aaaa thank youuuuu i adore your writing tooooo 🥺💗 most definitely thinking about it!
yes 😭 he sees his former life in a pessimistic and cynical way, and now trying to repress hurt watching someone he has fallen for seeing it in such rose-colored glasses.
EXACTLY 😣 except he’s exactly what you want, just has a warped perception of everything, sees his situation like a curse while you wouldn’t change a thing about him. maybe later realizing that you have had such a strong, immediate crush on the notorious military captain because he reminds you of your friend too 🫢
he would probably end up acting a bit unstable because of it too. like he doesn’t want to be your friend anymore, but then he comes over, brings you home, tries to protect you, notices when you’re around anyone dangerous to immediately intervene. he has to come clean at some point 😔
everything i would write (or imagine lmao) would always has a happy ending bc im a baby 😭 i can’t let him suffer like that, he’ll definitely have that “idealized” love he didn’t believe in for himself 🤭