new rule you have to live to be 34. you cant kill yourself until you turn 34. jesus died at 33 you can do better

this is a common law btw. you can check it out by looking up 'rule 34'

i see a lot of neurodivergent people talk about how they can't handle bright white overhead lighting at home, so their preference is to have warm/yellow bulbs in lamps as the main source of household lighting, often with colouful neon lights/fairylights/candles as other secondary lighting sources. I feel like this is actually more common than we think but maybe there are some insane people who love or at least are indifferent to bright white overhead lighting. so poll time.

if you say bright white overhead lighting is your main lighting preference please tell me why

I'm autistic but I'm more sensitive to sound and touch, not light. I prefer bright cold white lighting because I like to be able to fucking see. Warm lighting makes me nervous because it's harder to clearly see things and it softens their colours.

I can handle it in rooms if I have a bright lamp to see what I'm actually doing though.

See I’m autistic and I find it *harder* for navigate im bright white spaces? Everything stands out so sharply and it looks so cluttered that it’s overwhelming, and the harshness of it gives me a headache and I get all anxious which makes things MORE difficult- it’s like being naked in public. I MUCH prefer mood lighting, but then again, I’m much more visually sensitive than touch and sound

So funny thing about this poll: my answer is, technically, yellow lamp light and then overhead for visibility. I decided this when thinking to myself I had the overhead on. Except, this is my overhead light rn:

Anyway this poll mostly reminded me that we need to call an electrician because EVERY SINGLE CEILING LIGHT IN THE HOUSE IS BROKEN AND I DIDN'T REGISTER IT UNTIL THIS POST MADE ME THINK ABOUT IT.

Author rant incoming, but I don't know what pisses me off more: lazy assholes who act like they're 'the real deal' because they have an AI make a book or story for them.

Or actual authors who have no class solidarity & use AI slop for their covers.

I can't be the only one who gets pissed at that. There is just so much here to say about how little solidarity there is between different types of creatives, how easily one group will get rid of another because they can save up on money or they already get most of the money. The recent strikes for actors and animators are proof enough that some people got theirs so they don't care about other creatives.

But as a writer who's dirt poor & STILL would never consider using AI for a book cover, I can't help but be bloody disappointed in these people.

It's like that adage of 'if you couldn't be bothered to make it, why should I be bothered to consume it?' Except it's 'if you couldn't be bothered to support a fellow creative, why should I support you?'

Also please tell me where you're from, cos I hear on Tumblr that this phrase is Aussie but I'm Aussie and it doesn't sound fucking Aussie to me. Do foreigners know this? This just seems like a normal fucking sentence.

I notice none of you have told me where youre from, so first of all, disappointed

But secondly of all, what that fuck are you all talking about? Since no one said otherwise, imma assume this is common internationally and you're all just specifically not culturally engaged with your peers. No way first come blessed dressed is aussie slang. It's too normal

I'm American and I've never heard this before in my life until this moment.

[grabs your shirt] listen. listen to me. the practical is holy. the everyday is sacred. the simple act of surviving is divine. do you get it? sanctity begins at home, in the hands that build and the lives we live and the deaths we die and the worms that eat our bodies. if making something by hand is not worthy of veneration then nothing is.

some things people have tagged this post as since I made it three years ago:

things i was thinking about when i made this post:

thinking again about vampirism as disability

what if you slept all day and woke at night, lonely and frustrated. what if you couldn't go to social events, or even mundane public spaces like stores. what if you couldn't see the sun. what if you couldn't go to the pool, or the beach, or the creek. what if you couldn't eat what everyone else is eating. what if you couldn't eat at all. what if your basic needs came at the cost of your loved ones' quality of life. what if you became agitated, confused, maybe even violent if your needs weren't met. what if people blamed your behavior on demons, or worse, your own inherent evil. what if people saw you as a threat to your own community. what if the default response to your suffering was either indifference or violence. what if people thought you were better off dead, that you no longer count as human, that they're doing you a favor by letting you disappear. what if people assumed you must somehow deserve all of this. what about that.

me: care about people

half the notes: youre the real oppressor for telling me what to do.

the other half: cut out this useless liberal proselatizing. you are an invertebrate and you will perish in the revolution.

we have a new prize comment which is “pretty neurotypical of you to assume i have the capacity to care about other people”

Tbh these are all kinda the same comment? Like specifically all three examples amount to "I cannot easily empathize with these people, therefore they don't deserve it."

Compassion is a choice. Refusing to extend it in the absence of empathy is a choice. If you think that people don't even deserve the effort of you taking a step back and trying to relate to... you're endorsing Elon's "empathy is a sin" narrative.

