hers as he led her back to the blankets on the floor.

The moment she laid down, his arm draped over her again, his body warmth pressing against her back.

She could hear his heartbeat, steady and unbothered, so different from hers.

She wished she could match his calmness.

But as she lay there, staring at the ceiling, her fingers unconsciously resting against her stomach, the unease in her chest didn't go away.

It only grew.

The steady rhythm of the fan hummed in the background, the only sound filling the quiet room besides the soft rustling of blankets as Seorin shifted slightly under Hae-Jo's arm. She had been drifting in and out of sleep, the exhaustion from the day weighing heavy on her limbs, but something felt off.

Then, the sharp vibration of a phone cut through the still air.

Her body jolted at the sudden noise, her heart momentarily skipping a beat. She stirred, trying to move Hae-Jo's hand, which was still draped heavily around her waist, his fingers slack against the fabric of her dress.

But before she could slip away, his groggy voice stopped her.

"Wait, it's mine," he mumbled, voice thick with sleep.

She froze, watching as he groaned, shifting just enough to reach into his back pocket. He fumbled with the phone, blinking at the screen before answering in a low, tired tone.

"...Okay, I'm coming."

The words sent an immediate pang through her chest.

Her head turned sharply toward him as he sat up, rubbing his face with one hand while the other stayed shoved in his pocket. "Where are you going?"

Hae-Jo barely looked at her. Instead, he stood, rolling his shoulders, stretching out the stiffness in his limbs. He let out a long exhale, then casually shrugged.

"To give the DNA sample." His voice was flat, matter-of-fact. "Stay here."

Seorin felt something tighten in her chest.

She didn't like the way he said it, the way he brushed her off so easily, like she was nothing more than a temporary figure in his periphery. The weight of his warmth had barely left her side, and yet the space where he had been now felt cold, empty.

She stared at him warily as he slipped on his shoes and stepped outside, the door closing behind him with a quiet click.

The moment he was gone, the silence became unbearable.

The room that had once been too small suddenly felt too large.

She curled deeper under the blanket, pulling it tighter around herself. But no matter how much she wrapped herself up, it wasn't the same. The warmth wasn't his warmth. The safety wasn't his safety.

Minutes passed. Then an hour.

She tried to keep herself awake, tried to stay alert for the sound of his return. But exhaustion was cruel, and her body was failing her. Her eyelids grew heavier with each breath, her mind floating somewhere between consciousness and sleep.

And before she realized it, she was gone.

It was the soft creak of the door that stirred her.

Her lashes fluttered, but she didn't wake fully. The weight of sleep still clung to her, her body sluggish, her mind foggy.

Hae-Jo stepped inside, careful not to make too much noise. His steps were slow, calculated, as if he were afraid to disturb the fragile quiet.

He glanced toward her still frame, her chest rising and falling steadily beneath the blanket.

Good. She's asleep.

He exhaled, rubbing the back of his neck before crossing the small room, setting his phone down on the crate beside the TV. Without thinking, he clicked it on, lowering the volume until it was nothing more than a faint murmur of sound.

The dim glow from the screen cast flickering shadows against the wall, filling the space with a false sense of normalcy.

He sat down beside her, his body feeling heavier than before, his limbs aching from more than just exhaustion.

The chaos he had witnessed outside still clung to him—the voices, the tension, the sharp reminder of why he was even here.

He didn't want to think about it.

Didn't want to think about the time slipping through his fingers, didn't want to think about the fact that even if he found the truth, even if he found him, it wouldn't change anything.

Wouldn't change this.

Wouldn't change her.

So he focused on the cartoon playing on the screen.

It was stupid, childish. But that was exactly what he needed. Something meaningless. Something that didn't remind him of everything falling apart.

He let out a quiet, breathy laugh at whatever was happening on the screen, but it was empty. Just a distraction. Just noise.

Then, as if drawn by instinct, his fingers found hers.

Even in sleep, her hand was warm, soft. He let his fingers curl loosely around hers, his grip barely there, as if he was afraid that if he held too tightly, she would wake up and pull away.

Or worse—disappear entirely.

Because wasn't that what always happened?

Every time he got too close, every time he let himself believe that maybe—just maybe—he could have something real, something his—life reminded him that he wasn't meant for that kind of happiness.

His thumb traced over the ridge of her knuckles absentmindedly, his gaze locked on their intertwined fingers.

I don't want to lose you again.

The thought came unbidden, unwelcome.

He swallowed hard, pushing it down, burying it deep inside the same place he buried all the things he didn't want to admit.

Slowly, carefully, he shifted onto his back, keeping his hand loosely tangled with hers.

And for the first time in a long time, Hae-Jo allowed himself to feel something other than bitterness.

The fan hummed. The TV flickered.

And as sleep finally pulled him under, he held onto her hand just a little tighter.

Like he was afraid that if he let go—

She'd slip away forever.

When Seorin awoke, the first thing she noticed was that she was alone.

The small room was eerily quiet, save for the gentle hum of the fan that had been left running. The blankets that had once been beside her were now folded neatly in the corner, a pillow stacked on top, almost as if their previous occupant had never been there at all.

Her heart pounded.

Had he left her?

The thought hit her like a cold slap.

Her fingers curled into the fabric of her dress as she sat up too quickly, ignoring the faint dizziness that rushed to her head. Was this all just another one of his tricks? A final way to make a fool out of her before disappearing again?

She clenched her jaw.

No.

Seorin swung her legs over the edge of the pallet, determination setting her spine straight. She wouldn't be made a fool of. Not again.

She quickly began folding her own blankets, smoothing them out with stiff movements before stacking them in the corner. Every action was precise, calculated, an attempt to mask the frustration bubbling in her chest.

Her eyes flicked toward the door.

If he thought he could just abandon her here and disappear off to whatever reckless mission he had next, he was dead wrong.

She would not be left behind.

Striding toward the door, she reached for the handle—only for it to swing open just before her fingers touched the knob.

A familiar figure filled the doorway, the early morning sun casting a golden glow behind him, making him look almost ethereal.

Seorin's stomach flipped.

And then she realized who it was.

Hae-Jo.

With that insufferable smug grin.

"Going somewhere?" he drawled, leaning against the doorframe with the kind of arrogance that made her want to throw something at his head.

Seorin rolled her eyes so hard it was a miracle they didn't get stuck. She pushed past him without a word, stepping outside onto the small wooden step. The morning air was crisp, the scent of damp earth lingering from the night before.

"Jackass," she muttered under her breath, reaching down to grab her shoes.

But before her fingers could even brush the material, they were snatched away.

"What the—"

Before she could protest, her foot was lifted into the air.

Her breath hitched as she found herself trapped in a ridiculous scene—Hae-Jo kneeling in front of her, sliding her shoe onto her foot with the precision of a man who had done this a thousand times before.

"Are you serious right now?" she snapped, but he only smirked, not even glancing up at her.

"Shh, princess," he murmured, tying the laces swiftly before moving onto the next shoe. His hands lingered for a moment, his fingers brushing over the curve of her ankle, his touch warm against her skin.

Seorin hated how her stomach twisted at the contact.

"There," he said smoothly, patting the top of her foot like she was some sort of well-groomed pet. "All dressed up and ready to go."

She glared at him. "I can put my own damn shoes on."

"Oh, I know you can," he grinned, finally meeting her eyes. "But where's the fun in that?"

She sucked in a sharp breath, biting down the urge to shove him onto his back.

Hae-Jo stood fluidly, dusting off his jeans before stretching his arms over his head, as if tying her shoes had been the most exhausting thing he had done all day.

"Let's go eat," he announced, his voice dripping with casual nonchalance. "On the house, by the way."

He held his hand out toward her, palm open, waiting.

Seorin stared at it.

His fingers twitched slightly, almost as if he was expecting—hoping—to feel the familiar warmth of her hand slipping into his.

But instead, all he felt was the cool morning breeze.

Seorin breezed past him, completely ignoring the gesture. "I can stand on my own."

The corner of Hae-Jo's mouth twitched, his cocky expression faltering for just a fraction of a second before he recovered, stuffing his hands back into his pockets.

"Well, obviously," he muttered to himself, rolling his eyes as he followed her toward the restaurant.

But even as he smirked, even as he played it off like it didn't sting—

His palm still felt cold.

The tension at the table was thick enough to slice with the very chopsticks they refused to use.

Two steaming plates of suyuk sat untouched in front of them, the aroma of the tender pork belly wafting into the small space, practically begging to be devoured. But neither Seorin nor Hae-Jo made a move, both too stubborn to be the first to cave.

It was a silent standoff, the kind that neither of them acknowledged outright but both fully participated in.

Hae-Jo leaned back in his chair, arms crossed, gaze lazily flicking across the room like he was completely unaffected by the delicious meal in front of him. His jaw ticked slightly, though, and Seorin knew he was hungry.

She, on the other hand, was losing the battle.

Her stomach betrayed her first, letting out a low growl that shattered the silence between them. She winced slightly but pretended she didn't hear it.

Hae-Jo, of course, smirked. "That your stomach or an animal crying for help?"

She shot him a glare before grabbing her chopsticks and stuffing a piece of pork belly into her mouth.

The moment the rich, savory flavor hit her tongue, she groaned, eyes fluttering shut as her mouth watered. The tenderness of the meat practically melted against her palate, and for a brief moment, she forgot about the man sitting across from her.

Then, an idea sparked.

"If you're not gonna eat it..." she mused, her chopsticks extending toward his plate, the mischievous glint in her eyes growing.

But just as she was about to drag his plate toward her own, a sharp slap landed against the back of her hand.

Seorin gasped dramatically, clutching her hand like he had just assaulted her. "Excuse me?!"

Hae-Jo didn't even look up. He simply took his own chopsticks and grabbed a piece of pork belly, popping it into his mouth with an exaggerated hum of satisfaction.

"Eat your own," he said lazily, chewing slowly, savoring the taste.

Seorin huffed, rubbing the back of her hand. "You wish you could stop me."

"I just did," he countered, finally meeting her gaze with a smug look.

She scoffed, dramatically shoving another piece of food into her mouth as if to prove a point.

The meal continued in complete silence.

Neither of them spoke, neither of them looked at each other for too long, both pretending they weren't hyper-aware of the other's presence. The air between them was thick, filled with everything unsaid, with every memory that clung to the spaces between their words.

Hae-Jo pretended he wasn't watching the way she chewed, the way her lips parted slightly before she took a bite, the way her nose scrunched ever so slightly when she reached for the shrimp sauce.

Seorin pretended she wasn't acutely aware of the way his fingers moved, the effortless way he held his chopsticks, the way he sat with that same cocky confidence he always had, the way his tongue darted out to swipe the corner of his lip after every other bite.

They ate, pretending not to steal glances.

Pretending not to remember.

Pretending that this was just a meal, just two people sitting across from each other.

But beneath the surface—

Every look. Every movement. Every lingering second of silence.

It was all laced with the quiet, desperate ache of something unfinished.

The air in the small restaurant was warm, filled with the scent of simmering broth and the lingering spice of gochugaru. The clatter of chopsticks and muffled conversations echoed around them, blending into the background like an old, familiar song.

Seorin traced the rim of her water cup absentmindedly, her mind tangled in thoughts that had nothing to do with the steaming plate in front of her.

"When are you getting the results?" she finally asked, her voice neutral, as she lifted the glass to her lips, taking a small sip.

Across from her, Hae-Jo didn't immediately respond. He was hunched slightly over his food, chopsticks moving with practiced ease as he stuffed a piece of pork belly into his mouth, chewing like a man with no time to waste.

"I'm waiting," he said around the food, barely sparing her a glance.

Seorin's brow twitched.

"Oh, wow," she deadpanned, setting her glass down with an unimpressed clink. "The most informative answer ever."

Hae-Jo snorted, reaching for another piece of meat as if her sarcasm was nothing but air.

She rolled her eyes, but the playful irritation quickly faded as she glanced back at the older man a few feet away, sitting with his sons. They spoke in hushed but firm tones, the weight of something unspoken hanging thick between them. The daughter-in-law hovered nearby, her hands clasped together, her face tight with restrained worry.

Seorin sighed through her nose, turning back to her plate, but something had shifted.

Her appetite was gone.

The food that had been mouthwatering just minutes ago now made her stomach twist uncomfortably. Her fingers toyed with her chopsticks as she pushed the pieces around, frowning at the sight of them.

Hae-Jo caught the movement immediately.

His chewing slowed as his sharp eyes flicked to her plate, then to her expression. His brows knit together, the smug nonchalance from earlier fading into something softer.

"Why aren't you eating?"

Seorin shrugged, still avoiding his gaze. "I feel sick. Not too hungry anymore."

His chopsticks clinked against the ceramic plate as he set them down.

Leaning forward, he rested his arms on the table, eyes narrowing as he studied her. He wasn't looking at her like she was some puzzle he wanted to tease—no, this was different. This was something closer to concern.

Something dangerously close to caring.

"You sure you're not sick?" His voice was quieter now, lower, like he was afraid of the answer. "You've been acting funny."

Seorin froze for half a second, fingers tightening around her chopsticks.

But before she could respond, before she could even deflect, his attention shifted.

His head tilted slightly as his gaze drifted over her shoulder, his expression slipping into something unreadable.

He was listening.

Seorin blinked, confused, before following his line of sight.

A broad-shouldered man had walked into the restaurant, his presence immediately commanding attention. His voice was loud, sharp, carrying across the space with the practiced ease of someone who was used to speaking and being heard.

Real estate agent.

The realization settled in as Seorin watched the older man's sons and daughter-in-law hurry to seat the newcomer at a table near theirs, their movements tense.

Hae-Jo's jaw tightened. His posture shifted just slightly, but she caught it—the subtle change in his expression, the way his hand moved to rest against the table like he was grounding himself.

She knew that look.

It was the look he always got when he was listening for something important.

And just like that—he was gone.

Whatever concern had flickered in his eyes moments ago, whatever care had slipped through his defenses—it disappeared. His focus was elsewhere now, his thoughts locked onto a conversation that had nothing to do with her.

Seorin exhaled softly, a weight settling in her chest.

Of course he wasn't listening anymore.

Why would he?

She turned back to her untouched plate, her stomach churning—not just from nausea, but from something deeper, something uglier.

Because the truth was, it shouldn't have hurt.

They weren't together.

They hadn't been together for months.

He didn't owe her his attention. He didn't owe her anything.

And yet—

Something about the way he had looked at her, even for just a second, had made her want to believe. Made her want to pretend that maybe—just maybe—he still cared enough to notice when something was wrong.

But that wasn't who Hae-Jo was.

He had left her.

And yet...

Maybe he deserved to know.

Her fingers brushed against her stomach, a small, fleeting touch.

Maybe he deserved to know about the child they shared inside of her.

But looking at him now—

Listening so intently to a conversation that had nothing to do with her, with them

She wondered if she was just fooling herself.

Because in the end, she had never been enough to make him stay.

Would this child be any different?

The tension in the room was suffocating.

The back kitchen doors swung open with force, and the third son stormed into the dining area, his face twisted in rage. His broad shoulders heaved with barely contained anger as his sharp gaze locked onto the real estate agent seated with his brothers.

"What the hell is this?!" his voice thundered through the restaurant.

He didn't wait for an answer. He reached forward, his fingers curling around the agent's collar, yanking him up from his seat with a force that sent the dishes rattling on the table.

"I'm not selling, so get the hell out of here, you dork."

Seorin furrowed her brows, watching the scene unfold in confusion. Meanwhile, Hae-Jo leaned back in his chair, arms crossed, the picture of amusement. He wasn't just watching—he was listening, soaking in every word like he was waiting for the perfect moment to strike.

The brothers started bickering, voices overlapping in a heated argument. The real estate man held his hands up, trying to calm them down, but it was too late—the truth was spilling out. They had already begun discussing how to split the money from secretly selling the restaurant behind their father's back.

That's when Hae-Jo decided to make his move.

"A five-way split, huh?" he said casually, holding up five fingers.

The three brothers turned toward him in confusion. They exchanged glances, their brows furrowing as they struggled to place him. Who was he, and why the hell was he inserting himself into their business?

Seorin's stomach twisted with unease.

She reached out, her fingers brushing against the sleeve of Hae-Jo's white button-up in an attempt to pull him back, to keep him out of whatever mess he was about to make.

"Hae-Jo, stop—"

But her grip slipped as he stood up, his usual smirk plastered across his face.

"It's just that I think I deserve a cut too," he continued smoothly, his hands slipping into his pockets as he strolled toward the group.

Seorin's heart dropped.

What the hell was he doing?

"That is, if you're gonna split it between the family," he added, tilting his head slightly, his eyes flickering with mischief.

The eldest brother squared his shoulders, his stance shifting in irritation. "And who the hell are you?"

Seorin pressed her fingers against her temple, her stomach turning. This was going to end badly.

Hae-Jo feigned a thoughtful expression, pacing between the brothers with an air of mock surprise.

"Well," he drawled, "I might actually be your brother. One of your dad's illegitimate kids."

A silence so thick it felt like the room had been vacuum-sealed settled over them.

Seorin wanted to sink into the floor.

"What the fuck are you doing?" she muttered under her breath, watching in disbelief.

But Hae-Jo wasn't done. He leaned in slightly, speaking just loud enough for everyone to hear.

"I mean, you all did say last night that the money should be split equally among the family," he pointed out, his grin widening. "You planned to sell the restaurant, your property, everything, and dump your dad in a nursing home."

The panic in their expressions was immediate.

Hae-Jo let out a dramatic gasp, placing a hand over his chest like he was scandalized.

"Wait, wait—didn't you say that, sister-in-law?"

His gaze flicked toward the pregnant woman near the kitchen.

She froze, eyes widening in horror. But it only took a second before she masked it with a scandalized expression, pointing an accusatory finger at him.

"What is he saying? What is he, mad? I didn't say that, Father!"

The second eldest son had had enough.

In one swift movement, he lunged forward, gripping Hae-Jo's collar in his fist, pulling him closer with an angry glare.

"Who are you, dude? Huh?"

Hae-Jo barely reacted. He simply looked at the man, his smirk never faltering.

"Oh yeah, that's right," he mused. "You were against it because you think you deserve everything."

He patted the son's cheeks mockingly, flashing a grin.

"For taking care of your dad while he was sick, you greedy bastard."

The air crackled with tension.

Then, without warning—

"Psycho!"

The son reeled his fist back and punched Hae-Jo hard across the jaw.

Hae-Jo stumbled back, leaning against the table as Seorin shot up from her seat, hands flying to her mouth in shock.

"Hey! Stop!" she shouted, stepping forward, but before she could reach him—

The real estate agent shoved past her.

Her body lurched forward, her side colliding hard against the table's edge.

A sharp, stabbing pain radiated from her stomach.

Her breath hitched, panic seizing her chest.

Her hand shot to her belly in an instant, pressing against it protectively. She stood there for a moment, frozen, her heart hammering against her ribs.

Then she looked down.

She was still standing.

Still breathing.

But the fear clawed at her throat.

"Shit," she whispered under her breath, forcing herself upright.

By the time she turned back, the room had erupted into chaos.

Hae-Jo was already throwing the brothers around, dodging their attacks like he had done it a thousand times before, his grin unfazed despite the punch he had taken.

Seorin backed toward the wooden support beam, her arms wrapped protectively around her stomach.

"Hae-Jo, stop," she called, her voice sharp but breathless.

Her vision swam.

A pounding sensation throbbed in her head, her body swaying slightly. She gripped the beam tighter, willing herself to stay steady.

A loud shatter rang through the room.

She looked up just in time to see the eldest son gripping the jagged remains of a broken bottle, the sharp edges glinting under the dim restaurant lights as he pointed it directly at Hae-Jo.

"You motherfucker!"

Hae-Jo let out an exaggerated sigh, shaking his head.

"Hey, knock it off or you'll get hurt, dipshit."

But the three brothers weren't backing down.

The restaurant owner stormed in from the kitchen, his face twisted with disbelief as he took in the chaos before him. His furious gaze swept the room before landing on Seorin, his brows furrowing.

His eyes flickered down to her stomach, confusion flashing across his face.

"What's the matter with you, son of a bitch?!" the old man roared, grabbing a nearby container of salt and throwing it directly at Hae-Jo's face.

A mix of salt and rage filled the air.

For a split second, the room stilled.

Then Seorin lurched forward, her stomach twisting violently.

She gripped the table, her breath coming out in short gasps.

"Oh my god," she rasped, her knees threatening to buckle. "I'm gonna be sick."

Her legs swayed, her vision blurring.

Hae-Jo turned sharply, his body stiffening as he watched her.

His smirk vanished.

And for the first time that day, real, unfiltered panic flickered across his face.

"Stop standing there! Help your wife and get out!"

The old man's voice rang through the restaurant, sharp and commanding. It cut through the chaos, through the tension, through the nauseating dizziness clouding Seorin's mind. Her breath hitched, her stomach still twisting from the earlier shock. The cold sweat clinging to her skin only made her feel heavier, more exhausted.

She pressed her hand against the wall, fingers searching for something solid, something stable as she tried to guide herself toward the door. Her legs felt weak, wobbly, and each step felt like moving through water. The sounds around her blurred—the furious shouting, the rustling of movement, the clatter of broken dishes on the floor—but all she could focus on was getting out, breathing fresh air, grounding herself before she lost complete control.

A strong hand suddenly found her waist, another landing on her shoulder, steadying her before she could stumble. She didn't have to look to know who it was.

"Just hold on," Hae-Jo muttered, voice softer than usual, missing its usual sharp edge.

She didn't have the energy to respond. She let him guide her out, feeling the tension in his grip—firm, protective, almost desperate.

The moment they stepped outside, the cool morning air hit her like a wave, and she barely made it to the tree before her stomach lurched. She bent over, gripping the rough bark as she emptied everything inside her onto the damp grass below. Her entire body trembled, exhaustion seeping into her bones, making her head feel light and her limbs feel heavy.

Behind her, Hae-Jo didn't say a word. He didn't flinch, didn't pull away in disgust, didn't make some careless joke about how gross she was. He just stood there, watching, his presence solid and unmoving.

And then—like the universe needed to remind him that he was still in the middle of a fight—he was ripped away.

The sons shoved him forward, throwing him onto the pavement in front of the shop. He hit the ground hard, the impact knocking the air out of his lungs for a second. But instead of reacting with anger, instead of lashing out like they wanted him to, he simply exhaled and reached for his phone.

Priorities.

Seorin wiped her mouth, wincing as she leaned back against the tree, barely catching her breath before another voice reached her ears.

"Four months with no belly? Sure."

The daughter-in-law scoffed as she walked past, her judgmental gaze sweeping over Seorin before she disappeared into the shop.

Seorin felt her stomach tighten, but this time it wasn't from nausea. It was from something else.

Her fingers instinctively found the fabric of her dress, curling against her stomach as if shielding the life growing inside her. For months, she had hidden it—hidden him, hidden her—but now, standing there in the cold air, feeling the weight of those words, she realized how cruel it felt to deny it.

She glanced up and met Hae-Jo's eyes.

He had seen it too.

His expression was unreadable, his usual cocky mask slipping just slightly. But before she could say anything, before she could even process her own emotions, the old man walked past them, his gaze lingering just a second too long on her stomach before he turned back to Hae-Jo.

"They're lying about all of it," Hae-Jo said suddenly, his voice casual but firm, as he stepped forward and held the glass door open.

The old man turned, staring at him with something close to amusement. "Well, who's lying to whom here, huh?" His voice was slow, measured, as if he was testing Hae-Jo. "Both of you were dishonest with me. Did you seriously think I had no idea about their little plan?"

Hae-Jo clenched his jaw but said nothing.

The old man scoffed, shaking his head. "I just acted clueless," he continued. "I wanted to see how far they'd go. And then you waltzed in, causing chaos in something that wasn't even your business."

Seorin watched quietly from the side, her breathing still uneven, her body still struggling to keep up with everything happening.

"Tell me who you are, kid."

Hae-Jo opened his mouth, then closed it. His jaw twitched, his throat bobbed, but the words wouldn't come out.

"I..."

Then his phone vibrated.

He looked down.

Whatever was on that screen made his entire body still. His fingers tightened around the device, his grip turning white, and for a moment, his face was blank. Completely blank.

Then the tension in his shoulders loosened, his fingers slipping from the doorframe. The old man took the opportunity to close it in his face.

Seorin watched him carefully, her stomach knotting.

"Are you okay?"

Her voice barely reached him.

It took him a second to register that she had even spoken, and when he finally turned to her, his expression was hard to read.

She stepped forward, wobbling slightly on unsteady legs, and reached for his arm to balance herself. "He wasn't the one?"

Hae-Jo shook his head.

Silence.

She let out a breath, her fingers twitching against his arm before she let go. Neither of them had the words to say what they wanted.

He let out a slow exhale, rubbing a hand over his face before turning back to her. "Come on."

She barely had time to react before he was leading her toward the jeep, his hand on her back again, making sure she wouldn't collapse. When they reached the car, he gently leaned her against the hood, his eyes scanning her with something dangerously close to worry before he reached into the vehicle and pulled out a bottle of water.

"Drink."

She took it wordlessly, her fingers brushing against his as she grabbed it.

He took a few steps back, pulling out a cigarette and lighting it.

Seorin huffed as she twisted the cap off the bottle. "Those things are gonna kill you."

Hae-Jo smirked, but it was empty. His voice came out quieter than usual, laced with something almost bitter.

"I don't think a cigarette is gonna be the thing to take me out."

The words hit harder than she expected.

She tightened her grip on the bottle, staring at him for a long moment. She wanted to say something, but the words caught in her throat, tangled between past resentment and lingering emotions she didn't know how to deal with.

So she just drank.

And he just smoked.

The silence between them felt heavier than it should have, but neither of them broke it.

Minutes later, they were back on the road.

Seorin didn't ask where they were going.

She just leaned her head against the window, watching the passing scenery blur into streaks of green and gold.

And Hae-Jo—

He gripped the wheel a little tighter, his mind spinning with too many thoughts.

One down.

Four more to go.

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The road stretched endlessly before them, the soft hum of the Jeep filling the quiet space between them. Seorin had long since succumbed to sleep, exhaustion wrapping her in its grasp as the gentle rocking of the car lulled her into unconsciousness. The last light of day melted into the horizon, casting a golden glow over the rolling hills before fading into the deep hues of twilight.

Hae-Jo kept one hand firm on the wheel, but his attention flickered to her every few minutes. The first time her head hit the window, he had ignored it, thinking she'd adjust. But then it happened again. And again.

At the third thud, he winced.

How does she sleep through that?

With a quiet chuckle, he reached over and gently cradled her face, guiding her head toward him. She nuzzled unconsciously into his shoulder, her breath warm against his shirt. His hand lingered at her cheek, his thumb lightly brushing over her soft skin before coming to rest there, holding her in place.

His heart clenched painfully.

She still pouted in her sleep, her lips jutted out just slightly, as if she were displeased even in her dreams. He had always found it ridiculously cute. Even back then, he used to tease her about it, whispering little jokes just to watch her frown deeper.

God, I'll miss this.

His grip on the wheel tightened as his throat grew dry, an ache pressing at the back of his eyes. A painful lump settled in his throat, but he swallowed it down, unwilling to let it win.

She had no idea how much he had wanted this—how badly he wished he could just rewind time, undo every mistake, take back every stupid thing he had ever said to her.

He wanted to be selfish.

He wanted to tell her the truth, to confess that he had lied that day in the park—that he never stopped loving her, that every moment without her felt like he was walking toward his grave faster than his condition already promised.

But he couldn't do that to her.

Instead, he leaned down and pressed a soft kiss to the top of her head, inhaling the faint scent of lavender that still clung to her hair. A tear slipped from the corner of his eye, disappearing into the strands.

"I'm so sorry, Ae-in," he whispered, his voice barely audible over the sound of the wind rushing past them.

She shifted slightly, her brows knitting together for a second before relaxing back into her usual pout.

A sad smile tugged at his lips.

"I do love you," he murmured, his voice breaking just slightly.

He quickly wiped his face with the back of his hand before returning both to the wheel, eyes fixed on the winding road ahead.

Truth be told, he wanted to pull over right there and let himself break. But he couldn't.

He wouldn't let his last moments with her be heavy with sorrow.

The neon glow of a wooden sign illuminated the road ahead, growing clearer as the Jeep approached:

30 Year Tradition: Sundae Soup of Fortune

Hae-Jo pulled into an empty parking spot just as the GPS confirmed their arrival. The faint aroma of broth and spice hung in the night air, but his focus remained on the woman sleeping peacefully beside him.

He sighed, his shoulder aching from holding her in the same position for so long. Carefully, he withdrew his arm, rubbing the stiffness away before turning toward her fully.

She looked so peaceful.

For once, he hesitated to wake her.

He always ruined her peace, one way or another.

Sighing, he reached out, cupping her face gently in his hands. His thumbs brushed delicate circles against her skin, memorizing the warmth, the softness—the way her lashes fluttered slightly at his touch.

"Ae-in," he murmured.

She scrunched her nose, her lips pressing together in faint protest.

His grin deepened. "I know, but you're hungry, right?"

Her lashes lifted, her sleep-laden eyes peeking up at him.

His heart lurched.

She looked vulnerable like this—unguarded, drowsy, the walls she had built around herself momentarily lowered. He wanted to stay in this moment forever, to have her wake up next to him every day like they used to, curled into his side, mumbling half-awake complaints that he always found adorable.

But that was wishful thinking.

She blinked at him once before groaning. "I want food."

Hae-Jo laughed, the sound genuine as he pulled away. He stepped out of the Jeep, walking to her side before she could even reach for the handle. With a quick, practiced motion, he pulled the door open and extended a hand.

"M'Lady."

She rolled her eyes but took his hand anyway as he helped her down.

"Why do you keep doing that?"

He shrugged as he closed the Jeep door behind her, his smirk widening. "Because you're a princess."

The teasing remark made her pause, her expression faltering slightly.

She wasn't sure why, but something in his tone felt... different.

The warmth of the restaurant wrapped around them as they stepped inside, a stark contrast to the cool evening air. The rich scent of simmering broth and spices lingered, settling deep in Seorin's chest. It was the kind of place that felt untouched by time, with wooden tables polished from years of use and old framed photographs lining the walls.

She rubbed her arms absentmindedly, shifting on her feet as she took in the cozy atmosphere. The feeling of stepping into a place like this—quiet, familiar, and far too intimate—made something uneasy stir in her stomach.

Hae-Jo, of course, walked in beside her like he belonged there, his presence filling every empty space effortlessly. He moved ahead, scanning the restaurant with a smirk, hands tucked lazily in his pockets. But she noticed how he kept glancing at her, like he wanted to make sure she was still beside him.

Before she could say anything, an older man behind the counter looked up and let out a sigh.

"Oh no, I wish you had gotten here a little sooner," he said regretfully, adjusting his glasses.

Seorin and Hae-Jo both turned toward him.

"I'm sorry, our kitchen's closed," the man continued, shaking his head. "At Sundae Soup of Fortune, our last order is at 9:30 p.m. You're a little late."

Hae-Jo let out an exaggerated sigh, tilting his head back like the world had personally conspired against him. "Unbelievable."

Seorin barely stopped herself from rolling her eyes. Always so dramatic.

But before she could respond—before she could even think—Hae-Jo moved.

His arm slid around her waist in one smooth motion, pulling her into his side with the kind of familiarity that made her body react before her mind could process it.

Seorin stiffened.

His palm pressed against the curve of her hip, warm and steady. His touch wasn't rushed or hesitant—it was practiced, like muscle memory. Like he had never stopped holding her like this.

And then, before she could push him away, before she could question him—

"I drove six hours here," Hae-Jo began smoothly, his voice effortlessly persuasive, "because my pregnant wife was craving your famous sundae soup."

Seorin's heart stopped.

Her mind blanked, every thought crashing into itself in a tangled mess of panic.

What?

How did he—?

No. He couldn't know.

She forced herself to think rationally, to breathe. Hae-Jo was impulsive, reckless, and sharp-tongued, but he was terrible at keeping secrets. If he had figured it out, he wouldn't have been able to stay quiet about it.

Which meant...

He was lying.

