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Mad Diviner

@maddiviner / www.maddiviner.com

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[Introductory Post 7/22/23] Dzień dobry!

Welcome to my blog and website!

My name’s Eliza Marie (she/her), and I’m in my late thirties. I’m from Ohio, but I’m cursed prone to wander between America and Eastern Europe.

My interest in the occult began with Tarot in 1999. I started exploring magic a couple years later. It's been a fixture of my life ever since.

This stuff takes you in weird directions if you stick with it. The road twists through amazing and terrifying places. I guess it isn’t called the crooked path for nothing.

Anyways, I started this blog in autumn of 2014 to share ideas and meet new people. This messy site's grown a lot since then, and I try to keep it as organized as possible.

Looking for something specific?

Below, you’ll find links to my article listings, organized in categories. I try to update these often, but I’m not as active as I used to be since I’m working a lot lately and dealing with health issues. Please note that I wrote some of these articles years and years ago, and many are probably due for a rewrite.

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My askbox is (typically) open, along with other means of contact. You can find it here. Please read the page before contacting me, though. You can find all my original content tagged as #eliza.txt. Please check out my credits page too.

When you read the articles on this site, please be mindful of their original publication date. I’ve kept this blog for nine years. I would hope we've all grown and changed over the course of that decade.

Keeping this blog is an (enjoyable) hobby for me, and I’m not a ‘professional’ witch, Tarot reader, or anything of that sort. I don’t make money from this. I’ve offered Tarot readings online in the (distant) past, but not nowadays. Nowadays, I just enjoy sharing my perspectives here, and I hope you enjoy reading them.

The most recent major update to the site’s layout and infrastructure happened in July of 2023. This included the removal of nested reblogs for easier following of conversations and comment threads, and a few other additions. Learning bits about CSS/HTML/Javascript (slowly) is really fun and relaxing for me.

While this is a Tumblr blog (still), I'm working to make it more user-friendly for non-Tumblr visitors. If you're viewing this on the Tumblr dashboard, consider checking out the desktop version of the website which is a little better organized. Conversely, if you're viewing this on desktop and want to view it on the Tumblr dashboard, click here. You can also visit the mobile version here.

Thanks for visiting, and I hope you have a great day.

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In reality, it's some kind of auto-generator that spits out fake stuff, but it seems to only do that if you load it in America 😏

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"Witches perform magic to help and to hurt... [They] use their own personal judgement when deciding how to employ their craft... If there is to be any justice in this world, it is the justice that we create through our choices and our magics."

- Roger J. Horne's Folk Witchcraft: A Guide to Lore, Land, & the Familiar Spirit for the Solitary Practitioner

This really is an excellent book on folk witchcraft, which, like many of its kind, gives nuggets of lore from folktales and recorded accounts from the 1500s-1900s of witches and their practices.

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White pagans of today really need to remember that the people of ancient non Christian and pagan religions across the globe have been colonizers and oppressors throughout history, too. Ancient Greeks, ancient Romans, ancient Egyptians, the Vikings, the list goes on.

Religions have been used for the wrong reasons for as long as human civilizations have been a thing. Any religion, in the wrong hands, can become a tool for conquest and destruction.

No religion is inherently "good" or "bad" for being a religion.

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If you regularly tell people to kill themselves for any reason, I think you've voided the right to share any "If you need help, reach out! Here are some crisis numbers! Mental health awareness!" posts on social media.

It's purely performative and hollow, and everyone can do perfectly well without your input or "help," believe me.

I don't give a shit if the people you say it to "deserved it" because of course you think they do. You have no business pretending to care about mental health, suicide, or anything related if you use that as an insult or think it's a clever comeback in an argument.

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Annual reminder that:

The trouble with claims that various elements of Christmas were "stolen" from pagans is that it vastly oversimplifies and overlooks huge amounts of history.

Furthermore, the whole thing is tied in with conspiracism, both from Christians and pagans. Christian conspiracy theorists cite it as evidence that Satan is lurking everywhere; pagan conspiracy theorists tend to incorporate it into the TERF-y belief that Christianity was part of a conspiracy to suppress the Divine Feminine. So yeah, always be a bit cautious anytime you hear somebody claiming something was "stolen" from pagans - try and find out what modern scholars have to say on the matter.

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Since it's that time of year again...

No, Christmas trees were not "stolen from pagans."

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Just a quick reminder for those who don’t already know. Mari Silva (the “author” whose prolific collection of magic books you’ll find on Amazon) is not a person, author, or occultist. Rather, they do not exist at all.