The thing about ADHD is that the "lack of reward chemicals in your brain" doesn't just mean that you don't want to do any tasks that don't feel particularly yummy :(, it means that your brain will look at chores and tasks that need to be done like "doing this would be painful and tedious for absolutely nothing to gain from it, Do Not Do That." The same thing that your brain tells you about everything else that would feel really bad and hurt the entire time that you're dying. The part of your brain that stops you from doing the thing is the same part that keeps you from shoving your arm into a wood chipper.

With unmedicated, unmanaged ADHD, "I have to do this assignment or I fail and my life will be ruined and I die" feels like a SAW trap, every single time.

People don't realize how big a deal "reward chemicals don't work right" is. Like it's not just that you get bored easily and don't like to do the thing. Reward chemicals are the way your brain learns how to be human and survive. It's what lets you know how to solve your problems, and what's good to eat, and when to do things. It's part of everything you do.

My favorite little example: Creatures 2, which is a game that simulated artificial little pets with surprisingly complex brains. They were coded with reward and punishment chemicals that allowed them to actually learn things. A baby creature that eats food when hungry will feel a reward, and will learn to solve hunger by eating. A creature that walks into walls will feel punishment from the painful bonk, and learn to not do that.

But there was a problem with the coding in Creatures 2 specifically. The chemical balance wasn't right, the punishment/reward didn't go away when it was supposed to. The little creature brains would be flooded with both punishment and reward basically at random.

The result? Something the community dubbed "One Hour Stupidity Syndrome." After being alive for about an hour, the creatures would learn that everything they did was meaningless and there was no consistent way to gain reward or avoid punishment. So they would start walking into walls, doing nonsensical actions at random, and would eventually starve as they gave up on eating.

Sometimes I feel a lot like those creatures.

Something about the 'reward' and 'punishment' parts of my brain aren't working correctly, and thus my brain insists on doing absolutely stupid things. There's no point in cleaning because there is no reward. You dropped something on the floor, but don't bother picking it up- it won't make a difference. You took time to meal prep and it was awful, this is a PUNISHMENT, you were very very bad for doing this, NEVER do this again. Video game was the only thing that made you happy today so you should do nothing but that forever, all the time, this is the only good thing to do. Each time this happens, these connections only strengthen.

I know logically that this isn't correct, but I'm fighting my own brain on it every time and it only gets harder.

UM GUYS. I JUST NOTICED A CRAZY ISSUE W THE TUMBLR UPDATE.

YOU CAN SEE THE ICONS OF ANONS SOMETIMES.

The way I was able to recognize several anons in one of my inboxes bc of this error. Oh my god. Guys. This isn’t supposed to happen.

Weighing in to say:

YES, I SEE THIS ON MOBILE. HOWEVER I DO **NOT** THINK IT'S SHOWING THE ANON'S REAL IDENTITY.

The profile pictures I see next to anon asks are profile pictures that belong to other, non-anon asks in my ask box also. Some info

I think the bug is the inbox INCORRECTLY attributing anons to neighboring, logged-in asks.

Which is still a bad bug! Considering it makes it look like a long-time follower of mine sent me a spam ask.

And is worse if, say, one of these was anon hate.

But it's NOT the anon's real identity. It's a neighboring ask asker's identity

So if you have anon hate in your inbox that looks like it's attributed to your dear friend, who sends you lovely asks all the time, it was Not them.

CONFIRMED THE BUG IS INCORRECT ATTRIBUTION.

Thanks @thepatchycat for being a test subject. As you can see the icon being attributed to this ask is NOT the patchy cat

The pictured icon belongs to @watchingforcomets who sent me a nice ask about nail polish yesterday which I have not yet answered!

important addition

I JUST WANTED TO TAKE A CUTE PICTURE WITH MY GARDEVOIR AND OGERPON

He wants you to take him to the pool

Found that over at mastodon

hardcore satanist grandma called u a poser

the name "theresa" is so funny like. theres a what

de naam 'eris' is zo grappig. er is wat?

Navnet "erik" er så spøgst. Han er ik hvad?

الإسم فيفي مهضوم كتير. في في شو؟

Göran är också kul. Gör han vadå?

tuomas tapani karhu on hassu nimi. tuomasta pani siis mikä?

Hey what happened to tht tower yall were building?

I’m literally on thr verge of tears

For 50 years, the median wage of hourly workers stagnated or declined while the stock market and CEO pay skyrocketed. Is it any wonder so many feel abandoned by the system? People lose faith, and a demagogue fills the void. This is why we must fix the system.