Her breath left her in a slow, silent exhale. But just as relief started to settle in, the old man gasped.

"Oh my, congratulations!" His eyes dropped immediately to her stomach, a delighted smile spreading across his face.

Hae-Jo's hand on her waist didn't move, his grip firm yet gentle. His thumb brushed absently against the exposed skin of her lower back.

Seorin nearly jumped at the touch.

"Can you help us out?" Hae-Jo asked, his voice laced with just enough sincerity to be convincing.

The man hesitated before sighing in defeat. "Are you being serious? Six whole hours?"

Hae-Jo nodded, his smirk deepening. "Would I lie about my wife's cravings?"

Seorin clenched her fists. I hate him. I really, truly hate him.

The older man chuckled, shaking his head. "Alright, alright. Let me check if we have any soup left. Have a seat, I'll be right back."

Seorin bowed slightly in thanks, though her face burned with frustration.

As soon as the man disappeared, she turned to Hae-Jo, her voice sharp.

"Pregnant?" she hissed.

Hae-Jo smirked down at her, finally pulling his arm away. "It was the best excuse I could think of."

Her jaw clenched. "And wife? Why did you say we were married?"

He didn't answer right away.

Instead, he moved away from her and strode toward an empty table.

She followed instinctively, still fuming, but then—just as he always had—Hae-Jo reached out and pulled out a chair for her.

Her breath caught.

For a moment, it felt like nothing had changed, like this was just another night between them. Like he would sit beside her the way he always had, their knees brushing under the table, his fingers lazily tracing patterns on her thigh as he talked about something ridiculous.

But then—

Instead of taking the seat beside her, Hae-Jo walked around the table.

And he sat across from her.

Seorin faltered, something twisting deep in her chest.

The empty space beside her felt unnatural.

Wrong.

She hated how much she noticed it.

She wasn't supposed to care where he sat.

She wasn't supposed to feel the absence of his presence next to her.

But she did.

Hae-Jo leaned back in his chair, stretching out his legs as if he hadn't just thrown her entire world off balance. His gaze flickered to hers, and for a second—just a second—there was something wistful in his eyes.

"You were supposed to be," he finally murmured.

The words were soft, yet heavy.

Seorin swallowed hard. She glanced away, her arms folding tightly across her chest. "Not my fault."

Hae-Jo exhaled slowly, his fingers curling against the edge of the table. He looked down, his voice quieter than before.

"I know."

She almost didn't hear it.

Or maybe she did, but pretended not to.

And as the warmth of the restaurant wrapped around them, they sat in silence—two people who had once been everything to each other, now sitting across from one another.

So much distance packed into a single wooden table.

So much left unsaid between them.

So much that could have been.

Hae-Jo leaned back in his chair, stretching his arms as if the weight of the day was nothing but an inconvenience to him. His casual demeanor was effortless, but Seorin wasn't fooled. She had spent too many years learning the language of his body, the way he masked his real thoughts behind that smirk, the way he deflected with humor when something unsettled him.

"We'll have to hang around here until maybe tomorrow afternoon," he said, rolling his shoulders, eyes flicking away from hers.

Seorin frowned, setting her spoon down against the cloth napkin. "Why? I thought you had places to be."

He clicked his tongue, a smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth as he subtly nodded toward the kitchen. "Candidate number one."

His confidence was as cocky as ever, but there was something behind his eyes—something restrained, something uncertain.

"Oh."

She watched him carefully, studying the way his fingers tapped against the wooden table in an uneven rhythm. He was trying too hard to seem nonchalant, but there was an energy in him that betrayed the act.

Without thinking, she brought her hand to her mouth, biting at the tip of her nail absentmindedly. It was a nervous habit, one she had never managed to break.

Before she could react, warmth encased her hand.

Hae-Jo's fingers wrapped around hers, pulling it away from her lips.

"Bad habit, Ae-in," he murmured, his voice low, almost affectionate.

Her cheeks flushed, a flicker of embarrassment crossing her face. She quickly tucked her hands beneath the table, pressing them against the fabric of her dress.

She had forgotten how easily he could reach for her, how natural it was for him to touch her without hesitation. The way he did it now—so casually, so familiarly—made her stomach twist.

"Sorry," she mumbled, looking away.

Hae-Jo watched her for a beat longer than necessary before shifting back in his seat, pretending to be absorbed by the sounds coming from the kitchen.

A moment later, the old man reappeared, pushing a cart with two steaming bowls.

"Here we are!" the man announced, his voice warm and welcoming. "Lots of extra liver and intestines, just how you like it."

Seorin's face lit up at the sight of the food, her hunger growing unbearable. "Aw, you didn't have to do that."

As soon as the words left her mouth, she glanced toward Hae-Jo and immediately froze.

She remembered too late.

"Ah, right—he's not a fan of blood sausages and liver," she blurted, her hand flying to cover her mouth. "He always said the smell bothered him."

The words had come too naturally, slipping from her like a reflex, like they were still together.

She felt the air shift.

Hae-Jo paused, his grin faltering for a fraction of a second before he let out a nervous laugh, rubbing the back of his neck. "Ah... I wish you had told me that sooner."

Seorin turned quickly toward the man, trying to shake off the awkward moment. "No, it's okay. I'm sure he'll be fine. Thank you so much, I'm sure it'll be plenty for the baby if he won't eat it."

The old man chuckled, shaking his head. "You're so tiny, though! How many months are you?"

Her hand instinctively drifted to her stomach, a small, automatic motion she didn't even realize she was doing.

Just as she was about to answer—

"She should be three or four."

Her breath caught in her throat.

Her eyes widened slightly as she turned to look at him, her fingers gripping the fabric of her dress.

Did he know?

No. He was guessing. He had to be.

She studied his face, searching for any sign of realization, but Hae-Jo's smirk remained perfectly in place. If anything, he looked amused.

The old man clapped his hands together. "Ah, congratulations to you two! Such a beautiful couple." He sighed fondly, glancing toward the kitchen. "My daughter-in-law is due next month, but we can't get her to stop working in that kitchen."

Seorin turned her head and found herself staring at the heavily pregnant woman in the back. The woman wiped down a table, her body moving slower, her exhaustion evident, but she still smiled, listening to the conversations around her.

A strange pang of longing settled deep in Seorin's chest.

Would she make it that far? Would she ever reach that stage?

Would she even have someone beside her when the time came?

She wasn't supposed to doubt.

But the fear clung to her, wrapping around her ribcage like a vice.

"She's such a workaholic," the old man chuckled.

Seorin barely heard him.

But Hae-Jo...

Hae-Jo was looking at the family.

His gaze had softened, the cocky energy he always carried suddenly dimming. His fingers curled slightly against the table, his expression unreadable.

"They all used to live somewhere else until I collapsed and got sick a year ago," the old man continued. "Then they insisted on moving back here. They're such good boys. You can't even imagine."

Hae-Jo's grip on his glass tightened.

For a brief moment, the mask cracked.

"...What happened?" His voice was quieter now, careful. "You were sick?"

The hope in his tone was subtle—so subtle that if Seorin hadn't known him better, she wouldn't have noticed it.

She did.

She always would.

"Oh, just a small stroke. Nothing major. I'm all better now."

The weight of disappointment was instant.

Hae-Jo's body shifted, his shoulders relaxing in forced nonchalance. He leaned back, letting out a breath.

Not him.

Not this time.

He barely had time to let it settle before he quickly covered it up with a smirk. "Oh, your hair."

Seorin's brows knitted together. "What?"

Hae-Jo suddenly leaned forward, plucking a single strand from the old man's head with practiced ease.

"I'll help you," he said smoothly, tucking the hair away.

The old man yelped, rubbing his scalp. "Oh! That hurt."

Hae-Jo waved him off. "Don't worry, I got it."

As the man left, Seorin gave him a look of disbelief. "You took his hair?"

Hae-Jo twirled it between his fingers before slipping it into his pocket. "DNA," he replied simply, pouring himself a shot of soju.

Seorin shook her head as she picked up her chopsticks. Before she could take a bite, his next words nearly made her choke.

"So, why were you crying at the hospital?"

She sputtered, coughing violently.

Hae-Jo leaned in slightly, amusement playing on his lips, but there was something behind it—something too sharp, too focused.

"How did you know I was at the hospital?" she asked, eyes wide.

"I was there," he said smugly. "And I saw you."

Her brows furrowed in concern. "Why were you there?"

"Crashed my motorcycle while on an errand."

"Hae-Jo!" Her voice rose, her eyes scanning him for injuries. "Are you okay? What were you thinking? I told you time and time again to stop riding that thing!"

He smirked, watching her fuss over him. "You still care about me?"

She froze.

Her lips parted, her hands tightening into fists on the table.

Finally, she sighed. "...Yes, I still care about you, idiot."

She slapped his arm. "Stop trying to get yourself killed." Hae-Jo's smirk almost dropped.

If only you knew, Ae-in.

"Okay," he murmured. She sighed, pushing the soup toward him. "Try to eat." He wrinkled his nose. "No thanks."

"Just try, please."

He groaned, picking up his chopsticks. "I'll eat," he said, "if you tell me why you were at the hospital." She rolled her eyes. "I was just doing a checkup and found out I'm anemic."

He paused. "That's why you were crying?"

"Yes!"

Hae-Jo blinked. Then he sighed, placing a hand over hers.

"Okay, okay. Geez."

Keeping his word, he tossed the piece of sausage into his mouth.

Seorin laughed as he grimaced.

And for just a second, everything felt normal again.

Slowly, the two began to eat, though the silence between them grew heavier with each passing minute. Seorin focused on her bowl, occasionally glancing up only to find Hae-Jo picking at his food, his chopsticks carefully avoiding anything he deemed unappetizing. His nose scrunched every time he pushed aside the blood sausage, his lips twitching in faint distaste.

She let out a small huff of amusement. Some things never change.

Despite the warmth of the meal, despite the flickering glow of the restaurant lights, there was an undeniable tension sitting between them. Not the kind of tension they used to share—the playful, teasing kind where his hand would brush against hers just to see if she'd swat him away, where he'd steal bites of her food only to grin when she protested.

No, this was different.

This was heavier.

By the time their bowls were empty, the weight of everything unspoken had wrapped around them like an invisible force. The easy flow of conversation from earlier had faded into something more uncertain, more delicate.

When the kind family returned to clear their dishes, Seorin barely noticed, exhaustion settling into her limbs. The warmth of the meal left her drowsy, and the ache in her shoulders from sitting in the Jeep for hours was beginning to make itself known.

She stretched as she followed Hae-Jo toward the counter, her fingers brushing lightly over the fabric of her dress as she tried to shake the sleepiness from her body.

"With the bottle of soju, your total comes out to 20,000 won," the old man informed them, wiping his hands on a small towel as he stood behind the counter.

Hae-Jo patted his pockets, a frown quickly replacing the smug expression he had worn all evening. His fingers moved faster, checking his back pockets, then the inside of his coat.

His shoulders stiffened.

"Did you leave it at the shop?" Seorin asked, a flicker of worry crossing her features.

Hae-Jo pinched the bridge of his nose, sighing. "Ah, the gas station. I stopped when you were sleeping."

Seorin nibbled on her lower lip, her fingers fidgeting at the hem of her sleeve. She didn't have any cash on her either, and though she was sure they could work something out, the idea of not being able to pay left a sinking feeling in her stomach.

The old man must have noticed, because he let out a hearty chuckle, shaking his head. "You came all the way out here just to eat, so it's on the house. No worries. You should go look for your wallet tomorrow."

Hae-Jo blinked, clearly caught off guard by the generosity. "Are you sure? I don't mind—"

The man waved him off. "I insist. Just think of it as a thank-you for the company tonight."

Seorin let out a relieved breath, bowing deeply. "Thank you so much."

But just as she thought they were about to leave, Hae-Jo suddenly reached out, his fingers lightly touching the man's arm.

"Uh, since you're already being so helpful... could we bother you to let us stay the night?" His tone was easy, smooth, but there was an underlying hesitation beneath it—something subtle, something almost nervous.

Seorin's head snapped toward him.

The old man paused, his eyes flicking between the two of them. His expression was unreadable for a moment, as if he were considering the request, weighing his options. But then, his gaze settled on Seorin—the woman he still believed to be pregnant—and his face softened.

"Why not?" he said with a smile, swinging his arm toward the back of the restaurant. "Follow me."

Seorin let out a breath she didn't realize she was holding, the stiffness in her neck suddenly more apparent now that she knew she wouldn't have to sleep sitting up in the Jeep again.

Hae-Jo, satisfied with the response, casually reached for her hand, lacing his fingers through hers as they followed the man outside.

Seorin stiffened.

She could have pulled away. Should have pulled away.

But she didn't.

The small room the man led them to was nestled outside the main restaurant, tucked between an old shed and a narrow alleyway. He unlocked the door, stepping aside to let them in.

It wasn't much.

The space was cluttered along the walls with various storage boxes and odds and ends, but there was a fan, a pile of folded blankets, and a small, old-fashioned TV sitting on a wooden crate. It was simple, cramped, but to Seorin, it was more than enough.

Hae-Jo took a long look around, his eyes scanning the space with a small smirk. "Five-star accommodations," he muttered under his breath.

Seorin elbowed him lightly, shooting him a look before turning back to the man. "This is perfect. Really, thank you so much."

The old man grinned. "It's nothing. Sleep well, you two."

As he walked away, Seorin and Hae-Jo both turned, bowing deeply in thanks before stepping inside, sliding their shoes off and leaving them by the door.

The moment they were alone, the silence stretched between them again.

"You can stay there."

His words halted Seorin mid-step as she reached for the blankets, her fingers pausing against the fabric.

"I'll make the pallets," Hae-Jo added, already lowering himself to his knees, the wooden floor creaking beneath him.

Seorin watched in silence as he worked, his hands smoothing out the makeshift beds with surprising care. The blankets were layered neatly, pillows placed at just the right angle. He left a few inches of space between them—just enough for distance, but not enough to make it feel cold.

He patted the soft material beside him, tilting his head. "Here, lay down."

Seorin hesitated, standing at the doorway with her arms crossed, her expression unreadable. But when she finally stepped forward, placing her hand in his, his grip was steady, warm.

She let him guide her down gently, careful that she didn't trip over the folds of her dress. His fingers lingered for half a second longer than necessary before he let go, watching as she slipped under the blanket and shifted to get comfortable.

"You okay?" he asked, his voice quieter now.

She turned onto her side, facing him. "Can you turn on the fan, please?"

His gaze followed hers to the small fan across the room, and for a moment, he said nothing. Then, he nodded in understanding.

Of course. She always slept with a fan. She liked the white noise, the feeling of cold air against her skin. He had never understood it at first, but after years of falling asleep beside her, he had adjusted. Now, he found himself unable to sleep without it either.

He reached forward, flipping the switch to high. The fan whirred to life, sending a cool breeze rippling through the small room, rustling their blankets.

"Thank you," she murmured, her voice almost lost beneath the hum.

For a moment, neither of them spoke.

Then—

"You didn't have to hold my hand," she said suddenly, her voice quiet but firm.

Hae-Jo tilted his head, feigning innocence. "Didn't I?"

She narrowed her eyes. "No."

He let out a low hum, as if considering her words. Then, with a small, easy smirk, he leaned in slightly. "You didn't let go."

Seorin's breath caught in her throat.

Her fingers curled slightly against the blanket, her gaze flickering away. "I wasn't thinking."

Hae-Jo watched her carefully, his smirk still in place, but his eyes...

His eyes told a different story.

For a second—just a second—the cocky facade slipped.

There was something there. Something quiet. Something wistful.

Something longing.

But just as quickly as it had appeared, it was gone, replaced by a lazy grin as he reached for the TV remote.

"Relax, Ae-in," he teased, turning on the old television. "I won't steal your virtue."

Seorin scoffed, rolling her eyes as she turned over, tugging the blanket up around her shoulders.

Hae-Jo, however, didn't move.

He watched as her breath evened out, as the tension in her body slowly faded. He let his gaze linger on her face for a moment longer, watching the way her lips parted slightly as she drifted into thought.

You should have been my wife, he thought.

But he didn't say it.

Instead, he leaned back against the wall, exhaling slowly as he turned his gaze to the ceiling.

One week, he reminded himself. That's all I have left with her.

He closed his eyes.

Make it count.

Hae-Jo turned back, only to find her already watching him.

Their eyes locked in the dim moonlight, the silver glow filtering in through the tiny window above them. The light softened her features, casting delicate shadows across her cheekbones, her lips. His stomach twisted at the sight.

"Seorin."

Her name left his lips as barely more than a whisper.

He crawled under his own blankets, mirroring her position. Face to face. Close, but not quite close enough.

"Yeah?" Her voice was soft, hesitant.

Hae-Jo swallowed, his throat suddenly dry. He had so many things he wanted to say, so many words that had been bottled up for five months, clawing at his insides.

I'm sorry. I regret everything. I should have never let you go. I want you back. I love you.

But when he opened his mouth, the words lodged in his throat, refusing to come out.

"I—"

He faltered. His fingers curled slightly against the sheets.

Seorin waited, her expression unreadable. The silence stretched, thick and heavy between them.

He exhaled, forcing a small smirk. "Are you comfortable?"

Seorin blinked, almost as if she had expected something else. Then, after a brief pause, she nodded.

The moonlight caught on her skin, highlighting the delicate curve of her nose, the faint part of her lips. She looked so much like the girl he used to fall asleep beside every night—so much like the woman he still loved, even now.

His breath hitched.

For a fleeting moment, he allowed himself to pretend. Pretend that nothing had changed. Pretend that they were still together, that this wasn't temporary.

Pretend that she was still his.

But reality crashed down on him the moment he turned away, forcing his back to her.

The hum of the fan filled the silence, mixing with the sound of their breathing. The wooden floor beneath him was hard, the blanket too thin to provide real warmth, but he barely noticed. The weight in his chest was far heavier.

Minutes passed. Neither of them moved.

Then, just as his body began to sink into the lull of exhaustion, his quiet voice broke the silence.

"Don't run away."

Her entire body tensed.

The words were so soft, almost lost in the hum of the fan, but they struck something deep inside of her.

Slowly, he turned back toward her, only to find her already staring at him.

Her eyes searched his face, her brows slightly furrowed, as if she were trying to figure out something she wasn't sure she wanted the answer to.

"I won't," she whispered.

She reached out, her fingers brushing lightly against his. The touch sent a shiver down his spine.

Hae-Jo swallowed hard.

Before he could stop himself, before he could think about it too much, he closed the space between them.

His body hovered over hers, their faces barely an inch apart.

Seorin's breath caught, her eyes widening slightly, but she didn't move away. She didn't push him back.

"Hae-Jo," she breathed.

His gaze roamed her face, memorizing every detail.

She was still so beautiful. Still so familiar. The softness of her cheeks, the curve of her lips, the flutter of her lashes against his skin—he wanted to etch it all into his memory.

Like he was afraid he'd forget.

"Ae-in," he murmured.

His fingers ghosted over her cheek, barely a touch, but enough to send warmth trickling through his fingertips.

His thumb grazed the corner of her lips, feeling the way her breath trembled beneath his touch.

God, he wanted to kiss her.

But he couldn't. Not now.

Instead, he let his forehead fall against hers, his eyes squeezing shut.

"Can I lay with you?" His voice was barely more than a breath.

Seorin didn't hesitate.

"Yes."

His heart stuttered.

Carefully, he shifted, moving to lay behind her. The moment his arm wrapped around her, she folded into him, fitting against him like she always had, as if the past five months had never happened.

His chin rested against the top of her head, her back pressing into his chest. He could feel her heartbeat, steady and soft, echoing against him in the quiet room.

Her scent filled his lungs, something light and floral, mixed with something uniquely hers.

"I'm still mad at you," she whispered.

Hae-Jo let out a breathy laugh, his lips ghosting over her temple.

"I know."

His fingers traced soft circles against the back of her hand, memorizing the way she felt beneath his touch.

"I know..."

His voice trailed off into the silence, the words barely leaving his lips before sleep pulled him under.

The floor was uncomfortable. The blanket was thin.

But at this moment, he wouldn't ask for anything more.

Because for the first time in months—

He didn't feel alone.

b. seven, week and a half

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It was mid-April, and the city was beginning to bloom with the brightness of spring. The air was still brisk, the remnants of winter hanging on in the early mornings and evenings, but there was a freshness that made the season feel alive. A week and a half before Nari's 27th birthday, Myung-Gi found himself carefully planning every detail of how he wanted to celebrate her day.

She sat curled up on his couch, scrolling through her phone, her legs tucked under one of his oversized hoodies she'd stolen months ago. It smelled faintly of him still, a comforting blend of fresh laundry and his subtle cologne. Meanwhile, Myung-Gi was seated at his desk, finalizing edits for his latest MG Coin video. Dalmatian Crypto was soaring in popularity, and he couldn't help but feel the thrill of watching his hard work pay off.

He glanced over his shoulder at her, the corners of his mouth lifting in a soft smile. She looked so comfortable there, so at home in his space. It made his heart ache in a way he wasn't sure how to explain.

"Hey," he called, spinning his chair toward her.

She looked up from her phone, tilting her head. "What's up?"

"Dalmatian Crypto," he began, his excitement bubbling over, "it's blowing up. My latest video's tripled the usual views, and people are going crazy. I've been getting emails about sponsorships and collaborations."

Her lips curved into a smile, her face lighting up in the way that always made his heart skip a beat. "That's incredible, Myung-Gi. You've been working so hard for this. I'm really proud of you."

Her words made his chest tighten with pride—and something deeper, something he didn't dare to name. "Yeah, it's exciting," he said, scratching the back of his neck. "Actually... I was thinking, maybe you should invest."

"Me?" She blinked, caught off guard.

"Yeah," he said, leaning forward. "I mean, it's taking off right now. You'd be getting in at the perfect time. And I could help you set it all up."

Her smile faltered slightly, though she tried to hide it. "I don't know, Myung-Gi. Crypto's just... it doesn't feel like my thing. It's risky, right?"

He frowned but nodded, not wanting to push her. "Yeah, it can be. But if you ever change your mind, let me know."

She gave him a small, grateful smile, and the conversation shifted to lighter topics.

"Oh, by the way," he said, suddenly remembering, "I made a dinner reservation for your birthday."

Her eyebrows lifted in surprise. "You did?"

"Yep," he said, leaning back with a smug grin. "Fancy place. Elegant. So you better bring your A-game when it comes to dressing up."

She laughed softly, shaking her head. "You really didn't have to do that."

"Of course I did," he said, his tone light but sincere. "You deserve something special. You deserve to feel celebrated."

Her heart warmed at his words, and she found herself staring at him a moment too long. "Thank you, Myung-Gi."

"Don't thank me yet," he teased. "I still need to figure out what to get you for a gift."

She tilted her head, pretending to think. "How about... a bunny?"

"A bunny?" he repeated, laughing. "Why a bunny?"

"They're cute," she said simply. "And they'd keep me company."

"Well, let's go see some," he said, standing and grabbing his keys. "There's a pet store a few blocks from here."

The pet store was lively, with families and couples admiring the puppies and kittens. The air was filled with the soft meows of cats and the excited yips of dogs. Nari's eyes lit up as they walked in, and she immediately made a beeline for the rabbit enclosures.

"Look at this one!" she said, pointing at a fluffy white rabbit with floppy ears. "Doesn't it look like a little cloud?"

"It does," he admitted, standing beside her. "Are you sure you don't want a dog, though? They're more fun."

"They're also more work," she countered. "I'd feel bad leaving a dog alone when I'm not home."

He smirked, nudging her playfully. "So, a rabbit's more work..."

She crouched down to get a closer look at the rabbit, her face soft with affection. "Maybe," she said, her tone wistful.

They wandered through the store, stopping to look at puppies, kittens, and even the fish tanks. Myung-Gi couldn't resist teasing her when they passed the reptile section.

"Come on, Nari," he said, gesturing to a tank with a ball python inside. "Snakes are cool. Low maintenance, too."

"Absolutely not," she said, recoiling dramatically. "If you get a snake, I'm never coming over again."

"That's a little extreme," he said, grinning.

"I'm serious," she insisted, crossing her arms. "I draw the line at snakes."

"Noted," he said with a laugh, following her out of the reptile section. "So no snake for your birthday?"

"No snake," she confirmed, rolling her eyes.

After leaving the pet store, they stopped at a street vendor to pick up some takeout—tteokbokki for her and bibimbap for him. They ate as they walked, the warm food a comforting contrast to the cool spring breeze.

By the time they were halfway to her apartment, Nari's steps began to drag. "I think I ate too much," she said, laughing softly. "I'm so full."

"Want me to carry you?" he offered, only half-joking.

She hesitated, then nodded shyly. "Would you?"

His brows lifted in surprise, but he crouched down, letting her climb onto his back. She wrapped her arms around his shoulders, her head resting lightly against his neck.

"You're strong," she murmured, her voice soft.

"I run marathons, remember?" he teased, adjusting her weight so she was more comfortable.

By the time they reached her apartment, she was half-asleep, her breaths soft and even against his neck. He gently nudged her awake to unlock the door, and she smiled sleepily as they stepped inside.

"Thank you, Myung-Gi," she said, her voice quiet.

"Always," he replied, his chest tightening as he watched her settle in.

And as the night drew to a close, Myung-Gi found himself lying awake, replaying the day in his mind. He didn't know how much longer he could keep pretending his feelings were just friendship.

The soft hum of the heater filled the quiet apartment, wrapping the dimly lit space in a cocoon of warmth. The living room was cozy, with its neatly arranged cushions on the couch, the faint glow of the small table lamp casting long, gentle shadows across the walls. A mug of tea, forgotten and half-empty, sat on the coffee table, the faint scent of chamomile mingling with the crisp, clean smell of the shower steam still lingering in the air.

Nari emerged from the bathroom, her damp hair clinging to her neck, glistening under the light. She wore an oversized sweatshirt that fell just above her knees, its sleeves bunched around her hands, her bare legs peeking out as she shuffled across the wooden floor. The faint creak of the planks beneath her feet was the only sound aside from her soft sighs of exhaustion.

Myung-Gi sat on the couch, his elbows resting on his knees, scrolling absentmindedly on his phone. He looked up the moment he heard her approach, his gaze softening as it landed on her. The sight of her, fresh-faced and vulnerable, made something in his chest tighten. The way the light framed her figure, the faint redness in her cheeks from the hot shower—it was moments like this that left him caught off guard, utterly captivated.

"All clean?" he asked, his voice low and casual, though there was a subtle warmth behind it.

"Yeah," she replied softly, her voice tinged with weariness. She flopped down on the armrest beside him, leaning back and closing her eyes for a moment. Her hands instinctively moved to rub her temples. "But I think I overdid it today. My feet are killing me."

His brows furrowed as he straightened up. "You should've told me earlier. You walked everywhere today, didn't you?"

She shrugged, her lips curving into a faint, tired smile. "It wasn't that bad."

"Liar," he said, shaking his head with a quiet chuckle. He leaned forward, reaching out to gently grab her ankle, pulling her foot into his lap. "Here, let me take a look."

She blinked, surprised by the sudden gesture. "Myung-Gi, you don't have to—"

"Shh," he interrupted, giving her a playful but firm look. "Just let me help."

The apartment seemed to grow quieter as his hands wrapped around her foot. His warm fingers pressed into the arch, working methodically to knead out the tension. She flinched at first, hissing softly at the pressure, but the initial discomfort melted into relief as he continued.

The rain outside tapped gently against the windowpane, the steady rhythm adding to the stillness of the space. The soft yellow light from the table lamp illuminated the contours of his face, his brows knit in concentration as he moved his thumbs in careful circles. She watched him for a moment, her chest tightening at the sight of his focused expression.

"Oh my God," she murmured, her head falling back against the armrest. "That feels amazing."

He smiled, the corners of his lips tugging upward in a subtle curve. "Told you I was good at this."

The faint scent of eucalyptus from her body wash filled the air as he worked, his hands moving with practiced ease. He adjusted her toes gently, a soft pop echoing through the room. She let out a contented sigh, sinking further into the cushions.

"You're always overdoing it," he muttered, his voice low but fond.

"Hmm," she hummed, too relaxed to argue. Her lashes fluttered as her eyes threatened to close.

When he finished with her feet, he reached for her hands, his touch firm but careful. He pressed into her palms, working his way up to her fingers, methodically popping each knuckle. The tension in her body seemed to melt away under his care, her breathing growing slower and more even.

"You're really good at this," she mumbled sleepily, her voice barely above a whisper.

"Years of practice," he replied softly.

By the time he finished, her head had tilted to the side, her lips slightly parted as her breaths deepened. She had fallen asleep, completely still except for the gentle rise and fall of her chest.

"Nari," he whispered, tilting his head to get a better look at her.

She didn't stir.

The rain continued its gentle rhythm against the windows, the room bathed in the soft glow of the lamp. Myung-Gi sat there for a moment, his heart caught in the quiet intimacy of the moment. She looked so peaceful, so utterly trusting, and it made something in him ache.

Carefully, he slid his arms under her, lifting her off the couch. She stirred slightly, her head falling against his chest, but she didn't wake. Her body felt light in his arms, her damp hair brushing against his neck as he carried her to the bedroom.

The room was quiet, save for the faint sound of the rain outside. He placed her gently on the bed, tucking her under the covers. For a moment, he stood at the edge, hesitating. She looked so serene, her face softened in sleep, and he felt an overwhelming urge to stay.

But would it be too much? Would she—

"Myung-Gi," she mumbled, her voice thick with sleep. Her hand reached out weakly, her fingers curling into the fabric of his sleeve. "Stay."

His breath caught, his heart pounding in his chest. After a moment's hesitation, he nodded to himself and slipped under the covers beside her. As he settled in, her body instinctively moved closer, her head resting just under his chin, her hand still clutching his shirt.

He wrapped an arm around her waist, pulling her closer, the warmth of her body against his making it impossible to think of anything else. His heart raced, but he didn't move. He didn't dare.

Outside, the rain continued to fall, the steady rhythm mirroring the quiet, unspoken connection between them.

Myung-Gi stared at the ceiling, his heart hammering in his chest as he tried to steady his breathing. Nari's soft, even breaths warmed the fabric of his shirt, her head nestled just beneath his chin. She had fallen back into a deep sleep, completely unaware of the storm of emotions raging inside him.

His arm rested lightly around her waist, his fingers brushing against the soft fabric of her shirt—his shirt. The oversized material bunched slightly where her body curled into his, and he could feel the faint rhythm of her heartbeat, steady and calm, in stark contrast to his own.

How had they ended up here?

He couldn't help but replay the events of the evening in his mind, from the way her laugh had filled the room as they joked earlier, to how her shoulders had relaxed under his touch when he'd massaged away her exhaustion. Everything about her felt so natural, so easy. Yet, it wasn't easy at all for him—not when every glance, every accidental touch, made him ache with emotions he could never quite put into words.

He closed his eyes, inhaling the faint scent of eucalyptus and something distinctly hers. It was intoxicating, comforting, and maddening all at once.

What was he supposed to do? How was he supposed to lay here, with her warmth pressed so close, pretending that this was normal? Pretending that his heart wasn't tied up in knots every time she smiled at him, or that he didn't lose himself every time her eyes lingered on his?

His fingers tightened slightly around the fabric of her shirt, an unconscious reflex to the tidal wave of feelings threatening to overwhelm him. She shifted slightly in her sleep, her leg brushing against his. It sent a jolt through him, like electricity sparking under his skin. He let out a shaky breath, careful not to disturb her, though the sound of her steady breathing was the only thing grounding him.

He wanted to stay like this forever. Just hold her, protect her, be the one she trusted enough to let her guard down around. But wasn't he already that? And wasn't it still not enough?

For years now, he'd been carrying this secret weight, this gnawing yearning that he tried to keep locked away. He didn't want to ruin what they had. He didn't want to risk losing her. But lying here now, with her so close, he couldn't help but wonder if she felt the same pull. If maybe, just maybe, this connection wasn't one-sided.

He thought back to earlier in the night, the way she'd looked at him when she asked him to stay. There had been something in her eyes, a vulnerability that mirrored his own. And when she had fallen asleep in his arms, the way she clung to him—it wasn't just friendship, was it?

