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Realising that you are one of the only people on this damn planet with moral values and empathy and realising that the majority of people genuinely do not care about other beings really does explain why this world is the way it is.

Realising that you will never be happy and able to fulfill your dreams in this world and this society no matter what you do and no matter how hard you work is one of the worst feelings.

This will probably make me very unpopular on tumblr, but I wish I had those informations earlier, and I know I won't be the only one. So here we go:

Getting a diagnosis for autism, a mental health issue (especially personality disorders) and in some countries even a diagnosis for ADHD or therapy without a diagnosis can have significant disadvantages for you.

It could:

• permanently disqualify you from getting a visa if you try to move to another country. Especially if you plan to get a permanent resident visa in another country.

• prevent you from ever adopting a child. This is especially important for people who are unable to have children any other way, like lgbtq people or people who cannot have children due to physical health concerns.

• lead to you not getting custody for your child, should you get a divorce, even if it is your biological child.

• prevent you from adopting the child of your partner, even when you are married.

• have significant consequences for your job, lead to you losing your job, or preventing you from finding a new job. Even if you don't officially get fired because of the diagnosis/therapy and they use a other reasons as excuse.

• prevent you from getting a promotion at your job.

• lead to doctors not taking your physical symptoms serious and blaming it on your mental health/ neurodiversity diagnosis instead. This is especially the case if you are assigned female at birth.

• prevent you from ever receiving gender affirming care, like top surgery or hormone therapy.

It always depends on which country you live in or want to move to. Different countries have different rules regarding those, so please always check the information for your country or the country you want to move to.

The problem with "You are not alone. It's okay to ask for help. :)" is that many of us don't have a support system. Many of us cannot ask anyone for help for a multitude of reasons. Some of us have no one, for others asking for help could be unsafe. Some of us have to go through things alone and cannot depend on anyone.

So rather than saying this it can be a lot more helpful for some people to get the reminder that, yes, there are people who go through similar things out there, you don't always see them, they are just not as visible as successful people.

You are still an individual, so no one will be exactly like you, but you do have similarities with some people out there.

There are resources and information out there. Learning about yourself and your situation and getting as much information as possible can be very comforting and give you a new perspective on things.

I really dislike it when other people touch me and at the same time, I wish I had a special someone to cuddle every evening in bed. :(

I don't blog for most people.

I blog for the people who have no friends, for the people who were bullied in school and at work or by their friends, for the people who were cast out by society, for the people who feel that they don't belong anywhere on this planet, for the people who never felt represented by the majority, for the people who spend all of their time in their room, for the people who were told over and over by society that they are not loveable, for the people who have no one to talk to, I blog for the people who feel that no one is like them.

Please stop caring so much about what other people think of you, because those people don't care at all what you think about them.

I started to feel a lot less bad about not belonging anywhere, when I realized that this world and society is literally evil.

When you study in detail what was going on in Germany during the 1930s and 1940s and that some people say something like this could never ever happen again nowdays.

And then you look at what the United States of America are doing ...

I hate how our society works. Because it's always just a bunch of men without any empathy in power, who just ruin life for everyone.

The world is turning into such an awful, terrible thing.

The scariest thing about humans is that the evil ones pretend to be good ones so well, you can't tell who is actually a good person and who is just good at pretending to be a good person.

Depending on other people is awful. I hate when I can't do something on my own and I depend on other people's help. Makes me feel so awful that they have to sacrifice their time and work, just because I was not capable of doing something on my own.

It's worse when it's something that other people are totally capable of handling on their own, but I'm not. Makes me feel like a huge burden. And it makes me feel so sorry that I even have to ask for help.

I just want to go home to my home planet where I actually belong. And not whatever this hell of planet here is.

Childhood is hoping you will be much more happy and free as an adult.

Adulthood is realising that no one is truly happy. We are all stressed, we all have so many things that we have to get done, we all have things that we need but don't get, we all struggle in one way or another, everyone of us fighting a fight, mostly not even visible to others.

For the most part life is not fun. It is hard work. And if you think about it, moments where you are truly happy are incredibly rare.

Today my doctor, who hadn't seen me in quite a while, told me that to her it seems like I've been doing a lot better mentally/autism wise. And I didn't have the heart to tell her that it's because I isolated myself to the point where I don't talk to anyone other than my parents for months and that this made my life more peaceful than anything, because I don't have to deal with humans and their noise and nonsense anymore.

Isolating yourself really is the solution, omg.

I'm so much cooler online.