Portrait Of A Woman

Yes, another version of this. Deal. 😆

I'm always changing and growing, revising my life and what I'm blogging about. I joke that I'm a gossip columnist (because I do refer to other celebrities besides Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles), but it's only to share my other interests.

So what are my interests? The purpose behind this blog?

Many things. I title it Ramblings Of A Writer for a reason. I write and boy, do I ramble!

I’ll also be redoing my masterlists to make it easier for folks to find certain posts. I won’t be redoing posts—no need to do that, but perhaps reposting information being redone. Like “Version 2 with new stuff” or better organized information and having those on the masterlists instead.

Let's begin with me:

Who am I?

My online nickname: Raye

Pronouns: She/her

Astrology: (Western) Pisces, (Eastern) Metal Monkey

Country: United States

I am anti (and I make no apologies):

My ‘custom’ tags:

I also frequently use #Jensen Concern, though I am not the originator (like I thought I was!).

Song of the Day

Loreena McKennit - Bonny Portmore

O bonny Portmore, I am sorry to see Such a woeful destruction of your ornament tree For it stood on your shore for many's the long day 'Til the long boats from Antrim came to float it away

O bonny Portmore, you shine where you stand And the more I think on you the more I think long If I had you now as I had once before All the lords in Old England would not purchase Portmore

O bonny Portmore, you shine where you stand And the more I think on you the more I think long If I had you now as I had once before All the Lords in Old England would not purchase Portmore

All the birds in the forest they bitterly weep Saying "Where will we shelter? Where will we sleep?" For the oak and the ash, they are all cutten down And the walls of bonny Portmore are all down to the ground

O bonny Portmore, you shine where you stand And the more I think on you the more I think long If I had you now as I had once before All the Lords of Old England would not purchase Portmore

It's Wednesday!

Oh… oh god. Rest in peace, sir.

Another Loss

Content warning: pet loss

It would seem 2025 is not going well for me and mine, at least in terms of our pets. Earlier today, at work no less, I saw the family chat app pop up on my cellphone.

It's April!

Or so the Angry Squirrel declares!

Song of the Day

Hozier - Take Me To Church

My lover's got humour She's the giggle at a funeral Knows everybody's disapproval I should've worshipped her sooner If the heavens ever did speak She's the last true mouthpiece Every Sunday's gettin' more bleak A fresh poison each week We were born sick, you heard them say it My church offers no absolutes She tells me, "Worship in the bedroom" The only heaven I'll be sent to Is when I'm alone with you I was born sick, but I love it Command me to be well A, amen Amen, amen Take me to church I'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies I'll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife Offer me that deathless death Oh, good God, let me give you my life Take me to church I'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies I'll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife Offer me that deathless death Oh, good God, let me give you my life If I'm a pagan of the good times My lover's the sunlight To keep the goddess on my side She demands a sacrifice Drain the whole sea, get somethin' shiny Somethin' meaty for the main course That's a fine lookin' high horse What you got in the stable? We've a lot of starvin' faithful That looks tasty, that looks plenty This is hungry work Take me to church I'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies I'll tell you my sins, so you can sharpen your knife Offer me my deathless death Oh, good God, let me give you my life Take me to church I'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies I'll tell you my sins, so you can sharpen your knife Offer me my deathless death Oh, good God, let me give you my life No masters or kings when the ritual begins There is no sweeter innocence than our gentle sin In the madness and soil of that sad earthly scene Only then, I am human, only then, I am clean Oh, oh, amen Amen, amen Take me to church I'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies I'll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife Offer me that deathless death Oh, good God, let me give you my life Take me to church I'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies I'll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife Offer me that deathless death Oh, good God, let me give you my life

It's Tuesday!

32 Years Gone

Thirty-two years ago.... we lost a rising star in a horrible accident.

Thirty-two years ago, Brandon Lee joined his father in the afterlife.

Hi!

First, thanks for being patient!

Second, no worries, I cropped out your name.

Third.. your message!

Oooh. Beauty tips! I love them! And a couple of these I know!

In fact, bio oil? I actually have been using that to treat my surgery scars! And heck, a couple of scars I acquired from bad scratches! One cat scratch is almost completely gone and I honestly thought it was never going to fade. So I'm now adding it to a couple of older ones… I know it'll take a while for those to fade. I hope the bio oil will help with that.

I never heard of rosehip oil, but always liked rosehip! I'll check that out myself. I've heard of castor oil and…. personal reasons for not wanting to use that, but sharing that advice.

I've heard of frownies!

But don't forget some of the key additional things a lot of us don't do. We should 1) stay hydrated (seriously, not coffee or soda or anything, but straight up water! And at least 8 cups a day!); 2) get plenty of rest! I notice a sheer difference in some lines when I get some good sleep and when I don't!; 3) MOISTURIZE! Ask your dermatologist for some recommendations for what might work with your skin; 4) sunscreen. Seriously. Sunscreen. Sun exposure ages us faster than anything else. Oh! Oh!; 5) don't smoke and keep your alcohol intake to a minimum.

