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n0_al

@n0-al-3n8y / n0-al-3n8y.tumblr.com

sapphic enby • they/he - masc • 31 • ***depression, cptsd and schizophrenia partying in my brain*** • minor DNI & tw!
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cw weight, hospital vent

aaaand another day they forget to give me lunch then they get upset that I lose weight and threaten me to get me a feeding tube (srry idk the words in English)

#tw weight#tw weighloss#psychiatric hospital#mental illness#schizophrenia#actually schizophrenic#actually mentally ill#cptsd#actually cptsd#depression#psychotic#psychosis#chronically ill#chronicillness#chronic pain#neuralgia#epilepsy#migraine#functional neurological disorder#i hate it here#hospitalisation
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[i want to have never existed ]

my only wish

(my only little companion at the hospital)

#tw sui ideation#tw sui implied#tw sui talk#tw sucidal ideation#mental illness#schizophrenia#actually schizophrenic#actually mentally ill#schizospec#cptsd#actually cptsd#psychosis#psychotic#psychiatric hospital#depression#sui ideation#chronicillness#chronically ill#chronic pain#migraine#occipital neuralgia#neuralgia#trigeminal neuralgia#epilepsy#functional neurological disorder#my brain is broken#depressing shit#elliot alderson#i hate my brain#trauma survivor
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neurologist appointment tomorrow

idk why im going there is no treatment for my illnesses or they don't work

shitposting continues

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it was horrible i just want the suffering to end and they expect me to live like this. the chronic pains/illnesses are unbearable. let me die already. I hate doctors. they just add to my medical ptsd that's all they do.

I had to be on suicidal watch last night because of this shit, even with all the benzos im on. probably will be the same tonight.

#neurology#functional neurological disorder#migraine#occipital neuralgia#trigeminal neuralgia#chronicillness#chronic illness#chronically ill#chronic pain#mental illness#schizophrenia#actually schizophrenic#actually mentally ill#actually cptsd#cptsd#schizospec#psychiatric hospital#psychotic#neurological disability#disabled#epilepsy#medical trauma#tw sui ideation#tw sui vent#tw sui talk
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tw sui ideation

being hospitalized since more than 2 months with a medical ptsd is messing with my brain so much idk what's up but it's really bad. everything is worse and they don't really know what to do. it's hell. I just want to have never existed. suicidal ideations are so strong. idk how to cope.

#mental illness#schizophrenia#actually schizophrenic#actually mentally ill#cptsd#complex ptsd#medical trauma#trauma survivor#trauma#chronically ill#chronicillness#chronic pain#depression#tw sui implied#tw sucidal ideation#tw sui vent#tw sui talk
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