But then again, he was too scared to assume. Too scared to risk everything on the chance that he might be wrong.

The rain outside continued its steady rhythm, the faint tapping against the window mirroring the uneven tempo of his thoughts. He turned his head slightly, looking down at her. Her face was peaceful, her lashes casting faint shadows on her cheeks. She looked so at ease, so unguarded. It made him want to reach out, to touch her face, to whisper the words that he had buried deep in his chest for years.

But he didn't. He couldn't.

Instead, he closed his eyes and rested his chin lightly against the top of her head. His grip on her waist tightened ever so slightly, a silent promise to himself.

For now, this was enough. Just having her here, in his arms, was enough. And maybe, someday, he would find the courage to tell her everything. But tonight, he would hold her a little closer, let himself pretend for just a little longer, and hope that she could feel all the things he couldn't bring himself to say.

Myung-Gi drifted in and out of a restless haze, his thoughts warring with the steady rhythm of the rain outside. Every now and then, he'd glance down at Nari, her soft breaths calming the storm in his chest, even if only for a moment. She shifted slightly, nuzzling closer, and he felt her hand curl lightly against his chest. The faintest smile tugged at the corners of his lips, despite the ache deep inside him.

His mind wandered back to the countless times they'd been together over the years—studying on campus, grabbing street food late at night, sitting on bus rides that felt like stolen moments. He had memorized the way her laugh echoed in small spaces, how her eyes lit up when she spoke passionately about something, and the way she always unconsciously hummed under her breath when she was happy. He knew these things about her, and yet, she felt like an infinite puzzle he could never fully solve.

She was so close now, but still out of reach.

His heart tightened at the memory of her voice earlier that night when she'd asked him to stay. It wasn't just her words, but the way she said them—soft, almost hesitant, but full of unspoken trust. She didn't just ask him to stay in her apartment; she asked him to stay in her space, in her quiet moments, in her life.

And he was terrified of what that meant.

He didn't want to overthink it, didn't want to let his feelings ruin the fragile balance they had. But as the minutes stretched into hours, the weight of everything unsaid pressed down on him, heavy and inescapable.

Suddenly, her voice, soft and drowsy, broke the stillness.

"Myung-Gi?" she murmured, barely audible against the sound of the rain.

He froze, his heart leaping into his throat. "Yeah?" he whispered, trying to keep his voice steady.

She shifted slightly, her head tilting up to look at him, her eyes half-lidded with sleep. "You're still awake?"

"Couldn't sleep," he admitted quietly, his hand unconsciously brushing against the small of her back. "You?"

"I woke up," she said, her voice thick with sleep. "You're tense."

He chuckled softly, though it lacked any real humor. "Sorry. Didn't mean to wake you."

She shook her head and moved slightly, her hand brushing against his chest as if to reassure him. "What's wrong?"

Her question hung in the air, heavier than the rain. Myung-Gi hesitated, his mind racing for an answer that wouldn't betray the emotions he worked so hard to suppress.

"Just... thinking," he finally said, his voice barely above a whisper.

"About what?" she pressed gently, her brows furrowing slightly as she studied his face.

He hesitated again, his throat tightening. How could he put into words everything that had been building between them for years? How could he tell her that every time she laughed, it felt like sunlight breaking through his darkest moments? That every time she looked at him, he felt like he could do anything?

Instead, he offered a faint smile. "Just life, I guess."

She didn't seem convinced, but she didn't push. Instead, she rested her head against his chest again, her fingers lightly tracing an idle pattern on his shirt.

"You're always overthinking," she said softly, a hint of a smile in her voice. "It's okay to just be here, you know."

Her words hit him like a gentle punch to the gut, and for a moment, all he could do was nod. Just be here. He wanted that more than anything—to just exist in this moment with her, without the weight of his feelings, without the fear of ruining everything.

He tightened his hold on her slightly, letting his cheek rest against her hair. The faint scent of her shampoo—something floral and sweet—filled his senses, grounding him in the present.

"Okay," he murmured, his voice soft and resolute. "I'll just be here."

And for the first time in years, he let himself do exactly that. No analyzing, no worrying about the future. Just her warmth against him, the sound of her breathing, and the quiet comfort of her beside him.

As Myung-Gi held Nari closer, the word slipped from his lips before he could stop it. "Jagi," he murmured, so soft it was almost swallowed by the steady rhythm of the rain.

Her fingers, which had been absentmindedly tracing patterns on his chest, stilled. She lifted her head slightly, her sleepy eyes meeting his in the dim light.

"What did you just call me?" she asked, her voice low and drowsy, but there was a spark of curiosity behind her words.

Myung-Gi's heart lurched, realizing what he had said. The word had come so naturally, as though it had always been there, waiting for the right moment. He hesitated, his throat tightening as he searched her expression for a reaction.

"I... uh..." He scratched the back of his head awkwardly, his nerves betraying him. "I said 'Jagi.'"

Her lips quirked into a faint smile, and her eyes softened as she studied him. "You've never called me that before."

He swallowed hard, his pulse quickening under her gaze. "It just... slipped out," he admitted, feeling the heat rising to his cheeks. "I guess... I don't know. It felt right."

Her smile grew, small but warm, and she rested her head back on his chest, the steady rise and fall of his breathing beneath her ear. "I don't mind," she said quietly, almost shyly. "I think I like it."

His heart soared at her words, and he let out a breath he hadn't realized he'd been holding. He tightened his arms around her protectively, the word taking on a deeper meaning with every passing second.

"Okay, Jagi," he said softly, the word rolling off his tongue more naturally now. It felt intimate, like a quiet acknowledgment of the closeness that had grown between them.

She hummed in contentment, her fingers resuming their soft, lazy movements against his chest. "It suits us, I think."

The simplicity of her statement filled him with an inexplicable warmth. It wasn't a grand confession or a bold declaration, but it was enough. It was more than he had dared to hope for.

As the rain continued its gentle drumming against the windows, Myung-Gi let himself bask in the moment, holding her close and savoring the quiet intimacy of calling her Jagi. It was as though a small barrier had crumbled between them, and though neither of them said it aloud, they both felt the shift. Something was changing, deepening, and neither wanted to rush it.

As Nari's fingers traced idle circles over Myung-Gi's chest, the warmth of her touch sent shivers cascading through his body.

He tried to steady his breath, to ignore the way her presence made his pulse race. But the soft, comfortable silence between them had shifted into something charged-electric. The room felt smaller, the air heavier, and the rhythm of the rain outside seemed to slow in time with their breaths.

Nari tilted her head slightly, her cheek brushing against his chest as she glanced up at him. Her dark eyes were soft but searching, as if she were trying to find the words she hadn't yet spoken. Myung-Gi met her gaze, and the vulnerability he saw there nearly unraveled him. He tried to look away, but he couldn't. Her eyes held him in place, tugging at the threads of his resolve.

"Myung-Gi..." she whispered, her voice barely audible above the rain.

He swallowed hard, his throat dry. "Yeah, Jagi?"

The endearment slipped from his lips so naturally now, as though it had always belonged to her. She smiled faintly at the sound of it, her fingers pausing on his chest before sliding up to rest against his collarbone. Her lips parted, but no words came.

Instead, she simply looked at him— really looked at him-like she was memorizing every detail of his face. He felt his heart skip a beat, his body tensing under her touch. He wanted to say something, anything to break the moment before it became too much. But then she moved closer, her breath warm against his jaw as her fingers gently brushed along his neck.

"Myung-Gi," she said again, her voice trembling just slightly, "I... I don't know how to say this."

The warmth of the moment shifted slightly as Myung-Gi noticed Nari's gaze lingering on him, her eyes filled with a weight he couldn't quite place. The soft comfort they'd been sharing felt like it was on the verge of being interrupted. She sat up slightly, pulling back just enough to look at him directly, and he immediately felt his stomach twist with anxiety.

She was hesitating. Her lips parted like she was about to say something, but the words didn't come. Myung-Gi's mind raced, conjuring every worst-case scenario it could find.

Was she regretting this? Was she going to tell him they'd gone too far? That they needed to slow down? That she didn't feel the same way he did? His chest tightened at the thought, and he instinctively sat up too, his hands falling to his lap as he tried to steady himself.

"Nari..." he began cautiously, his voice soft but laced with worry. "If there's something on your mind, just tell me. Please."

Her fingers fidgeted slightly, playing with the edge of the blanket, and he mistook her nervousness for doubt.

"Look, if you feel like this is... I don't know, too much, or too fast, you can tell me. I'll understand. I don't want to make you feel pressured, or uncomfortable, or like—" He was rambling now, his words spilling out faster than he could stop them, his heart pounding. "I know I can be a lot sometimes, and if you think we need to take a step back, I'll respect that, but just—don't disappear on me, okay? I don't think I could handle it if—"

His words were abruptly cut off as Nari leaned forward, her hands gently cupping his face. Her lips found his in a soft, deliberate kiss that silenced his spiraling thoughts entirely. For a split second, his mind went blank, unable to process the shift in the moment, but then he melted into her touch, his hands instinctively rising to rest on her waist.

The kiss was everything—sweet and tentative but underlined with a depth of emotion that had been building between them for so long. Her lips were warm and soft against his, her touch light but grounding. It wasn't rushed or overwhelming; it was simply them, finally crossing a line that had been drawn far too long ago.

When she pulled back slightly, her breath mingling with his, she gave him a small, nervous smile. "I wasn't going to say anything bad, Myung-Gi. I just... didn't know how to say what I was feeling."

His heart hammered in his chest as her words sank in, and he let out a breath he hadn't realized he'd been holding. A faint, almost disbelieving laugh escaped him as his hand brushed a strand of hair from her face.

"God, Nari," he whispered, his voice trembling slightly. "I thought you were about to tell me you wanted to stop... that this was too much."

Her eyes softened, and she leaned her forehead against his. "It's not too much. It's... it's just right. I've been scared too, but..." She trailed off, her cheeks flushing as she tried to find the right words.

"But?" he prompted gently, his voice steadier now, his hands tracing small, calming circles against her sides.

"But I don't want to step back. Not from you. Not ever."

Her admission made his heart ache in the best way, and before she could say anything else, he closed the small distance between them, capturing her lips in another kiss. This one was deeper, his hands tightening slightly on her waist as if to assure himself that this moment was real. Her arms wound around his neck, pulling him closer, and the world outside seemed to fade away.

When they finally broke apart, their breaths uneven, he rested his forehead against hers again, his lips curving into a soft smile. "You don't know how long I've wanted to do that," he admitted, his voice barely above a whisper.

She laughed lightly, her fingers tracing the line of his jaw. "Maybe I do."

For the first time in a long while, Myung-Gi felt like everything was falling into place. The tension that had been building between them had finally burst, but instead of tearing them apart, it had brought them closer. He couldn't help but think that this—whatever "this" was—felt right.

The silence that followed was thick but comforting. Myung-Gi didn't want to move, didn't want to let go of the fragile but monumental moment they had just shared. Nari's hands lingered at the nape of his neck, her fingers idly playing with the strands of his hair, and his own grip on her waist was firm yet tender, like he was afraid she might disappear if he let go.

Eventually, she shifted slightly, her lips quirking into a shy smile as she glanced up at him. "So...what now?"

The question was soft, almost hesitant, but it made him chuckle quietly. He pulled her closer, his forehead brushing against hers as he searched her face. "I guess we take it one step at a time," he said, his voice low and warm. "No rush. No pressure. Just us."

Her expression softened, and she nodded, her smile growing a bit wider. "That sounds good to me."

He didn't know what he had expected her to say, but hearing her agreement lifted a weight he hadn't even realized was still pressing on him. This wasn't some fleeting moment—it was something real, something worth holding onto.

The room felt quieter now, the earlier tension replaced by a calm that settled between them like a gentle breeze. The faint hum of traffic outside filtered in through the slightly cracked window, and the city lights painted soft patterns on the walls. Myung-Gi let himself take it all in, the warmth of her so close, the way her fingers still brushed his neck absentmindedly. It felt surreal.

She broke the silence again, her voice light but curious. "Did you really think I was about to tell you to step back?"

He let out a soft laugh, running a hand over his face. "You have no idea how much I overthought that moment. You hesitated, and I just...I panicked. My brain went to the worst-case scenario instantly."

Nari tilted her head, her brows knitting together in mock offense. "You really think I'd just let things fall apart after everything?"

He gave her a sheepish grin, his fingers brushing along her arm. "I don't think I could've handled it if you had," he admitted quietly, his tone soft but sincere. "I've spent so long trying to keep this part of me locked up, trying not to let you see just how much I—" He cut himself off, his words faltering as he searched her face.

Her expression was open, patient, waiting for him to finish. When he didn't, she smiled softly and reached up to cup his face. "You don't have to keep anything locked up anymore," she said gently. "I see it. I see you."

His chest tightened at her words, and for a moment, he couldn't respond. Instead, he leaned into her touch, his eyes fluttering shut as he let himself breathe her in. "I don't deserve you," he murmured, the words escaping before he could stop them.

"You're wrong," she replied simply, her thumb brushing his cheek. "You deserve everything, Myung-Gi."

Her words hit him harder than he expected, and he found himself pulling her into another embrace, his arms wrapping around her tightly. She sank into him without hesitation, her face resting against his shoulder as they stayed like that for what felt like an eternity.

When she finally pulled back, her eyes sparkled with a quiet mischief. "So...does this mean you'll start calling me Jagi more?"

He laughed, the sound light and genuine, as he shook his head. "I think it suits you best when it's in the serious moments," he teased, his grin softening into something warmer. "But maybe I'll make an exception every now and then."

She rolled her eyes playfully, but the smile on her face was impossible to hide. "I guess I can live with that."

They stayed up for a while longer, talking quietly, the earlier tension now replaced with a newfound closeness that neither of them wanted to let go of. When exhaustion finally began to take hold, Nari shifted to lay down, tugging him with her. He didn't protest this time, sliding into the bed beside her and pulling the blanket over them.

As they settled, she nestled closer, her head resting against his chest, and he instinctively wrapped an arm around her. The soft rhythm of her breathing eventually lulled him into a sense of peace, and just as sleep began to pull him under, he pressed a gentle kiss to the top of her head.

For the first time in a long time, the future didn't feel so uncertain. Whatever was to come, they would face it together. So he thought.

b. six, mornings after

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Nari arrived at Myung-Gi's apartment late in the morning, her arms laden with her usual bag of snacks and drinks to share, though today she wasn't just there to hang out. She knocked lightly, but before she could even step back, the door swung open to reveal Myung-Gi, hair slightly tousled, wearing a casual hoodie and joggers. His grin widened when he saw her.

"Right on time," he said, stepping aside to let her in. "You ready to make your grand debut on MG Coin?"

"Can't wait to hear you say, 'Don't forget to like, comment, and subscribe,'" she teased, slipping off her shoes.

He laughed, closing the door behind her. "You're already making fun of me, and we haven't even started."

The apartment smelled faintly of coffee, and his camera equipment was set up in front of his desk. Nari always thought his setup was oddly endearing—the professional lights contrasting with the chaos of cables and his half-full mug sitting off to the side. The MG Coin logo was projected on a small monitor in the background, the flashy graphics screaming "crypto influencer."

She sat on the couch as he prepped the final details. "So what's today's topic? Scamming your friends for investments?"

"First of all," he said, turning to her with mock offense, "I never scam. Second of all, today's all about Dalmatian Crypto. You know, the future of blockchain tech." He smirked. "You might even learn something."

"Sure I will," she said, leaning back, skeptical but amused. "Let's get this show on the road, superstar."

Nari found herself nervously smiling at the camera as Myung-Gi hit record.

"Welcome back to MG Coin, everyone!" he began, his voice smooth and confident, almost a persona compared to the relaxed man she usually knew. "Today, I've got something special for you. We're talking about Dalmatian Crypto, and as a bonus, I have a very special guest—my friend, Ha Nari!"

She gave a small wave, already fighting off a laugh. "Hi, everyone."

Myung-Gi chuckled and gestured toward her. "She's a first-time crypto learner, so I'll be explaining everything in a way that even beginners can understand. And maybe, just maybe, she'll join the Dalmatian family by the end of this."

As he launched into his spiel about Dalmatian Crypto's "innovative features" and "game-changing potential," Nari listened carefully, occasionally nodding and asking questions when prompted. She couldn't help but admire how animated he became when talking about something he was passionate about. His energy was infectious, even if she was still unsure about this particular venture.

When they wrapped up the video, Myung-Gi turned to her expectantly. "So, what do you think? Pretty convincing, right?"

"It's... interesting," she said carefully, unsure how to break it to him.

As he packed up the equipment, Myung-Gi leaned against the desk and crossed his arms. "You know, Nari, you should really consider investing in Dalmatian Crypto. I'm telling you, this thing is going to explode soon."

She hesitated, feeling a strange unease about it despite his enthusiasm. "I don't know, Myung-Gi. Something about it feels... off. And you know me—I'm terrible with money."

He frowned, clearly disappointed but trying to hide it. "It's not a scam, you know. I wouldn't promote something I didn't believe in."

"I know," she said gently, placing a hand on his arm. "But I think I'll sit this one out. It's just not for me."

He sighed but nodded. "Fair enough. But when it takes off, I'm not letting you live it down."

She laughed, grateful he didn't push harder. "Deal. Speaking of deals, how about we make one? Come with me to the park. Let's get some fresh air and clear our heads."

He blinked, caught off guard. "The park? Like... right now?"

"Yeah," she said, already grabbing her coat. "You're always saying I don't exercise enough. Come on, let's go for a walk."

The crisp March air nipped at their cheeks as they strolled through the park. Nari tugged her scarf tighter around her neck while Myung-Gi carried a bag filled with snacks they picked up from nearby food stands. They stopped periodically to share bites of hotteok, tteokbokki, and skewered fish cakes, the warmth of the food cutting through the chill.

"You know," Nari said, her tone light, "if your crypto thing ever falls through, you'd make an excellent food blogger."

Myung-Gi laughed, offering her another bite of fish cake. "I think you're confusing me with you. You're the one who knows all the best spots."

"Well, someone has to keep you fed," she teased, nudging him playfully.

The tension between them simmered beneath the surface, unspoken but palpable. Their laughter felt lighter than usual, but their stolen glances carried weight. He noticed the way her hair caught the fading sunlight, and she couldn't help but linger on the way his smile softened when he looked at her.

When they returned, Nari flopped onto his couch with a content sigh. "That was fun. Thanks for letting me drag you out."

"Thanks for the snacks," he said, setting the now-empty bag on the counter. "But we're not done yet. Stay right there—I've got one more surprise."

She raised an eyebrow, intrigued. "A surprise?"

"Yep," he said with a grin, already pulling ingredients from his fridge. "I'm making your favorite."

Her eyes widened as she sat up. "No way. You're not actually making galbijjim, are you? That dish takes hours!"

"Good thing I prepped earlier," he said smugly, pulling out the marinated short ribs. "Just sit back and relax. I've got this."

She watched him work, a strange warmth blooming in her chest as he moved around the kitchen with practiced ease. The smell of soy sauce, garlic, and sesame oil filled the apartment, making her stomach growl. By the time he brought the dish to the table, she was practically drooling.

"This is amazing," she said after her first bite, her eyes wide with delight. "Seriously, Myung-Gi, you outdid yourself."

"Only the best for you," he said, his tone teasing but his expression sincere.

The night had settled deeply over Seoul, casting a quiet stillness over Myung-Gi's small apartment. After dinner, Nari sat cross-legged on his bed, wearing one of his oversized shirts that barely grazed her mid-thigh. Her hair was slightly tousled, and her face glowed faintly from the warmth of the food he'd cooked for her earlier. She looked content, but there was a shy nervousness about her as she avoided meeting his gaze for too long.

"Are you sure you're okay with me staying over again?" she asked softly, her fingers playing with the hem of the shirt. Her tone carried uncertainty, her usual confidence tempered by the closeness they had been navigating over the past few months.

"Of course," Myung-Gi said quickly, standing awkwardly by the door. "You're always welcome here, you know that." He smiled nervously, but he couldn't shake the feeling of anticipation building in the room. "But, uh, are you sure you're okay with me taking the couch? The bed's all yours."

Her head shot up, her eyes wide with something close to alarm. "No," she blurted, then quickly softened her tone. "I mean... you don't have to. The bed's big enough for both of us, right? And I... I don't want to sleep alone." She glanced down as she spoke, her cheeks dusted with the faintest pink. "I just feel safer when you're here."

His heart jumped at her words, and he quickly averted his gaze, swallowing hard. "Are you sure?" he asked again, his voice faltering. He was torn between wanting to respect her space and the quiet thrill of being close to her.

She nodded, her hands still twisting the hem of the shirt. "Yeah. I mean, if it's okay with you. It's not like... it's not a big deal, right?" Her voice was soft, but there was a nervous vulnerability in her tone that tugged at him.

"No," he said gently, trying to hide the tremor in his own voice. "Not a big deal."

The soft hum of the night enveloped the small apartment, broken only by the faint sound of their breathing. Myung-Gi laid stiffly on his side of the bed, his heart racing uncontrollably as the warmth of Nari's presence seemed to seep into every fiber of his being. She was close-closer than she'd ever been—and the tension in the room was almost suffocating.

She shifted slightly, her leg brushing against his under the covers, and his breath hitched. He glanced over at her, her face illuminated by the soft glow of the moonlight filtering through the curtains.

Her hair was tousled, and her lips were slightly parted as she stared up at the ceiling, lost in thought.

"Nari," he said softly, his voice breaking the silence.

She turned her head to look at him, her eyes wide and vulnerable. "Yeah?"

He hesitated, his words caught in his throat. "You okay?"

She nodded, but her lips curved into a faint, almost apologetic smile. "Yeah, I just... I don't know. I feel a little... restless, ! guess."

He didn't respond immediately, his gaze lingering on her face. There was something about the way she looked at him, like she was searching for something-an answer, maybe, or reassurance. Suddenly, she shifted again, her leg accidentally draping over his. She froze, her cheeks flushing as she realized what she'd done. "Sorry," she murmured, starting to move her leg away.

But before she could, his hand reached out, gently resting on her thigh. "No," he said quietly, his voice steady despite the rapid pounding of his heart. "It's okay."

Her breath caught as she felt his touch, his fingers warm and grounding against her skin. Slowly, he moved her leg further over his, settling her closer to him. His hand lingered there, his touch light but firm, as if he was afraid she might pull away.

"Myung-Gi.." Her voice was barely above a whisper, her eyes searching his face for any indication of what he was thinking.

He didn't say anything, his gaze locked on hers. Instead, he shifted closer, his arm wrapping around her waist and pulling her against him. She let out a soft gasp as their bodies pressed together, the heat between them almost unbearable.

"Is this okay?" he asked, his voice low and laced with hesitation.

She nodded, her cheeks burning as she avoided his eyes. "Yeah," she said softly. "It's... nice."

The silence between them grew heavier, charged with an unspoken tension that neither of them dared to address. His hand stayed on her thigh, his thumb brushing small, absentminded circles against her skin. Every touch sent a ripple of warmth through her, her heart racing in time with his.

As she adjusted her position slightly, her head resting against his chest, she could feel the rapid thrum of his heartbeat. It mirrored her own, a silent acknowledgment of the tension that had been building between them for months.

"You're warm," she murmured, her voice barely audible. He chuckled softly, the sound vibrating through his chest. "So are you."

She tilted her head up to look at him, her eyes catching his in the dim light. "Do you think... things between us are changing?" she asked hesitantly, her voice trembling slightly.

His breath hitched, and for a moment, he couldn't bring himself to respond. "I don't know," he admitted quietly. "Do you?"

Her lips parted as she considered his question, but she didn't answer. Instead, she shifted again, her leg tightening around his as her hand moved to rest on his chest. The feel of her fingers against him sent a shiver down his spine, and he instinctively tightened his grip on her waist.

As their faces inched closer together, the space between them seemed to shrink. He could feel her breath against his skin, warm and inviting, and his eyes flickered to her lips, lingering there for just a moment too long.

"Nari," he murmured, his voice barely above a whisper. "I..."

She looked up at him, her gaze soft and searching. "What is it?"

He swallowed hard, his hand moving from her waist to cup her face. "I don't want to ruin this," he said softly, his thumb brushing against her cheek. "But... I don't know if I can keep pretending anymore."

Her breath caught at his words, her heart pounding so loudly she was sure he could hear it. "Pretending what?" she asked, her voice shaky.

He didn't answer. Instead, he leaned in slightly, his forehead resting against hers as he closed his eyes. The tension between them was almost unbearable, the unspoken feelings that had been simmering beneath the surface threatening to boil over.

Her hand moved to his chest, her fingers clutching the fabric of his shirt as if to steady herself. "Myung-Gi..." she whispered, her voice trembling.

He opened his eyes, his gaze locking on hers. For a moment, time seemed to stand still. He could see everything in her eyes— her hesitation, her longing, her fear. And he knew she could see the same in his.

Slowly, he leaned in, his lips hovering just a breath away from hers. His hand moved to her hip, his fingers brushing against the bare skin beneath the shirt. She shivered at his touch, her leg tightening around him as her body instinctively pressed closer.

But just as their lips were about to meet, she hesitated, her eyes fluttering shut before quickly opening again. "Myung-Gi.." she whispered, her voice breaking the spell.

He froze, his heart sinking as he pulled back slightly. "I'm sorry," he said quickly, his voice filled with regret. "I didn't mean to-"

She shook her head, her cheeks flushed as she avoided his gaze. "No, it's okay," she said softly. "I just... I'm scared."

His heart ached at her words, and he gently cupped her face again, his thumb brushing away a tear that had slipped down her cheek. "You don't have to be scared," he said quietly. "I'm not going anywhere."

She nodded, her lips curving into a small, shy smile. "I know."

They settled back into the bed, the tension still lingering but softened by the quiet understanding between them. As he wrapped his arms around her, pulling her close once more, he pressed a gentle kiss to the top of her head.

"Goodnight, Nari," he murmured, his voice steady despite the storm raging inside him.

"Goodnight, Myung-Gi," she replied, her voice soft and full of something unspoken.

As they drifted off to sleep, tangled together in the quiet of the night, they both knew that something between them had shifted. And though neither of them could quite name it yet, they both felt the weight of it-heavy, bittersweet, and impossibly real.

The faint light of dawn crept through the thin curtains, casting a soft glow across the room. Myung-Gi stirred first, his body waking before his mind caught up to the moment. For a second, he was disoriented, wondering why he felt warmth pressed against him, why there was a faint scent of floral shampoo lingering on his pillow.

Then he felt it—her leg draped over his, her arm curled loosely against his chest, her head tucked under his chin. Nari.

His heart raced as the events of the previous night replayed in his mind—the tension, the closeness, the almost-kiss. His gaze shifted downward, taking in her peaceful expression. Her lips were slightly parted, her cheek pressed against his shirt, and a stray lock of hair fell over her face.

She looked so serene, so beautiful, and it made his chest ache.

He had never been this close to her before, not like this. It was almost too much, the weight of it pressing against his chest like a secret he couldn't contain. He carefully adjusted his arm, pulling her just a little closer, savoring the fleeting moment while it lasted.

But then she stirred, a soft sigh escaping her lips as she shifted against him. Her eyes fluttered open, groggy and confused at first, before her gaze met his. For a moment, they just stared at each other, the silence between them stretching endlessly.

"Good morning," he said softly, his voice lower than usual.

"Good morning," she murmured, her voice still heavy with sleep. She blinked a few times, her cheeks growing pink as she realized how closely they were tangled together. "Sorry, I... I didn't mean to—"

"It's okay," he interrupted gently, a small smile tugging at the corners of his lips. "You were comfortable. That's all that matters."

Her blush deepened, and she quickly looked away, her fingers fidgeting with the hem of the oversized shirt she was wearing—his shirt. "I guess I was," she admitted shyly.

He chuckled softly, the sound warm and comforting. "You hogged the bed a little, though," he teased lightly, hoping to ease the tension.

She shot him a half-hearted glare, though her lips twitched into a small smile. "I did not," she argued, her voice still soft from waking. "You're just too big. Your shoulders take up all the space."

"Oh, so it's my fault?" he quipped, his grin widening.

"Completely," she replied, her tone playful despite the heat rising in her cheeks.

They fell into an easy silence again, the playful banter fading as reality began to settle around them. Myung-Gi glanced at her, his heart twisting as he saw the way she stared down at the blanket, her expression unreadable.

"Are you okay?" he asked after a moment, his voice quieter this time.

She nodded slowly, though her fingers continued to fidget. "Yeah, I'm fine. I just... I guess I wasn't expecting to wake up like this."

"Like what?" he asked, his throat tightening as he waited for her answer.

She hesitated, her gaze flickering up to meet his. "So close to you," she admitted, her voice barely above a whisper.

His breath caught, and for a moment, he didn't know how to respond. "Is that... a bad thing?" he asked cautiously, his heart pounding in his chest.

She shook her head quickly, her cheeks flushing again. "No. It's not bad," she said softly. "It's just... different."

He exhaled a quiet breath he hadn't realized he was holding, his shoulders relaxing slightly. "Different can be good," he said gently, his eyes searching hers.

She didn't respond right away, her gaze dropping back to the blanket as if she was lost in thought. "Maybe it is," she murmured, almost to herself.

They spent the rest of the morning moving slowly, neither of them wanting to shatter the fragile peace that had settled over them. Myung-Gi brewed coffee while Nari rummaged through his fridge for breakfast ingredients, the two of them working side by side in a quiet rhythm.

When she offered to make breakfast, he tried to protest, but she shot him a look that left no room for argument. "You cooked for me last time," she pointed out. "It's only fair."

He relented, though he couldn't stop himself from hovering nearby, watching as she cracked eggs into a bowl and whisked them with practiced ease. She moved comfortably in his kitchen, as if she belonged there, and the thought sent a pang of longing through him.

As they sat down to eat, the tension from earlier began to ease, replaced by the familiar comfort of their friendship. They talked about small things—her job, his YouTube channel, the latest trends in crypto—but there was an undercurrent to their conversation, a weight that neither of them could quite name.

Later, as Nari gathered her things to leave, she hesitated at the door, her hand resting on the handle. "Thanks for letting me stay," she said softly, glancing back at him.

"You don't have to thank me," he replied, his voice just as quiet. "You're always welcome here."

She smiled, though it didn't quite reach her eyes. "I'll see you later, okay?"

He nodded, his chest tightening as he watched her step out into the hallway. "Yeah. See you later."

As the door closed behind her, Myung-Gi leaned back against the counter, letting out a slow breath. He could still feel the warmth of her against him, the weight of her head on his chest, the brush of her leg over his.

It was getting harder to ignore the feelings he'd tried so desperately to bury. And he couldn't help but wonder if she felt it too—the shift, the change, the pull that seemed to draw them closer together with every passing moment.

But for now, he'd let her go, knowing that some things couldn't be rushed. Some things had to unfold in their own time. And he could only hope that when the time came, she'd be ready to take that leap with him.

b. five, fueled tension

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Ten Months Before the Games

It was early February, and the Seoul winter showed no signs of letting up. Snowflakes dusted the streets, clinging to the edges of sidewalks and painting the city in a soft, cold white. Nari pulled her scarf tighter around her neck as she stepped into the café, shaking off the chill and scanning the cozy room until she found him. Myung-Gi was seated at their usual table by the window, his head bent over a notebook, tapping a pen against his chin in thought.

Her chest tightened at the sight of him. There was something about the way he looked so focused, so unbothered by the bustle around him, that made her pause for just a second longer. His hair was still slightly messy from the beanie he'd taken off, and his jawline, now sharpened with age, moved faintly as he muttered to himself.

She exhaled softly and walked toward him, her boots clicking against the wooden floor. "Hey, sorry I'm late. The buses are packed today."

He looked up at the sound of her voice, a smile breaking across his face that sent a jolt of warmth straight through her. "You're not late," he said, closing the notebook and pushing it aside. "I just got here. Coffee's already ordered."

