Edge of the fight โกโกโกโก
โ๏ฝก๐ฆนยฐโญห๏ฝกโ Bayverse Turtles x Reader โ๏ฝก๐ฆนยฐโญห๏ฝกโ
Warnings -> Near death experiences, trauma, PTSD, Nightmares, hurt/comfort, Emotional talks, Experiments, being called a 'failure', Kidnapping, Reader is going through it, Panic attacks, Over protective, Trauma/Past dumping (Woah that's alot)
Authors Note -> Mind you that this story came to my mind late at one night, it came to my mind and I mixed up some stuff in it even though it might not make sense to everyone
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On top of the crumbling building, Shredder stands like a devil in metal armor, every move that he takes sparks off the roof as the rain hits his blades that were drenched in your blood
You watched him confront the turtle as you could hardly breath, Leo is already slightly wounder as Raph was making a angered face like a beast
Donnie was attempting to remain sane as Mikey is jumping in with unbounded bravery but you knew he was scared to death
But it wasn't enough.. Not against him
You decided to make a spilt-second decision before he was about to turn Leo into turtle soup, you ran straight into Shredder's clear line of sight as you breathed heavily
"Hey scrap head!" You yelled out, your voice slightly echoing as Shredder was sure to hear the anger in your voice "You need a new outfit because that is so 2007!"
That caused Shredder to turn, it worked but at what cost
While distracted by you the turtle gathered together, even if just for a second because that second was all they needed
Shredder's gauntlet slashes out as it was too fast to dodge in time, pain tears through your side as one of them slashed through your shirt and you stumbled backwards as you clutched your side, it felt too hard to breath
You try to stay on your feet, you really did but the edge is just a step too close and your balance wasn't going to be any easier with your lack of strength
You saw the city lights upside down, you then came to realise
A blur of green and pieces of the building dives after you, it was one of the turtle or maybe two.. the ground looks like it was coming fast
"โ got them, I got themโ!"
You were drifting back to consciousness like being dragged through some type of syrup, pain floods your body as you tried to breath in. You're body felt like it was hit by a train, you tried to move but the motion earns a 'hiss' and a gasp from one of the turtles
"Don't.. Don't move, you're okay now" A voice says gently, you blinked through the blur and see Leo kneeling over you, his face streaked with grime, blood a slight rain
His swords were placed near by but his hand were terribly trembling. He caught you or maybe you hit something that slowed you down and then he caught you.. either way, you're not dead.. that's a first
You tried to crack a smile as you looked at every single one of them "Told you.. I could be distracting"
Leo's jaw tightened as his eyes flickered with not amusement but with guilt as he huffed "You almost died.."
The pain in his voice cuts deeper than Shredders claws, looking away as you felt guilty now
You then saw Raph pacing back and forth, his fists clenched so tight you swear he could draw blood from it, Mikey crouches nearby as his usual cheery self drowned by a frown and scared eyes. Donnie's was already scanning you with a portable med scanner as his fingers flying across it
"Ribs are slightly cracked, they definitely have a concussion and that gash.. we need to get them back to the lair now"
You wince a little "Is that.. worse than I think?" Leo swallows hard "You shouldn't of done that"
"But you would've lost.."
"I rather lose the fight than lose you" His voice breaks on the last words and something in your chest aches worse than the injuries. Raph lets out a frustrated growls and then punches the wall near him, making it crack a bit form his force, Mikey flinches
You started to close your eyes for a second "Did we win?"
