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Yo. Roach, he/they, neurodivergent, 21+. I post about stuff sometimes
pro-endo system. sysmeds grow up, exclusionism is the enemy
rvb blog @donut-entendre
good ice breaker questions for a first date
- do you conceptualize yourself as your whole body, or just your mind? or do you think of yourself as an external being removed from the physical?
- if you are an external being, is "your" body an anchor, or a puppet?
- if you were an arthropod, which would you wanna be?
#tag game#uhhhh the brain is a part just like all the rest of it#your gut is just as important for thoughts and feelings and is literally your gut. we have another nerve center in there#so obviously all the parts feed in to your thoughts and feelings and the brain is like a junction box/GPU where it connects together#your computer could not 'function' in a way you would like if you ripped out everything except it's 'brain'#i think it can be true that it is both the anchor and the puppet in the same way#in that all of my body is part of a whole machine in which elements of which are puppetry#the bacteria in my gut are probably more important for my health and happiness than like a hand AND#I do in fact contain tension strings that allow my limbs to move and parts could be transplanted between people#and our nerves clearly freak out when you lose a limb because they keep trying to send signals to the missing part w no answer#and you keep 'memories' in every organ of the body because your cells do remember#so you can't really separate any one part of your body without losing something of you at all but I don't think it's foolish to-#-know that we do a lot of thinking in the GPU center but def not all of it just like any machine. different places for different tasks#your teeth and veins and nerves all grow different in you than in anyone else and transplanting is a violent ordeal for either party#and uhhhh id be something long and fast. maybe a dragonfly
matt just fired half the remaining tumblr support staff lmao
from my sources adjacent to tumblr--from which i can spread rumors and insider information freely because i dont give a fuck about ever working in the tech sector--im hearing this round of firings was focused on purging the senior staff, and not just support but the entire remaining tumblr workforce. i'm hearing there are about 25 people left.
So I assume this is basically a prelude to shutting tumblr down at some point. Welp.
I might reactivate my bsky at some point, I'll be obnoxious about posting it around if/when that happens.
I don't think I've ever seen anything that more perfectly replicates how psychosis feels. The latching onto/ascribing meaning to little details. The endless "searching..." as your brain tries to fit every real-life stimulus into its narrative of what's REALLY going on. The background preoccupation with real, ongoing emotional difficulty...
People often imagine psychotic delusions as being entirely dependent on hallucination, people seeing and talking to fully fleshed out, convincing looking characters. But delusion doesn't require hallucination at all. All it requires is the conviction that ordinary things are a puzzle to be solved, that there's meaning to be made... and that you're so close to understanding things that no one else knows.
#it is. interesting.#how always 'on' it makes you#these are the types of thoughts i'm thinking when my eyes dart yknow#'everything has a meaning but I don't know what it is yet'#seeing this post for the first time a while ago was sort of. well. an 'oh. i understand this.'#always trying to map out the history of everything for. what?#it turns it into a narrative in which you are involved even if you are not a 'discoverer'#the delusion very much does not have to be a conviction that you are the arbiter of knowledge#the meaning to be made can very much be other things#i'm not sure what it is my brain is looking for yet.#but even then i'm still falling into that conviction so obviously#but this is. the exhausting part of being outside.#it's not that i'm so anxious that it's all scary. it's that this pattern-seeking is so. much.
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Luigi Mangione could be getting the death penaltyβ¦
This man is innocent, his appearance and build doesnβt match that of the killers, the only βmotiveβ he had was a convenient written confession showing that he supposedly viewed healthcare companies as βparasiticβ and too expensive (which does somewhat contradict the actual killers actions) he had said note and the murder weapon conveniently on him while living his ordinary life, the killer held the gun in his right hand while Luigi is left-handed, Luigi and the Killer were potentially seen simultaneously, they wore slightly different coats.
The NYPD KNOW these are different people, they know the evidence is lacking, this isnβt a mistaken identity, itβs framing, they are trying to make themself appear to still be control by catching this man, humiliating him, killing him, when they know full well that the person they are prosecuting ISNT EVEN THE RIGHT GUY! This is an injustice! This is not a fair trial! This is downright tyranny!
They confiscated his bag at the mcdonald's, took it out of everyone's sight, unpacked it and repacked it, and THEN took it down to the station and wow there was a manifesto in there that he was just carrying around in daily life for some reason
Definitely the sort of thing that the Bag Of Monopoly Money Guy would be carrying to McDonald's
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I love all books but sometimes you read a book and youβre like so were all 21 thousand of you blindfolded and at gun point when you rated it 5 stars
Reblogged detectivehole
vaginal infections, utis, and extreme ph imbalances are no fucking joke. please wash your goddamn hands before you stick your fingers in someone
100%, and in case anyone was unsure - this applies to transfems who have had vaginoplasty/vulvoplasty as well! safer sex and hygiene applies just as much to neogenitals
Reblogged its-no-biggie
how it feels to be in your 20s and getting sent TikTok videos from your friends but you donβt have a TikTok and it just redirects you to the Apple download page for it.
Hey all! Just got a huge shipment in of stones that are now available to wrap for custom commissions. Belemorite, Chrysopase, rainbow obsidian, this super unique moss agate, crazy scenic dentritic Quartz, and a ton of random stones that I can ID for you if you want one of these. Just let me know! Prices start at $30-35 USD! JUST DM ME!
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One weird experience of transitioning is failing at ur assigned gender role the whole time and everyone constantly deriding you for it but then u come out and it's like we lost a beautiful gender conforming warrior today. Must grieve for my wonderful child who pissed me off by being ugly and weird since day 1