the three neil josten variants
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I needed to represent this moment because I think we don’t talk enough about how heartbreaking this night was for Lupin.
That night, the wounds of the war reopened. His world crumbled at his feet, and everything he believed to be true turned out to be a lie. For the first time in 12 years, he could see everything with clarity… and that clarity didn’t bring peace, only pain. He started thinking about how this would change his world entirely. He felt like *he* was the traitor—for not trusting his heart sooner.
For years, he lived with guilt, loss, and isolation, thinking he had already endured the worst. But learning the truth pulled the ground from under him. He didn’t just lose James, Lily, Peter and Sirius—he lost his trust in himself. And now, seeing it all clearly, he’s left with nothing but regret and the quiet ache of betrayal—toward his friends, and toward his own soul.
And this is all my heart and thoughts into this piece, love you 💗🫂 hope you like it ✨
sirius loooooves writing at the corner of remus textbooks silly notes during class. he’ll rant about how boring the teacher is, and how dumb james looks mooning over lily. he’ll comment on remus’ messy handwriting and how focused he is during class, how he frowns and stucks out his bottom lip when he takes notes. he’ll sometimes draw tiny doodles of dogs and wolves, and think of how much he wishes it mas a full moon.
Can’t believe 3 separate men wanted to fuck Edwin so bad they went and died about it. Lololol the cat king lost one of his 9 lives in an attempt to save Edwin. Monty had his chest clawed open before being transformed back into a crow - also because he was trying to save Edwin. Simon was so filled with repressed gay longing for Edwin that he attempted to ritually sacrifice him and got sucked into the pits of hell for it. Like Local Edwardian Ghost Boy so attractive he has a body count. 3 dead, more injured.
you don't understand, sirius is almost disgustingly gay. but not in a femboy way, in a 70s gay club leather kink way. by the time sirius comes to terms with his queerness & begins to accept himself, the f-slur becomes his favourite self-description. young sirius jumps around dark clubs bare chested and bejeweled, showing off his carefully sculpted muscles. old sirius lounges around his dead parents' townhouse in nothing but a fur coat.
Sirius is the loudest person in any room except when Remus is reading or sleeping. Then he tiptoes, whispers, and even glares at others who make noise.