The books are either content-farmed, or, at this point, likely LLM-generated. If that is your source for magical information, you’re likely to find disappointment. No actual occult author is publishing a book every four days.

To a degree? But at the same time, discernment is a thing, which is why I posted this. I think it's good for people to know where things are coming from, so that we can have better context and media literacy.

This may be controversial, sorry. It's just what I've noticed and believe. "Take what resonates, use it, and leave the rest" sounds good on a meme but doesn't really work too well.

People are navigating thorny issues like appropriation and pseudohistory need credible sources that know what they're talking about, not simply just ones that "resonate" or that they feel they "can use." Those feelings of "resonation" can come from a lot of different places, after all, some good and useful, some misdirected.

I want to reiterate that Mari Silva is not a real person. It's not that an occultist, witch, or mage is using "Mari Silva" as an alias for privacy. She just doesn't exist. It's a content farm.

It just spits out books claiming they can teach you to practice Enochian, "Norse Magic and Asatru", a thirty-one book series on Goetia, but also "New Orleans Voodoo" and "g*psy magic?" - that's a red flag on it's own, mates.

If you want to know about those things - find people who actually practice them, not a content farm. It's true that there could be some decent occultists writing for this "brand" (Mari Silva) but from what I've seen of the books, I doubt it...

Regardless, though, you need sources you can vet, particularly if it's an oathbound or closed tradition (some things you can't just "take," but we mostly all know that).

There are other books out there actually written by witches and occultists, too, that tend to be more useful than those generated by a content farm, too.

Oh, and unrelated but I'm not saying the books are definitely or wholly LLM generated. I strongly suspect many of them are. I'm also not, for what it's worth, entirely against the so-called "AI" concept thing. Just... why the hell would anyone want to read a book nobody actually wrote?

I used to be extremely distressed by it, but a friend of mine who works with programming changed my mind. Yet, I don't think anyone likes how "AI" is mostly being used nowadays. They're just going really fucking fast in the wrong direction with it and nobody's stopping it.

I'm sorry for tagging instead of just commenting, but this is a sideblog and I don't use my main blog, and wanted to respond to this comment. Thanks.

“They say that the trick to being a good person is to do more good things than bad things. I mostly do neutral things.”

Words of Babycakes, the greatest fictional feral philosopher of the postmodern age.

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Just a quick reminder for those who don’t already know. Mari Silva (the “author” whose prolific collection of magic books you’ll find on Amazon) is not a person, author, or occultist. Rather, they do not exist at all.

The books are either content-farmed, or, at this point, likely LLM-generated. If that is your source for magical information, you’re likely to find disappointment. No actual occult author is publishing a book every four days.

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On that note, I've heard that some newbies won't read or buy books more than a few years old (to say nothing of decades old) because people say they're "problematic." This is a mistake. As the above shows, newer doesn't necessarily meant better. Yes, there is sometimes stuff in older material that isn't in line with today's standards, but that does not render all of the information useless or inaccurate. Take what you can use, abandon the rest. Don't be afraid to substitute materials or methods that are more in line with your values. Judge for yourself whether something is worth considering. It's up to you, in the end, how the knowledge you've obtained is used, and no one can force you to do magic that goes against your personal ethics. Knowing about something isn't the same as doing it. Also, if you buy used books, the author(s) do not receive any royalties from your purchase, if that's a concern. And if an author has died, you aren't taking anything away from them by sailing the high seas. I don't recommend doing that for books by occult authors who are still living, however -- for one thing, they need money to live, too, and for another, there is the possibility that an author has done magic to ensure that those who pirate their books get smacked. I can think of at least one author who has done this, and no, I won't name names because I don't need that kind of drama. Just keep it in mind.

I think every author I've really learned decent technique from is in some way or another problematic by today's standards. But those were the authors who dove into the crux of the magic, even when it wasn't pretty. (Hell, the entire 70s was problematic by today's standards.)

Current books read more like compiled lists without any info on why a thing is (or was) done a certain way. Often I wonder - does the author really not know the origin of this practice or the theory behind it? Or are they simply avoiding any depth because they know what lies behind it but it's easier not to tell the reader?

This results in interesting debates on some subjects in the current environment because it soon becomes obvious that no one on either side of the debate really knows the origin of the practice being debated. But finding and comprehending that information is going to require looking in uncomfortable places.

But, yeah, there has been a surge of non-author books on Amazon, some gaining in popularity to the extent that many practitioners won't recommend a book unless they know, have met, have at least seen, the author in the real world.