As she sat down across from him, she caught the faintest flicker in his expression—something in his eyes that lingered a second too long before he looked away. She'd noticed it more and more lately, in the way his gaze seemed to follow her movements or how his voice softened whenever he said her name. She tried not to think too much of it, but the tension between them had been growing steadily, a low, thrumming undercurrent that neither of them addressed.

The server came by with their drinks, setting down a cappuccino for her and an Americano for him. The older woman smiled warmly at them, her eyes twinkling as she said, "You two make a lovely couple."

Before Nari could respond, Myung-Gi cleared his throat and politely shook his head. "Oh, we're not—" he began, his voice steady but a little tight, "—we're just friends."

The words felt heavier than they should have, and Nari glanced at him quickly, noticing the way his fingers curled slightly around his coffee cup. She forced a laugh, waving it off. "Yeah, we get that a lot. We've known each other forever."

The server chuckled and moved on, but the air between them felt different now, charged with something unsaid. Nari sipped her coffee, her gaze darting to the snow falling gently outside. She hadn't missed the flicker of something on his face when he corrected the assumption—a hesitation, almost reluctant, like he didn't want to say the words but felt he had to.

"So," she said, breaking the silence, "what were you working on before I got here?"

"Nothing important," he replied quickly, his voice a little strained. He tapped the notebook with his pen, a small nervous habit she'd come to recognize over the years. "Just doodling, really."

Nari raised a brow, leaning forward with a teasing grin. "Doodling? Let me see."

Before he could stop her, she reached across the table and snagged the notebook. Flipping it open, she found a page filled with small, intricate sketches of flowers, trees, and random little designs. Her heart softened at the sight, but as she turned the page, she froze.

There, in the center of a mostly blank page, was a small, almost shyly drawn sketch of her profile—her head tilted slightly, hair falling over one shoulder, and the faintest hint of a smile playing on her lips. It wasn't perfect, but it was unmistakably her.

Her breath caught, and she looked up at him, wide-eyed. "Myung-Gi..."

He was already reaching for the notebook, his cheeks flushing as he stammered, "It's nothing—just practicing faces—"

"It's me," she said softly, her voice barely above a whisper.

He stopped, his hand hovering over the notebook. Their eyes met, and for a long, electric moment, neither of them spoke. Her heart was pounding, and she was sure he could hear it, the sound deafening in her own ears.

"I... didn't mean for you to see that," he admitted, his voice low and a little hoarse. He leaned back in his chair, running a hand through his hair as he avoided her gaze. "It's just... you've been on my mind lately, and... I guess I put it on paper without thinking."

Her fingers tightened slightly on the notebook as her thoughts raced. There it was again—that tension, that unspoken something between them that had been growing for weeks. She didn't know what to say, didn't know how to address the way her stomach fluttered every time he looked at her like that.

"You could've just asked me to pose," she said lightly, trying to ease the weight of the moment.

He let out a soft laugh, shaking his head. "I don't think I could handle that."

They both fell silent, the air thick with everything left unsaid. Nari closed the notebook and slid it back across the table, her fingers brushing against his. The contact sent a small shock through her, and she quickly pulled her hand back, feeling her cheeks heat.

"Thanks for showing me," she said quietly, her voice steady despite the storm inside her. "It's... really good."

He nodded, his Adam's apple bobbing as he swallowed hard. "Thanks."

They finished their coffee in quieter conversation, the tension still lingering but softened somehow, like they were both tiptoeing around a fragile line neither of them wanted to cross—at least not yet.

When they finally left the café, the snow had picked up, swirling around them in soft, glittering flurries. Nari tugged her scarf tighter as Myung-Gi walked beside her, his hands shoved deep into his coat pockets.

"You're quiet," she said, glancing up at him. "Everything okay?"

He hesitated, his gaze fixed on the snow-covered sidewalk ahead of them. "Yeah," he said after a moment. "Just... thinking."

"About what?"

He stopped walking, turning to face her. For a split second, she thought he might say something—something important—but instead, he gave her a small, lopsided smile.

"About how cold it is," he said lightly. "Come on, I'll walk you home."

Her heart sank just a little, but she smiled back, looping her arm through his as they continued down the street together. The snow fell heavier now, but the warmth of his presence made the cold a little more bearable.

As they walked through the dimly lit streets, the faint glow of streetlights illuminated the snowy path ahead. Nari pulled her coat tighter around herself, the chill of February biting at her cheeks. Myung-Gi walked beside her, his hands stuffed into his pockets, looking lost in thought. She glanced at him curiously.

"You've been so busy lately with your channel," she said, breaking the silence. "What's this new project you've been working on? You mentioned something about Dalmatian Crypto?"

Myung-Gi's face lit up, though there was a flicker of nervousness in his eyes. "Yeah, Dalmatian Crypto. It's my latest video. I've been promoting it a lot on MG Coin, and it's been... gaining traction."

Nari raised an eyebrow. "Promoting it? Isn't that kind of risky? I mean, you're always talking about being careful with investments."

He nodded quickly, his breath visible in the cold air as he exhaled. "I know, I know. And I've been upfront about the risks in my videos. But Dalmatian Crypto is different. It's more than just a meme coin—it's got real potential. The team behind it has this vision for making crypto accessible to everyone, even people who don't know much about it. They're creating tools, resources, and a whole community. It's not just about the hype; it's about education."

She tilted her head, her skepticism tempered by the passion in his voice. "That sounds... good, I guess? But you've always warned me that when something sounds too good to be true, it usually is."

Myung-Gi scratched the back of his head, his steps faltering slightly. "You're not wrong, and I've thought about that too. But I've looked into it. The developers seem legit, and the roadmap they've shared checks out. Plus, the engagement on my videos about it has been crazy. People are interested, and I think it could actually help them get started in crypto the right way."

Nari slowed her pace, her brows knitting together. "But what if it goes south? What if people lose money because of this?"

Her words hit him harder than he expected, and for a moment, he didn't know how to respond. He'd been asking himself the same thing every night as he edited his videos, trying to strike the perfect balance between promotion and caution.

"I... I've been careful," he said finally, his voice quieter now. "I always tell them not to invest more than they can afford to lose. And I'm not just promoting it for the sake of promotion. I genuinely believe in it, Nari. It's not like those pump-and-dump schemes."

She looked at him, her expression softening. "I trust you, Myung-Gi. You're not the type to lead people astray. But just... be careful, okay? I don't want you to get caught up in something that could backfire."

He gave her a small smile, grateful for her concern. "I will. I promise. Besides, I've got you to keep me grounded, right?"

Her lips curved into a playful smirk. "That's right. Someone's got to keep an eye on you."

They continued walking, the tension easing as they fell into a more comfortable rhythm. Myung-Gi glanced at her out of the corner of his eye, his heart swelling at the way she always seemed to balance him out. She was cautious where he was impulsive, thoughtful where he was bold. And yet, she never judged him, even when his ideas seemed outlandish.

"You know," he said, his tone lighter now, "if Dalmatian Crypto takes off, maybe I'll be able to afford that vacation you're always talking about. What was it? Paris? Or was it Bali?"

She laughed, the sound warm against the cold night. "It was Santorini, you dork. But if this crypto thing really takes off, you better take me somewhere fancy."

"Deal," he said, grinning. "First-class tickets, five-star hotels, the whole package. All courtesy of Dalmatian Crypto."

"Don't forget the matching Dalmatian outfits," she teased. "If we're going to be crypto moguls, we have to commit to the theme."

He laughed, the sound echoing in the stillness. For a moment, the weight of his growing channel and the uncertainty of his future faded away. All that mattered was her—her laughter, her teasing, her unwavering belief in him.

But as the snow continued to fall, Myung-Gi couldn't shake the nagging thought in the back of his mind. What if she was right? What if Dalmatian Crypto wasn't as solid as it seemed? And worse, what if he ended up losing the one person who truly mattered to him—Nari?

As they walked on, the snow fell heavier, softening the sounds of the city. Myung-Gi occasionally glanced at Nari, her cheeks pink from the cold or maybe from their earlier conversation. He couldn't tell. He shoved his hands deeper into his coat pockets, resisting the urge to reach out and grab hers. The romantic tension between them had been growing for months, and moments like this made it almost unbearable.

"You're quiet," Nari said, breaking the silence. She tilted her head, her dark hair falling over her shoulder. "Something on your mind?"

Myung-Gi hesitated. There was so much on his mind—her laugh, her warmth, the way her concern for him always felt more meaningful than she realized. But he couldn't say any of that. Not yet. Maybe not ever.

"Just thinking about the channel," he lied. "It's been... a lot to manage lately."

"Is it the pressure?" she asked, her voice softening. She always had a way of cutting through his defenses without even trying. "You've been working so hard, Myung-Gi. You don't have to do it all alone, you know."

He looked down at his boots, watching them crunch through the snow. "Yeah, maybe. I don't want to let people down."

She stopped walking, and he did too, her sudden stillness making his heart skip. She turned to face him, her expression somewhere between stern and tender. "You're always so worried about everyone else. But who's taking care of you?"

The question hit him harder than he expected. He searched her eyes, wide and genuine, and felt his resolve start to crumble. "I guess... you do," he said quietly, his voice barely above a whisper.

A small smile tugged at her lips, but her gaze stayed steady on his. "Well, someone has to, right? You can't keep pouring into everyone else without letting someone pour back into you."

His chest tightened. Did she have any idea what her words did to him? How they filled the cracks in his heart while simultaneously breaking it? He wanted to tell her how much she meant to him, how she was the one constant in his chaotic world. But instead, he swallowed hard and forced a smile.

"You're pretty good at that," he said, his tone lighter than he felt. "Taking care of people, I mean."

"Only the ones who deserve it," she teased, nudging his shoulder with hers. But there was a warmth in her eyes that lingered, and he felt it wrap around him like a blanket against the cold.

They started walking again, the silence between them now charged with unspoken words. Myung-Gi's mind raced, imagining a dozen different ways to say what he was feeling. Every scenario ended with him backing out, too afraid of ruining what they had.

When they reached her apartment building, she hesitated at the door, her hand resting on the cold metal handle. "Do you want to come up for tea or something? It's freezing out here."

He blinked, surprised. "Tea?"

"Yeah," she said, looking almost shy for the first time. "You always said you like how I make it, right? Or do you have somewhere to be?"

"No, I... I don't have anywhere to be." His pulse quickened as he followed her inside, the warmth of the lobby hitting them like a wave.

Upstairs, her apartment was cozy and smelled faintly of lavender. She hung up her coat and motioned for him to do the same before disappearing into the kitchen. Myung-Gi stood awkwardly in the living room, unsure of what to do with himself.

"Make yourself comfortable," she called out. "I'll have the tea ready in a minute."

He sat on the edge of her couch, his hands fidgeting in his lap. Everything about this moment felt surreal. The intimacy of being alone with her like this was almost too much. He could hear the soft clinking of cups and the hiss of the kettle, and his heart raced.

When she came back with two steaming mugs, she handed him one and sat down beside him. Not across from him. Beside him.

"So," she said, tucking her legs under herself as she turned to face him. "Are you going to tell me what's really been on your mind?"

He took a sip of tea to stall for time, the warmth settling in his chest. "I told you. Just the channel."

She gave him a look that said she didn't believe him. "You're not a very good liar, you know."

He chuckled nervously. "Maybe I'm just bad at hiding things from you."

Her gaze softened, and for a moment, neither of them spoke. The space between them felt smaller than it actually was, charged with something neither of them wanted to name.

"Myung-Gi..." she started, her voice hesitant. "You've been different lately. Is it because of me? Did I do something wrong?"

The vulnerability in her tone was his undoing. He set his mug down on the coffee table and turned to face her fully, his knees brushing against hers. "You didn't do anything wrong, Nari. It's just... I've been trying to figure some things out. About myself. About us."

Her eyes widened slightly. "Us?"

His throat felt dry, but he pushed forward, knowing he couldn't keep this bottled up forever. "I don't know how to say this without it sounding... I just—" He sighed, running a hand through his hair. "You mean a lot to me, Nari. More than you probably realize."

Her lips parted, but she didn't say anything, her gaze searching his.

"And sometimes..." He hesitated, his voice barely audible. "Sometimes I don't know if I'm doing the right thing by staying so close to you. Because it hurts."

The words hung in the air, heavy and raw. Nari's brows furrowed as she processed what he was saying, and for a moment, Myung-Gi thought he'd made a mistake. But then she reached out, her fingers brushing against his hand.

"It doesn't have to hurt," she said softly, her voice trembling. "I don't want you to feel like that."

Their eyes met, and for the first time, Myung-Gi thought he saw something in her gaze that mirrored his own feelings. Something he hadn't dared to hope for.

But before he could respond, she leaned forward and rested her head on his shoulder, her presence grounding him in a way that words never could.

"Stay," she whispered.

And in that moment, he knew he would.

Valentine's Day

The chill of February lingered in the air as Myung-Gi stood outside Nari's apartment, shifting nervously on his feet. His breath clouded in the cold morning, but the icy wind couldn't compete with the heat radiating from his chest. In one hand, he held a small bouquet of flowers—delicate pink peonies and white tulips that reminded him of her soft and bright demeanor. In the other, a neatly wrapped box that contained a new wallet he had painstakingly picked out after remembering her old one had a tear along the seams.

He had been rehearsing his words the entire walk there. Asking someone to be your Valentine shouldn't feel this monumental, but when it came to Nari, nothing ever felt simple.

He glanced at his watch. 9:58 AM. Two minutes early. Taking a deep breath, he raised a hand and knocked softly on her door.

A few seconds later, it opened, and there she was, dressed in a cozy cream sweater tucked into a pair of jeans. Her hair was loosely tied back, and her cheeks were already tinged pink from what he assumed was the morning cold.

"Myung-Gi!" she greeted him, surprised but cheerful. "What are you doing here so early?"

He shifted awkwardly, his words catching in his throat. "I—uh, I wanted to ask you something."

She tilted her head curiously, her soft smile urging him to continue.

He held out the flowers, their petals trembling slightly in his unsteady hands. "Would you... be my Valentine today?"

Her eyes widened in surprise as she stared at the bouquet, then at him. For a moment, he thought she might say no, and his heart thudded painfully in his chest.

But then she smiled, a warm, genuine smile that sent his nerves into overdrive. "Of course, Myung-Gi." She took the flowers gently, her fingers brushing against his. "They're beautiful. Thank you."

Relief flooded him, and he managed a sheepish grin. "I, uh, also got you this." He handed her the small box, which she accepted with an amused, curious look.

"You didn't have to get me anything," she said softly, unwrapping it carefully.

When she opened the box and saw the wallet, her eyes lit up. "Oh, Myung-Gi! It's perfect." She ran her fingers over the soft leather, a mixture of gratitude and surprise in her expression. "You remembered mine was falling apart."

"Yeah, I figured you could use a new one," he said, rubbing the back of his neck. "It's not much, but—"

"It's perfect," she interrupted, beaming up at him. "Thank you, really."

The way she looked at him in that moment made his pulse quicken, but he quickly looked away, afraid his emotions might show too plainly.

"I thought maybe we could do something fun today," he said, clearing his throat. "There's this ceramic painting café I found. It seemed... relaxing, I guess."

Her eyes sparkled with excitement. "That sounds amazing! Let me just grab my coat."

The café was cozy, with shelves lined with plain ceramic pieces—mugs, plates, figurines—just waiting to be brought to life with color. The soft hum of indie music played in the background, and the smell of coffee and paint filled the air.

Nari was instantly drawn to a small ceramic fox figurine, while Myung-Gi settled on a simple coffee mug. They chose a table near the window, where sunlight spilled in and warmed the space between them.

"This place is so cute," Nari said as she dipped her brush into a soft orange paint. "I've never been to a place like this before."

"Yeah, I thought you'd like it," Myung-Gi replied, concentrating on painting the base of his mug. "It's supposed to be calming."

She glanced at him, her lips twitching into a smile. "Are you stressed or something?"

"Not stressed," he said, his tone casual, though his heart betrayed him with its uneven rhythm. "Just thought it'd be nice to do something different."

As they worked, the conversation flowed effortlessly, though the tension between them was almost palpable. Every now and then, their hands would accidentally brush as they reached for the same color, or their knees would bump under the table. Each touch sent a jolt through Myung-Gi, though he tried to mask it with a laugh or a playful comment.

"You're putting a lot of effort into that fox," he teased, watching as she carefully painted tiny white dots onto its tail.

"Of course," she said with mock seriousness. "This fox is going to be the most fabulous piece of art in this entire café."

He chuckled, shaking his head. "I'm sure it will be."

"And what about your mug?" she asked, leaning slightly closer to inspect it. Her shoulder brushed against his, and he stiffened ever so slightly. "It looks really clean and... you know, functional."

"Functional?" he repeated, raising an eyebrow.

"Yeah," she said with a grin. "It's very you. Simple, practical, but with a little flair." She pointed to the stripe of blue he had added along the rim.

Her words, though teasing, warmed him in a way he couldn't explain. He wanted to say something back—something meaningful—but the weight of everything he felt for her made his throat tighten.

"Well," he said after a pause, "at least it won't look like a kindergarten art project."

She gasped in mock offense. "Are you calling my fox a kindergarten art project?"

"Never," he said with a smirk, his confidence returning for just a moment. "But I'd say it's... abstract."

She laughed, the sound filling the small space around them, and Myung-Gi couldn't help but join in. It was moments like these that made it hard to keep his feelings buried.

As they finished painting and waited for their pieces to dry, they sat back in their chairs, sipping coffee the café had provided. The sunlight had shifted, casting a golden glow across Nari's face as she looked out the window.

"You know," she said, her voice quieter now, "this is probably the best Valentine's Day I've had in a long time."

"Really?" he asked, trying to keep his tone casual. "Why's that?"

She turned to him, her eyes soft. "Because it feels... easy. I don't know how to explain it. Being here with you, it just feels right."

His heart stuttered, her words filling him with both hope and fear. "I'm glad," he said, his voice steady despite the chaos inside him. "You deserve to have a good day."

She smiled, and for a brief moment, it felt like the world outside didn't exist. It was just them, sitting together in a warm café, the tension between them thick enough to cut with a knife.

And though neither of them said it, both wondered if they could ever cross the invisible line that had been drawn between them.

b. four, his birthday

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The days leading up to Myung-Gi's birthday were a jumble of anticipation and nerves. Every year, he kept his birthday understated, preferring to quietly let it pass by. But this year, he wanted something different. He wanted to celebrate it with Nari in a way that felt meaningful—a way that made her see him as more than just her dependable friend.

What he didn't know was that Nari was planning something for him, too. She'd remembered his birthday, even if he hadn't brought it up. Over the years, Myung-Gi had become her rock, someone who always showed up for her no matter what. She wanted to make sure he felt appreciated, even if he had a habit of downplaying his own importance.

On the morning of his birthday, Myung-Gi woke up to the familiar sound of his phone buzzing. Half-asleep, he reached for it, his heart skipping when he saw her name lighting up the screen.

"Happy birthday, Myung-Gi!" the text read, followed by a confetti emoji.

He smiled at the message, warmth spreading through his chest as he stared at the words. He debated how to respond without coming across as too eager.

"Thanks, Nari. I wasn't sure you remembered," he typed back, adding a small smiley face at the end.

Almost instantly, she replied: "Of course I remembered! What kind of friend would I be if I forgot? I hope you don't have plans tonight because I'm stealing you for dinner."

He blinked at the screen, rereading the message. She wanted to spend the evening with him? His heart raced at the thought, but he quickly realized this was an opportunity he couldn't pass up.

"Actually, I was going to ask if you'd have dinner with me tonight," he replied. "I already made reservations."

"Wow, you were prepared!" she wrote back. "Okay, deal. But don't think you're paying for everything just because it's your birthday. I've got something for you, too."

A gift? He stared at the text, his pulse quickening. He couldn't imagine what she could've gotten him, but the thought of her thinking of him enough to get him something made his chest tighten.

That evening, Myung-Gi waited at the entrance of the restaurant he'd picked—a sleek, modern space with soft ambient lighting and floor-to-ceiling windows overlooking the city. He'd never been to such a fancy place before, but it felt right for the occasion. He wanted her to see this night as special.

When Nari arrived, his breath hitched. She wore a simple black dress that hugged her figure gracefully, her hair cascading over her shoulders. She looked radiant, and for a moment, he forgot how to speak.

"You look..." he trailed off, rubbing the back of his neck as his cheeks warmed. "You look really nice."

She grinned, her cheeks faintly pink. "Thanks. You clean up pretty well yourself, birthday boy."

He opened the door for her, and they stepped inside, the gentle hum of conversation and soft piano music creating an intimate atmosphere. The hostess led them to a cozy table by the window, and as they sat, Nari handed him a neatly wrapped box.

"Here," she said, sliding it across the table. "I figured you'd try to avoid mentioning your birthday, so I thought I'd surprise you."

He hesitated, his fingers brushing against the wrapping paper. "You didn't have to—"

"I wanted to," she interrupted, her smile warm but firm. "Just open it."

Carefully, he unwrapped the gift, his hands trembling slightly. Inside was a sleek silver watch, understated but elegant, with a black leather strap that immediately struck him as his style.

"Nari..." He looked up at her, his throat tightening. "This is... it's perfect."

She leaned forward, her chin resting on her hand. "I noticed your old watch was starting to fall apart, so I thought it was time for an upgrade. Do you like it?"

"I love it," he said, his voice softer than he intended. He slipped the watch onto his wrist, turning it over to admire the fit. "Thank you. Really."

"Good," she said, her eyes twinkling. "Now you can stop looking at your phone for the time."

As they sat at their table, the soft murmur of conversation and the gentle clinking of cutlery surrounded them. The warm glow of the restaurant's lighting cast a golden hue across the table, and Myung-Gi couldn't help but notice how it seemed to highlight Nari's features—the subtle curve of her lips, the sparkle in her eyes when she smiled.

The waiter arrived with a friendly grin, holding a small notepad in hand. "Good evening. Have you two been here before?" he asked, his gaze flickering between them.

"No, it's our first time," Myung-Gi said, his voice polite but tinged with nerves.

"Well, you picked a great spot," the waiter replied, nodding approvingly. "We get a lot of couples celebrating anniversaries or special occasions here. What are we celebrating tonight? A birthday? An anniversary?"

Myung-Gi felt the tips of his ears heat up as the waiter gestured casually between them, assuming they were together. He glanced at Nari, who had tilted her head slightly, her lips curving into an amused smile. For a moment, he wondered what she might say, but the weight of the waiter's words pushed him to respond first.

"Just a birthday," Myung-Gi said, forcing a small laugh as he gestured to himself. "Mine."

The waiter chuckled, clearly unconvinced. "Ah, got it. Well, happy birthday, sir. And you're lucky to have someone celebrating with you tonight." He gave Nari a knowing smile before walking away to fetch their drinks.

As the waiter disappeared, Myung-Gi exhaled, his shoulders relaxing slightly. "That was... awkward," he muttered, rubbing the back of his neck.

When he glanced at Nari, however, his heart sank. She was looking down at her menu, her expression unreadable. But there was a faint tension in her jaw that he hadn't seen before.

"Are you okay?" he asked, leaning forward slightly.

She looked up quickly, her lips forming a small, tight smile. "Yeah, I'm fine. It's just funny, that's all. People are so quick to assume things."

There was something in her tone—something subtle yet heavy—that made his chest tighten. Was she disappointed? No, he thought, shaking the idea from his mind. He must have misread her.

As they ordered their meals, the atmosphere between them shifted, but it wasn't an uncomfortable silence—it was something unspoken, something that hung between them like a fragile thread. Myung-Gi noticed the way Nari occasionally glanced at him when she thought he wasn't looking, her eyes lingering a little longer than usual. And yet, he couldn't bring himself to address it.

The waiter returned with their food, smiling warmly as he placed the dishes on the table. "Here you go, enjoy. And if you need anything, just let me know. Oh, and we'll have a little birthday surprise for you later," he said, giving Myung-Gi a wink before retreating.

Nari's eyebrows lifted in amusement. "A surprise? What did you do?"

"I didn't do anything," he said quickly, holding up his hands in defense. "I think the waiter just decided to embarrass me on his own."

Her laughter was soft and genuine, and for a moment, the tension from earlier seemed to dissipate.

As they ate, the conversation flowed easily, but Myung-Gi couldn't stop replaying the waiter's assumption in his head. He wanted to ask Nari about it, to understand what had crossed her mind when she'd heard it. Did she think it was ridiculous? Or had there been a flicker of possibility in her mind, the same flicker he carried with him every day?

But he didn't ask. Instead, he focused on making her laugh, recounting old college memories and teasing her about the time she'd accidentally tripped on the bus.

"And you didn't even apologize," he said, pointing his fork at her playfully. "You just sat down and acted like nothing happened."

Her laughter rang out, filling the space between them. "I did apologize! You just didn't hear me because you were too busy looking annoyed."

"I wasn't annoyed," he protested, shaking his head. "I was just... startled."

"Sure," she said, smirking. "Startled. Let's go with that."

Toward the end of the meal, the waiter returned with a small dessert plate, a single candle flickering in the middle. He set it down in front of Myung-Gi with a flourish.

"Happy birthday," he said with a grin. "And remember, the best part of a birthday isn't the cake—it's the company." He glanced at Nari, his smile lingering before he walked away.

Nari folded her hands under her chin, her eyes sparkling. "Make a wish."

Myung-Gi hesitated, staring at the candle as his chest tightened. He could feel her gaze on him, warm and expectant, and it made the ache in his heart all the more unbearable.

His wish came to him instantly, but he knew it wasn't something he could say out loud. Instead, he blew out the candle, the flame extinguishing in a soft wisp of smoke.

"What did you wish for?" she asked, her voice light but curious.

"You know I can't tell you," he said, his lips curving into a small smile. "It won't come true if I do."

Her expression faltered for just a moment—a flicker of something he couldn't quite place. But then she smiled again, her head tilting playfully. "Fine, keep your secrets."

When they left the restaurant, the February chill nipped at their skin, and Myung-Gi instinctively shrugged off his jacket, draping it over her shoulders.

"You're going to freeze," she said, clutching the fabric closer.

"I'll survive," he said, his tone soft.

As they walked, the silence between them felt heavier than it had before. Myung-Gi's thoughts raced, his mind caught between the joy of the evening and the ache of what he couldn't say.

When they reached her apartment building, Nari stopped at the entrance, turning to face him. "Thank you for tonight," she said, her voice sincere. "It was perfect."

"It was," he agreed, his gaze fixed on her. "Because of you."

Her cheeks flushed slightly, and for a moment, neither of them moved. Then she stepped forward, pressing a light, fleeting kiss to his cheek. "Happy birthday, Myung-Gi."

He froze, his heart hammering in his chest as he watched her disappear into the building. The spot where her lips had touched burned with a mix of warmth and longing, and as he walked away, he couldn't help but think that this birthday had been both the best and the hardest one of his life.

Myung-Gi walked home under the pale glow of streetlights, the cold air biting at his exposed skin. His jacket no longer hung over his shoulders, but the memory of Nari clutching it close to her chest kept him warm. He could still feel the ghost of her kiss on his cheek—a simple, fleeting touch that sent his heart into a spiral of emotions.

It wasn't just the kiss; it was everything about tonight. Her laugh, the way she'd teased him, the way she'd looked at him when she thought he wasn't paying attention. He replayed every moment over and over in his mind, each memory twisting the knife in his chest a little deeper.

He wanted more.

But how could he ask for more when she'd already given him so much? Her friendship, her trust, her kindness—it wasn't fair to want more. And yet, he couldn't stop himself.

When he reached his apartment, the silence of his small space felt heavier than usual. He tossed his keys onto the counter and sank onto the couch, his head falling into his hands. The dim light of the room only seemed to amplify the storm of thoughts swirling in his mind.

"She looked disappointed," he murmured to himself, recalling the moment the waiter had assumed they were a couple. For a split second, Nari's face had faltered, her smile tightening, her eyes dropping to her menu. Had it meant something? Or was he just projecting his own feelings onto her?

He leaned back against the couch, staring at the ceiling. His heart felt like it was being tugged in two directions—hope and despair battling for dominance. On one hand, there were moments that felt like they meant something, like the way her gaze lingered just a little too long or how she'd laughed so freely at his jokes tonight. On the other hand, she'd kissed his cheek, not his lips. She'd said goodnight and walked away, leaving him standing in the cold.

Was he deluding himself? Was he clinging to scraps of affection and mistaking them for something more? The thought made his chest ache.

The next morning, Myung-Gi woke early, his mind still clouded by the events of the previous night. Despite the lingering confusion, he couldn't shake the small ember of hope that had sparked in his heart. Maybe he wasn't imagining things. Maybe, just maybe, Nari felt something too.

He decided to test the waters.

Pulling out his phone, he opened their text thread—a long string of casual conversations, jokes, and photos they'd shared over the years. His fingers hovered over the keyboard as he tried to think of what to say.

Finally, he typed: "Good morning! Did you sleep well? Also, I just realized I never said thank you for the watch. It's perfect. I'll wear it every day."

He hit send before he could overthink it, then stared at the screen, waiting for the little dots to appear. When they did, his heart jumped, too late to unsend when he realized he had thanked her last night.

"Good morning! I did, thank you. And you're welcome, I'm so glad you liked it! I wasn't sure if it was your style, but it felt like you."

His fingers moved quickly. "It's exactly my style. You know me too well."

She responded almost immediately. "Of course I do. Who else knows you better than me?"

His breath hitched at her words, and he couldn't help but smile. "No one, obviously." He paused, then added, "Let's keep it that way."

Later that day, Myung-Gi found himself standing in front of Nari's apartment building again, holding a bag of pastries from her favorite bakery. He'd told himself it was just a friendly visit, a way to thank her for last night, but his nerves told a different story.

When she opened the door, her face lit up in surprise. "Myung-Gi! What are you doing here?"

"I brought snacks," he said, holding up the bag with a sheepish smile. "To say thank you for the watch—and for making my birthday so special."

Her eyes softened, and she stepped aside to let him in. "You didn't have to do that."

"I wanted to," he said simply, following her into the cozy living room.

They sat on the couch, sharing pastries and talking about everything and nothing. The tension from the previous night seemed to have faded, replaced by the easy familiarity that had always defined their friendship. But beneath the surface, Myung-Gi felt the unspoken weight of his feelings pressing down on him.

As the afternoon turned into evening, he found himself stealing glances at her—at the way her hair framed her face, the way her lips curved when she smiled. He wanted so badly to tell her how he felt, but fear held him back. Fear of losing her, fear of ruining what they had.

Instead, he leaned back against the couch, letting the sound of her voice wash over him. For now, this was enough. Being near her, hearing her laugh, watching her smile—it was enough.

Or at least, that's what he told himself.

As the day stretched into the evening, the sky outside Nari's apartment deepened into hues of indigo and gray. Myung-Gi lingered on the couch, his legs stretched out and his hands resting on his stomach, still clutching the empty pastry bag. Nari sat cross-legged beside him, flipping through a magazine, though her attention drifted more toward him than the glossy pages.

He looked so comfortable in her space, his presence effortlessly blending with her world. She didn't mind it; in fact, she enjoyed it. For as long as she could remember, Myung-Gi had been her constant—a steady, calming figure who always managed to make her laugh, even on her worst days. But there was something different about him today. He seemed quieter, as if there was a storm brewing beneath his easy demeanor.

"Hey," she called softly, breaking the silence. He turned his head to look at her, his eyes warm but hesitant. "You've been acting a little weird today. Is something on your mind?"

The question caught him off guard, though he should've known she'd notice. Nari always did. "Weird?" he repeated, trying to deflect with a chuckle. "How so?"

She tilted her head, studying him. "I don't know. You've been... quieter than usual. Like you're thinking really hard about something."

His first instinct was to brush it off with a joke, but her gaze was so earnest, so full of concern, that he couldn't. Instead, he let out a long sigh and sat up, his hands fidgeting in his lap. "I guess I've just been thinking a lot about life lately. You know, turning twenty-eight... It makes you reflect."

"Reflect on what?" she asked, setting the magazine aside and leaning toward him.

He hesitated, his heart pounding in his chest. This was his chance—to say something, anything that might bridge the gap between them. But the words tangled in his throat, his fear of losing her outweighing his desire to tell her the truth.

