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i have so much studying to do but i cant even get out of bed im just frozen because of fear stress and pressure from my family and from my tutor, grief is eating me from inside out i just want to sleep and be able to forget about everything, my girlfriend keeps venting to me and don't get me wrong im happy she trusts me with her problems but i myself am all alone all the time with my own problems and sometimes im too tired to handle her shit as well but i cant bring myself to tell her because it would hurt her i feel so overwhelmed because i go through every emotion known to man in the matter of seconds, my therapist keeps invalidating me and she pisses me off, my psychiatrist is absent til the end of the month i dont know how am i going to survive i just want to cut myself but its too hot to wear long sleeves and i love cutting arms i hate it all so much this is a cry for help🙏🏻

i need a father figure so bad

hehe tysm anon ! ofc im super cool

i love having no one to turn to when i need someone !

grief is actually so hard to deal with that do y'all even know

i'm going to die out of heartache

i love being ghosted! i love being left out!

what do normal people even know about grief. "it gets better with time" no, no it doesn't. the void he left in me by dying and leaving me all alone will NEVER heal y'all hear me NEVER because i'll never stop loving him like i always did therefore the pain will never stop, my heart will always ache and even when im one day happy all i'll think about is how he didn't get to experience the good in life because of a godforsaken cancer. whenever i see someone similar on the street, for a split second i'll be filled with hope that it's him, that he never died, followed by a feeling of emptiness so big it's impossible to explain. and denial, anger and grieving isn't as bad as finally letting go. letting go and making up with reality hurts the most and somehow when i think i went through all stages all grief and im finally free, it all repeats once again like a cycle. his voice will always be in my head, i'll see his face every time i close my eyes and i'll keep dreaming about what could've my and his life been if i never lost him. it doesn't get better with time. it will always be equally unbearable and the day i finally die ill pray to every god possible to allow me to meet him once again and hug him a little tighter than the last time i did before he passed.

AAAAA YES

ty anon ! 💞

tysm ! 🫶🏻

thank you ! 🩷

thank you anon ! have a nice day too 🩷

happy birthday to me

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