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The need to publicly perform some standard of "moral goodness" for the collective gaze of social media, holds so many people back from engaging critically and analyticaly with sources.

Yes that part is out of date, or this bit is racist, or that author did this bad thing. That does not mean you need to throw the baby out with the bathwater, as it were. Read critically, engage with the words you consume and really think about them.

Where was this info sourced from? What are their references like? Who is this passage referring too? What goal does the author have for this piece of text? Etc etc.

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Nobody at all:
Me: Bighoot. Like Bigfoot, but a giant owl or bird. He lives high in the mountains and is capable of carrying off small children.
Me: Perhaps Bighoot is a surviving species of prehistoric bird, the large kind that terrified our ancestors, or maybe he’s something even stranger.
Me: Much like his wingless cousin, Bigfoot, the great bird Bighoot won’t harm you if you’re respectful of the forest…

something like this?

I drew these a long time ago

yes that is him...

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So, @ceruab13 was asking about books focused on Enochian magic and the Angelical language.

I scrolled a bit, and it turns out that the interest stems from the popular television drama, Supernatural! I actually think it’s kind of neat that Supernatural incorporated the Enochian language into the show. I watched an episode or two back in the day, but have trouble keeping with long shows, so it’s not my fandom.

If people are interested in learning more because of it, though, so be it. I could try to write my own summary of Enochian magic, but other people have done that, and much better than I could, so I’m providing a list of books instead. Some are published and available in ebooks and print; a few are freely available online, either out of copyright or just free to distribute.

This is a short reading list featuring books I’ve read focused on Enochian magic, the history of it, and the concepts involved. It is not a recommended reading list, exactly. It’s just a list of everything I’ve read that might be relevant, with a little bit about each book.

Some are books written by magical practitioners to help others learn the art; others are focused on the history surrounding John Dee and Edward Kelley. I hope you find something worth reading here. Again, these aren’t limited to recommended favorites - it’s just a list of everything that might be, in some way, helpful.

First, before I start listing the secondary sources, I’ll suggest reading some of Dee’s diaries.

They’re actual diaries, and you should keep them handy in a tab if you’re reading more about this. Also check out A True and Faithful Relation, which is a later account of their workings. That link includes (typed) excerpts, but you can find scanned copies through Cornell’s digital library, too. You can keep these handy while reading any of the following works, and it’ll be helpful. Don’t feel discouraged if the Elizabethan grammar and such seems obtuse, and if secondary sources help provide context, let them!

The Essential Enochian Grimoire, by Aaron Leitch.

This one’s really comprehensive, and covers both purist interpretations of the tradition and Neo-Enochiana. On top of that, there’s a lot of good historical context here, too. A lot of the strictly historical authors ignore the existing occult traditions that influenced Dee and Kelley, or just don’t talk about them enough, whereas here there’s entire sections devoted to them.

I really liked the chapter that attempts to outline the worldview present in Dee’s diaries. I recommend this for the willworker who hasn’t got any experience with Enochian, but not for someone just starting out with magic. If you’re used to working in a spartan fashion, you might find the calls for equipment daunting, but the workings in this book are very adaptable.

John Dee and the Empire of Angels, by Jason Louv.

Not a book of practical magic, but a biography of Dee and Kelley. Louv himself is an occultist, and therefore willing to entertain explanations for the incidents that other history researchers might not. He also keeps grounded and admits that none of this can be strictly proven, and that Kelley, of course, could’ve been a charlatan. I tend to see a critical approach to Dee and Kelley (rather than treating them both as sages) as the mark of a decent book on Enochian magic.

Here, the author speculates a lot on what was actually going on, and doesn’t shy away from mentioning the paranormal aspects that are hard to explain. Louv’s tone and pacing are excellent, and the conversational tone of the book will no doubt maintain your attention to the very end. A lot of it feels like juicy Elizabethan gossip (except with citations!), and will give you a feel for Dee and Kelley’s complicated world.

The Angelical Language, by Aaron Leitch.

Whereas The Essential Enochian Grimoire covered the working of Enochian magic in practice, Leitch’s The Angelical Language gives us a narrative of the system’s reception and development, with special attention to the language itself. There’s plenty of practical bits woven in there, and the blending of history and magical technique enriches the experience of both. Also, while I did like this book, I had a tonic clonic seizure while reading it. I liked how the author included pronunciation notes for the Enochian letters, even though I doubt I vocalized them properly.

