At The Bottom of Everything

; _ ; this means so much to me!! I'm so glad you enjoyed it!!

idk that i'll have a speedy recovery -- it looks like i may have just begun a long journey on trying to prove there is an autoimmune disease lurking beneath the surface, and bc i have a sensory processing disorder, i may be a hard case to crack. lots going on. on top of grad school T A T

but importantly, this really brightened my day ; u ; thank you so so so so so much! i'm so glad you enjoyed tctr!!!! i've not been great at replying to comments on my fics lately bc i've just been so fatigued and overworked, but every comment and dm like this means the world to me. it really does brighten everything up ; u ; thank you so much <3

thank you dropping enrichment in my enclosure, i actually needed a little warm up before i go off to work on fic ksdhj

Sam on a rainy day hc: i think Sam is the kind to check the weather app, to see how severe and how long the storm will be, before deciding whether not he's allowed to enjoy it. granted they're not getting flooded, i imagine he'd pick a good book, and pick somewhere to put his feet up. he'd be smart enough to download some pdfs and stuff too, in case of a loss of power. i think Sam likes a good, defendable reason to stay inside and read. either way, though, later seasons Sam is 100% falling asleep. he won't mean to. he's just an old man lol

Dean on a rainy day hc: Dean would absolutely not check what the weather is gonna do lol he'd be like 'cool, it's rainy out,' and i think, from home, he'd try to pick a place where he can hear it. white noise like that probably lowers his general anxiety a lot, but he was conditioned to never fall asleep when watching over Sam, so idt Dean falls asleep to rain. i don't think Dean falls asleep unless he's given permission to. so, i think he probably indulges in something overly sweet (hot cocoa probably, w the mini marshmallows, and he 100% adds chocolate syrup to this to make it even MORE chocolate-y), and he'd probably tell Sam and/or Cas that it's perfect weather for a spooky movie. he'd remember all the motel rooms he stayed awake in, while Sam slept. not w resentment or anything, i just think those sensory memories would come up, of what the rain sounded like when he was most vulnerable, and felt the most responsible for his son/brother

Cas on a rainy day hc: tbh i think Cas is gonna be wherever Dean is bc they're codependent, so he'd probably be indoors watching The Thing, BUT, if he were to venture out on his own, Cas would probably be very happy at a bus stop. he loves people-watching, and he loves to be helpful. i imagine Cas would be extremely weird, sitting at an under an overhang at the bus stop, entranced by people dealing w rain in a multitude of ways. he'd notice who puts up their hood, who isn't dressed for the weather, who has a umbrella, who has one and struggles w it, and who has one and it's clearly loved by them, he'd be interested in who treads through puddles, and who jumps through them, and he'd probably lend his coat as coverage for anyone small enough to fit under it like a cape. if anyone passed him who needed it more than him, he'd give it away. being so connected to storms, i imagine he'd feel very at peace during stormy weather

Jack on a rainy day hc: i think Jack would like to play in the rain. despite being able to do it himself, i imagine he'd want Cas to make the thunder 'boom louder' or ask him to make lightning strike in certain places, and be really jazzed abt Cas being able to do that. he'd be so excited if they lost power, and Dean would tell him how urgent and important it is that they make sure to eat all the ice cream in the freezer while Sam and Cas are left to light candles and find flashlights like the actual adults.

if they lost power, i think all of tfw would be sat at the dining room table, eating ice cream by candlelight while Sam and Dean keep Jack rapt and Cas warmly entertained w stories abt past hunts, or other travels where they ran into bad weather and somehow overcame the odds of something.

alright i’m done spamming u for now

my kidneys suck btw and life is suffering