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21yrs old. guy who draws. sometimes i talk about mental illness.
Reblogged vyncentsol
yoou guys wont be laughing when i suddenly collapse unconscious and have to be taken to the hospital. then youll all see <- normal thought process to have while doing anything i dont want to
happy birthday sickos
#i missed it because i was travelling yesterday . forgive me#i am famously bad at hitting dates and celebrations anyway so its fine#kostik draws#sou hiyori#shin tsukimi#yttd#kimi ga shine#your turn to die#fanart#anime art style is taking me over like the symbiote. sorry#its just very fun and slightly easier for me than just freestyling#my own birthday: 🩳 shin tsumimi day yesterday: 👔👔👔#enjoy my beasts. am gonna rest because i feel possessed again
Reblogged jinlin-at-the-moon
"it's all in your head" correct! unfortunately I am also in there
Reblogged vyncentsol
Being insane but cognitively aware of how insane you are is a special kind of hell because you know that you aren't normal and you can pinpoint the behaviors that label you as other and make people kinda go quiet and twitchy around you but you can't change them or your neurosis so you're stuck in a brutal cycle of trying to emulate normal people and failing horribly cus you know in theory how normal people look and act but in practice you can never change what you are and everyone else knows it too and this goes on forever until you die
Um no this is not about autism I don't know how to say this more explicitly this is about suffering psychosis and paranoia and having alienating neurosis. I'm just going to say that this post in particular is not about autism
#quiet nodding#ive ended up being obscenely open to my irls about things and it does suck because they do react In A Way#like me hearing voices and seeing things and being freaked out and delusional makes them unnerved#and i dunno. i like my friends who are kind and patient and literally dont react in any way to it more#i know im crazy ‼️ i get it ‼️ can you stop going quiet and treating me weirdly gently for like five minutes#i just want to . share myself. and how i live and think ...guh#lowkey cant stand people who cannot comprehend living with certain mental illness. they never know how to react because they cant relate#and its just kinda exhausting
Reblogged vyncentsol
actually what's the worst thing a doctor has said or done to you
#i always think about the therapist who learned i had DID and said brightly 'but its ok right? you can just shut them out?'#same therapist who met an alter and then told me the following session that she found him 'hard to deal with'. she did not tell him this#hes also not hard to deal with. hes a lovely kid. hes just fucking autistic !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#speedrun breaking my trust genuinely
Reblogged periwinklemoonlight
come play blorbos with me
we can do tghis. our touy
Anonymous asked:
not meaning to overstep and sorry if im wrong but isnt it kind of offensive to call a ship between DID alters selfcest? /genq
i mean not necessarily. it doesnt offend me personally. it actually makes me happy to consider it selfcest. it reminds me that these inner relationships are ultimately symbolic of self love and a complicated struggle towards self acceptance against all odds
#i know some people dislike it. but i dont really care im not catering to them . im catering to meeee#cuz. sure. alters are 'different people'. but theyre still also the same person. these arent mutually exclusive to me#and i think getting caught up on picking one or the other+#really devalues what makes dissociative inner relationships so unique and compelling#like being both one person and multiple people is my lived reality#i love being my collective me and i love the mes that make me up#my inner relationships will always be fundamentally different to the relationships i have with external people#because me and my parts are ultimately one person#and i think thats awesome and incredible and very very special#anyway#so no i dont think its incorrect or offensive to call alter ships selfcest. cuz even if alters are 'different' they are also the same#and i like to emphasise that! because honestly. thats the biggest part of the appeal to me#i appreciate the question though. i know there are different takes#but this is the take from this corner#i 🫶 selfcest#ask
Reblogged shadowduel
Gym leaders and such often have names that match their type which raises the question: which type would you specialise in based only on your name?
Reblogged raskolnikov
all i wanna do is untie all your knots, dissolve all your thoughts