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nalebifrie

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What really affected me with Egwene's dreamwalking is that this is a woman who has lost a bit of herself and her connection to others due to trauma. She uses Tel'aran'rhiod to reach out to her loved ones, whether they are physically or emotionally cut off from her. They cannot see or hear her though, so Egwene is haunting them, content in seeing them at peace again. In turn, we see through the characters' dream that sleep is the space where we can find again those we lost, those who are far away from us, those we will lose, even those we can never be.

Sleep becomes the last refuge from grief. Unlike memories it is a world in its own right where the people we lost persist and where we can meet them.

And that might be one of the truest, kindest depictions of grief I've seen recently.

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You are not the chosen one, the protagonist, the most valuable piece on this chessboard. No, you are the one tasked to find them, to guide them, to put them in the best position to win the war you have spent twenty years fighting while searching for them. Twenty years of being one conspirator among three in a scheme to save the world, chosen by the pattern to bear the burden until you can hand it off to those who will join you in the fight. You are not given a true choice, either you succeed or your world is doomed. No matter how much you wish to say no, to stay with the one you love and choose happiness over duty, the narrative will not let you. The wheel weaves as the wheel wills, and it has willed this task for you.

So you fight, and you search, and the moment you are successful you begin to lose any control over the events that will unfold. But you have spent twenty years fighting this battle nearly alone, and giving up what little control you have is a struggle, so the pattern takes the choice away and rips it out of your hands. You are now just one more leaf caught in the current of ta’veren.

And then you learn that there is one more task yet given to you. You are a necessary sacrifice, a piece that must be lost in order to protect the king. After giving everything to this quest, to the fate that has been forced upon you, you must still give more, and say goodbye to your love again and again.

Sounds wild but it happened to my friend Moiraine Damodred.

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