diary of an insomniac

sketch/wip of my sweet but pathetic french angel, jean.

one of my favourite things about nora sakavic's writing is her ability to write around narrative plot points. i can't think of any examples from the main trilogy off the top of my head but in TGR especially, the text message jeremy recieves from joshua HEAVILY impacts the entire first chapter of his narration. at no point does nora ever tell us what the text says, but she writes the impact of it so well that it actually creates a far more fascinating atmosphere than if she'd told us straight off. she truly is a writer who knows when to give and when to withhold information from the audience and i for one am here for every damn second of it

please promise me fandom won't disappear entirely into discord servers, i'm too old and employed for that

Your quality of life will increase ten-fold when you learn to appreciate the sight of a little bird

We all know what erectile dysfunction is but literally no one is ever taught what vaginismus is and it can cause people to feel extremely lost, broken, and cause people to take their own lives. Raise. Awareness.

For the uninformed, vaginismus is when the vagina painfully tightens and spasms when faced with pressure, usually from anything trying to insert into the vagina. It’s the reason I can’t wear tampons, and why many people can’t have vaginal sex without severe pain.

There’s not a lot of treatments, and there isn’t a single one that is for vaginismus exclusively - they’re all medications or treatments to treat symptoms, but not the causes. In fact, for a long time doctors waved off vaginismus as a purely psychological disorder in cis women.

Seriously, this is so unaddressed and uncared for in medical circles. Please spread awareness, even if all it’s for is to let those who have it but don’t have a name for it finally be able to understand what’s happening to their bodies.

Certified Sex Ed Post!

Hi hello! This post is almost 10 years old and there ARE treatments for this. Vaginismus is otherwise known as pelvic hypertonia and it is a MUSCULAR condition that can be caused by many different factors including endometriosis, trauma, chronic UTIs, and connective tissue disorders.

It’s incredibly common! And it can be treated by physiotherapy.

I know this because I’m currently undergoing physio and although it can take months to recover, I’m already seeing improvement. A lot of the pelvic floor exercises are available online, but if you have these symptoms please TALK TO YOUR DOCTOR and see if you can get a physio referral (or investigation for underlying causes like endometriosis).

Also, my additions to posts never get reblogged so a note to my followers: this is SUPER IMPORTANT ISSUE that affects many people and is rarely talked about. Please reblog, and please share this info with as many people as possible.

Pelvic hypertonia/vaginismus is incredibly debilitating and psychologically damaging but it CAN BE TREATED. Spread the word, and you never know who you’ll be throwing a lifeline to.

i hate seeing people drink the openai/chatgpt koolaid 😭😭😭 genuinely feels like watching someone get seduced by scientology or qanon or something. like girl help it's not intelligent it's Big Autocomplete it's crunching numbers it's not understanding things i fuckign promise you. like ohhh my god the marketing hype fuckign GOT you

Andrew said ‘no touching’, but Neil heard ‘no problem’

Denied. 🙂‍↔️

the most annoying people are people who don't understand storytelling. they be like "oooo how convenient that this thing happened to the main character in the very beginning". yeah no shit. that's why the story begins here

"If this one things hadn't happened the main character wouldn't be so important" You mean the catalyst? If the catalyst of the plot didn't happen the plot wouldn't happen? Dude, that's fucking crazy. No, seriously, it's so crazy that in the book "What Happens After The Catalyst" the catalyst is the only reason the story takes place.

Neil ImFine Josten completely wrecked after a Friday night 🩹

Neil is such a loverboy. Every time I manage to forget about, "Thank you. You were amazing." It pops up on my dash and I am suddenly bombarded with thoughts about that Maya Angelou quote about people forgetting what you say and do but never the way you make them feel, and then I wanna throw up. Cause Neil wanted to leave him with that. He wanted to leave Andrew with the way he made him feel and managed to sum it ALL up perfectly in a matter of seconds. I'm gonna scream.

jean moreau girlies how we doing tonight (bad)

*grabs your face by the cheeks* Listen- listen to me. Andreil? Was never about codependence. No, don't run- listen. It was never about codependence. Stop biting me- Andreil was always about learning to be independent and fiercely choosing interdependence through the process

"I'm not your answer and you sure as hell aren't mine."

YOU WERE NEVER MEANT TO BE MY ANSWER. YOU ARE THE WEIRD AND CHEWED UP BALLPOINT PEN I REFUSE TO LET GO OF AS I WRITE THE ANSWERS ON EVERY TEST MYSELF.

– Pick me up from the stadium.