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C | they/he | 18+ plz | πŸ’œ

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Formerly lavenderlune, hogbabe, catsandiamonds, and a few others (I’ve been here too long)

My name is Cyrus (they/them/theirs) and I mostly post nature, art, donation links, and words of encouragement. I’m always open to chatting and questions but if you’re a creep then I’m quick to block. Currently residing in California!

Side blog @materialgargoyle (:

pastel dreams - Paul Chmaroff / Constant Montald / Maurice Denis / Lucien Levy-Dhurmer /Joe Duncan Gleason / Louis Icart / Frederick Carl Frieseke / Gabriel Griffon

When everything is embarrassing, that’s a sign that your passion is waking up, and it wants more. Your desire is a tender sprout that wants more water, more sunshine. It wants you to give up on SEEMING happy and in control and to start FEELING joy instead, even when it feels a little too big, even when it makes you cry, even when it forces you to question where you are and why.

Passion and desire and shame and sadness don’t signal that you have to change everything immediately, though. These are sensations that don’t require solutions. Your primary job, in the face of renewed lust for life, is to tolerate the shame of joy.

Because embarrassment is sometimes just a sign that you’ve never lived out in the open before, you’ve never cared more about a feeling than you care about how you’re coming across, you’ve never prioritized happiness over control.

This is why it’s good to take risks that might embarrass you regularly. Because every time you dare to embarrass yourself for the sake of who you are, you’re teaching your body to prioritize joy. You’re teaching yourself to let go of seeming better than the things you love. You’re showing yourself how to feel where you are β€” to soak in the cool fall air, to breathe in the moon, to love every lopsided moment of your glorious, flawed life.

I Worried, Mary Oliver

Lambert’s Bridge no. 77, also know as the snake bridge, on the Macclesfield Canal. location: Astbury Congleton, England
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