MORE MORE MORE STUILLY

okay!:3

Here’s my favs. Let’s see how long they’ll stay up for.

Who do you think is worse of an overall person, Stu or Billy?

This is really hard to answer honestly. I think it would be easy to say that it's Billy, he's the gaslighter with the long term overblown revenge plot. The way I write him he also repeatedly pushes Stu away and hurts his feelings because he won't deal with his own issues. He sees people as pawns for the most part.

Stu is bad in his own way, though. Billy had this very personal, emotional motivation but Stu doesn't need that to be every bit as cruel and violent. I think he passes as normal better than Billy does, he has the social skills for it. That convinces a lot of people that he's just a fun, silly dude, but at the end of the day if Billy wanted him to he'd slaughter almost all of them. There's something about his lack of personal motivation that makes some of what he does a little worse.

I also think he's possessive and vindictive in his own way. The way I wrote him he was pissed enough to kill Casey and Steve not because he still wanted Casey, but because he doesn't like it when people take things that he thinks he owns. Even if he doesn't really care much about those things.

So yeah basically I think they're pretty evenly bad people lmao

I really love how you describe billy in your kidfic, I have a little boy in my kindergarten class who reacts the same way to going outside but I'm not allowed to leave him in the class. So instead I sit with him in the shade and hold his hand. It's very sweet to see billy needing similar accommodations

Damn I wish there were adults like you around when I was in elementary. Glad that kid has you.

To go off topic a little just because your comment brought the thought up, I think one of the big harms done to little boys specifically is the expectation that men and boys are less emotional, less sensitive, tougher, they don't get to learn how to process things or how to communicate when they need help. They might even be punished for needing help, and I think a lot of boys respond to that by shutting down emotionally. So many of the people who lash out and do fucked up shit later in life were scared, hurt little kids that didn't have support, that weren't given care, and they never healed from that. It doesn't excuse any of that later bad behaviour, but I think it's something we need to recognize and change if we want to stop stuff like that from happening in the future.