"Just... where I'm going. What I want," he finally said, his voice softer than usual. "And... who I want to be around."

Her brows furrowed slightly, and she tilted her head. "You've got your whole life ahead of you, Myung-Gi. You're smart, hardworking, and—let's be honest—you've got the charm thing down." She smiled, nudging his shoulder lightly. "You'll figure it out."

Her words were meant to reassure him, but they only made his heart ache more. How could he tell her that the thing he wanted most—the person he wanted most—was sitting right next to him?

"Yeah," he said, forcing a smile. "You're probably right."

They fell into a comfortable silence again, though the weight of unsaid words lingered in the air. Nari picked up her magazine again, but her mind wandered. She'd noticed something about him lately—an energy, a tension that she couldn't quite place. It was subtle, but it was there. And though she couldn't put her finger on it, part of her didn't want to push too hard.

As the clock ticked past midnight, the warmth of the apartment began to feel heavier, more intimate. They had talked for hours—about nothing and everything—until the conversation slowed to a comfortable lull. Myung-Gi glanced at his watch, the one she'd gifted him earlier, and sighed softly.

"It's late," he said, though his tone was reluctant, as if he didn't truly want to leave.

Nari stretched her arms above her head, letting out a small yawn. "Yeah, it is. You should just stay here tonight. The buses aren't running this late, and it's freezing outside."

He hesitated, his pulse quickening at the suggestion. "I can crash on the couch," he offered quickly, almost too quickly, trying to suppress the nervous fluttering in his chest.

Nari shook her head, standing up and gesturing toward her bedroom. "Don't be ridiculous. The couch is lumpy, and you'll wake up with a sore back. Just sleep in my bed."

He stared at her, unsure if he had misheard. "Your bed?"

"Yes, my bed," she said, her tone light and teasing as if the suggestion wasn't as monumental as it felt to him. "It's big enough for two, and we've known each other forever. Come on, it's not a big deal."

"It kind of is," he mumbled under his breath, though she either didn't hear him or chose to ignore it. Before he could protest further, she was already leading the way to her bedroom, her voice echoing back to him.

"Do you need something to wear? I have some extra sweats and shirts."

He swallowed hard, his legs moving on their own as he followed her. "I'm fine, really. I'll just—"

"Nope. You're sleeping here," she interrupted, pulling out a pair of sweats and tossing them onto the bed for him. "You can change in the bathroom if you're shy." She flashed him a playful grin before disappearing to grab her own pajamas.

Left alone in her room, Myung-Gi ran a hand through his hair, his heart hammering in his chest. He glanced around, taking in the soft lighting, the faint scent of lavender lingering in the air, and the small personal touches that made the space so undeniably hers. His gaze lingered on the bed, the very thought of sharing it with her sending a rush of nervous energy through him.

By the time she returned, he had managed to change and was standing awkwardly by the edge of the bed, unsure of what to do with himself. Nari, now dressed in an oversized sweatshirt and shorts, looked completely at ease as she slid under the covers and patted the empty space beside her.

"Come on, Myung-Gi," she said, her voice soft and inviting. "You're making this way more awkward than it needs to be."

He let out a shaky laugh, his palms sweaty as he finally climbed in beside her. The bed was indeed spacious, but it felt far too small with her this close. He tried to keep a respectful distance, lying stiffly on his back and staring at the ceiling as if it held all the answers to his predicament.

Nari chuckled, shifting closer to him. "Relax, will you? You're acting like I'm going to bite." She slid under the covers and turned on her side, facing him. "It's just me, Myung-Gi."

He turned his head to look at her, her face so close that he could see every detail—the curve of her lashes, the faint beauty marks on her nose, the way her lips parted slightly as she smiled at him. "Yeah," he murmured, his voice barely audible. "It's just you."

She shuffled closer, draping an arm across his waist and resting her head lightly on his shoulder. "Goodnight, Myung-Gi," she whispered, her breath warm against his neck.

His entire body tensed for a moment, his heart pounding so loudly he was sure she could hear it. Slowly, he let himself relax, wrapping an arm around her and holding her close. She fit perfectly against him, her warmth seeping into his skin and calming his nerves.

"Goodnight, Nari," he whispered back, his voice thick with emotion.

As the minutes ticked by, her breathing grew soft and steady, signaling that she had fallen asleep. Myung-Gi lay awake for a while longer, his hand lightly tracing patterns on her back as he stared at the ceiling. He didn't know what the future held, but in this moment—with her in his arms—he allowed himself to hope. Maybe, just maybe, this was the beginning of something more.

b. three, unrequited love

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Two years before the games, it was a bitterly cold February, the kind that bit through even the thickest coats and left your breath hanging in the air like smoke. The streets of Seoul were painted in soft shades of pink and red, with heart-shaped decorations strung across shop windows and flower stands overflowing with roses for Valentine's Day. Nari had always loved this time of year, though she often joked about how commercialized it was. Myung-Gi, on the other hand, found it exhausting—another reminder of the things he couldn't have.

On the evening of February 12th, Myung-Gi found himself standing outside Nari's apartment, holding a small plastic bag filled with her favorite snacks and a warm can of coffee. She had texted him earlier:

"I need a distraction. You free tonight?"

He hadn't hesitated. Within the hour, he was at her door, shaking snow from his coat and stomping warmth back into his feet.

"Come in before you freeze," she said, laughing as she ushered him inside.

Her apartment was cozy, with a soft glow from the small table lamp she'd set on her coffee table. The smell of lavender lingered faintly in the air, likely from one of her candles, and a blanket was draped over the couch where she'd clearly been curled up before he arrived. She had on one of her oversized sweaters, the sleeves too long for her arms, and a pair of fluffy socks that didn't match.

"Still no heat in this place?" he teased, slipping off his boots and setting the snacks on her small kitchen counter.

"Hey, it's not that bad," she defended, grabbing the coffee can and holding it between her hands for warmth. "Besides, I've got an electric blanket. I'll survive."

They ended up sitting on the floor, backs against the couch, as they dug into the snacks. The conversation was light at first—work drama, the latest episode of her favorite drama, and a mutual rant about how overpriced Valentine's Day chocolate had become. But as the evening wore on, the conversation turned quieter, more reflective.

"So," he began cautiously, his eyes on the open bag of chips in his lap. "What's the distraction for? Something up?"

Nari sighed, leaning her head back against the couch. "Valentine's Day," she admitted. "It's stupid, I know, but... I guess it just reminds me of everything I didn't have with Min-Jun. It's been months, and I don't miss him, not really, but I hate feeling like I wasted so much time on something that was never going to work."

Myung-Gi's chest tightened. He hated how much space Min-Jun still seemed to occupy in her thoughts, even if it was in frustration. But he kept his expression neutral, nodding as he opened another bag of chips. "You didn't waste time, Nari. You just learned what you don't want. That's important too."

She smiled faintly, turning her head to look at him. "You always say the right thing. How do you do that?"

He shrugged, a small laugh escaping him. "It's a gift."

The room fell into a comfortable silence after that, broken only by the occasional crunch of chips and the soft hum of her heater.

A few days later, on Valentine's Day itself, Myung-Gi found himself back on the bus, heading home after a long day. He didn't expect to see Nari, but as the bus pulled up to a stop near her neighborhood, she stepped on, her cheeks pink from the cold.

"Nari!" he called out, waving her over.

Her face lit up when she saw him, and she made her way to the seat beside him, brushing snowflakes from her coat. "What are the odds?" she said, smiling. "Two bus rides in one week?"

"Maybe the universe is trying to tell us something," he joked, though his heart skipped at how natural it felt to have her beside him again.

She laughed, nudging his shoulder. "What, that we should carpool?"

The bus lurched forward, and they settled into conversation. She told him about the flower stand she'd stopped at on her way home, where she'd bought a small bouquet of tulips for herself because, as she put it, "Someone's gotta spoil me." He teased her for it, but inwardly, he was grateful she was taking care of herself.

As the bus neared her stop, she glanced at him and said, "Hey, thanks for being my Valentine's distraction. Twice in one week. You're really stepping up."

"Anytime," he said, his voice softer than he intended.

She smiled at him before standing up and waving as she stepped off the bus. He watched her until she disappeared into the crowd, his chest aching with everything he wanted to say but couldn't.

It was in moments like this, when the distance between them felt both unbearable and insurmountable, that he wondered how long he could keep this up. How long he could be her safe place while wishing for something more.

The weeks following Valentine's Day felt like a slow, agonizing blur for Myung-Gi. His days were filled with work and obligations, but his mind constantly circled back to Nari. She had no idea how often she occupied his thoughts—how much her smile, her laugh, and even her casual texts brightened his dullest moments. But it wasn't just the fondness he felt for her; it was the gnawing frustration of his own silence.

He wanted to tell her. He wanted to take her hands in his and confess everything, to say that she was more than a friend to him, that she had been for years. But every time he thought about it, fear gripped him. What if it ruined everything? What if she pulled away, or worse—what if she pitied him?

Their dynamic had always been easy, natural, and comforting. He couldn't imagine losing that.

One evening in early March, Nari invited him over for dinner. She had been experimenting with cooking lately, a new hobby to fill her weekends, and she wanted to show off a recipe she'd found online. He arrived at her apartment with a bottle of soju and a bag of tangerines, grinning when she opened the door.

"You didn't have to bring anything," she said, though her smile showed she appreciated the gesture.

"You're feeding me. Least I can do," he replied, stepping inside and slipping off his shoes.

The scent of simmering spices filled the air, and he could see a pot bubbling on the stove. Her small table was set with mismatched plates and glasses, the effort she had put in making his chest ache.

They spent the evening talking and laughing, the kind of easy conversation that felt like a balm for the soul. She told him about work and a particularly frustrating coworker, while he shared stories from his latest project. It felt, as it always did, like they were the only two people in the world when they were together.

But as the night went on, her mood shifted. She grew quieter, her smiles smaller, and her gaze lingered on her plate longer than usual. He could tell something was weighing on her.

"Hey," he said softly, leaning forward. "What's going on? You've been... I don't know, quieter than usual."

She sighed, setting her chopsticks down and folding her hands in her lap. "I don't know. I guess I've just been feeling... stuck."

"Stuck?" he echoed, his brow furrowing.

"Yeah," she said, looking up at him. "Like I'm in this weird limbo. I'm not unhappy, but I'm not exactly... happy either. It's like I'm waiting for something to happen, but I don't even know what."

His chest tightened. He wanted to tell her that he could be that something. That she didn't have to feel stuck, not when he would move mountains to make her happy. But he held his tongue, his hands clenching under the table.

Instead, he said, "Sometimes it's okay to feel stuck. It just means you're figuring things out."

She nodded, her expression softening. "You always know what to say, don't you?"

"Not always," he admitted, his voice quieter than usual.

They cleaned up together after dinner, their movements synchronized from years of friendship. But the silence between them felt heavier than usual, like there were too many unsaid things hanging in the air.

As he was putting on his shoes to leave, she suddenly stopped him.

"Myung-Gi?"

He turned to her, his heart stuttering at the way she looked at him—wide-eyed, hesitant, and vulnerable. "Yeah?"

"Thank you. For always being there. I don't know what I'd do without you."

His breath caught. For a fleeting moment, he wanted to tell her everything, to throw caution to the wind and take the risk. But then he saw the way she smiled at him—kind, warm, and entirely platonic—and he knew he couldn't.

Instead, he smiled back, his voice steady despite the ache in his chest. "You'd be fine. You're stronger than you think."

As he left her apartment that night, the cool March air hit him like a slap to the face. He walked down the street, his hands shoved deep into his pockets, replaying the evening in his mind. Her words, her smiles, her silences—they all lingered, each one a reminder of how deeply he cared for her and how impossible it felt to bridge the gap between them.

But he couldn't bring himself to pull away from her, no matter how much it hurt. She was too important to him. Even if it meant carrying this quiet, unspoken longing, he would stay by her side. Because being near her—even as just a friend—was better than losing her entirely.

The days turned into weeks, and March began to fade into April. The weather grew warmer, but Myung-Gi's feelings remained the same—a constant undercurrent in his life that he couldn't seem to shake. He continued to see Nari regularly, as he always had, and every meeting felt like a delicate balance between joy and heartache.

It was a Saturday afternoon when she called him, her voice bright and inviting.

"Are you free today? I found this little café I think you'd love," she said.

He didn't hesitate. "Of course. When and where?"

An hour later, he found himself sitting across from her at a quaint café tucked into a quiet corner of the city. The sunlight streamed through the windows, casting a warm glow over the wooden tables and shelves lined with books and plants. She looked radiant, her cheeks slightly flushed from the walk there, and he found himself smiling before he even realized it.

"This place is amazing," he said, glancing around.

"Right? I thought of you as soon as I walked past it," she replied, sipping her iced Americano. "It's got that quiet, bookish vibe you like."

He felt a pang in his chest at her words. The fact that she noticed things about him, remembered the little details, only made his feelings more complicated. He wanted to tell her how much it meant to him, how much she meant to him, but the words stayed trapped in his throat.

Instead, he focused on her, asking about her day, her work, her family. She told him about a project she was excited about and an upcoming reunion with her university friends. She spoke animatedly, her hands moving as she talked, and he couldn't help but watch her, captivated.

But then she mentioned someone—a man she had recently met through a mutual friend.

"He's nice," she said, almost absentmindedly. "He's smart, funny... a bit intense, but not in a bad way."

Myung-Gi's stomach twisted. He forced a smile, trying to mask the sudden tightness in his chest. "Sounds like a catch," he said lightly, though his voice felt foreign to him.

"Yeah," she replied, her tone uncertain. "I don't know. It's too soon to say anything, but... I guess we'll see."

The conversation moved on, but the weight of her words lingered in the air. Myung-Gi listened as she spoke, nodding in all the right places, but his mind was elsewhere. The thought of her with someone else, someone who wasn't him, gnawed at him. He knew it wasn't fair—she wasn't his to feel possessive over—but that didn't make it any easier.

When they left the café, the sky was tinged with pink and orange, the first hints of sunset painting the horizon. They walked side by side, the conversation light but tinged with an unspoken tension.

"Thanks for coming with me," she said as they reached the corner where they would part ways.

"Anytime," he replied, his voice soft. He hesitated, wanting to say something more, but she smiled at him, and the moment slipped away.

As she turned to leave, he called out to her.

"Nari."

She stopped, turning back to face him. "Yeah?"

He opened his mouth, his heart pounding, but the words wouldn't come. Instead, he shook his head, a faint smile on his lips. "Take care."

She tilted her head, giving him a curious look before nodding. "You too."

And then she was gone, disappearing into the crowd. Myung-Gi stood there for a long moment, his hands clenched at his sides. He felt the familiar ache settle in his chest, the quiet resignation that had become his constant companion.

He told himself he was doing the right thing by staying silent. She was happy—or at least, she could be—and that was all that mattered. But as he walked home, the weight of his unspoken feelings pressed down on him, each step heavier than the last.

That night, he lay awake in his small apartment, staring at the ceiling. He replayed the day in his mind, every moment with her etched into his memory. Her smile, her laugh, the way she spoke about the man she had just met—it all felt like tiny cuts, each one a reminder of how deeply he cared for her and how little she truly knew.

And yet, despite the pain, he couldn't imagine a life without her. She was his anchor, his constant, the person who made the world feel a little less overwhelming. Even if he could never tell her how he felt, even if it meant carrying this weight alone, he would stay by her side. Because being near her, in whatever capacity she allowed, was worth every moment of heartache.

The following weeks felt heavier than usual for Myung-Gi. The warmth of early spring was creeping into the city, yet he felt frozen in time, caught in the same endless loop of feelings he couldn't express and moments he cherished too much. Every interaction with Nari was a bittersweet reminder of the line between them—a line he was terrified to cross but hated with every fiber of his being.

He saw her often, as he always did. She had a way of lighting up his otherwise mundane days, whether it was through her sudden calls to grab lunch or the texts she sent, filled with little anecdotes about her day. She made him feel needed, even if it wasn't in the way he longed for.

One evening, she invited him over to her apartment to help her rearrange her furniture.

"You have better spatial awareness than me," she said when he arrived, waving him inside with her signature bright smile.

He laughed softly. "I'm not sure that's true, but I'll take the compliment."

As they moved her sofa and shifted her bookshelves, he couldn't help but notice the small touches around her apartment that reflected her personality—books stacked in uneven piles on the coffee table, a small collection of succulents by the window, the faint scent of lavender from a candle burning in the corner. It all felt so her, and it was impossible not to feel a pang of longing as he stood in her world, knowing he would never fully belong there.

When they finally finished, she plopped down on the newly positioned sofa, motioning for him to join her. "Not bad," she said, surveying the room with satisfaction. "Thanks for helping. I'd probably still be stuck trying to figure out where to put the bookshelf if you weren't here."

He sat beside her, his hands resting awkwardly on his knees. "It looks good. Feels more open now."

She nodded, leaning back and closing her eyes for a moment. "You're always saving me, you know that?"

Her words were casual, but they hit him like a punch to the gut. He looked at her, at the way her head tilted slightly against the back of the sofa, her face relaxed and unguarded.

"I'd do anything for you," he wanted to say, but the words stuck in his throat. Instead, he chuckled lightly. "It's nothing. You know I don't mind."

She turned to him, her eyes warm and full of gratitude. "Still, I mean it. I don't know what I'd do without you."

He smiled, but it didn't reach his eyes. Her words, as kind as they were, felt like a knife twisted in his chest. She meant them as a friend, as someone she trusted and relied on. But he wanted to be so much more than that.

"Well," he said, his voice softer than usual, "I'm glad I can help."

They sat in comfortable silence for a while, the city's sounds filtering in through the slightly open window. He watched her as she stared at the ceiling, her thoughts seemingly elsewhere. He wondered if she was thinking about the man she'd mentioned at the café weeks ago. She hadn't brought him up again, but the possibility lingered in Myung-Gi's mind like an unwelcome shadow.

"Do you ever think about... where you'll be in a few years?" she asked suddenly, breaking the silence.

He blinked, startled by the question. "Uh, sometimes. Why?"

"I don't know." She sighed, her gaze still fixed on the ceiling. "I just feel like I'm floating sometimes, like I don't have it all figured out. Everyone else seems so sure of what they want, where they're going, and I'm just... here."

He hesitated before replying, choosing his words carefully. "I think everyone feels like that at some point. It's okay not to have all the answers right now."

She turned her head to look at him, a small smile tugging at her lips. "You always know what to say."

He held her gaze, his heart aching with the weight of everything he couldn't say. "Not always," he murmured, his voice barely audible.

The moment stretched between them, her smile fading slightly as she studied his face. He wondered if she could see it, the storm of emotions he tried so hard to keep hidden. But before either of them could speak again, her phone buzzed on the coffee table, breaking the spell. She picked it up, her expression shifting as she read the message.

"It's my mom," she said, her tone light but distant. "She's asking if I'm coming home this weekend."

He nodded, the familiar ache settling back in his chest as the brief moment they shared slipped away. "You should go. She'd love to see you."

"Yeah," she said, setting the phone back down. "Maybe I will."

The conversation moved on, but Myung-Gi couldn't shake the feeling that he'd missed an opportunity—another chance to say something, to be honest about how he felt. But what good would it do? He couldn't risk ruining what they had, the bond that meant so much to him, even if it came at the cost of his own happiness.

As he left her apartment that night, walking alone under the dim streetlights, he replayed their conversation in his mind. He thought about the way her eyes softened when she looked at him, the way she trusted him with her thoughts and fears. He thought about how he would give anything to be the one she turned to at the end of the day, not just as a friend but as someone she could love in return.

But deep down, he knew that wasn't his place. So he walked on, the weight of his unspoken feelings heavier than ever, the quiet February night wrapping around him like a blanket of solitude.

b. two, the boyfriend

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Three years before the games, the sound of tape being ripped from a roll echoed through the small, sunlit apartment. Cardboard boxes were scattered everywhere, some labeled in neat handwriting while others were marked with messy scrawls. Myung-Gi stood by the window, carefully unpacking a box of dishes Nari had asked him to help with. He glanced over his shoulder, watching as she flitted around the room, her hair tied up in a loose bun and her cheeks flushed from the exertion of moving.

She looked happy. That should have been enough for him.

But it wasn't.

It never was.

"Careful with that box, babe," a voice drawled from across the room. Myung-Gi's jaw tightened as he turned to see Nari's boyfriend, Min-Jun, leaning against the doorframe with a smug grin. He wasn't lifting a single box, of course. Instead, he stood there, sipping from a water bottle like he was supervising a team of movers.

"Babe, are you sure you trust him with your kitchen stuff?" Min-Jun added with a chuckle, his eyes flicking to Myung-Gi.

Nari, oblivious to the tone in Min-Jun's voice, smiled brightly as she walked by, carrying a small stack of books. "Of course, I trust him. Myung-Gi's been helping me with stuff like this forever. He's the best."

Myung-Gi forced a polite smile, biting back the sarcastic retort he wanted to throw at Min-Jun. Instead, he turned back to the dishes, carefully arranging them in the cupboard. He wasn't about to let some smug boyfriend ruin Nari's day—or his.

As the day went on, Min-Jun found more subtle ways to get under Myung-Gi's skin. When Nari wasn't looking, he'd make comments just loud enough for Myung-Gi to hear.

"You know, man, it must suck being the 'best friend,' huh? Always the helper, never the guy."

"Don't work too hard, bro. Nari wouldn't want you to get hurt lifting those heavy boxes."

At one point, Min-Jun even offered Myung-Gi a cold drink but handed it to him with such forced nonchalance that it felt more like a mockery than an act of kindness. Myung-Gi took it anyway, his hand clenching tightly around the can as he muttered a quiet "thanks."

Through it all, Nari remained blissfully unaware, her focus entirely on setting up her new space. She'd light up whenever she found a place for something sentimental—a picture frame with a photo of her and Myung-Gi from college, an old stuffed animal she'd had since childhood. Myung-Gi tried to focus on her happiness, to drown out Min-Jun's petty attempts to needle him.

But it was hard. So damn hard.

Later that evening, after most of the heavy lifting was done, the three of them sat on the floor eating takeout from plastic containers. Nari leaned against Min-Jun, her head resting on his shoulder as she laughed at something he said. Myung-Gi sat across from them, picking at his food. The room felt suffocating.

I can't believe we got it all done in one day," Nari said, smiling at Myung-Gi. "Thank you so much, Myung-Gi. I couldn't have done this without you."

"Yeah," Min-Jun added, smirking. "Thanks for the assist, man. Guess that's what best friends are for, huh?"

Myung-Gi's grip on his chopsticks tightened, but he forced a laugh. "Yeah. Always happy to help."

Nari didn't seem to catch the tension in his voice. She reached out and gave his hand a squeeze, her eyes warm with gratitude. "Seriously, you're the best."

Her touch was brief, but it sent a jolt through him—a painful reminder of everything he wanted but could never have.

The next day, Myung-Gi returned to help Nari assemble some furniture while Min-Jun was at work. It was the first time they'd been alone together in weeks, and for a moment, it felt like old times. They worked side by side, laughing as they struggled to follow the confusing instructions for a bookshelf.

"You're doing it wrong," she teased, nudging him with her elbow.

"I'm following the instructions," he shot back, holding up the booklet. "You're the one who skipped like three steps."

She giggled, the sound warm and familiar. "Okay, okay, maybe we're both terrible at this."

For a fleeting moment, Myung-Gi forgot about Min-Jun, about everything that made this day different from the ones they used to share. It was just the two of them, working together like they always had.

But then Nari's phone buzzed, and her face lit up when she saw the message from Min-Jun. She quickly excused herself to take the call, leaving Myung-Gi alone with the half-assembled bookshelf.

He stared at it for a long moment, his chest heavy with a mixture of frustration and longing. He hated how easily Min-Jun could steal her attention, how effortlessly he could make her smile. But more than that, he hated himself for caring so much.

The boxes were finally empty, the furniture placed in just the right spots, and the walls painted over in warm, muted tones. It had taken weeks, but Nari's new apartment was finally starting to look like a home. A home she was building with someone else. Myung-Gi sat on the floor, leaning against the couch, a can of soda in his hand as he watched her hang the last of her picture frames.

The photo she chose for the prominent spot above her small bookshelf stung more than he cared to admit. It was a picture of her and Min-Jun at the beach, their arms wrapped around each other, their smiles wide and carefree. He hated how good they looked together, how perfect Min-Jun's arm fit around her waist like it belonged there. Myung-Gi glanced at the frame he had gifted her years ago, now relegated to a corner of the shelf, half-hidden behind a stack of books.

"You think it looks good here?" Nari asked, stepping back to admire her handiwork.

"Yeah," he said, forcing a smile. "It suits the room."

Her face lit up with satisfaction, and she turned to him, her hands on her hips. "Thanks for all your help, Myung-Gi. Seriously. I don't know what I'd do without you."

He shrugged, keeping his voice light. "You'd figure it out. You always do."

Her laugh was soft and familiar, tugging at a part of him he wished he could ignore. "You give me too much credit."

Min-Jun's voice interrupted the moment. "Actually, I'd say I'm the one who gives you credit, babe."

He strolled in from the kitchen, holding a cup of coffee like it was some sort of victory trophy. Myung-Gi's stomach twisted as Min-Jun sauntered over to Nari, placing a hand on her lower back with an ease that screamed possession.

"I mean, without me reminding you to finish unpacking, this place would probably still be a mess," Min-Jun added, grinning smugly.

Nari laughed, completely missing the jab hidden in his words. "That's true. You do keep me on track."

"Someone has to," Min-Jun said, his eyes flicking to Myung-Gi. The unspoken words hung heavy in the air. Certainly not him.

Myung-Gi clenched his soda can, feeling the metal bend slightly under the pressure. He forced himself to take a slow sip, letting the fizzy sweetness distract him from the bitter taste building in his mouth.

The next few days blurred into a series of similar moments. Myung-Gi kept finding excuses to help Nari with her apartment—fixing a wobbly table leg, adjusting the curtains, or hanging more picture frames. Each time, Min-Jun was there, hovering like a shadow, making subtle digs and watching for any reaction.

"Man, you're really handy, huh?" Min-Jun said one afternoon, leaning against the wall as Myung-Gi tightened a screw on a loose cabinet door. "I bet you're great at fixing things. Probably a skill you pick up when you're single, huh?"

Myung-Gi didn't respond, keeping his focus on the screwdriver in his hand. He could feel the heat of Min-Jun's gaze, waiting for some kind of reaction.

"Min-Jun," Nari said from the kitchen, her voice carrying a playful tone. "Don't be mean."

"Mean? I'm just saying he's good at this stuff. You should appreciate him more," Min-Jun said with a smirk.

"I already appreciate him plenty," she replied, walking over and handing Myung-Gi a glass of water. "Don't listen to him, Myung-Gi. You're amazing."

Her words were meant to reassure him, but they only deepened the ache in his chest. He smiled anyway, murmuring a quiet "thanks" as he took the glass.

One night, after a particularly exhausting day of assembling furniture, Nari offered to cook dinner for him as a thank-you. They stood in the small kitchen together, bumping into each other as they navigated the cramped space.

"Can you grab the soy sauce from the top shelf?" she asked, pointing to a cabinet.

He reached up easily, pulling the bottle down and handing it to her. Their fingers brushed, and for a split second, the air between them felt different—charged in a way that neither of them acknowledged.

"Thanks," she said, her voice soft.

"Anytime," he replied, stepping back to give her space.

As they ate, she talked about how excited she was to finally have a place of her own. She spoke about how Min-Jun had been so supportive, how he'd helped her pick out the apartment and plan the layout.

"I feel so lucky," she said, her eyes shining. "I finally have everything I've ever wanted."

Myung-Gi smiled, but it felt hollow. "That's great, Nari. You deserve it."

But in his mind, he couldn't stop replaying the moments when Min-Jun had belittled her, the times he had undermined her confidence or made her second-guess herself. He wanted to tell her she deserved better, that she deserved someone who saw her as more than an accessory to their own success. Someone who truly understood her.

Someone like him.

Over time, his visits to her apartment became less frequent. It wasn't because he didn't want to see her—he did, desperately—but because it hurt too much to watch her with Min-Jun. Every laugh they shared, every casual touch, every inside joke—it all felt like a dagger to his chest.

Still, whenever she called, he came. Because no matter how much it hurt, he couldn't bring himself to say no to her.

One evening, she called him in a panic. "Myung-Gi, I need your help. The sink's leaking, and I have no idea what to do."

When he arrived, she greeted him with a relieved smile. "You're a lifesaver."

As he worked on the sink, Min-Jun came home, his expression sour when he saw Myung-Gi crouched on the kitchen floor.

"Always fixing things, huh?" Min-Jun said, leaning against the counter. "Must be nice to feel needed."

Nari didn't seem to notice the tension, instead focusing on making tea for all of them. But Myung-Gi could feel the weight of Min-Jun's words, the unspoken challenge in his tone.

As he finished the repairs and stood to leave, Nari walked him to the door, her smile as warm as ever. "Thank you, Myung-Gi. I don't know what I'd do without you."

He wanted to tell her everything in that moment—that he loved her, that he always had, that he couldn't stand to see her with someone who didn't appreciate her. But he didn't. Instead, he smiled and said, "You'd figure it out. You always do."

As he walked away, the words he didn't say echoed in his mind. You deserve better, Nari. You deserve someone who would do anything for you.

But he knew she'd never see him that way. Not while Min-Jun was in the picture.

The cracks in Nari and Min-Jun's relationship were like hairline fractures on a mirror, invisible at first but impossible to ignore once they spread. What began as small disagreements—over groceries, furniture, and weekends spent apart—soon grew into something sharper, colder. The warmth in Min-Jun's voice, the tenderness in his actions, faded as quickly as autumn leaves in the wind. Their once vibrant connection dulled, replaced by heavy silences and bitter remarks.

And Myung-Gi noticed every moment of it. Every forced laugh from Nari, every tight-lipped argument when he happened to be in the room, every look of sadness she tried to mask when she thought no one was watching. It tore at him in ways he couldn't explain, even to himself.

It started with small disagreements—what to cook for dinner, how to decorate the apartment, which bills to pay first. Min-Jun's temper, which Nari had once thought was just his "passionate" nature, became increasingly sharp. He'd snap over minor inconveniences, his tone biting and sarcastic.

"You never listen to me," Min-Jun barked one evening as Nari carefully arranged some new potted plants on the balcony.

"I'm listening," she said, her voice calm but tired. "I just don't think replacing the coffee table is a priority right now."

"That table looks like it came from a junkyard," he muttered, running a hand through his hair. "But of course, Myung-Gi wouldn't think so, would he?"

Nari froze at the mention of Myung-Gi. "What does Myung-Gi have to do with this?"

Min-Jun scoffed, shaking his head. "Everything. He's always in your ear, always helping you with things. Do you even realize how it looks?"

"It looks like I have a reliable friend," she replied, her patience thinning. "Why are you always so threatened by him?"

"Threatened?" Min-Jun laughed bitterly, his voice dripping with sarcasm. "That's rich. I'm not threatened, Nari. I'm just tired of feeling like the third wheel in my own relationship."

The tension only worsened from there. Every time Myung-Gi visited or even texted, Min-Jun's mood soured. He began nitpicking more aggressively, finding fault in every small interaction between them.

One day, Myung-Gi came over to help fix a broken cabinet door in the kitchen. He had been reluctant, sensing the growing animosity from Min-Jun, but Nari's pleading voice on the phone had been enough to convince him.

"You don't have to come in if it's uncomfortable," she had said, her voice soft. "Just—please, I need your help."

When he arrived, Min-Jun was leaning against the kitchen counter, his arms crossed, watching Myung-Gi like a hawk.

"You don't have to keep coming over every time she calls, you know," Min-Jun said casually, his tone laced with underlying hostility.

"Min-Jun, stop," Nari said, her voice weary as she handed Myung-Gi a screwdriver.

"What? I'm just saying," Min-Jun continued, his eyes narrowing as he addressed Myung-Gi. "It's like you're always waiting for a chance to swoop in."

Myung-Gi tightened his grip on the screwdriver, his jaw clenching as he resisted the urge to respond. He didn't want to escalate things, not for Nari's sake.