For myself… yeah, I started some of this care much later than I should have, but good genetics helped me. I honestly have had people think I was in my mid 30s and I'm… 45. My mother? When she was talking to some of her coworkers and revealed that her son was [name] working at the school, they were floored because they couldn't believe she had a son that old! She aged beautifully and graciously until her illness took it away. I inherited that from her. And well, my father's side of the family too. My father and his twin brother look ten years younger than their actual age too.

So. Take good care of your skin, folks! Get hydrated, get plenty of rest, avoid smoking and drinking as much as possible. Wear sunscreen!

And oh yeah… maybe a good-hearted person? The ugliness of one's soul can show in so many ways….

Thanks for the tips! I'm gonna try to find rosehip oil!

Hi there! Per your message, I cropped your name out because... yeahhhh.... I agree with you.

Ahem.

To your message!

Yes. We heard about it and have been throwing theories back and forth as to why the sudden addition. Once again, extremely last minute. Does Danneel not realize that people need a little more advance notice to make preparations to see her? That not everyone is her fan and would have several thousand dollars to drop for a last minute addition convention? Is this her convention trip as opposed to any of the international ones? So many theories, so many questions!

One person theorized to me it was PR. Cue me: "PR for... OTH? That's a bad choice."

Their response? "No. PR for their marriage."

Which had me choking.

If this is PR to make them seem happily married after that fucking disaster of a t-shirt auction announcement and video (where she came off as a bitch for destroying his favorite t-shirt because it wasn't funny), or the sheer lack of a birthday announcement from Jensen on his IG....

It's so going to bomb. See Wales last year for example.

If a convention, why not JiB? Or maybe Daniela laughed and said "Fuck no"? (I would, if I were Daniela. Danneel isn't the draw she thinks she is.)

Another theory was: Jensen's making her work. Which... I guess kinda works? But it still doesn't, because... CE will realize real quick that she's not a money draw, asking for too high a price for her photo and auto ops. She's not worth that... at all. But it'd explain, maybe, her showing up at Epic Con later this year. (I really doubt CE will invite her to the OTH one this year... unless this is them testing the waters? Hm. New theory.)

Is she competing with Gen? Maybe? But Gen doesn't really do that many to begin with. And when Gen goes with Jared, they actually look loving and want to be with each other! Jensen and Danneel on the other hand....

He looks like he's being drained of his life every time he's with her. At Wales, lots of people noticed it--which sent the AAs into a tizzy, jumping down anyone who expressed dislike over Danneel's mistreatment of Jensen. That was incredibly chaotic for a while.

Some think Jensen has the power to ask CE to add her or the power to veto her. I don't. I think there's a limit. And keep in mind, if he said "no"... people would talk. And imagine if Danneel somehow found out? Oh lord.

I'm not happy about this. I'm not. Every time she's around, he looks like death warmed over and miserable. His smiles will be gone, strained, and he'll be miserable. I only hope Jared being around will help balance it out a bit.

Regarding Anael: HA. Ahem. Yes. Honestly, Danneel completely missed the dig about Anael. Anael was a coward, opportunistic with no loyalty, lazy, materialistic (which made no sense for an angel), a turncoat, a traitor, and definitely not a "badass bitch". The writers took a dig at Danneel and she missed it.

And I agree. When Jensen is doing conventions with Jared, he's actually happy. Conventions kept him busy, gave him a chance to maybe have fun (Mariah Carey's backup dancer, anyone?), and got him out of the house (when he didn't have filming). Danneel joining in just made things worse for him.

I know she's done a few since 2023, but I kinda wish she'd go back to not and maybe just stick to her crap--oh wait, she doesn't have any! My dear Danneel, if this is Jensen telling you to go earn some money, may I suggest actually getting a job? Or are you too good to lower yourself to our level? Oh wait... I do more than you. Maybe come up to my level?

Thanks for the ask and no worries. Your identity is safe with me.

Song of the Day

Meredith Brooks - Bitch

I hate the world today You're so good to me, I know, but I can't change Tried to tell you but you look at me like maybe I'm an angel underneath Innocent and sweet Yesterday I cried You must have been relieved to see the softer side I can understand how you'd be so confused I don't envy you I'm a little bit of everything all rolled into one I'm a bitch, I'm a lover I'm a child, I'm a mother I'm a sinner, I'm a saint I do not feel ashamed I'm your Hell, I'm your dream I'm nothing in between You know you wouldn't want it any other way So take me as I am This may mean you'll have to be a stronger man Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous And I'm going to extremes Tomorrow I will change and today won't mean a thing I'm a bitch, I'm a lover I'm a child, I'm a mother I'm a sinner, I'm a saint I do not feel ashamed I'm your Hell, I'm your dream I'm nothing in between You know you wouldn't want it any other way Just when you think you got me figured out The season's already changing I think it's cool, you do what you do And don't try to save me I'm a bitch, I'm a lover I'm a child, I'm a mother I'm a sinner, I'm a saint I do not feel ashamed I'm your Hell, I'm your dream I'm nothing in between You know you wouldn't want it any other way I'm a bitch, I'm a tease I'm a goddess on my knees When you hurt, when you suffer I'm your angel undercover I've been numb, I'm revived Can't say I'm not alive You know I wouldn't want it any other way

It's Monday!

Richard Chamberlain

Oh.... oh rest in peace, sir.