i'm totally not late with this, right?? happy valentine's! happy aromantic spectrum awareness week! or something like that!

Was rewatching black vinegar arc while doodling today. And I just everytime… everytime it makes me think about Teru.

When shigeo calls him out and tells him he is nothing without his powers, what is Teru thinking? Shigeo is basically calling everything he has gone through worthless. His powers don’t make him special. If he is special his loneliness has meaning. If he is special his sadness has value. If he is special he can get attention and recognition.

If he isn’t special, he is worthless and nothing.

Shigeo sees right through Teru’s skin. And calls him out for who he is.

In season 3 Teru does the same. He sees through Shigeo’s exterior and calls him out. And it pisses shigeo off. Like it pissed Teru off too.

They are so similar and so different and I want to think about them so much right now.

I don’t even have anything else to add just that they are turning over in my brain. Like I can’t stop them

Teru one day at a sleep over, when it’s 3 am and you say things you don’t mean to say, sleepily tells shigeo how much those words hurt but they were what he needed to hear. And how he felt lonely. And how much shigeo means to him

And maybe reveals that he has been living alone since he was basically 9

I could see Teru accidentally confessing while half awake at a sleepover

Another batch of my terumob archive from twitter

The last one was an art exchange for Sol on twitter

*please don't use my drawings for any commercial purpose. If you want to print one for personal use, let me know.

I've had so many terumob thoughts lately. I have had this story in my head for over a year and part of me wants to sit down and blast it out and the other is just not quite sure how to start it yet.

But i have been noodling on the not great Terumob moments. The arguments, the struggles, the "Teru still slips into worship phases" that causes tension and discomfort.

The moving in together moments that are no so pretty.

Teru who has lived alone for most of his formative years is suddenly living again with another person.

Shigeo who still struggles to be his whole self (because he will always have ups and downs) who doesn't always read the room and misunderstands queues from Teru. No fault of his own. But Teru gets frustrated and annoyed. Because that's just how humans are. We get upset at the ones we love sometimes over things that we love them for.

Of Shigeo leaving the dishes uncleaned because he just didn't notice.

Of Teru staying out late and not telling Shigeo because he never had to tell someone where he was because no one ever cared. And Shigeo feeling hurt.

Of Shigeo getting frustrated over small things and making the whole apartment shake. And Teru loves him for being himself but he also has a massive headache from making poor choices the day before and now is upset.

Of Teru doing everything because he has ALWAYS done everything and not communicating what he wants.

Teru not understanding the unsaid family relationship Shiego has with his parents. The things no one says but they all do that he, in all his observance, can't always figure out.

I'm rambling

But I just love exploring their relationship as adults. I want more of this. I need to write this. One day one day

After I write the like, 10 other things I have in my WIPs

Terumob kitties againnn i tried a lil more to make them look good,

Terumob kitties