There was silence until Mikey says softly "Yeah, we won.. all because of you"
You smiled faintly as tears started to burn on the corner of your eyes "Good" Your head move slightly as the exhaustion pulls at you but Leo catches your head a shis arm gently held you like you were made out of glass, he lowers his forehead to your as his breathing was steady and close
"You're not doing that again" He whispers but you didn't answer
You were already slipping back unconscious
The lair is uncharacteristically quiet when you came back to your senses again, Gone are the usual echos of Mikey's video games, the sounds of Donnie tinkering in his little lab area or Raph and Leo arguing about literally anything but instead there was a low hum
Donnie's machines maybe and that the soft shuffle of someone pacing
Your eyes started to open as your whole body ached in pain, your side was bandages but you were warm, clean and surprisingly surrounded. Leo was sitting beside your makeshift bed, his arms crossed but his gaze was glued to you
The moment that you stir he completely straightens up
"Hey, you're awake" His voice was quiet as relief rushes into him like a tide, you were okay and alive
the next thing you know, Mikey is practically launching himself across the lair as soon as he sees you awake, he skids to a halt beside your head as his eyes were glassy, like he was about to cry
"Dude! You're alive! I told them you were too stubborn to die!" He was then interrupted by Raph pushing him back as he grunts at his little brothers voice
"They shouldn't have been in the fight to begin with" Leo looked at him "Raph" Leo says sharply but you cit in with a wince as you started to get up
"No, he's.. he's not wrong" You mumble "I just couldn't let him kill you guys"
Raph rushes over to you as he pushes you back gently down on the bed
"You scared the fuck out of us" Raph glares at you as you turned away with a slight pout
"Sorry" You mutter then let out a soft chuckle but turns into a groan as you held your side "Ow, nevermind, laughing hurts"
Donnie then appears out of the blue "Well maybe you'll think twice before jumping off building next time" He stated but you raised an eyebrow at him "I'm pretty sure he pushed me"
"Technicalities" Donnie deadpans but there's no missing the shake of his hands as he adjusts your blanket and checks your vitals, he slightly sniff very softly "You're lucky I'm a genius or you'd be a corpse right about now"
"Raph and I caught them in time" Leo added "Well barely"
You looked around at them as your heart full and aching with pain, Mikey is now curled to your side, clearly trying so hard not to cry seeing you like this, Raph was still tense as his face furrowed like he's trying to hold back a hundred things that he want to say
Donnie's eyes are laser-focused on his scanner but the crease of his forehead hasn't left and Leo.. he looks like he hasn't slept, maybe hasn't even moved from that one particular spot, you also wondered how long you're been out for
"I didn't mean to make it worse for you guys" You whispered slighty, Leo shakes his head "You didn't, you made it possible but next time.. let us do the protecting"
"We're used to it" Mikey says, giving you a wobbly smile "It's kind of our thing, you couldn't help it as the tears sting your eyes "You guys are ridiculous.. I love you guys"
Donnie then clears his throat very loudly "Well.. uh.. emotionally compromised, clearly" then was interrupted
"Shut up, don" Raph mutter as he ruffles your hair softly "We love you too, idiot" Leo doesn't say anything but just brushes his fingers against yours slightly, although his eyes says more
The rest of the night passes in peace, you started to drift off to the sound of Mikey snoring down at your side, Donnie typing away on the desk near by, Raph sitting against the wall not to far who was still awake and Leo keeping vigil beside, like he will every night until you're whole again
It has been a few days, you were still healing, the pain was dulled enough, finally. You sat up without feeling like your side was screaming at you and that you could breath without sound like a dying animal. There was progress
That's becoming the worst part of your day all because every time you close your eyes, you're back on that same crumbling rooftop, back to the sound of metal slicing the air as the wind blows pass your ear
Back to Shredder's demonic armor and that fall โ that infinite, weightless terror you've been holding onto. You feel the air rushing past your ears once again and your stomach in your throat, the sickening feeling
Every time you hit the ground in your dreams and every time you wake up gasping, drench in cold sweat as your fists clenched the blankets ever so tightly
You jolt upwards with a sudden gasp as you felt your heart pounding so hard it hurts.. the lair is dark and quiet, except for the soft hum of Donnie's machines in the distance and the drip-drip of the water tunnels echoing
You press your hand to your face as you tried to calm your breathing down, trying to remind yourself that you're not falling.. you're not dying and that you are now safe
The voice comes from a distance, quiet, low and familiar
You blinks into the dark and see him slightly, leaning against the wall nearby. His arms were crossed but his eyes are softer than usual, watching you like a guard dag that doesn't want to admit it's worried
You nod, barely making Raph walk over to you as he slightly crouches down due to his height near the bed "Wanna talk about it?"