Primarily focused on the language itself, the book doesn’t include as much practical advice as The Essential Enochian Grimoire. The practical parts he does give look like they’d be easy to adapt to different scenarios, though. There’s not an overt focus on having a lot of tools. I lost consciousness and seized for a good three or so minutes while reading this book on break at work and woke up in the emergency room. I’ll probably get the second volume and read it soon. Leitch himself suggested not reading the Angelical words out loud next time? 😆

Enochian Vision Magick, by Lon Milo DuQuette

Lon really isn’t my cup of tea, particularly since I’ve ditched Thelema and don’t plan on ever going back. This book is notable, though, because he uses really archaic techniques for his scrying operations, making them quite different in energetic texture than the more common Golden Dawn methods. His methods require a lot of “stuff,” so to speak: ritual tools and accoutrement.

DuQuette’s attitude of treating ritual tools as training wheels to be internalized and eventually rendered unnecessary as skills develop isn’t exactly unsound. It’s certainly one method of doing it, but it’s not very accessible. It’s certainly not how most people (who tend to pick up magic in their early years, and may not have a ton of resources) are doing things. I didn’t. I’m mentioning this one for completeness, mostly. Read it to see what Thelemites are doing Enochian-wise, and how Crowley’s influence survives to this day in Enochian magic.

The Vision and the Voice, by Aleister Crowley

Crowley was an abusive piece of shit. Now that we’ve got that out of the way, you can check out The Vision and the Voice. It’s available here online. It’s Crowley’s journal of his experience scrying the Enochian aethyrs with his student and service top, Victor Neuberg. They had decided that the Algerian desert was the perfect place for a month-long scrying operation facilitated by a sex magic ritual wherein Crowley took the passive role. In the desert. Let that sink in. 😝

Following this experience, Crowley considered himself to have reached a state of enlightenment. The experiences therein and the visions were, in fact, fairly intense. Oddly, I hadn’t read this when I did my (first) Enochian workings, and didn’t pick it up until much later, and then only for completeness sake. I don’t recommend actually listening to Crowley’s advice on hardly anything, but it’s good to read this to understand his influence and history. You probably shouldn’t listen to one iota of his actual “teachings,” but there’s plenty to be learned from the guy. You can learn a lot about aerodynamics from watching a fiery plane crash.

The Queen’s Conjuror, by Benjamin Woollet

This is more of a straight-up history book detailing the remarkable lives and work of John Dee and Edward Kelley. Woollet provides enough background material to give an ample window into Elizabethan life, occult and beyond. This book gives no practical (or other) instructions and, as far as I’ve been able to tell, was written by a non-magical historian. I consider The Queen’s Conjuror a necessary read for that reason.

Sometimes we forget how magic can intersect with things like politics and science. This biography of John Dee reminds us that it’s all always already connected, and that Dee’s primary impetus was a (highly political) “immanentization of the Eschaton”. This book entertains various theories about the situation at Mortlake, fully admits Kelley may have been a charlatan in some capacity, and features other refreshing takes from an academic perspective.

The Black Lodge of Santa Cruz, by Satyr

Magic, much like fire, can be a useful tool. It can also reduce precious things to embers. This is the memoir of a magician who, in the late 1980s, was part of a small and controversial Enochian studies group in California. Read it here.

Satyr, working with his wife and their easily-possessed mentor, begins a series of experimental Enochian workings. Things rapidly spiral out of control amid already tense occult political situations. The context for this (the Caliphate OTO’s squabble over succession, etc) may feel irrelevant to modern practitioners (it is to me, for all intents and purposes). Nevertheless, we can all recognize the egos, personality clashes, ambition and other factors that contributed to the unique situation in Santa Cruz. In terms of magic itself, this memoir documents a period of great innovation, both inside Enochian circles and in other areas.

Heartbreaking in places and illuminating in others, The Black Lodge of Santa Cruz gives the story of one of the most infamous cases of the notorious “Enochian breakdown” phenomenon people talk about, where someone starts doing intense Enochian workings only to have their lives driven into pure chaos. Recommended reading before you attempt any so-called hell-rides (those month-long scrying operations people keep doing), at very least.

I hope something here interests someone!

Literally nobody:
Nobody at all:
Me: Bighoot. Like Bigfoot, but a giant owl or bird. He lives high in the mountains and is capable of carrying off small children.
Me: Perhaps Bighoot is a surviving species of prehistoric bird, the large kind that terrified our ancestors, or maybe he's something even stranger.
Me: Much like his wingless cousin, Bigfoot, the great bird Bighoot won't harm you if you're respectful of the forest...
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