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Wheel of time blog. More specifically a Siuaraine blog.
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I'm thinking about control and Rand. Part of him believes he can control and keep at bay the madness like he can control saidin which is why he trains with Lan who was guiding him the first time Rand managed to be intentional with his weaves and cut Moiraine's shield. And then you have Moiraine who tells him that when channeling he has to embrace the bitter and the sweet so he never forgets which is which. In the context of deteriorating mental health, it hits particularly deep, because there are illnesses you cannot beat. It's not about power, strength or practice. It's not an arm wrestling contest between the sickness and the sick. It's about managing by being so familiar with one's ailment that he is the one expert of himself. It's about knowing when it's bad and when it's better, good even. It's about living with it, not only fighting with it. I really like that Moiraine tells him that, even if she can never understand what is happening to Rand.

#wot meta
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THE WHEEL OF TIME | 3.05 “Tel’aran’rhiod”

#I will never get over this little sequence#Moiraine sees how much she’s hurt Siuan then goes to her to comfort her#and it’s immediately a muscle memory#the way she touches Siuan#the way she looks at her#smiles at her#makes a joke#Mo has been angry and pushing Siuan away and that was painful and took effort#and this being close touching Siuan comforting her this is so natural and right#and Moiraine’s face relaxes and she looks open and honest#and for the audience it’s such a rare expression to see on her face#and then Siuan just destroys me#because that smile#that giddy smile#that little bounce#she can’t contain her joy#because Moiraine is talking to her#because Moiraine is touching her and smiling at her#and all Siuan has wanted was a chance to make things right#and look at how overjoyed she is at this first glimmer that maybe Moiraine could find a way to forgive her
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not to sound sappy, but i personally think that a happy ending that the characters bled, suffered and fought for is a thousand times more interesting than a bland tragic ending that the author clearly thought would be “subversive”

#things I think about often regarding Moiraine and Siuan#the happy ending is more interesting because they’re alive#but also because it’s messy to be alive after trauma#it’s complicated to figure out how to live a full life and incorporate the ways trauma changed you#it’s messy to figure out a life together after decades apart#it’s interesting to see couples together and still fighting for each other#in the same place#supporting each other#but still having their struggles#I just want to see fiction that depicts people navigating life together#separation and death feel lazy and depressing#give me together but barely holding on mentally#give me figuring out how to support your partner while also falling apart yourself
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THE WHEEL OF TIME 1.06 | 3.05
#I really hope this gets the payoff we’ve been speculating it will#because there’s something that feels important about it being Moiraine who has to wait now#Siuan has waiting and trusted for twenty years#has been far from Moiraine but always trusted she would come back#and Moiraine struggled so much to forgive and trust again#and I want the payoff of her waiting and holding onto hope that Siuan will find her#Moiraine with [redacted] trusting that Siuan will come for her
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"And you'll have to watch it happen, watch your love for each other splinter and rot because of a cruel turn of the Wheel."

#this is so beautiful#wot book spoilers#I see this moment so clearly in ghenjei when Siuan finds Moiraine#and she’s so weak#can barely stand#and she’s just clinging to Siuan desperately#trying so hard to believe this is real#and Siuan is whispering how she promised to find Moiraine#and then somewhere off to the side Mat yells#sorry to break up this lovely reunion#do you think you can hug and cry once we get out of here alive?#(when I said book spoilers I meant how the show better fix the books)
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I mentioned to @moiraineology that I was in the mood to write emotionally fucked up Moiraine who is awful at allowing herself to be vulnerable. And obviously like a good friend @moiraineology supported my desire to torture poor Moiraine.

Consider this the first in what will probably turn into a series on the theme of Moiraine struggles to let herself be vulnerable and taken care of.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64475284

Just a short little fic set in their novice days after Elaida beats Moiraine to try to get her to channel.

#my fic#wot fic
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Like Orpheus, I am not strong enough to not look at what I want

#that touch holds so much love and affection#and Moiraine is terrified to believe that#how can Siuan still love her in this moment when Moiraine feels like a shell of herself?#when she doesn’t feel like the woman that Siuan fell in love with#and Siuan looks so sad#so desperate#does Moiraine really still love Siuan after how she hurt Moiraine?#is this real after all the hurtful things Moiraine has been saying while they talk?#but that touch still feels like love#and Siuan kisses Moiraine’s hand and looks at her#desperate wondering if Moiraine’s touch still means what it always has#the utmost tenderness and love
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"I will wait for you. Every time."

#I know I reblogged this yesterday#but I can’t get over how incredibly vulnerable and open Moiraine looks in that last gif#I can’t get over that being her face one second before she pulls away#the love and vulnerability and openness and connection#and it’s so much#and then she shuts that down and runs#because it’s so frightening#(and yeah it only takes a few more seconds and Siuan’s big sad eyes for Moiraine to come around)#the show doesn’t need to offer anymore backstory for Moiraine’s childhood for me to perfectly understand that she was not loved and accepte#because this deep discomfort with vulnerability#this desperate need and longing for closeness with the person she loves#warring with terror at how vulnerable and exposed it leaves her#this difficulty with talking through a fight and working through hurt#this says everything about the kind of home she came from#and I look at that second gif where she melts with one touch of Siuan’s finger#and the third where she is staring up at Siuan with love and peace#she looks peaceful in that scene in a way she hasn’t been all season#like she is finally back where she is safe#and she feels that and is so afraid she pushes it away#Moiraine has struggled with this for sixty years of being in a relationship#and Siuan loves her and accepts her and wants her#that last gif just makes me hurt for Moiraine#for how hard it is for her to allow herself to have the thing that will ultimately make her feel safest and happiest in the world
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"I will wait for you. Every time."

#the second and third gif are really lovely because they are moments when Moiraine is struggling to trust#when she’s caught between her self protective impulses and opening up to Siuan#and it’s hard for her#even with the woman she’s been in a relationship with for seven decades or so#and that speaks to a lifetime of needing to be guarded#and gives us a hint of what her childhood was probably like#and there’s something lovely about how Siuan accepts Moiraine fully#how she knows that touch is the best way to reach her#how she keeps trying until Moiraine in that last moment of 3x05 is finally able to be open#the way Moiraine looks so vulnerable in the last gif here#so open and trusting and wanting#and then she pulls away and shuts down#because Siuan hurt Moiraine before#and the idea of ever being hurt again is so painful#and Siuan wants to talk and move past this and Moiraine is so stuck in the fear and the anger she clutches to#because it helps her not feel so vulnerable#and it isn’t until Siuan is staring at Moiraine with the most hurt vulnerable desperate expression herself#when her eyes speak of how deeply she loves Moiraine#and how much she is able to be vulnerable and hurt and present#and how all Siuan wants is Moiraine#(and what a truly vulnerable thing to admit to another person)#it isn’t until Moiraine sees all that laid bare that she finally is brave enough to take a chance
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