idk if u have answered this but do you have thoughts about adam’s sexuality pre canon or even like…pre bllb? i see people talk about ronan and k (thoughts on kavinsky as a character I would love to hear your opinion of him) but you are super intelligent and always provide a perspective I haven’t considered before so i would like to know your thoughts

sure thing. in my opinion, at the beginning of his arc, adam’s not really aware of himself in a few crucial ways because there are a lot of things he feels he has to suppress (impulsivity, anger, vulnerability, weakness, tenderness) and by doing so he ends up keeping most of himself under wraps. he does exhibit textual interest in boys/men during trb/tdt (greenmantle, declan, the J Crew ad, ronan), just as he exhibits textual interest in girls/women (blue, helen, the psychics, his past classmates). we see him use more overt language in his observations of blue because that is where the focus of his desire is, but his attraction to multiple genders is definitely woven into his fabric from the get go. as a boy growing up in an abusive home and attending a private school in virginia in the early 00s, it’s not necessarily a conversation he would ever have out loud or with himself. adam’s entire narrative arc is about him coming to terms with who he is and what he wants. often we see adam imagining himself as unknowable, unlovable, the kind of person who will be perpetually unsatisfied and alone; he is inherently cynical and prone to self isolation for a number of reasons. despite this, all his friends do end up knowing him. ronan famously knows him best of all, but there are some other terrific moments where gansey and blue and persephone identify things within him that he had either not known or tried to hide. i think adam puts a lot of work into being okay with himself throughout the series. he has to accept the good and bad, the things he can’t change, the things that were born into him and the things he brought himself up to be. he is mean, he is glum, he is short-tempered, he is materialistic, he is pragmatic to the point it occasionally renders him without empathy, he is manipulative & cunning. he is also deeply insecure. he is also smart and tenacious and loyal and resourceful and a dozen other things he struggles to give himself credit for. he does, very explicitly in the text, come to terms with the fact that not only is he lovable, he is capable of loving in return. i think his sexuality was never really a sticking point in the formation of his identity/psyche. adam is pretty okay with the fact he’s got an appetite. he watches declan talk to his girlfriend and takes notes. he thinks about kissing blue, he thinks about blue’s body. the second he and ronan decide they’re going to be Something, they stay up all night and make out with their shirts off. like let’s be so for real: he’s not afraid of sex or sexuality in the human sense. i think the more important thing, for him, was coming to understand that he was not #builtdifferent. at first he thinks that there is something fundamentally wrong with him that would prevent him from ever truly being A Real Boy; later we see him being almost smug about the fact he is wantable, worthy of a crush, preferable to someone even over gansey (!). the gender of that person was never really a concern—it was the fact that person might never exist at all. i don’t think it was necessary for him to look in the mirror and say “you like boys”, i think the necessary thing was for him to look at himself and say “there is nothing wrong with you”. which he does! sort of. there’s plenty wrong with him. he’s a freak. but also: he accepts that. in my opinion he’s got the most cohesive, thorough, and meaningful arc of the core 4, and that includes coming into himself as a queer adult (in a way that suits him as a character). just terrific stuff. adam parrish, the man that you are…

my thoughts on kavinsky: he needed to exist, he served his narrative purpose, he is now dead. and he probably did not have three balls

Can u post the 8 pics of the ones in the booth next to each other? Like it’s a strip from a photo booth? Do i make sense lol

here you go ;-)