"I'm just helping," he said quietly, keeping his focus on the cabinet.

"Helping," Min-Jun echoed with a bitter laugh. "Sure. That's what you call it."

The rest of the visit passed in tense silence, and Myung-Gi left as quickly as he could. As he walked away, he couldn't help but notice the exhaustion in Nari's eyes. She looked torn, caught between defending her boyfriend and protecting her friendship with him.

One humid summer afternoon, Myung-Gi arrived at Nari and Min-Jun's apartment to drop off a new bookshelf he had built for her after she mentioned wanting more space for her growing collection of art books. He stood outside the door for a moment, adjusting his grip on the bookshelf, when he heard muffled voices inside.

"Why do you always talk about him?" Min-Jun's voice was loud and accusatory.

"I don't always talk about him," Nari replied, her tone defensive but exasperated. "He's a friend, Min-Jun. He's been my friend for years."

"He's not just a friend," Min-Jun shot back. "You think I don't see the way he looks at you? The way you drop everything when he calls?"

Nari's response was softer, tinged with frustration. "You're making this something it's not. Myung-Gi has always been there for me, just like I'm there for him. That's what friends do."

"Friends," Min-Jun spat the word like poison. "He's in love with you, Nari. And honestly, I'm starting to think you like it."

Myung-Gi felt his chest tighten. His pulse quickened, his fingers tightening around the edge of the bookshelf until his knuckles turned white. He knew it was wrong to stand there, to listen to a conversation that wasn't meant for him, but his feet felt rooted to the ground.

"I can't believe you just said that," Nari's voice cracked. "You know I love you. Why are you making this about him?"

"Because it is about him!" Min-Jun's voice rose to a near shout. "He's always around. Always! How am I supposed to feel when my girlfriend is constantly running to another guy for help?"

The tension in her voice was palpable. "You're supposed to trust me."

Silence followed, heavy and suffocating. Myung-Gi knew he should knock, but his hand hovered in midair, frozen. Before he could decide, the door flung open, and Min-Jun stood there, glaring at him with eyes that burned with barely concealed rage.

"Perfect timing," Min-Jun said coldly, his voice dripping with sarcasm. "The hero himself."

Nari appeared behind Min-Jun, her eyes wide with surprise and a touch of embarrassment. "Myung-Gi! You didn't have to bring it today." Her voice was bright but strained, a thin veil over the argument they had just been having.

"I—uh—" Myung-Gi stammered, suddenly feeling like an intruder. "I didn't mean to interrupt. I can come back later."

"No," Nari said quickly, stepping past Min-Jun and grabbing the other end of the bookshelf. "You're already here. Come in."

Min-Jun scoffed, stepping aside but not before muttering, "Of course he's already here."

The air inside the apartment was thick with tension. As Myung-Gi helped Nari set up the bookshelf, Min-Jun hovered in the background, his arms crossed, his gaze sharp and unrelenting. Myung-Gi could feel the weight of his stare, but he focused on Nari—on her soft hum as she arranged her books, on the small smile she gave him when he handed her a particularly heavy stack.

But even as they worked, Myung-Gi's heart ached. He could see the weariness in her eyes, the way her shoulders slumped when Min-Jun wasn't looking. He wanted to ask her if she was okay, if she was happy, but he knew it wasn't his place. He wasn't the one she shared her heart with.

Later, as he was leaving, Min-Jun followed him to the door. "You should know your place," Min-Jun said, his voice low and menacing. "She's mine, Myung-Gi. No matter how much you hang around, that's not going to change."

Myung-Gi said nothing, his jaw tightening as he nodded and walked away. But the words lingered, echoing in his mind long after he returned to his own small apartment.

As the months passed, the cracks between Nari and Min-Jun deepened. Their arguments became louder, more frequent. Min-Jun started blaming Myung-Gi for everything that went wrong—if Nari was late coming home, it was because she had been with him. If she seemed distracted, it was because she was thinking about him.

And Myung-Gi, despite his growing feelings for Nari, began to pull away. He started declining her invitations to hang out, letting her texts go unanswered longer than he should. It wasn't because he wanted to; every fiber of his being longed to be near her. But he couldn't stand being the wedge between her and Min-Jun. He couldn't stand seeing the pain in her eyes when she talked about their fights.

"Are you avoiding me?" Nari asked one day when she caught him outside a coffee shop near her work. Her voice was soft, her expression uncertain.

"No," Myung-Gi said quickly, forcing a smile. "Just busy with crypto and... stuff."

Her brows knitted together. "You'd tell me if something was wrong, right?"

"Of course," he lied, his chest tightening as he looked at her. "You don't have to worry about me."

But she did worry. She worried every time he distanced himself, every time his texts grew shorter, every time she caught him looking at her with an expression she couldn't quite read.

And Myung-Gi worried too. He worried about what would happen if he stayed close to her, if Min-Jun's accusations pushed her further away. He worried about what would happen if he told her the truth—that he loved her, had always loved her.

But most of all, he worried about what would happen if he lost her entirely. So he stayed quiet. And the distance between them grew.

Nari and Min-Jun's breakup wasn't a sudden explosion. It wasn't a catastrophic fight where everything was said at once, emotions boiling over until there was nothing left to say. Instead, it was a slow unraveling, threads of their relationship loosening one by one until the fabric fell apart entirely.

It began with Min-Jun's accusations. Small, sharp comments that chipped away at her trust in him.

"You're always defending him," Min-Jun snapped one night after dinner. They were washing dishes together, but his tone turned the simple domestic act into a battlefield.

"Because he's my friend," Nari said, her voice measured, but her patience was wearing thin. "You make him out to be some kind of villain when all he's done is help me."

Min-Jun set the plate he was holding down hard, the clatter echoing in the kitchen. "You're blind, Nari. He's not just helping you. He's trying to replace me."

"That's ridiculous!" she shot back, her frustration bubbling over. "If you have such an issue with Myung-Gi, maybe the problem isn't him—it's your insecurity."

Her words cut deeper than she intended, but she didn't regret them. Min-Jun glared at her, his jaw tight. "You don't see it because you don't want to. But one day, you'll realize I'm right."

Those fights became more frequent, and though they always ended in uneasy truces, the damage accumulated. Min-Jun started coming home later, spending nights out with friends he never named. Nari, in turn, threw herself into her work and avoided the tension in their apartment as much as possible.

One evening, the air between them was particularly heavy. Min-Jun sat on the couch scrolling through his phone while Nari was at the dining table, staring at her laptop but not truly seeing the screen. She could feel the weight of his mood, like a thunderstorm about to break.

"Are you going to ignore me all night?" he finally said, not looking up from his phone.

She closed her laptop with a sigh, her exhaustion seeping into her voice. "I'm not ignoring you, Min-Jun. I just... I don't know what you want me to say anymore."

He stood, tossing his phone onto the couch. "You could start by admitting that you care more about him than you do about me."

Her head snapped up, disbelief written across her face. "What? That's not true. How can you even say that?"

"Because it's obvious!" he shouted, his voice bouncing off the walls. "You light up when you talk about him. You drop everything for him. You've never looked at me the way you look at him."

The accusation stunned her. She stood, her fists clenched at her sides. "That's not fair. I've been here, haven't I? I've stood by you through everything."

"But your heart isn't in it anymore, Nari," he said, his voice softer but no less cutting. "Maybe it never was."

Her throat tightened, tears prickling at the corners of her eyes. "How can you say that? After everything we've been through?"

Min-Jun sighed, running a hand through his hair. For the first time, his anger seemed to deflate, replaced by something quieter, sadder. "Because I feel it. I feel the distance between us. And I know I'm partly to blame, but... I can't do this anymore."

Her breath hitched. "You're giving up?"

"No," he said, shaking his head. "I'm accepting the truth. We're not happy, Nari. You know it too."

She wanted to argue, to fight for what they had, but deep down, she knew he was right. The love they once shared had eroded, leaving behind only resentment and sorrow.

"When did we get here?" she whispered, her voice trembling.

"I don't know," he admitted. "But I think it's time we stop pretending it's working."

The silence that followed was deafening. Nari stared at him, searching for something—anything—that would convince her this wasn't the end. But all she found was resignation in his eyes.

"Okay," she said finally, the word barely audible.

Over the next few weeks, Min-Jun began packing his things. The apartment felt colder, emptier, even before he was gone. Nari buried herself in work to avoid the emptiness, but every time she came home to the half-empty apartment, it hit her all over again.

Myung-Gi heard about the breakup through a mutual friend. He hadn't spoken to Nari much during the past few months, their once-easy friendship strained by his deliberate distance. But when he heard the news, he couldn't stay away.

He showed up at her apartment unannounced one evening, holding a bag of her favorite snacks and a carton of strawberry milk. She opened the door with puffy eyes and a tired smile.

"Myung-Gi," she said, surprised but not unhappy to see him.

"Hey," he said softly. "I heard about... you know."

She stepped aside, letting him in. "You didn't have to come."

"I know," he said, setting the snacks on the counter. "But I wanted to."

They sat on the couch, the silence between them heavy but not uncomfortable. Nari fiddled with the hem of her sweater, her thoughts tangled.

"I feel like I failed," she admitted after a while, her voice barely above a whisper. "Like I wasn't enough."

"You didn't fail," Myung-Gi said firmly, his gaze steady. "Sometimes... people just aren't right for each other. It doesn't mean you weren't enough."

Her eyes filled with tears, but she didn't let them fall. "I don't know who I am without him."

"You're Nari," he said gently. "The same Nari who used to lecture me about the importance of eating vegetables, who cried when she got her first internship, who trips over everything but always laughs about it." He smiled softly. "You're still you."

Her lip trembled as she looked at him, his words settling into her heart like a balm. For the first time in weeks, she felt a flicker of warmth, of comfort.

And Myung-Gi, sitting so close to her he could feel her every shaky breath, knew he was falling deeper. But he said nothing, because this moment wasn't about him. It was about her.

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The clatter of heels against steel rungs echoed faintly as Nari stepped onto the bus. Her bag dangled precariously from her shoulder, stuffed with books and her laptop, making her balance slightly unsteady. She was late today—an unusual occurrence for her. Normally, she made it a point to catch the earlier shuttle bus from Ewha Women's University, but a last-minute meeting with her professor had pushed her schedule into chaos.

Her thoughts raced as she quickly scanned the half-full bus for a seat. She could feel the impatient stares of other passengers behind her as they waited to board. Just as she spotted an open seat near the back, her foot caught on something soft yet unyielding—a bag.

"Oh!" she gasped, stumbling forward. Her arms flailed for balance as her tote bag slipped off her shoulder, its contents threatening to spill.

"Are you okay?" A warm voice broke through the din of her embarrassment. She looked up to see a young man—her age, maybe a little older—staring at her with concern. His dark eyes were sharp yet kind, framed by a thick fringe of lashes. He was tall, his broad shoulders slightly hunched as he leaned forward to grab her arm.

"I—yeah, sorry. I didn't see..." Her words trailed off as she glanced down and realized she had tripped over his navy Yonsei University backpack.

"Ah, that's my fault. I shouldn't have left it there." He bent down quickly to move the offending item out of the aisle. "You're from Ewha, right?" he asked, gesturing to the small embroidered patch on her tote bag.

Nari nodded, feeling a flush of embarrassment creep up her neck. "Yeah. Um, thanks." She adjusted her bag and moved to sit in the now-vacant seat across from him, her pulse still racing from the near fall.

"I'm Myung-Gi," he said, flashing a lopsided smile. "Yonsei. We're practically neighbors."

"Ha Nari," she replied, offering a small, awkward smile in return. "And, yeah, I guess we are."

Their conversation was brief, the hum of the bus engine filling the silences between their words. But something about the way Myung-Gi smiled lingered in Nari's mind long after she got off the bus.

The second time they met, it was raining. Nari was standing at the bus stop, clutching her umbrella tightly as gusts of wind threatened to flip it inside out. She was muttering curses under her breath when she heard someone laugh beside her.

"Seems like umbrellas hate this weather as much as we do," Myung-Gi said, holding his own sturdy black umbrella with ease.

Nari looked up, startled, and recognized him immediately. "Oh, hey," she said, her cheeks flushing as she tried to adjust her rebellious umbrella. "You're the guy with the Yonsei bag."

"And you're the girl who almost faceplanted because of it," he teased lightly, his grin widening.

"Thanks for the reminder," she muttered, though there was a faint smile tugging at her lips.

They boarded the bus together, this time sitting side by side as the rain lashed against the windows. The conversation flowed more naturally this time—Nari told him about her media and communications major at Ewha, and Myung-Gi shared that he was studying business at Yonsei.

"It's funny," he said, leaning slightly toward her, "Yonsei and Ewha students take this bus all the time, but I feel like I never notice anyone until they trip over my stuff."

"That's because you're probably always staring at your phone," Nari quipped, catching him off guard.

"You might be right," he admitted with a chuckle.

When they reached her stop, she gave him a small wave before stepping off the bus. Myung-Gi watched her go, a strange warmth spreading through his chest. He didn't know what it was about her, but he found himself hoping they'd run into each other again.

Over the next few weeks, they did.

At first, their encounters were purely coincidental. Nari would board the bus and find Myung-Gi already seated, his Yonsei bag tucked neatly under his seat this time. He'd wave her over, and they'd spend the ride talking about everything and nothing—professors, campus events, their favorite coffee shops.

Soon, it became routine. Nari found herself looking forward to their conversations, and Myung-Gi made a point of catching the same bus whenever he could.

One particularly cold morning, Nari boarded the bus to find him holding two cups of steaming coffee.

"For you," he said, handing her one. "You look like you need it."

She blinked at him in surprise, her frozen fingers wrapping gratefully around the warm cup. "Thanks. How'd you know I like Americano?"

"I didn't," he admitted with a grin. "But it's a safe guess, right?"

Nari laughed softly, the sound sending a small jolt through Myung-Gi's chest.

As their friendship deepened, Myung-Gi found himself noticing things about her that she probably didn't realize. The way her nose crinkled when she laughed too hard. The way she absentmindedly twirled her pen between her fingers when she was deep in thought.

He started looking forward to the moments when their shoulders would brush as they sat together on the bus. But he never let himself hope for more. She saw him as a friend, and he didn't want to ruin that.

One day, as the bus neared Yonsei's stop, Nari turned to him with a bright smile.

"You know," she said, "I used to think this bus ride was the most boring part of my day. But now it's kind of my favorite."

Myung-Gi's heart skipped a beat, but he kept his expression neutral. "Same here," he said casually, though his grip on his bag tightened.

He didn't say what he really wanted to—that it wasn't the bus ride itself he looked forward to, but her.

Their friendship continued to grow, but Myung-Gi's feelings remained unspoken. He cherished every moment they spent together, even as it became harder to keep his emotions in check. He wanted to tell her how he felt, but the fear of losing her kept his words locked inside.

As he watched her laugh at one of his stupid jokes, her hair falling into her eyes, he wondered if she'd ever notice the way he looked at her. If she'd ever feel the same.

But for now, he was content to be by her side, even if it meant hiding his heart. Because as long as she was smiling, Myung-Gi felt like he could endure anything.

The seasons changed, and with them, the dynamic between Myung-Gi and Nari deepened in ways that neither fully acknowledged but both felt. The long bus rides became more than just a commute—they were a sanctuary where the weight of their academic pressures and personal lives melted away in shared laughter and quiet conversation.

One winter evening, as the city streets glistened with fresh snow, Nari boarded the bus with a scarf wrapped tightly around her neck. She spotted Myung-Gi instantly; he was sitting near the back, a seat saved for her with his bag on it. His face lit up when he saw her, and he waved her over.

"You're late," he teased, pulling his bag into his lap to make room for her.

"Don't even get me started," Nari groaned, plopping down beside him. "My professor decided to hold an impromptu lecture on top of our already excruciatingly long seminar."

"Well, you're here now." He handed her a small cup from the convenience store. "I got you hot chocolate this time. Figured you needed something sweet after a day like that."

Nari's eyes softened as she accepted the cup. "You're too good to me, Myung-Gi," she said, her tone light but sincere.

If only you knew, he thought, his chest tightening as he watched her take a sip. She had a way of saying things that unknowingly stirred something in him, something he couldn't quite name but felt like a dull ache behind his ribs.

"Snow's nice, huh?" she said, pulling him out of his thoughts.

He followed her gaze out the window, where snowflakes drifted lazily under the glow of streetlights. "Yeah," he agreed. "It makes everything feel... softer."

She laughed softly. "You're surprisingly poetic."

"I have my moments," he said with a grin, though his heart was pounding from the sound of her laughter.

As spring approached, their paths crossed more frequently outside of the bus rides. Once, while wandering the streets near Yonsei to pick up a book he needed, Myung-Gi spotted Nari sitting outside a café, her nose buried in a novel. She looked so engrossed that he almost walked away, not wanting to disturb her.

But as if sensing his presence, she looked up and caught his eye. A smile broke across her face, and she waved him over.

"Fancy meeting you here," she said as he sat across from her.

"Small world," he replied, trying to ignore the heat creeping up his neck.

It became a regular occurrence after that. They started meeting for coffee or lunch whenever their schedules aligned, their conversations growing more personal with each encounter. Nari opened up about her struggles with balancing academics and family expectations, while Myung-Gi shared stories about his part-time job and the mounting pressure to succeed in his business program.

"You know," she said one day, stirring the foam in her latte, "you're the only person I feel like I can really talk to sometimes."

Her words hit him like a punch to the gut—not because they hurt, but because they carried a weight he wasn't sure how to handle. He wanted to tell her that she wasn't just someone to talk to for him. She was the person he looked forward to seeing every day, the person who made his world feel brighter even on the darkest days.

Instead, he simply smiled and said, "Same here."

It was during finals week when something shifted. Both of them were exhausted, their faces pale and their eyes shadowed from sleepless nights. Myung-Gi decided to surprise her by waiting at the Ewha campus shuttle stop, knowing she'd have to take a bus home eventually.

When she finally appeared, her steps were sluggish, and her shoulders slumped under the weight of her bag. But when she saw him standing there, her expression softened.

"You're waiting for me?" she asked, her voice tinged with disbelief.

"Of course," he said, trying to sound casual. "Thought you might need some company."

As they boarded the bus together, Nari leaned her head against the window, her exhaustion evident. Myung-Gi hesitated for a moment before reaching over and gently pulling her head onto his shoulder.

She tensed for a moment, but then she relaxed, letting out a soft sigh. "You're too good to me, Myung-Gi."

His chest ached at her words. He wanted to tell her that he didn't mind—that he'd always want to be there for her. But instead, he simply said, "You deserve it."

Over time, their connection grew, but so did the distance Myung-Gi felt between his feelings and reality. There were moments when he thought she might feel the same—the way her gaze lingered on him a little longer than necessary, the way she laughed a little too hard at his jokes. But then she'd talk about a guy she liked in passing, and his hopes would come crashing down.

One evening, as they walked together after grabbing coffee, Nari turned to him with a curious look. "You're so good at reading people," she said. "Why are you still single?"

The question caught him off guard, and he laughed nervously. "I don't know. Guess I'm just waiting for the right person."

She tilted her head, studying him. "Well, whoever she is, she's lucky."

Myung-Gi swallowed the lump in his throat. He wanted to say, It's you. You're the one I've been waiting for. But the words refused to come out.

Months turned into years, and their friendship remained a constant in Myung-Gi's life. But as graduation approached, the reality of their impending separation loomed over him like a dark cloud. He didn't know if he'd ever have the courage to tell her how he felt, but the thought of losing her completely terrified him.

On their last bus ride together before graduation, Nari turned to him with a bittersweet smile. "I'm going to miss this," she said softly.

"Me too," he admitted, his voice thick with emotion.

They sat in silence for a moment, the hum of the engine filling the space between them. Myung-Gi glanced at her, memorizing every detail of her face—the curve of her smile, the way her hair fell over her shoulders, the light in her eyes.

He wanted to say something, to tell her everything he'd kept hidden for so long. But instead, he reached over and squeezed her hand, hoping she'd somehow understand what he couldn't bring himself to say.

And maybe, just maybe, she did.

prologue,

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summary

Rising K-pop star Ji-hyun's glittering career is overshadowed by the growing distance between her and her boyfriend, Jun-ho, a police officer consumed by his brother's mysterious disappearance. Unbeknownst to her, Jun-ho has gone undercover to infiltrate the deadly Squid Game, hiding the truth to protect her.

When Ji-hyun stumbles upon his secrets, she risks her fame and safety to help him, diving into a dark world of danger and deception. As their love is tested by secrets, fear, and the stakes of survival, they must decide if their bond is strong enough to face the shadows together-or if their worlds will tear them apart forever.

The stadium roared with energy, the cheers of thousands reverberating through the air like a storm crashing against the shore. Spotlights swept across the crowd, illuminating a sea of faces, each one crying out for her. Lee Ji-hyun stood in the center of it all, bathed in a dazzling glow that felt almost too bright.

She adjusted her earpiece and clasped the microphone tightly in her hand, her chest rising and falling as she caught her breath between songs. This was what she had worked for: years of sleepless nights, grueling rehearsals, and the relentless grind of being an idol. Yet, standing here, as her groupmates chattered excitedly during the break, she couldn't shake the gnawing emptiness in her chest.

The encore began. Ji-hyun moved automatically, her body flowing through the choreography like second nature, her voice clear and steady despite the ache in her throat. She smiled for the cameras, waved to the fans in the farthest rows, and sang like her heart was full. But in her mind, there was only one thought.

Where are you, Jun-ho?

The first time Ji-hyun met Hwang Jun-ho, it wasn’t love at first sight. In fact, she’d found him rude. She had spilled coffee on him in a crowded café near her trainee dorm, and instead of the expected awkward apology, he had simply raised an eyebrow and said, “Next time, maybe look where you’re going?”

She’d been mortified—and annoyed. But when she noticed the dark circles under his eyes and the exhaustion etched into his face, her irritation softened. “Sorry,” she’d mumbled, handing him a wad of napkins.

“It’s fine,” he’d said, brushing her off. But as she walked away, he called after her, “What’s with the uniform? Are you some kind of idol?”

It had been a teasing comment, one that annoyed her more than it should have. But it also stuck with her. Over time, their paths crossed again.

The second time was at the convenience store down the street from her dorm. Ji-hyun had been rushing, a hood pulled low over her face to avoid being recognized. She had reached for a drink just as another hand grabbed it, and she looked up to see Jun-ho smirking at her. “You again? Do you just bump into people for fun?” he asked.

“You’re in my way,” she had replied, yanking the drink from his grip. He laughed, a low sound that stayed with her even after she left the store.

The third time, it was raining. She had forgotten her umbrella, and as she stood outside the trainee building, debating whether to make a run for it, a familiar voice called out. “Need a ride?” Jun-ho was leaning against a car, his police badge hanging loosely from his neck. When she hesitated, he added, “I’m off-duty. Don’t worry, I’m not arresting you.”

She had reluctantly gotten into the car, and as he drove her home, they talked for the first time about more than just teasing remarks. She learned he had an older brother, though he didn’t say much about him, and that he’d been a cop for three years. In return, she told him about her dreams of debuting and how hard the trainee life was.

As the conversation flowed, Jun-ho found himself glancing at her, trying to ignore the nagging thought in the back of his mind. She was 26, six years younger than him. It wasn’t a massive gap, but something about it made him hesitate. She had this youthful energy, a brightness he couldn’t help but admire, but it also reminded him of how different their worlds were. She was chasing stardom, while he was knee-deep in crime reports and missing persons cases.

“You’re awfully quiet,” Ji-hyun said, breaking into his thoughts.

“Just thinking,” he replied, forcing a smile. “You’re really going all-in on this idol thing, huh?”

“It’s not a thing,” she said, feigning offense. “It’s my dream.”

“Fair enough,” he said, chuckling softly. But in his mind, he couldn’t help but think about how different their dreams were—and whether those differences would matter in the long run.

Before she got out of the car, he handed her an umbrella. “Keep it. You’ll probably forget again.”

Their next meeting wasn’t random. Ji-hyun had returned to the café where they first met, half-hoping to see him again. He showed up an hour later, looking surprised to find her there. “Don’t you have better things to do?” he had asked, but he sat down anyway. Over coffee, their conversation flowed easily, and for the first time in months, Ji-hyun felt like someone understood her.

Before she knew it, he was her confidant, her safe space. Their casual conversations over coffee turned into longer, more personal ones. He started to remember the little things about her: the way she liked her coffee with just a splash of cream, the nervous way she tapped her fingers when she was thinking, and the songs she hummed under her breath when she thought no one was listening.

One afternoon, after Ji-hyun had finished a vocal practice that left her completely drained, Jun-ho had texted her out of the blue: "You look like you could use a coffee. Don’t deny it, I saw you struggling through the window." When she glanced outside, there he was, leaning casually against a lamppost with two cups in hand. She couldn’t help but laugh as she rushed out to meet him.

They spent the rest of the afternoon walking along the nearby park trail, talking about everything and nothing. She learned that Jun-ho had always been the responsible one in his family, often stepping in for his parents when they worked long hours. He’d joined the police force because he wanted to make a difference, though he admitted it wasn’t always as rewarding as he’d hoped.

“It’s frustrating,” he’d said, tossing a pebble into the pond they passed. “You think you’ll fix the world, but sometimes it feels like the world’s just a little too broken.”

“You’re doing more than most people,” Ji-hyun had replied. “And that’s enough.”

Moments like that became more frequent. Jun-ho would surprise her with small gestures: showing up at her company’s doorstep when she had a late practice, waiting to walk her home; slipping notes of encouragement into the bag she’d forgotten at his place. Slowly, Ji-hyun realized she was falling for him. And when she finally confessed it one quiet evening, sitting together on the rooftop of his building, his answer was simple and warm.

“I’ve been falling for you for a while now,” he’d said, brushing a stray hair from her face. “I just didn’t know if I should say it first.”

From that point, their bond deepened. Jun-ho was there for her debut, cheering her on from the shadows. By the time she debuted with Starlight, he was the one who brought flowers to her first music show performance, standing awkwardly in the back of the crowd.

“I don’t get it,” he had joked after the show. “All these people screaming for you. Don’t they know you’re terrible at coffee pouring?”

“Don’t ruin my moment,” she’d said, laughing.

It was easy with Jun-ho. They would tease each other, sharing playful banter that felt like second nature. But that ease didn’t mean their relationship was perfect. Slowly, life’s complications began creeping in, and the simplicity of their early connection started to feel like a distant memory. Until it wasn’t.

The crowd screamed as Starlight finished their final song, and Ji-hyun felt the rush of adrenaline as she waved to the fans, her lips forming a perfect smile. But as soon as the lights dimmed and the stage emptied, the weight returned.

Back in the dressing room, her groupmates were buzzing with excitement, scrolling through social media to see the night’s trending posts. Ji-hyun joined in half-heartedly, letting their chatter wash over her as she pulled off her boots and wiped the makeup from her face.

“Unnie,” one of the younger members, Min-ji, said, nudging her. “You okay? You’ve been kind of… quiet today.”

“I’m fine,” Ji-hyun lied, flashing her a quick smile. “Just tired.”

It wasn’t entirely untrue. But it wasn’t the whole truth, either.

Her phone buzzed in her bag, and she felt a flicker of hope. Pulling it out, her heart sank when she saw the notification.

Manager-nim: Schedule updated. Tomorrow, 9 a.m. rehearsal. Don’t be late.

No messages from Jun-ho. Again.

Ji-hyun’s apartment was dark and quiet when she got home, the kind of silence that felt oppressive after hours of deafening cheers and flashing lights. She dropped her bag on the floor and collapsed onto the couch, staring at the ceiling.

She hadn’t seen Jun-ho in weeks. He hadn’t been answering her calls, and the rare times he picked up, his voice was distant, distracted. She understood his job was demanding—being a police officer wasn’t easy—but something had shifted recently. He wasn’t just busy; he was gone.

She had tried to ignore the sinking feeling in her chest, the one that whispered that something was wrong. But the more she thought about it, the harder it became to push away.

Her gaze drifted to the framed photo on the bookshelf. It was of her and Jun-ho, taken on one of their rare days off together. They were at the Han River, both of them laughing, the sunlight catching in Jun-ho’s dark eyes.

She missed him.

Her phone buzzed again, and she grabbed it quickly, hoping against hope that it was him. It wasn’t.

It was her manager, sending a final reminder for tomorrow’s schedule. Another long day ahead, filled with rehearsals, interviews, and endless smiling for the cameras.

Ji-hyun sighed, setting the phone back down. She closed her eyes, willing herself to sleep, but her mind wouldn’t stop racing. Questions about Jun-ho swirled in her head, unanswered and relentless.

Where are you, Jun-ho? she thought again, the ache in her chest growing. And why do I feel like you’re slipping away?

five, mirror glances

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The sun hung high, golden rays filtering through the sparse branches of the oak tree where Hae-Jo stood, phone pressed lazily to his ear. His free hand shoved into his pocket, he leaned against the bark, his figure a mix of careless nonchalance and sharp, unspoken tension.

His annoyance was thinly veiled as Kkari's voice buzzed through the receiver. He tilted his head slightly, stealing a glance at Seorin. She was sprawled out on the grass, her figure illuminated by the warm sunlight. Her hair, kissed by the light, framed her face like a halo, and her eyes—those eyes that he couldn't forget no matter how much he tried—were fixed on him.

She's the most beautiful person I've ever known, he thought, his chest tightening as he caught her faint smile.

Mouthing Kkari, he rolled his eyes dramatically at her, his lips twitching into a smirk. She smiled wider, shaking her head as though she couldn't believe he was still the same flirty, cocky man she had once loved.

"On the road," he drawled into the phone, his tone deliberately casual.

"Okay, which road?" Kkari's voice was muffled but insistent, the underlying panic unmistakable.

Hae-Jo sighed, his fingers brushing the bark as he strolled closer to the edge of the road. "You coming to visit?" he asked, the sarcasm in his voice thick enough to cut through the air.

"When are you coming back?" Kkari's voice cracked slightly, catching him off guard.

His hand tightened around the phone as he glanced over his shoulder at Seorin. She lay on the grass, her face turned toward the sky, blissfully unaware of the turmoil behind his forced grin.

"Live your life, Kkari," he said, his voice quieter now. "Stop being my lackey."

There was a pause before Kkari spoke again, his voice quick and sharp. "Are you with anyone right now?"

Hae-Jo's lips curved into a lazy smile as he turned toward Seorin, raising his hand in a sarcastic wave. She noticed, arching a brow at him before sitting up and rummaging through her bag in the car.

"Just a really pretty lady," he replied, his gaze softening as he watched her search through the bag.

But something about her movements made his brow furrow. Her urgency was palpable, her expression tight with frustration.

"I've got to go. Call another time," he said, ending the call abruptly as Kkari tried to speak.

He took long strides back to the car, the sun catching the faint glint of sweat on his brow as he leaned against the roof. "Looking for something?" he asked, tilting his head as he peered down at her.

Seorin, bent over the bag, huffed in annoyance. "I think I forgot my phone charger. Shit."

She turned to face him, her body stiffening as she realized just how close he was. The small smirk tugging at his lips made her glare, though her heart betrayed her with a faint flutter.

"This feels familiar," he murmured, his voice low as his narrowed eyes gleamed with teasing mischief.

She groaned, pushing against his chest. "No, thank you," she said firmly, stepping back.

But before she could escape, he caught her wrist and spun her around with practiced ease. The move was smooth, calculated, and undeniably intimate.

"I'll buy you a charger when we get to town," he offered, his voice softer now, though his smirk remained.

Her eyes scanned his face, trying to decipher his intentions. Finally, she let out a small sigh and smiled faintly. "Okay."

She tugged her wrist free and turned, but the moment her foot hit the uneven ground, it twisted beneath her. She gasped, her arms flailing as she stumbled forward.

"Seorin!"

Hae-Jo's voice was sharp with panic as he lunged toward her, his knees hitting the dirt as he caught her. She had fallen hard, her knees sinking into the muddy ground. Her hands instinctively clutched her stomach, her eyes wide with alarm.

"Are you okay?" he asked urgently, his hands gripping her arms as he knelt beside her.