You instantly shake your head "It's stupid", "No it ain't" He says without a missing beat "You almost died, kinda messed with your head"
The honesty in his voice cracks something open in you "Every time I close my eyes, it feels like I'm falling" You whispered "I feel it, the wind, the drop.. I.. I hit the ground every time but I never seem to wake up"
Raph slightly swears under his breath, then without asking he gently scoops you up a bit the places you back down while sitting on his lap
"I used to have dreams, similar to that.. The attacks, the crimes, the krang all comes back to me, never told the others but yeah.. it's like your brain keeps makin' you relive that situation, like it wants you to remember"
You sniffed as you glanced at him "How did you make it stop?" You asked "I didn't.. not really" He shrugs "But It got better later on, cause I wasn't alone"
The reassurance from Raph felt comforting, the next time you fall asleep, you're surrounded, Leo was still sitting close by, Donnie sleeping on the desk, Mikey snoring still near your side and Raph sleeping with you near him
You still dream but this time when you fall.. you don't hit the ground
It has been week ever since you fully recovered, the boys suggested that you could use some relax time while watching a movie with them
Mikey declares it before you even finish your post-training smoothie that Raph secretly made for you
"It's movie night, Baby!"
You blink, hallways through a sip as you wiped your mouth "Is that a formal thing?" Leo then sighs from across the room "it is now, he's made a theme song and everything"
Mikey breaks into a quick beatbox routine that includes dramatic Kung Fu nosies and the words of 'popcorn justice' for reasons that no one fully understand
Donnie was already at the TV as he turned the TV on, Raph was in the kitchen area as he was grabbing some chips
The couch now sinks under the weight of some of you on it as Mikey was sitting in front of you as Raph was on your left side, Donnie on your right and Leo sitting on the couch's armrest
Mikeys then throws a blanket over you as he says that you might be cold, which you were. It was like he read your mind
"Okay, What are we watching?" You asked, "Kung pow!" Mikey suggests but Leo turns that down "Okay, Shrek 2 then" Leo sighs "Fine"
The movie begins, Popcorn in a bowl placed right on your lap, someone (Mikey) quotes every line which Raphs taps him hard on the back of the head
You? You're smiling so much that your cheeks hurt, for once.. there was nothing to worry about.. nightmares, no flashback and no tensions in your shoulders
Just warmth, laughter and the sound of friends around you
At one point, Mikey turns his head to him as he happily smiles up at you, mentioning to come close then he whispers "You're a special person to all of us y'know?"
You looked at him "Yeah?" You question "Yeah, but you're more special to me" That made you grin until Raph flips Mikeys forehead as he yelped in pain
"Watch the movie moron and stop distracting them" Raph grunts
This was everything and never was going to ever change that
It was quiet at night, you're alone or so you thought, the memory of what happened weeks ago hits you hit and too fast
it starts with something small, a clang that just a piece of metal fell off of one of Donnie workbenches
But in your mind, it's not just that, it was the sound of Shredders armor, the hiss of metal against the concentrate, the whirl of those blades that were coming for you
Suddenly you were back there, your body doesn't know it's safe but your brain doesn't care that it's over, you couldn't breath, you can't move, your vision shrinks and all you could hear is rushing air and your own heartbeat pounding in your ears
You hit the ground as you could feel it, even though you're still standing in the middle of the lair, shaking
Your knees buckle and then you hit the ground, making a thud sound
"Name?" Your name was called out, making you freeze
The voice sounded confused, worried and gentle
You barely register Donnie's silhouette until he's kneeling in front of you, his bo staff long gone in his lab that was on the floor
"Hey, hey, You're okay, you're safe now" He says, his voice low and warm "It's just me, Donnie, you're in the lair and your safe"
You can't answer and you couldn't form words, it felt like you were trapped, in that moment of fear
"Will you give me consent to touch you?" He asked, you could hear him as you nodded
You were soon wrapped in a warm and shielded embrace by the turtle, muttering to you that you're safe and that you are not there anymore
"Your system overloaded" He murmurs "But it happens, but you're not broken"
You nod slighting into his plastron as you thanked him
His hand rubs your back in a comforting matter
I'm gonna make this into a series of parts
-A<3