Character’s thoughts of each other. I did this for FFAK before long in the past, but I thought i might do it now with NRD! this is updated for the end of chapter 8 (which we're basically almost at the end anyway, so there's no spoilers..) but if you haven't read up until that point, there will be. I was going to also add more minor/side characters, but there's not too much I can say without spoiling so I have omitted them and just focused on the main cast and their other selves. enjoy
Outside!Kamila -> Outside!Welt
Has finally realized his feelings for him, even though it was almost too late! He’s just grateful that he’s alive and that alone will help carry him through all the pain. To him, nothing is worth losing Welt for.
Outside!Welt -> Outside!Kamila
He truly did not anticipate how much Kamila was willing to sacrifice for his sake. Part of him always believed that maybe Kamila resented him for all that has happened, which might have been partly true in the start of things. While he was dying, he also felt it might just be best to let himself go after failing to protect his children, but now he understands he cannot abandon Kamila and is willing to try to keep going for his sake.
He is scared of him but cannot lie that he’s curious too. Kamila hoped that he would just kill him that night on the cliff, but regrets even thinking that way now. At the time being, he isn’t thinking of Gaueko at all.
He has watched Kamila for a long time, even without realizing it. Of course, he’s another aspect of Kamila so he is drawn to him as any other part would, but for now has tried to keep his distance because it feels “unfair” to rip him away from Welt yet again when they do seem very happy together.
Gaueko sure put on a big show of saying how much he wouldn’t get too attached to a random stranger, but its already too late. He’s fallen so deeply for Kamila that he almost sees this as his last chance of happiness. However, he’s already done terrible things he regrets and is afraid of the consequences of what it could do to their bond..
While Kamila gets crushes fast, this wasn’t anything he could have anticipated. He has yet to understand just how much Gaueko is in love with him, as he’s still quite new to the feelings he has for Gaueko and is much more hesitant to accept that this could last. Even if he wants it to. Of course, he has such little grasp on the severity of magic, that he’s willing to do anything in order to help Gaueko from his situation. It only seems fair, as Gaueko has already made him so happy in this new life that he’s willing to give anything back to this stranger he let into his home.
Inside!Kamila -> Inside!Welt
Deep down, he feels Welt is right. Maybe not about everything, but he doesn’t think he’d lie to him. When he sees or thinks of Welt, all he feels is intense guilt and wants to look away from shame. Right now, he’s just hoping that he can help Gaueko get back to normal and then.. Maybe things will get better..? He vows to himself that somehow, nothing bad will happen to the puppies. This also helps motivate him to do anything in his power to help Gaueko so that conflict can be avoided, maybe.
Inside!Welt -> Inside!Kamila
In his dreams, he sees visions of his life on the outside and his relationship with Kamila there. He always has been tormented by this other life of his, but this hurts differently than it ever has before. He can feel he’s already lost Kamila to Gaueko and feels responsible for it all, but is still having to hold himself back because his children do come first no matter what, even if it breaks his heart to watch someone he cares about so deeply walk down a path of no return..
There’s no real words for it anymore, he hates him as much as he used to love him. He still does love him, but not in the way where he feels that is the person he cared about. He has no idea what that man was that he saw anymore, if he just made him up entirely to cope with the life he lived with him. Who is Gaueko? Just a spirit of the night, willing to do anything for his own goals and never compromising even if he promises otherwise.. Either way, Welt isn’t sure what to do- but if it comes down to it he’s going to be as ruthless as he needs to be to make sure his loved ones are safe from him.
Even now, Gaueko doesn’t truly understand why Welt’s ended up this way. The puppies are still young, so it also has not been much time since their break up. Of course, he can spell out a list of reasons but he’s still searching for that exact thing he did or said that made Welt turn on him - and the truth is that doesn’t exist. He’s searching for nothing, in hopes that he can just apologize and fix what happened, but Welt isn’t looking for an apology from him either. Gaueko decided to play with Welt’s new little friend to get under his skin - partly motivated by his own jealousy of “what do you mean i’ve been replaced by this?! What makes this KAMILA so special!?” - but found that Kamila was so much more than he expected him to be. Now, he’s just hoping he can keep the peace as long as he can before Welt makes a move to intervene..