She hesitated, her chest rising and falling quickly. Slowly, she moved her hands from her stomach, the gesture catching his attention. Relief washed over him when she sat back, unharmed.

"Ah... my clothes," she mumbled, frowning as she looked at the mud streaking her jeans.

Hae-Jo stared at her in disbelief before letting out a frustrated sigh, raking a hand through his hair. "You just fell, and you're worried about your jeans?"

"Yes," she said matter-of-factly, her bottom lip poking out in a pout. "I just bought them two days ago."

He stared at her for a moment before a laugh burst from his lips, genuine and warm. "I forgot how clumsy you are," he teased, shaking his head as he bent down to brush the mud off her knees. "And dramatic, apparently."

She glared at him, but the corners of her lips twitched.

"Don't worry," he said, his voice light with humor as he helped her to her feet. "I'll buy you new jeans when we get to town."

She rolled her eyes, brushing her hands over her legs. "You think money solves everything, don't you?"

He smirked, his hand lingering on her arm for a second longer than necessary. "It's worked pretty well so far."

Her cheeks flushed slightly, and she turned away, brushing the mud off her clothes.

"Come on," he said, his tone softening as he nudged her toward the Jeep. "We should get moving before it gets dark."

She hesitated for a moment, glancing back at him. The light in his eyes, the faint worry still etched into his features, made her chest tighten.

With a small nod, she climbed into the passenger seat, watching as he rounded the Jeep to the driver's side.

As they pulled back onto the road, the tension between them felt heavier, the air thick with unspoken words and lingering emotions.

The silence in the car stretched for a few minutes, punctuated only by the steady hum of the engine and the occasional rustle of wind through the open top of the Jeep. Seorin leaned her head against the headrest, her fingers fidgeting with the strap of her bag as her thoughts swirled.

"Where are we going?" she asked, breaking the quiet.

Hae-Jo's eyes flicked toward her briefly before returning to the road, his jaw tightening slightly. His expression, though relaxed, carried a quiet determination. "Namwon."

She hummed softly, her gaze drifting out to the stretch of road ahead. "That's where the first candidate is?"

He nodded, his fingers tapping a rhythm against the steering wheel. "One out of five," he said, his voice calm but distant.

The quiet settled again as he reached for the stereo, twisting the knob until a familiar tune filled the small space. The soft strumming of California Dreamin' drifted through the speakers, and for a moment, it felt like time rewound.

Hae-Jo's lips curved into a small smirk as he hummed along, glancing at her from the corner of his eye. This had always been her favorite song. He remembered how she'd sing it at the top of her lungs on road trips, her laughter carrying through the air whenever he teased her about hitting the high notes.

Seorin caught the flicker of his gaze but pretended not to notice, instead staring out the windshield as the lyrics washed over her.

"Are you still running the errand place?" she asked suddenly, her tone casual but probing.

The humming stopped, and his smirk faltered. "Not anymore," he said simply, his fingers still drumming softly on the wheel.

Her brows knitted together as she turned her head toward him. "Why not?"

He shrugged as the first verse of the song played, his shoulders rising and falling with practiced ease. "I got bored."

Her lips pressed into a thin line, and she let out a dry scoff. "Oh, right. You just toss things away when you're bored."

Her words hung in the air, sharper than she'd intended. For a moment, his fingers stilled on the wheel, and she saw the faintest flicker of something in his expression—hurt, maybe—but it was gone as quickly as it came.

Instead, he leaned into the song, his voice low as he sang along. "If I didn't tell her, I could leave today..."

The deliberate nonchalance made her want to roll her eyes, but she resisted, shifting in her seat.

"Can I use your phone?" she asked abruptly, hoping to change the subject.

His brow quirked in mild confusion, but he pulled the phone from his coat pocket, handing it over without hesitation. "Zero, one, zero, two," he said, his voice tinged with amusement.

Her lips curled in mild disgust as she entered the passcode. "Easy ass password," she muttered, shaking her head.

"It's memorable," he countered, grinning as he watched her scoff.

She quickly texted her neighbor, asking if they could water her plant while she was out of town. Her thumbs hovered over the screen as her mind wandered, a pang of guilt tugging at her.

"Not telling anyone I kidnapped you, right?" he teased, his grin widening as he glanced at her.

Her eyes flicked to him in mock worry. "Should I delete the message?"

He let out a dramatic sigh, his lips curling into a pout. "No trust at all, Ae-in. None."

A short while later, Hae-Jo pulled into a gas station, the sun beating down on the faded asphalt. He killed the engine and leaned back, glancing at her. "You want anything?"

She shook her head without looking at him.

"Don't ask me why I didn't get you anything later," he warned, his tone teasing. He exited the jeep and stood by the passenger side.

Her lips twitched as she finally looked his way. "Something salty," she murmured, rolling over to face away from him.

He chuckled, leaning down to rest his arms on the edge of her open window. "What happened to 'I don't want anything'?"

"Just go," she huffed, waving him off, but her voice lacked any real bite.

He smiled, lingering for a moment longer than necessary. Her silhouette against the sunlight, her hair spilling over her shoulder, the way she looked so effortlessly like the woman he loved—it was almost too much to bear.

"Be right back," he said, pushing off the Jeep and heading inside.

Seorin waited, the soft hum of the cooling engine filling the air. She fiddled with the hem of her shirt, her thoughts racing. It was surreal to be here with him again, so close yet so far from the man she once knew.

The sound of the door opening pulled her from her thoughts, and she turned to see Hae-Jo sauntering back, a plastic bag in hand and his usual smug grin plastered across his face.

He held the bag up triumphantly. "Salty, as requested," he said, tossing it into her lap before climbing back into the driver's seat.

She peeked inside, finding a pack of chips and a can of coke. "You actually listened," she muttered, a hint of surprise in her voice.

"Don't look so shocked," he replied, starting the engine. "I'm not a total ass."

Her lips twitched into a reluctant smile as she opened the bag, the familiar crunch filling the air.

As the Jeep pulled back onto the road, the tension between them eased slightly, though the weight of their unspoken thoughts lingered.

Hae-Jo glanced at her again, his heart aching with the knowledge of how little time he had. But for now, he held onto the fleeting moments of her laughter, her voice, and the faint flickers of who they used to be.

And Seorin, as much as she tried to push it away, felt a pang of longing in her chest.

One week, she reminded herself. That's all I'm giving him.

But something told her it wouldn't be enough.

The Jeep rolled to a stop in front of a small, unassuming store. The town around them looked like a relic of another time, with cracked sidewalks and faded paint on the storefronts. The streets were eerily quiet, not a single soul in sight, save for the two of them.

Hae-Jo glanced at the shop sign, a faint grin tugging at his lips. "No way. A designer store way out here?"

The sign read Givenchy Fashion Accessories, its lettering slightly worn but still elegant.

Seorin leaned forward, her skeptical gaze scanning the shop. "This feels like a trap," she muttered, her voice laced with suspicion.

Hae-Jo laughed as he stepped out of the Jeep, quickly circling to her side. He opened her door with a dramatic bow, his grin widening. "M'lady."

She scoffed but couldn't help the faint smile that tugged at her lips. "Oh, am I royalty now?"

"To me, you always were," he said softly, his tone light but tinged with something deeper.

Her breath caught for a moment before she brushed past him, stepping onto the uneven pavement. He followed close behind, pushing open the store door with a cheerful chime.

Inside, the store was surprisingly neat, with polished wooden floors and carefully curated displays. A friendly older woman behind the counter looked up and greeted them with a warm smile, though her eyes briefly flicked over their muddy clothes.

"Get whatever you want," Hae-Jo instructed, his tone casual as he wandered toward the men's section.

Seorin rolled her eyes, muttering under her breath, "How generous of you."

She approached the woman, her voice soft but polite. "Hi, where are the women's jeans?"

The shopkeeper gestured toward a section near the back, and Seorin followed. But as she walked, her eyes caught on something else—a beautiful midi dress in a brownish-green tattersall print. Its soft fabric seemed to shimmer faintly under the warm lighting, and before she could stop herself, she reached for it.

Ignoring the jeans, she clutched the dress to her chest and glanced over at Hae-Jo, who was shamelessly watching her from across the store.

"I'm going to the changing room," she muttered, avoiding his gaze as she walked past him.

Hae-Jo tracked her every movement, his chest tightening as she disappeared into the dressing room. She still had that same way of walking—confident yet unassuming, with a sway that pulled his eyes no matter how hard he tried to look away.

"Beautiful woman you have there," the shopkeeper said softly, her words laced with genuine admiration.

His lips curved into a faint smile, though it didn't reach his eyes. "Yeah," he murmured, his voice low. "Very beautiful."

The shopkeeper nodded approvingly and returned to her work as Hae-Jo picked out a fresh white button-up and a pair of light-washed jeans. He stood waiting near the dressing rooms, but the minutes dragged on, and his impatience grew.

He glanced at his watch, the ticking feeling louder than it should have been. Time, he thought bitterly. Why do I always feel like I'm running out of it?

"Taking her sweet time," he muttered under his breath, his foot tapping against the floor.

To distract himself, he turned to the shopkeeper. "No windows in here, right?"

The woman shook her head, smiling politely.

With that reassurance, he shrugged off his muddy button-up, pulling it over his head in one swift motion.

The shopkeeper let out a startled gasp, quickly averting her gaze. "Oh my," she stammered, turning away but sneaking a flustered glance from behind a rack.

Hae-Jo smirked, unbothered, as he slipped into the fresh jeans, fastening the belt with practiced ease. The white button-up slid over his shoulders, and he left the top two buttons undone, the open neckline hinting at the toned frame beneath.

Just as he finished adjusting the cuffs, Seorin emerged from the dressing room, the dress held shyly to her chest. Her cheeks were faintly flushed, and she bit her lip as she met his gaze.

His breath caught for a moment, and he quickly masked it with a smirk. "That's a good look on you."

"Can you tie the back?" she asked, her voice quieter now, as though she was reluctant to ask for his help.

He nodded, motioning for her to turn around. She stood in front of the mirror, her reflection catching his eye as he stepped closer.

His fingers brushed against her back as he reached for the loose ends of the fabric, the soft skin beneath the open back of the dress sending a jolt through him. He took a deep breath, steadying himself as he began to tie the material into a neat bow.

The mirror reflected her face, her expression softer than he'd seen in months. Her lips parted slightly, her eyes avoiding his as a faint pink crept up her neck.

"You've done this before," she teased lightly, her voice barely above a whisper.

His gaze lingered on her in the mirror, his lips curling into a wistful smile. "You'd be surprised what I remember."

Her breath hitched as his hands slid to rest lightly on either side of her waist. Their eyes met in the reflection, and for a moment, the world seemed to still.

"My Ae-in," he murmured, the words slipping out before he could stop them.

Her breath caught, her hand moving to rest on top of his. "Not your Ae-in," she said, her voice trembling slightly.

She turned to face him, his hands falling away as the space between them shrank. His smirk faltered, replaced by something raw and unguarded.

"You were mine," he said softly, his voice thick with longing.

Her lips pressed into a thin line, her eyes searching his face. "Not anymore," she replied, her words firm but carrying a trace of sadness.

He nodded slowly, his chest tightening as she stepped away, the distance between them feeling far greater than the few feet that separated them.

"Let's pay for the clothes," she said, breaking the silence as she turned toward the counter.

He watched her go, the bow on the back of her dress swaying gently with each step.

Not anymore, her words echoed in his mind, cutting deeper than he cared to admit.

And as he followed her to the register, his heart ached with the knowledge that the time he had left wasn't enough to win her back.

four, cardboard box

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The sun streamed through the windows of Hae-Jo's cramped apartment, the morning unusually warm for the season. The faint clink of a spoon against ceramic mixed with the low drone of the TV. Kkari sat cross-legged on the floor, a steaming bowl of patjuk in his hands as he slurped noisily.

On the couch, Hae-Jo was sprawled out, his head propped on one hand as he absently watched the screen. His thoughts, however, were far from the mindless variety show playing in front of him.

He wanted Seorin to come with him. No—he needed her to. The thought of facing this journey alone felt unbearable. He had spent four months pretending to be fine without her, but seeing her again had shattered that illusion.

I'm dying, he thought bitterly, his fingers digging into the fabric of the couch. And if there's one person I want with me, it's her.

He wanted to tell her everything—that he had lied, that the breakup had been the biggest mistake of his life, that he wanted nothing more than to spend whatever time he had left making her happy. But every time he imagined saying the words, a wall of fear rose up, choking him.

With a frustrated sigh, he suddenly sat up, startling Kkari.

"Where are you going?" Kkari asked, his mouth full of rice.

Ignoring the question, Hae-Jo slid his feet into his house shoes and made his way to the coat rack. He grabbed his watch, strapping it on with quick, precise movements. Two hours until noon.

"To meet Darth Vader," he said nonchalantly, his tone laced with sarcasm.

Kkari blinked, confused. "What?"

"That bastard brought me into this shitty world, so it's only fair that I see his face before I die." Hae-Jo grabbed his thin black jacket from the wall, slipping it on with practiced ease.

"You were asleep two seconds ago," Kkari said, sitting up straighter. "What the hell are you talking about?"

Hae-Jo pointed a finger at him, a smirk tugging at the corner of his lips. "Listen carefully, Kkari. You're fired."

"What?" Kkari sputtered, dropping his spoon in shock.

Hae-Jo checked the time again before glancing back at his stunned friend. "Your severance is whatever you made from your 'secret gigs.' Go sell everything in the office. That's your pay this month."

Kkari scrambled to his knees, his face a mix of panic and indignation. "Wait, Hyung-Nim, I can explain!"

But Hae-Jo was already out the door, his grin widening as he hurried down the stairs. "I'll see you!" he called back, ignoring Kkari's protests.

The drive to the fertility clinic was quick, the top off his blue Jeep allowing the wind to whip through his hair. The sun glared down on him, and he slipped on his sunglasses, his thoughts racing faster than the car.

By the time he left the clinic, his grin was almost feral. The destruction he'd caused, the shouting match with the doctor, and the long list of possible donors in his pocket were more satisfying than they should have been.

Five potential fathers. Five leads.

But even with the small victory, his mind wandered back to Seorin. He thought of her smile, the hesitant one she'd given him last night. He thought of the way she used to laugh, the way her face would light up when they teased each other.

Four months without her felt like an eternity. He missed her more than he cared to admit, and he wasn't about to let this chance slip through his fingers.

Pulling into the parking lot of her apartment complex, Hae-Jo parked the Jeep with a deliberate confidence, his grin returning. He climbed out, taking long strides up the steps until he reached her door.

He knocked three times—loud, deliberate, just as he always had.

The silence that followed made his brow furrow. He knocked again, but before he could finish, the door behind him creaked open.

Laughter spilled into the hallway, light and familiar.

"Good afternoon, Mrs. Choi," Hae-Jo said smoothly, turning to face the older woman. He bowed politely, a charming smile spreading across his face. "How's Mr. Jung? And the kids?"

Mrs. Choi blinked, momentarily caught off guard. "Oh, they're good, dear. Sorry to keep you waiting, I was just lending Seorin more ba—"

Seorin appeared in the doorway behind her, cutting her off with a sudden coughing fit. She doubled over slightly, her hand gripping her knee as she sent a pointed look at her neighbor.

"I'm so thirsty," she said quickly, her voice strained. "Let's go inside."

Before Mrs. Choi could respond, Seorin grabbed Hae-Jo's arm with one hand, the other clutching a cardboard box tightly against her chest.

Hae-Jo smirked as he watched Seorin struggle to juggle the cardboard box while fumbling with the door. Her flushed cheeks and narrowed eyes only made his grin widen. She was as stubborn as ever, refusing to ask for help even when it was painfully obvious she needed it.

"Need a hand, Ae-in?" he teased, leaning slightly to the side to watch her struggle.

"Don't call me that," she snapped, her tone sharp but unconvincing as she huffed in frustration.

With a dramatic sigh, Hae-Jo stepped forward, slipping the box from her arms with an ease that made her glare up at him.

"Voilà," he said, his grin smug as he held the box with one hand and gestured to the now-open door with the other.

Her lips twitched, the faintest hint of a smile creeping through before she quickly turned away, hiding her face. "Just go inside," she muttered, her voice clipped.

He followed her into the apartment, setting the box down on the counter as she slipped off her shoes. The faint scent of lavender and something faintly sweet greeted him, a smell that immediately brought back memories of lazy Sundays spent in her apartment.

But his attention was drawn back to the box. Its flaps were slightly open, and inside he caught a glimpse of something soft and pastel. Curiosity prickled at him as he tilted his head, trying to get a better look.

"Thanks for your help," Seorin said quickly, stepping between him and the counter as if she could block his view.

He arched an eyebrow, his gaze flicking from her face to the box and back again. "What's in there?"

"Nothing," she said too quickly, her voice a little too high-pitched to be convincing.

His grin turned mischievous. "Nothing? Doesn't look like nothing."

Her hand pressed against the edge of the box, her body shifting slightly to shield it from him. "It's just... stuff Mrs. Choi lent me."

He leaned back against the counter, crossing his arms. "Stuff, huh? Like what?"

Her jaw tightened, her eyes darting to the box and then back to him. "Just some things I needed, okay?"

The corner of his mouth twitched as he watched her squirm. He had always loved that about her—the way her cheeks flushed when she was caught off guard, the way her eyes darted around when she was trying to hide something.

He straightened, his curiosity growing as he moved to nudge the box with one hand.

"Don't—" she started, her voice sharp as she grabbed his wrist, stopping him.

Her reaction only deepened his suspicion. He tilted his head, his expression softening as he searched her face. "Seorin," he said, his voice quieter now, "what's going on?"

Her grip on his wrist tightened for a moment before she let go, stepping back as if his proximity burned her. "It's none of your business, Hae-Jo," she said firmly, her voice trembling just enough to betray her.

His gaze lingered on her for a moment longer, his mind racing. There was something here, something she wasn't telling him. But he decided to let it go—for now.

He gave her a small, disarming smile, raising his hands in mock surrender. "Fine, fine. No need to get so defensive."

She relaxed slightly, though her shoulders remained tense as she crossed her arms.

"You're awfully nosy," she muttered, her eyes narrowing.

"Old habits," he replied with a shrug, the mischievous glint returning to his eyes. "But don't worry, I won't pry. Yet."

Her glare sharpened, but he caught the faintest twitch of her lips, as if she were fighting back a smile.

"Anyway," he said, changing the subject as he leaned against the couch, "I'm glad to see the neighbors are still as generous as ever. Always lending you... stuff."

Seorin rolled her eyes, brushing past him to straighten the box on the counter. "Don't you have somewhere else to be?"

"Nope."

His quick reply made her pause, her hands hovering over the box as she glanced at him. He wasn't smiling now. His dark eyes had softened, and there was a weight to his expression that made her stomach twist.

"I meant what I said last night," he said, his voice steady but laced with something vulnerable. "I want you to come with me. On this trip. One last adventure."

She turned away, focusing on the box as her fingers fidgeted with the flaps. "I don't know, Hae-Jo. It's not that simple."

The mid-day sun poured through the curtains, casting long, golden streaks across Seorin's small apartment. She stood in the kitchen, wiping the counter for the third time, her mind elsewhere. She could feel the weight of his presence in the room behind her, lounging on her couch as though he'd never left her life.

Hae-Jo had made himself perfectly comfortable, leaning back with his legs stretched out and his arms sprawled across the backrest. His cocky grin hadn't faded since she'd let him in.

"So," he began, his voice carrying that familiar playful lilt that always made her roll her eyes. "What's it going to take to convince you to come with me?"

Seorin sighed, her grip tightening on the dishcloth in her hand. "I told you, I can't just drop everything and go gallivanting across the country with you."

"Gallivanting?" he repeated with mock offense, sitting up straighter. "Ae-in, you make it sound like I'm asking you to rob a bank. It's just one little trip. You'll barely notice we've left."

She turned to face him, crossing her arms over her chest. "It's not that simple, Hae-Jo. I have responsibilities. Things to take care of."

He raised an eyebrow, a smirk tugging at his lips. "Responsibilities? Like dusting the shelves and wiping counters? I think the world will survive if you leave your sponge behind for a few days."

Her jaw clenched, and she gave him a withering glare. "You don't know anything about my life anymore."

His smirk faltered for the briefest moment, his dark eyes softening. "Maybe not. But I know you."

The sincerity in his voice caught her off guard, and for a moment, the tension between them thickened. He stood, closing the distance between them with slow, deliberate steps.

"Look," he said, his tone quieter now, though the playful edge still lingered. "I'm not asking you to drop your whole life for me. Just... one week. That's all. I need you on this trip, Ae-in. I can't do it alone."

She narrowed her eyes at him, skeptical. "Why me? You could've asked anyone else—"

"Because no one else knows me like you do," he interrupted, his voice firm. "No one else can tell when I'm lying, or when I'm about to do something stupid. And... you're the only person who ever cared enough to stick around."

Her breath hitched, the words hitting her like a sucker punch. She hated how easily he could disarm her, how effortlessly he could worm his way back into her heart with just a few well-placed words.

She turned back to the counter, focusing on folding the dishcloth to distract herself. "One week, Hae-Jo," she said finally, her voice low.

His grin returned instantly. "One week? That's more than enough time to make some memories."

She shot him a warning look. "I'm serious. One week. And I'm only doing this because you clearly need help. But don't think for a second this means I've forgiven you."

He pressed a hand to his chest, feigning hurt. "Forgive me? Ae-in, I'm just a humble man trying to make amends. You wound me."

She rolled her eyes, turning to leave the kitchen. "I'm packing a bag. Don't touch anything while I'm gone."

"Not even the box?" he called after her, grinning when she glared at him from the doorway.

"Especially not the box."

Fifteen minutes later, she returned with a small duffel bag slung over her shoulder. Hae-Jo had moved to the window, leaning casually against the frame as he fiddled with a cigarette between his fingers.

"Ready?" he asked, glancing at her with a raised eyebrow.

She nodded stiffly. "Ready. But I swear, if you pull any of your usual stunts—"

"I'll be a perfect gentleman," he promised, his grin widening as he straightened and grabbed her bag.

She let out a soft scoff but didn't argue, following him out the door and down the stairs to his Jeep.

The vehicle stood gleaming in the sunlight, the top removed, inviting the breeze. Hae-Jo opened the passenger door for her with an exaggerated bow, his cheeky smile still firmly in place.

"Your chariot awaits, Ae-in."

She hesitated, her fingers gripping the strap of her bag. A week. That's all it was. Just one week to help him find his father and then come back to her life. She told herself it wouldn't be more than that.

But as she climbed into the Jeep, the faint scent of his cologne mixing with the warmth of the sun, she couldn't shake the feeling that this trip would change everything.

Hae-Jo slid into the driver's seat, slipping on his sunglasses before starting the engine. "Buckle up," he said, shooting her a sideways grin. "This is going to be fun."

She didn't respond, her gaze focused on the road ahead as he pulled out of the parking lot.

One week, she reminded herself. That's all.

But in the pit of her stomach, she knew it wouldn't be that simple.

The Jeep hummed steadily as it sped down a long, empty road flanked by stretches of wild grass that swayed gently in the breeze. The sun hung high in the sky, its golden rays casting warmth over the earth. The open top of the Jeep let the wind whip through their hair, a sharp contrast to the silence that had settled between them.

Seorin sat stiffly in the passenger seat, her fingers gripping the strap of her bag as it rested in her lap. She stared straight ahead, refusing to glance at the man beside her, though she could feel his presence like a weight pressing against her.

Hae-Jo, for his part, seemed at ease, one hand on the steering wheel and the other draped lazily over the door. His sunglasses obscured his eyes, but the faint grin tugging at his lips betrayed his mood.

"See?" he said, breaking the silence. "This isn't so bad, right? Just the open road, good weather, and great company."

She rolled her eyes, turning her face toward the window. "Let's not get carried away. I'm only here for a week, remember?"

"Ah, yes," he said with mock seriousness, tapping the steering wheel. "One glorious week. I'll make it count."

She didn't respond, the tension in her shoulders only easing slightly as she watched the endless fields roll by. But her calm didn't last long.

A sudden wave of nausea hit her, sharp and overwhelming. Her stomach churned, and she clutched at her middle, her breath coming in shallow gasps.

"Stop the car," she said quickly, her voice tight.

"What?" Hae-Jo glanced at her, his grin vanishing when he saw her pale face. "What's wrong?"

"Just—stop the car!" she managed, her hand flying to her mouth.

He slammed on the brakes, the tires skidding slightly on the gravel as he pulled off to the side of the road. She scrambled out before the vehicle had fully stopped, her legs unsteady as she stumbled toward the grass.

"Seorin!" he called after her, quickly jumping out of the Jeep.

She dropped to her knees, clutching the tall grass for support as her body heaved. Hae-Jo reached her in a few long strides, crouching down beside her and pulling her hair back from her face.

"Hey, hey," he said, his voice softer than usual. "Are you okay? What's going on?"

She waved a shaky hand at him, unable to speak as her body trembled.

His brows knit together, worry etched into the lines of his face as he held her hair back with one hand and steadied her with the other. "Breathe, Ae-in. Just breathe."

After a moment, her breathing slowed, and the nausea began to subside. She sat back on her heels, wiping her mouth with the back of her hand. Her face was pale, her forehead damp with sweat.

"What happened?" he asked, his tone still soft but laced with concern.

She shook her head, avoiding his gaze. "I must've eaten something bad," she said weakly. "Or maybe I'm just dehydrated."

He frowned, clearly not convinced. "You didn't look like this last night. Are you sure you're okay?"

"I'm fine," she said quickly, her voice firmer now. "Really, it's nothing."

Hae-Jo let out a long breath, reaching into his backpack. "Here." He pulled out a bottle of water and handed it to her, along with a small, packaged cookie. "Eat this. It'll help."

She hesitated, but the look in his eyes—equal parts worry and stubbornness—made her take the offerings without protest.

"Thanks," she murmured, unscrewing the bottle and taking a small sip. The cool water soothed her dry throat, and she broke off a piece of the cookie, nibbling on it slowly.

Hae-Jo stayed crouched beside her, his dark eyes fixed on her face. She hated how his presence felt comforting, how easily he could make her feel cared for even when she didn't want to.

"Do you need to rest?" he asked after a moment.

She shook her head, forcing a faint smile. "No. Let's keep going. I'll be fine."

He didn't look convinced, but he didn't argue. Instead, he helped her to her feet, his hand lingering on her arm for a moment longer than necessary.

As they climbed back into the Jeep, the silence between them felt heavier, the air thick with unspoken questions.

"Let me know if you feel sick again," he said, his tone softer now.

"I will," she replied, though she avoided his gaze.

The Jeep roared back to life, rumbling softly as it rolled onto the long stretch of road ahead. Seorin leaned against the passenger seat, the bottle of water cradled in her hands. Her chest still felt tight, her stomach unsettled, but she forced herself to focus on the scenery outside—fields of wild grass stretching endlessly under the bright, cloudless sky.

Hae-Jo was quieter now, his usual cocky banter replaced by something more subdued. He glanced at her from behind his sunglasses, his grip on the steering wheel tightening.

"You sure you're okay?" he asked, breaking the silence.

"I'm fine," she said, her voice steadier than she felt. "It's probably just something I ate."

He hummed, his tone skeptical. "You didn't look like it was just 'something you ate' back there."

She sighed, setting the bottle in the cup holder. "I don't need a diagnosis, Dr. Hae-Jo. I'll be fine."

The corner of his mouth twitched, but the smile didn't fully form. "I'm just saying, you scared me for a second."

His words hung in the air, the unspoken concern in his tone making her heart ache. She glanced at him out of the corner of her eye, catching the faint furrow in his brow, the way his lips pressed together as though he was holding back more.

Why does he have to care now? she thought bitterly, turning her gaze back to the fields.

The ride continued in heavy silence, the warm breeze from the open Jeep brushing against her skin. Seorin couldn't help but replay the moment in her head—the way he had rushed to her side, the way his hands had steadied her and pulled her hair back so gently.

It was infuriating how natural it had felt, like no time had passed between them. And yet, it only made her resentment simmer beneath the surface.

Hae-Jo, on the other hand, was battling his own thoughts. He drummed his fingers against the steering wheel, stealing occasional glances at her pale face. Her earlier sickness had shaken him more than he wanted to admit.

"You're not secretly dying too, are you?" he asked, attempting to lighten the mood with a small chuckle.

Her head snapped toward him, her glare sharp enough to cut. "That's not funny."

His grin faltered, and he rubbed the back of his neck sheepishly. "Sorry. Bad joke."

She shook her head, looking away again. "Don't joke about things like that."

The guilt in his chest twisted painfully. If only she knew how close to home the joke had been.

An hour passed, the sun climbing higher in the sky. The road narrowed, weaving through patches of trees that provided brief bursts of shade. The air smelled fresh, the faint earthy scent of grass and soil carried by the breeze.

Seorin leaned her head against the seat, her eyes drifting shut as the rhythmic hum of the Jeep lulled her into a light doze.

Hae-Jo glanced at her again, his expression softening. The tension in her body had eased slightly, her lips parted as her breathing steadied. He couldn't help but smile, the sight of her so familiar yet painfully distant.

But his smile faded as his thoughts darkened. Four months without her had felt like a lifetime. And now, knowing that his own life was slipping through his fingers, the thought of losing her completely was unbearable.

When Seorin stirred, blinking against the sunlight, she realized the Jeep had slowed. They were pulling off the main road, the engine rumbling as it came to a stop under a large oak tree.

She sat up, confused. "Why are we stopping?"

Hae-Jo turned off the engine and leaned back, his arm resting casually on the steering wheel. "You've been looking a little green. Figured you could use a break."

Her brows furrowed, her lips pressing into a thin line. "I told you I'm fine."

"And I told you to let me know if you felt sick again," he said, his tone firm but not unkind. "Call it a pit stop. Humor me."

She huffed but didn't argue, stepping out of the Jeep and stretching her legs. The shade of the tree was cool and inviting, and she found herself reluctantly grateful for the break.

Hae-Jo grabbed a blanket from the back of the Jeep and spread it on the grass. "Sit," he said, gesturing to it with a flourish.

She raised an eyebrow, crossing her arms. "What is this, a picnic?"

"Don't flatter yourself," he replied with a smirk. "I just don't want you passing out and blaming me."

Despite herself, her lips twitched into a faint smile. She sat down, her legs crossed beneath her as she leaned back on her hands.

Hae-Jo rummaged through his backpack, pulling out another bottle of water and a pack of salted seawead. He handed them to her without a word, his expression unreadable.

She took them hesitantly, her fingers brushing against his for a brief moment. The touch sent a jolt through her, and she quickly looked away, focusing on opening the package.

"Thanks," she muttered, taking a small piece.

He watched her for a moment before leaning back on his elbows, his gaze shifting to the sky. "You know," he began, his voice quieter now, "I wasn't kidding when I said I need you on this trip."

Her chewing slowed, and she glanced at him cautiously. "Why me, Hae-Jo? Why not Kkari or someone else?"

He let out a soft chuckle, shaking his head. "Kkari's an idiot. He wouldn't understand half of what I'm dealing with."

"And you think I would?"

"I know you would," he said, turning to meet her gaze. "You always did."

His words hung in the air, heavy with unspoken meaning. She looked away, her chest tightening as memories of their past flooded back.

"You're not going to let this go, are you?" she asked after a long pause.

"Nope." His smirk returned, but his eyes remained serious.

She sighed, taking another bite of the granola bar as she weighed her options. He had always been persuasive, and part of her hated how easily he could get under her skin.

"Fine," she said finally, her voice quiet. "But I'm still only giving you a week."

His grin widened, genuine and bright. "That's all I need."

She rolled her eyes, but a faint smile tugged at her lips as she took another sip of water.

One week, she reminded herself. Just one week.

But deep down, she knew nothing about this trip would be simple.

three, knocks

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Seorin moved through her small apartment, the light filtering softly through the curtains as she dusted the shelves and rearranged the sparse decorations. The faint hum of her fridge filled the air, the magnet holding her next appointment date in plain sight. She avoided looking at it too long—it only reminded her of how little time she had to figure everything out.

She worked methodically, her hands steady as she picked up picture frames and wiped the surfaces beneath them. The mundane task kept her grounded, but when she reached the last frame, her movements faltered.

It was a photo she'd thought about throwing away countless times but never had the courage to. Her fingers trembled slightly as she lifted the black frame, her eyes tracing the image inside.

The picture was simple—she and Hae-Jo, dressed in a white sundress and a sharp suit, standing under a cherry blossom tree in full bloom. They had been laughing when it was taken, their joy almost tangible. She remembered how he'd joked that they looked like newlyweds, and her heart had swelled with the thought of it.

But that dream had shattered.

Her grip on the frame tightened as she forced herself to set it down, turning it away from her line of sight.

The baby's room was next, a work in progress she had been putting off for too long. She stepped inside and smiled faintly at the small pile of clothes her neighbor had lent her. The family across the hall had two sons, now out of the toddler stage, and they had generously given her a bag of hand-me-downs.

She picked up a onesie with a bear printed on it, her fingers smoothing over the soft fabric. The room still felt empty, missing the big items like a crib and a changing table, but she reminded herself that she had time. Five months felt both like an eternity and a breath.

The knock on her door startled her. She set the onesie down carefully and wiped her hands on her sweater before heading to the door. Assuming it was her neighbor with more clothes, she didn't bother checking the peephole.

Her heart nearly stopped when she opened the door.

Standing there, hands stuffed into his pockets and a cocky grin plastered on his face, was Hae-Jo.

"Ae-in," he said, his voice soft but playful, as if testing how it felt to say her name again.

Seorin's hand gripped the doorframe tightly, her knuckles whitening as she steadied herself. Her chest tightened, and her throat felt like it had been stuffed with cotton. "Hae-Jo..."

His grin widened, though there was a flicker of nervousness in his eyes. "I was in the neighborhood," he said, rocking slightly on his heels. "Thought I'd drop by and see my favorite ex."

Her stomach flipped at his casual tone, a mixture of anger and longing bubbling up inside her. He looked just the same as he had four months ago, yet somehow, the sight of him felt foreign.

"What are you doing here?" she asked, her voice sharper than she intended.

"Is that how you greet guests now?" he teased, his grin still firmly in place. "I'm drenched, you know. Are you really going to make me beg to come inside?"

She hesitated, her mind racing. The apartment wasn't prepared for his presence. There were baby clothes in the next room, hints of her pregnancy scattered in plain sight. But she couldn't stand in the doorway forever, and his smug demeanor only made her want to put him in his place.

With a sigh, she stepped aside, opening the door wider. "Fine. Come in."

He walked in confidently, his hands still stuffed in his pockets as he glanced around the space. "Cozy," he commented, his tone light but probing.

"Make yourself at home, I guess," she muttered.

She could feel his eyes taking everything in—the minimalist furniture, the faint scent of lavender, the signs of a life carefully held together. Her stomach churned, knowing that just beyond the living room was the baby's room.

"I'll grab something," she muttered, slipping quickly into the other room.

Once inside, she worked fast, gathering the clothes and shoving them into a drawer. She glanced around to make sure nothing else gave her away—the small box of diapers, the folded baby blanket—and closed the closet door with shaking hands.

When she returned, Hae-Jo was leaning against the counter, his hands in his pockets again. He looked relaxed, but she could see the tension in his shoulders, the way his fingers twitched. "You've got good taste,"a familiar smirk on his face as he picked up a small trinket from the shelf, turning the item over in his hands.

"Cut to the chase, Hae-Jo," she said, crossing her arms. "Why are you here?"

He placed the trinket back carefully, leaning back against the counter as he shoved his hands into his pockets. "I wanted to talk to you," he said casually, though his voice had an edge of something deeper.

"About what?"

He sighed dramatically, running a hand through his damp hair. "I'm looking for my biological father. Figured it's time I tie up some loose ends, you know? Get some closure. And..." He hesitated, but quickly masked it with a grin. "I need someone to come with me."

She stared at him, her mind racing. "Why would I want to help you with that?"

"Because you know me better than anyone," he said softly. "You always did."

His words were like a knife, cutting through her carefully built defenses. "You left me, Hae-Jo. You don't get to show up here and ask me for anything."

"I know," he admitted, stepping closer. "And I'll never stop regretting it. But I can't do this alone."

She turned away, her hands gripping the counter as she tried to steady herself. His presence was overwhelming, stirring up feelings she thought she'd buried.

I don't know, Hae-Jo," she said finally. "Things are... different now."

"Different how?" he asked, his eyes narrowing slightly. "You've got a new boyfriend or something?"

Her head snapped toward him, her glare sharp. "That's none of your business."

He raised his hands in mock surrender, his grin faltering for a moment. "Fair enough. But this isn't about the past, Seorin. It's about... making things right. For both of us."

"Think about it," he urged. "It's not just for me—it's for you, too. Closure. Answers. And... maybe a chance to figure things out."

Her head snapped toward him. "Figure things out? You think this will fix what you broke?"

"No," he said, his voice quiet. "But maybe it's a start."

"I'll think about it," she said, her voice quieter now.

"That's all I'm asking," he replied, his smirk returning as he headed for the door. "Take your time, but don't take too long. I'm not exactly getting younger over here."

He slid his hands into his coat pockets, his fingers curling tightly into fists as though trying to steady himself. The tension in the room was palpable, and his smile—though cocky and self-assured on the surface—was a poorly disguised attempt to mask the vulnerability simmering beneath.

As he turned toward the door, he hesitated for a moment, glancing over his shoulder. His dark eyes softened, the usual mischievous spark replaced by something far more raw, something closer to desperation. The faint lines around his eyes, etched from sleepless nights and too many cigarettes, deepened as he spoke.

"I'll come back tomorrow at noon," he said, his voice quieter now, lacking the bravado he'd carried through the conversation. His gaze flicked briefly to her, searching for something—agreement, hesitation, anything that might give him hope. "Maybe the rain will clear up by then. Just... think about it, Ae-in. One last adventure."

Her lips curved into a short, hesitant smile, one that didn't quite reach her eyes. She gave him a small nod, her arms still crossed tightly over her chest, as though she were holding herself together.

For a moment, he lingered, his Adam's apple bobbing as he swallowed hard. His eyes dropped to the floor before he dipped his head in a polite nod. "Take care," he added softly, the words barely audible before he turned and opened the door.

The rain greeted him immediately, cold and relentless, the sound of it hitting the pavement echoing faintly in the hallway. He stepped out without hesitation, letting the downpour soak through his hair and coat once again. The door clicked shut behind him, the sound feeling far more final than he wanted it to.

Seorin remained rooted in place, her hands gripping the edge of the counter as she stared at the door. Her chest felt tight, her breath shallow as her mind raced. The faint scent of rain and his cologne lingered in the air—a mix of something sharp and musky, a scent she had tried to forget but couldn't.

She closed her eyes, her fingers trembling as they curled into fists. Her mind flashed with images of his face—the slight twitch of his jaw when he tried to hold back his emotions, the faint shadow of stubble along his chin, and the way his lips curved just slightly as he spoke her name.

"One last adventure," she murmured to herself, the words tasting bittersweet on her tongue.

Her gaze drifted to the shelves, to the picture she had turned down earlier. She reached for it now, her fingers brushing the edge of the frame as if touching it would bring her closer to the past.

The photo was still the same—two people frozen in a moment of happiness that felt a lifetime away. But now, with him standing in her apartment just minutes ago, the weight of that happiness felt heavier than ever.

Outside, Hae-Jo's steps slowed as he reached the bottom of the stairs. The rain poured over him, matting his hair to his forehead and running down the lines of his face. He tilted his head back, letting the cold droplets hit his skin, as though they could wash away the gnawing ache in his chest.

His heart still raced, his mind replaying the brief moments he had spent in her presence. The way her lips had trembled when she first saw him, the flicker of hesitation in her eyes when he'd said her name, one of endearment he's always used—it was all burned into his memory now.

What am I even doing? he thought bitterly, rubbing a hand over his face. He hadn't planned for it to hurt this much, seeing her again. But then again, how could it not?

His hands shook as he pulled a cigarette from his pocket, shielding it from the rain as he lit it. The first drag was sharp and bitter, but it steadied him, gave him something to hold onto.

"Tomorrow," he muttered to himself, the smoke curling around his words. "One last shot."

He stared up at her window, the light still on inside. He could almost see her silhouette moving across the room, and for a fleeting moment, he let himself believe that maybe she was thinking about him too.

But the thought was short-lived. He dropped the cigarette onto the wet pavement, crushing it under his shoe as he turned to leave. The rain continued to fall, each drop a steady reminder of all the things he had lost.

The faint hum of the heater filled the small apartment as Seorin prepared for bed, her movements slower than usual, weighed down by her racing thoughts. She stood in front of the bathroom mirror, the fluorescent light casting a pale glow on her face. Her reflection stared back at her, her expression conflicted.

She reached for her moisturizer, her fingers pausing mid-air as the image of Hae-Jo flashed through her mind. The way he had stood in her doorway, dripping with rain but still carrying that maddeningly confident smirk. His dark eyes had softened just enough to betray the vulnerability he tried so hard to hide.

Her hands trembled as she rubbed the cream into her skin, her mind replaying his words over and over.

"One last adventure."

Her heart twisted. He always knew how to phrase things in a way that tugged at her emotions, that made her feel like he was offering her something extraordinary. He had always been persuasive, able to bend even the firmest of her convictions with a smile and a few carefully chosen words.

But this time, it wasn't that simple.

In the quiet of her bedroom, Seorin slipped under the covers, the soft fabric offering little comfort as her thoughts continued to spiral. The rain outside had softened to a faint drizzle, the occasional patter against the window the only sound in the room.

She couldn't stop thinking about him. About how he had looked at her, his gaze lingering just a little too long, as if he were searching for something. About the way his voice had softened when he called her Ae-in, the endearment striking a chord she thought she'd silenced months ago.

Her fingers brushed against her belly absentmindedly, her thoughts drifting to the life growing inside her. She had kept it hidden for four months, unwilling to share it with the man who had left her behind. But seeing him again, standing just a few feet away, had stirred something inside her—a mix of longing, anger, and a faint glimmer of what might have been.

She bit her lip, her brow furrowing as she stared up at the ceiling. Could this trip really be an opportunity? A chance to tell him what he had missed, to finally confront the truth she had kept from him?

But then the resentment crept in, sharp and unyielding. The memory of their breakup was still fresh in her mind—the lies he had told, the coldness in his voice as he pushed her away. It was a wound that hadn't fully healed, and she wasn't sure it ever would.

Her thoughts turned to practicality, trying to ground herself. How long would this trip take? She had a doctor's appointment next week, an ultrasound she couldn't afford to miss. The baby needed her to stay on track, to be prepared.

Her eyes drifted to the calendar on the nightstand, her appointments carefully marked. The thought of abandoning those plans, even temporarily, filled her with unease.

And yet...

Her chest tightened as she remembered the way he had looked at her when he asked her to come. There had been something in his eyes—an urgency, a rawness that wasn't like him. It was as if he were asking for more than her company.

She turned onto her side, her hand brushing against the empty pillow beside her. The space felt larger than usual, colder somehow.

Across the city, Hae-Jo lay on a threadbare couch in a dingy one-room apartment, staring up at the cracked ceiling. A cigarette burned in his fingers, the smoke curling lazily in the stale air. His coat and shoes were still damp, discarded carelessly on the floor.

He couldn't stop thinking about her.

Her face, her voice, the way her lips had trembled when she saw him—it was all burned into his mind. He had kept his distance for four months, convincing himself that it was for the best, that she was better off without him.

But now that he'd seen her again, the carefully constructed walls he had built around his heart were crumbling.

Does she still hate me? he wondered, the thought cutting deeper than he expected.

He took a long drag from the cigarette, the ember glowing faintly in the dim room. His chest felt heavy, a dull ache settling in his ribcage as the memories of their time together flooded back. The mornings they had spent curled up in bed, the sound of her laughter echoing in his ears, the way she had looked at him like he was the center of her world.

And now, he couldn't stop thinking about what she might be hiding. Her eyes had darted nervously as she moved around her apartment, her hands fidgeting in a way he hadn't seen before. Something had changed, and he didn't know what it was.

But he intended to find out.

Back in her apartment, Seorin closed her eyes, trying to will herself to sleep. But her mind wouldn't quiet, the weight of her decision pressing down on her like a storm cloud.

If she went with him, it could reopen wounds she wasn't sure she could handle. But if she stayed, she might never get the chance to tell him the truth, to show him what he had left behind.

Her fingers tightened around the edge of the blanket as she whispered to herself, "What if this is the only chance I get?"

The rain outside softened further, but her thoughts only grew louder.

two, hae-jo

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The sharp fluorescent lights of the hospital room reflected off the sterile white walls, casting an unnatural glow over everything. Hae-Jo's breath steadied as he stirred awake, his body slick with sweat, his head pounding like a drum. Blinking away the remnants of his trauma-induced dream, he narrowed his eyes at the unfamiliar surroundings. The antiseptic smell, the scratchy sheets, the beeping monitors—it all screamed hospital.

He rolled onto his side, groaning as his muscles protested, his mind replaying the chaos of the bike crash. The sound of screeching tires and yelling voices echoed faintly in his ears.

"Hyung-nim!"

The voice snapped him back to reality as Kkari, his loyal but impulsive friend, rushed over from a chair near the bed. His face was etched with concern, but there was a spark of relief in his eyes as he leaned over Hae-Jo.

"You're awake?"

Hae-Jo ignored the question, rubbing his temples to ease the pounding sensation in his skull. His body felt heavy, and his thoughts were sluggish, but Kkari's presence was an annoying constant he couldn't shake.

"Hyung-nim," Kkari pressed, clearly worried. "Hey, how many?"

Hae-Jo opened one eye, watching in irritation as Kkari held up a middle finger, then another, waving them rapidly in his face.

"How many fingers? How about now?"

"Motherfucker," Hae-Jo muttered under his breath, his voice hoarse but audible enough to make Kkari grin in relief.

"Ah, he's fine," Kkari said, plopping back down into the rolling chair beside the bed. "They think it's just a mild concussion. Is your recklessness bringing you good luck or what?"

Hae-Jo groaned, pushing himself upright despite the pounding in his head. Every movement felt like dragging himself out of quicksand. He glanced down at the IV needle in his arm, frowning at the sensation of the cold fluid trickling into his veins.

"The lady?" he asked, his voice flat.

Kkari scoffed. "Oh, that bitch? She rolled out before the crash. Got her scratches treated and hightailed it to the airport. Probably sipping champagne by now."

Hae-Jo's expression didn't change. He gave a brief nod, more to himself than to Kkari, as he yanked the IV needle out with a grunt. The sharp sting and cool air hitting the puncture site made him wince.

"Let's get out of here," he said, slipping on his shoes and grabbing his jacket from the chair.

Kkari threw his hands up in exasperation. "Are you serious? You almost died, and now you want to just walk out like nothing happened?"

"Uh-huh."

As they moved toward the door, a voice from behind stopped them.

"Excuse me, a moment please."

They turned to see a doctor standing in the doorway, his expression calm but purposeful. Hae-Jo frowned, the man's demeanor putting him on edge.

"You're Mr. Hae-Jo, correct? If you don't mind, I'd like to discuss something with you privately," the doctor said, gesturing toward a small office down the hall.

Hae-Jo hesitated, glancing at Kkari, who shrugged. With a resigned sigh, he followed the doctor, his footsteps heavy against the linoleum floor.

The cramped office had walls lined with medical books and anatomical diagrams. The doctor's monitor on the desk flickered as he displayed a series of CT scans. Hae-Jo sat in the chair across from him, leaning forward with his elbows on his knees and tapping his fingers together impatiently.

"You see these round, white masses here?" the doctor began, pointing to the screen.

Hae-Jo squinted at the images, his brow furrowing. "Like sae-al, or what?"

The doctor blinked. "Sae-al?"

"Yeah," Hae-Jo said, sighing as he gestured vaguely. "The little rice cake balls in patjuk."

A flicker of recognition crossed the doctor's face as he refocused on the scans. "Well, not exactly, but... I suppose they could look similar. These are blood vessels in your brain that have knotted up in abnormal formations. That's why they appear as these tangled masses."

"Tangled?" Hae-Jo repeated, leaning closer.

The doctor nodded. "These malformations reduce blood flow to the brain, decreasing the oxygen supply to brain cells. Over time, the intracranial pressure increases, and eventually—"

"They'll explode," Hae-Jo interrupted, his face pale. "Like a bomb."

The doctor hesitated, then gave a grim nod. "That's... one way to put it, yes."

Hae-Jo leaned back in his chair, his fingers digging into the fabric of his pants until his knuckles turned white. "I'm dying?"

The doctor's face softened, but his tone remained clinical. "This is a rare condition. Untreated, it's terminal. Surgery might be an option for others, but in your case..."

"How long?" Hae-Jo asked, his voice sharp, cutting off the explanation.

The doctor paused, leaning on the desk. "It's hard to say definitively, but... if we're being optimistic, three months."

Hae-Jo exhaled sharply, the weight of the words pressing down on his chest. His gaze drifted to the window, where the faint outline of the sun shone weakly through the tinted glass.

"Hereditary?" he asked, his voice quieter now.

"In most cases, yes," the doctor replied. "Do you know if your parents or siblings have a similar condition?"

A bitter laugh escaped Hae-Jo's lips. He shook his head, scratching his nose as he stared at the floor. "Parents? Siblings? No. Just me. But it's good to know they left me their ticking time bomb."

The doctor opened his mouth as if to say something, but Hae-Jo stood abruptly, cutting him off.

"This doesn't feel fair," Hae-Jo muttered, his laugh hollow as he adjusted his jacket. "But what is, right?"

The doctor watched as he walked out of the office without another word, his mind already racing toward the only question that mattered: What do I do with the time I have left?

Hae-Jo sat in the dimly lit hospital lobby, the sterile smell of disinfectant and the muffled chatter of voices pressing in around him. His chest felt hollow, his body heavy as though gravity itself was punishing him for simply existing. He stared blankly at the screen mounted on the wall, playing an endless loop of public service announcements.

"We will stay by your side like your family so that your final moments are beautiful."

The words crawled across the screen in pristine lettering, their message meant to be comforting. Instead, they clawed at his mind, taunting him. Family. A concept he'd never known and would never have. He shifted uncomfortably, biting back the bitter laugh that threatened to escape.

His phone buzzed against his thigh, the vibrations a sharp interruption in the stillness of his thoughts. He pulled it out of his pocket, the screen glowing with Kkari's name. With a tired sigh, he pressed the power button, silencing it.

The weight of his reality pressed harder on him. Every mistake he'd ever made, every decision he'd avoided, all of it played back in his mind like a relentless reel. What if he'd stayed with her? What if he hadn't lied? What if he had chosen differently?

His thoughts were interrupted when he saw movement in his peripheral vision. A figure walked through the lobby, her head hung low, and her hands clutched a bag like it was the only thing keeping her upright.

His breath caught.

Seorin.

She hadn't seen him, but he couldn't take his eyes off her. Her lips were pressed together in that familiar way, trembling as though holding back tears. She'd always done that—swallowing her pain, pretending she was stronger than she felt. His heart ached at the sight, a sharp pang that nearly knocked the air out of him.

Her hair was longer than he remembered, lighter too, the color framing her face delicately. But her glasses—her signature glasses, the ones that always slipped down her nose—were gone. He had loved those glasses, loved the way she adjusted them absentmindedly when she was thinking too hard.

His chest tightened as he watched her step outside, into the rain that had started to fall heavier. He stood without thinking, his body moving on instinct when he heard the first choked sob escape her lips.

He approached the glass doors, his footsteps quiet, his breath shallow. She was leaning against the wall outside now, her back to him, her body trembling as she clutched her bag for support.

She still wore the gray coat he had given her last year, the one with her initials stitched on the tag. He remembered the day he bought it, how she had laughed at the extravagance, saying, "What do I need with initials on a coat? Who's going to steal it?" But she'd loved it. She'd worn it almost every day.

He clenched his fists as the memories washed over him. She looked so small now, so fragile against the backdrop of rain and gray skies.

She hated the rain. He remembered that too. She hated water on her face, hated swimming, hated anything that reminded her of drowning.

The wind picked up, and the rain began to splash against her pants, but she didn't seem to notice. She stayed there, her sobs quiet but raw, the sound cutting through him like a knife.

Hae-Jo took a shaky breath, his emotions warring within him. His hand reached out almost of its own accord, grabbing a black umbrella from the bin near the doors. He stepped into the rain, pulling his hat low over his face to shield his identity.

When he reached her, his steps slow and deliberate, he slid the umbrella into her hand. His fingers brushed hers for a fleeting second, a spark of connection he hadn't felt in months.

But he forgot to open it.

His nerves frayed, his heart pounding in his chest, he turned on his heel and began walking away, his footsteps quick and uneven.

"Wait!"

Her voice cracked, the sobs still clinging to her throat, and it stopped him dead in his tracks. His heart burned as if someone had set it alight, her voice reverberating through his very core.

He didn't turn around. He couldn't.

Instead, he walked further, stepping to the side and lighting a cigarette with trembling hands. The smoke filled his lungs, the brief reprieve doing nothing to calm the storm inside him.

From the corner of his eye, he watched her. The rain blurred his vision, but he saw the way her tears slowed, her sobs subsiding as she adjusted the umbrella he'd given her. For a moment, she stood there, and he allowed himself the faintest smile.

But the smile was short-lived.

A sharp crack of thunder pierced the air, and suddenly his vision blurred. Pain exploded in his head, his hands flying to his temple as his knees buckled. He stumbled to the side, gripping a low concrete wall for support as the world tilted around him.

The groans left his lips unbidden, his nails digging into the rough surface of the wall as the searing pain radiated through his skull. He forced himself to glance up, his vision swimming as he caught one last glimpse of her.

She was stepping onto a bus, the rain still falling in sheets around her.

His heart twisted as the bus pulled away, carrying her into the distance.

This wouldn't be the last time he saw her. He would make sure of it.

He couldn't leave this world—not without being with her again. One last time.

The rain soaked through Hae-Jo's clothes, the cold seeping into his bones as he slumped against the concrete wall. His head throbbed with a relentless pain, each pulse of it dragging him deeper into the memories he'd tried so hard to bury. He pressed the heels of his hands against his temples, as if he could force them away, but they came anyway—sharp, vivid, and unbearably cruel.

He remembered the mornings. The way she'd burrow into his chest when the first light of dawn crept through the curtains, her body warm and soft against his. She always woke up first, her sleepy voice teasing him to get up, but she never moved until he wrapped his arms around her, pulling her close to steal a few more minutes of peace.

He remembered the pictures she took with her old, beat-up Polaroid camera. She loved that thing, despite how often it jammed or smeared the photos. Her laugh had filled the room whenever they tried to pose together, her head resting on his shoulder as they waited for the film to develop. Those photos had been everywhere—tacked onto the walls, slipped into her notebooks, tucked into the corners of his wallet. He still had one, creased and faded, hidden deep in his drawer.

And the rings. He'd surprised her with matching silver bands on their second anniversary, simple but elegant, just the way she liked. She had cried when he slid the ring onto her finger, her smile brighter than the sun. She never took it off. He wondered if she still wore it now.

Then there was the fish tank. She adored it, spending hours studying the colorful fish swimming lazily in the water. She had names for all of them—Sundae, Bada, even one she called Mr. Wiggles. She'd sit cross-legged in front of the tank, sketching the fish in her notebook, her brow furrowed in concentration. The tank was empty now, the glass cracked and stained. The fish were gone, killed in the chaos caused by that woman and her bodyguard. He hadn't even gotten to fix it.

And he remembered the words he had once said to her. "You'd make an amazing wife." He'd meant it. She had a way of making even the coldest spaces feel like home. But he had left her. He had taken that dream away, all because he thought she deserved better.

The memories darkened, turning sour and sharp.

He remembered their argument a month before the breakup. She had been frustrated, confused by his sudden distance, and he'd lashed out, telling her things he didn't mean. "You deserve better than me. I'm just an errand boy. What kind of life could I even give you?"

Her response had been fierce, her voice trembling but unwavering. "I don't care about any of that. I chose you. Why can't you see that?"

But he couldn't let himself believe her. He couldn't let her stay.

Then came the breakup.

It was cloudy that day, the sky heavy with the promise of rain, though it never fell. They had met at the park, under their favorite oak tree. He'd told her the lies he thought would make it easier for her to walk away. "I don't love you the way you deserve to be loved."

He had watched the disbelief shatter into heartbreak on her face, watched the tears spill over as she turned and walked away. She had left without looking back, and he had stood there, unmoving, holding back his own tears until she was gone.

It had been the worst kind of pain, the kind that hollowed him out and left him empty. She was the only woman he had ever truly loved, and he had let her go.

Now, standing under a faulty awning that did little to shield him from the rain, Hae-Jo lit another cigarette with trembling hands. The glow of the ember reflected faintly in the puddles around him, the smoke curling into the cold air like whispers of regret.

A single tear slipped down his cheek, warm against the cold of his skin. He wiped it away quickly, almost angrily, before it could reach his lips.

"You fucking idiot," he muttered, his voice cracking.

The words felt hollow, but they were all he could say. He let out a shaky laugh, bitter and broken, as he cursed himself. His lips trembled as he stared out at the rain, his mind racing with the memories that wouldn't let him go.

He thought of her walking out of the hospital earlier, her frame trembling as she stood in the rain. He thought of the way she had looked at him that day under the oak tree, the way her voice had cracked as she said goodbye.

He wanted to chase after her, to grab her hand and tell her everything—that he had lied, that he had never stopped loving her, that he was a coward for letting her go. But he couldn't.

The rain fell harder, streaking down his face like the tears he refused to shed.

Hae-Jo puffed on his cigarette, the smoke burning his throat, as his hands tightened into fists.

"This isn't fair," he whispered to no one. "None of this is fair."

But life wasn't fair. Not for him, not for her.

The cigarette burned down to the filter, and he dropped it, crushing it under his shoe as the rain began to wash it away. He leaned against the wall, his head bowed, the ache in his chest spreading like a sickness.

He didn't know how much time he had left, but he knew one thing for certain.

He couldn't leave this world without seeing her again. Without making things right, even if it was too late.

By the time Hae-Jo arrived at the apartment, he was drenched. Rainwater dripped from his hair and soaked into his shirt collar, the sharp scent of wet earth and asphalt clinging to his clothes. He punched in the code on the door handle and pushed it open, only to be met with Bong-Suk standing in the entryway, her arms crossed, a face mask pulled over her skin, and her silk pajamas glowing faintly under the fluorescent lights.

"What happened to you?" she asked, her brows raised.

Hae-Jo grinned smugly, holding up the plastic bag of takeout he'd grabbed on his way over. "Peace offering," he said, stepping past her as she reluctantly let him in.

He trudged toward the bathroom without another word, his body feeling heavier with each step. The cold rainwater clung to his skin, making him shiver as he peeled off his soaked clothes and let them fall in a sad pile on the floor. The hot water from the shower barely warmed him, his thoughts clouded with the weight of the day, the words from the doctor replaying in his head like a broken record.

When he emerged, he was wrapped in a blue robe, his hair still damp. He made his way to the fridge, pulling out a can of diet Coke. The hiss of the tab breaking the seal echoed faintly in the small apartment.

"What's wrong with you?" Bong-Suk's voice broke through his thoughts as she watched him from her perch on the bed.

He ignored her question, instead sitting on the edge of the bed and taking a slow sip of the Coke, the carbonation fizzing faintly on his tongue.

"What do you mean?" he asked, his tone disinterested.

"You avoided me when I was looking for you, and now you're here, sucking up to me with soggy takeout," she pressed. "What's gotten into you?"

He sighed, his gaze drifting to the green wall in front of him, its surface uneven and faintly scratched from years of use. He stared at it as though it held answers. "Hmm."

She wasn't about to let him off the hook. "Don't you have any friends to drink with? You're still young, for god's sake."

Hae-Jo's eyes fell to the can in his hand, his fingers tracing the aluminum rim. "If I did," he muttered, "I wouldn't be here now."

Her scoff was loud, filled with irritation. "I'm your bong, I guess."

"Bong-Suk-a," he said, only half-joking.

She glared at him and hit the back of his head. "Ju-Ri, Bong Ju-Ri. I changed my name a long time ago, you brat."

He sighed and turned his head away, his lips curving into a small, bitter smile. "Don't hit my head, all right?"

That only egged her on. She crawled onto her knees and began slapping the back of his head with both hands. "Don't hit your head? Don't hit it like this? What are you going to do about it?"

Without thinking, he grabbed her wrist and gently pushed her down onto the mattress, pinning her there.

"Stop," he said, his voice low, but there was no anger in it. "Keep hitting it, and it'll explode. There are a bunch of bombs in my head. Fourteen at that."

She rolled her eyes as he chuckled softly, but the laughter faded quickly, his smile turning hollow. He stared at her, but his mind was elsewhere—thinking of someone else entirely.

Seorin.

He missed her. The way her breath would fan against his cheek when he pinned her like this, her heartbeat quick against his chest as she waited for him to make the next move. She always looked at him like he was everything, her eyes soft and full of trust he didn't deserve.

It hurt, thinking about her now. It hurt every time he did something—every time he breathed—and thought of her. Because no matter how much time had passed, no matter how many lies he told himself, he couldn't escape the truth: he had ruined everything.

Ju-Ri snapped him out of his thoughts, pushing him off her. He rolled onto his back as she tossed him a blanket, shaking her head. "You're crazy," she muttered. "Wandering around in the rain, talking like that. Just go to sleep, all right?"

She sat against the headboard, patting his chest lightly as if to comfort him. "Go to sleep."

He stared at the window, watching the rain streak down the glass. Her voice became background noise, a faint hum as she began singing a made-up lullaby, but it only made his mind wander further.

"Sleep, sleep, my dear Hae-Jo," Bong-Suk sang softly, her voice laced with a teasing edge as she patted his chest.

He sighed, staring at the ceiling, the dim light from the window casting faint shadows across the room. "Bong-Suk-a."

She bit her lip in mock irritation and swatted him lightly on the chest. "You little jerk, how many times do I have to tell you? It's Ju-Ri now. Bong Ju-Ri. You'd better remember it."

He gave a half-hearted chuckle, closing his eyes and placing his hands behind his head. Silence fell between them for a moment, broken only by the sound of rain tapping against the windowpane.

"Why do tragedies always seem to find people whose lives are already pathetic?" he said quietly, almost to himself. "If you're poor, you're more likely to get sick. And when you're sick, there's no one to look after you because you don't have a family. And if you don't have family, you're truly... all alone."

He paused, the weight of his words settling heavily in the room. His voice softened, cracking slightly as he continued. "And loners always push away other loners. So why did I push her away?"

Ju-Ri laughed, breaking the tension with a sip from his can of soda. "Are those song lyrics or something?"

He didn't respond, didn't even glance her way. Instead, he turned over, his back to her, and stared out the rain-streaked window. His breath hitched as the memory of the breakup hit him like a train, the vivid images replaying in his mind: her tear-streaked face, her trembling voice, the way she had walked away from him without looking back.

The pain of it all burned in his chest like a smoldering ember, refusing to extinguish. He closed his eyes tightly, but the tears threatened anyway, prickling behind his eyelids.

Bong-Suk said something else, but he barely heard her. The sound of her voice faded into the background as he let out a shaky breath, the rain outside mirroring the storm raging inside him.

He squeezed his eyes shut, but the memories came anyway. He saw her again, crying outside the hospital earlier that day, her shoulders trembling under the weight of whatever burden she was carrying.

Why was she crying? Why was she there?

He remembered the message she'd sent him after the breakup: Get your things tomorrow when I'm at work. I don't want to see you or them again.

She had blocked him after that. No contact. No closure. Just silence.

"What a fucking joke," he whispered to himself, his voice breaking.

He opened his eyes, staring at the ceiling as the rain outside grew heavier.

If only he had stayed two more weeks, maybe he'd know the thing she was hiding now. Maybe he wouldn't have thrown everything away.

But now, he had no clue. And no time.

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