He tries to tell himself he’s different, but he knows that’s not true. He tries to tell others that there’s another side to him - they believe it much more easily. He knows the Spirit of the Night is gone - and instead his powers are a reflection of his own subconscious desires - but after so many decades he’s finally feeling the regret of throwing his heart away in exchange for them. Even still, his “other” self is the ideal vision of himself he clings to. After all, he’s nothing without it. There’s nothing left of him that isn’t part of Gaueko.
He feels guilt for cutting out Laggard, but felt it would be the best given the circumstances of Daisy’s birth. That would cause too much unwanted attention and he just couldn’t see himself being able to carry the weight of Laggard’s safety on top of the puppies. He of course, has no idea what happened to Laggard after they parted. Before that though, he was fond enough of Laggard that he did consider him a friend, but did not really spend enough time to develop stronger feelings.
He wished he could have been better and lived the life he hoped for with Welt and their puppies. Even in his last moments, he couldn’t blame Welt for what happened. He loved Welt so deeply that it would basically be impossible to change that, as Welt was the first one to ever care for him despite his sins..
At the start of their adventure, Laggard creeped him out but he had no choice but to accept his help. That changed, slowly, as he began to see something in Laggard that changed him too as a person. He struggled with these feelings, but even they became too hard to ignore once he saw glimmers of what a life could be with him - until that was all cut short. Now, he vows to protect Daisy no matter what happens for Laggard’s sake.
There’s no one he trusted more and was more thankful to have met in his life, he has no doubt that Daisy will be safe with his care. He feels guilty that he was not able to get Teddy a washing machine, as he knows how happy that made him, but he is grateful that they got to spend as much time together as they did. He knows that if things had been different, he would have happily spent the rest of his life by his side.
Blue!Kamila -> Inside!Kamila
He rolls his eyes at how quickly “Peppermint” has fallen for all of Gaueko’s flattery, finding it embarrassingly predictable. He wants to stick around just to watch it all fall apart so he can laugh at how broken Kamila will be from it. Of course, if Kamila was smarter he’d see this from a mile away, like Welt does. Too bad he made the wrong choice.
Inside!Kamila -> Blue!Kamila
Has no idea what he’s up to and honestly feels guilty that he let that thing go running off, but doesn’t really want to tell anyone about it..
See? Exactly what he expected. The guy’s a freak, of course Kamila would attract yet another predator without noticing a single red flag. Oh well, that seems like the only kind of “love” he manages to find, anyway.. Even if Gaueko ate him, at least he has the satisfaction of being right about his suspicions.
It all went so wrong. It wasn’t going to be like that. But he had no other choice, right..?
Red(Lust) Inner Demon (Inside)!Kamila (idk how else to summarize this..) -> Inside!Kamila
This demon is satisfied that he’s the top of the food chain when it comes to the hierarchy of inner demons. At this point, he’s actually softened his opinion on Kamila because of it and thinks they can work things out. He’s just glad he was the first bottle that Gaueko picked up and dropped because phew.. That could have so easily been a different one!
Inside!Kamila -> Red(Lust) Inner Demon (Inside)!Kamila (idk how else to summarize this..)
While turning into more of a demon was scary at first, he feels like its quite normal already.. Its fun to have a tail. He seems to also feel more comfortable in his body and with his sexuality, which has always been something difficult.. So he attributes this change to the demon. He has NO idea how much control this inner demon has over him truly which doesn’t help that his sexual and romantic desire for Gaueko only intensifies his lack of awareness of it.. Still, he feels like if he was able to reintegrate with one of his inner demons, maybe it wouldn’t be so hard to do the same with the others..? If.. that’s what Gaueko wants him to do.. He’ll try..
Oh god get it away from me. PLEASE.
His rejection hurts, but in a way it is a welcome feeling. He enjoys being tested. In time, things will work out..
Absence!Kamila -> Absence!Gaueko
What is this place..? Another Realm? Another new life..? Of course, you can never win.. Still, its hard to be too sad if he has Gaueko there with him at least. It still feels like a lonely world, if that’s all there is. It hurts to imagine how long Gaueko has been there without anyone to talk to.
