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into the namgyuniverse

@namgyunation / namgyunation.tumblr.com

lily / blog is 18+
i like nam-gyu a little bit!
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— ✱ LI / LILY ✱ — she/her. 20s. always yapping. nam-gyu fan. lover of blue and green. a jellyfish floating through the ocean. matcha stan. marine biology enthusiast. 🪷

hello! i'm a sometimes writer, sometimes artist. self-indulgent in both <3 i'm also currently in college, so if my posts slow down, that is more than likely the reason why

this is a general yapping + writing blog, with a heavy focus on nam-gyu from squid game. i talk a lot and don't shut up, beware!!!

also my blog is 18+. not everything i post is 18+, but i would consider not following if you're not okay with that. please use caution when navigating.

i'm shy about my work buttttt please always feel free to hit up my inbox <3 i'm open for rqs / thoughts / comments / a chat 24/7 <333

please don't repost anything from here! i'd rather keep all my stuff on tumblr / ao3.

— tags shortcut: #inbox / #my fic / #lilyposting (all of my og posts, minus asks, includes any and all yapping)

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ok im ngl. i think i need to learn how to stop participating so deeply in fandom conversations and just enjoy things as god intended: with like 3-4 oomfs that like the same shit as me and then Ignoring everybody else

ok so right after i said this i went ahead and hit send on all my tweets. bye

ok I just remembered that new deltarune is coming so now I’m super calm and normal

Anonymous asked:

hey Li!! I’m back ahahahah ☁️ i’m so sorry for disappearing from tumblr for a while – got swallowed up by the whole corporate girly life and time just flew. but randomly the other day i found myself thinking about our chaotic little ramblings about nam gyu.

I popped back on here to check in and i saw… YOU POSTED THE FIRST PART??😭 i legit read it in one breath. i was overwhelmed—in the best way—by how much i loved it. like, you took my idea and made it into something so good, i felt kinda flattered and weirdly proud (not to be dramatic but yeah a lil dramatic). i’m seriously so happy you vibed with the request, it really shows, and your writing?? chef’s kiss as always.

I can’t wait for part two whenever it comes—no pressure at all, i know smut can be a pain in the ass to write. if you ever need a brainstorming buddy or wanna bounce ideas, just let me know haha. I have ideas for this too🤭

anyway, just wanted to say i missed chatting with you and reading your stuff. so excited to see whatever you post next. sending love!! 🫶🏻☁️

HIII ☁️ <3333 omfg i'm so glad to hear from u again!!!! i was lowkey afraid that u stopped gaf about squid game in the time that it took me to post the fic AHAHAH.

i hope you've been well and that life's been good!!!!! and no worries about disappearing at all. i send respect to u for working in the corporate world bc i'm sure it can be really busy and stressful at times!

also YAYYY im so sooo glad that you enjoyed it!!!!! <33 i went a little crazy with how long i ended up dragging out the word count lmaooo, but it was worth it knowing that u like it so far :))

thank u so much for the kind words fr <33333 it means everything!!! also for part two, im nearing 11k words on it bc i just cannotttt be concise to save my life LMAO... even tho im already working through the smut scene, please do not hesitate to send me ideas (if u send them thru ask i'll prob just keep them in my askbox so i don't spoil anything) if u have them!!!

also after i close out the fic, i will likely revisit it and try to write something for it to be compliant with whatever happens in s3 hehe.... just bc i feel like i gotta go all the way now that i've started it!! i also plan on writing a few alternative smut scenes just for the fun of it bc i know ppl really like reading those LMAO, so i am all ears to ur ideas :]

anywayss, THANK U FOR HMU AGAIN ☁️ !!!!! missed chatting with u as well <3 sending love right back to u <333

Anonymous asked:

Hello, I'm back to yap more. 🐶(using this as my emoji until I eventually get off anon haha). I am a different anon than the other talking about mg coin and Nam-gyu and purity culture obv, but I have thoughts abt the same stuff and like yapping lmao. Sorry in advance for this actual tome i am about to write.

Ive been having the opposite experience than the other anon and it might be because I'm more on ig than here tbh but! I feel like theyve hit the nail on the head about purity in fandoms and i see the reactions im getting coming from that too. Because every time ive made a comment on a thread on ig unless its on a nam-gyu fan account i get comments acting like ive just said i sacrifice small animals to the devil.

for me Nam-gyu's actions aren't ok towards min-su (poor lil guy is scared just like him, i kept hoping theyd have a point where they made friends tbh).

And while I get why se-mi is pissed at nam-gyu, she did kind of irk me too (because what she said h reminded me of judgemental ex-friend I had when I was a drug user who would basically laugh at me and my addiction). But I don't think she deserved to die, of course not! If anything i wished the opposite. (I was stupidly hoping after thanos died that nam-gyu and min-su and se-mi would make a trio and really want to read a fic like this, or write one lmao).

Then, from another angle, I find Nam-gyus character easy to understand and i don't think understanding it has to be excusing the stuff @ min-su and se-mi, but i also don't see him as evil! Nam-gyu is my favorite in s2 and overall tbh even over gi-hum, sang-woo or thanos and yes, he is hot, but my fave in s1 is sang-woo and i wasn't attracted to him for example.

But i enjoy a character who 1. Has many aspects, theyre very interesting and people are usually never just one thing! (Also these arent real people so like you said we can like whoever!) & 2. I can actually relate to some aspects of him! Even while not being ok with the actions @ min-su and se-mi! I know what addiction is like, and people just treat you like you're worthless, not many consider why a person has addiction, they just assume it's about partying which for me mine was thanka to lots of abuse prior and during that time, so that abuse + people treating me like i was worthless for my addiction made me into a hater back then too. I was a little shit too lol. I promise I never forked anybody to death though 😈

in seriousness when Roh Jae-Won said people haven't ever respected Nam-gyu, I immediately thought he's been abused growing up and or had a bad partner like what was my situation, it just makes sense to me. (Tbh i already got that vibe so his confirmation sealed it).

I've come in contact with people saying he is evil111 and that I'm evil for not thinking he is (i got the same re sang-woo tbh) and it's like... being able to empathize with him while stilllll not being ok with him killing se-mi is possible. I think it's easy to see how it came about too, his mental state in there wasnt great already even when the one person he had some liking for was there, with that person dead, hes spiralling badly plus the pills hes gobbling, its a perfect storm. Again i dont think he should have killed her i can just see how the escalation happened. But like... yeah why can't I understand and still feel sad he killed her?!

I don't get why people have to put characters I absolutes either, and that goes for nam-gyu, thanos and mg coin. like they all have flaws, and then they all are just victims of the capitalistic scheme in the games and they all have their own issues. I can totally understand why thanos and nam-gyu hates mg coin (and I kept thinking of Elon musk because of the dalmatian/doge coin lmaooo), but also they could have been more cautious too like he said!

Verrryyyy tldr: I really agree about not having to apologise for liking and finding characters interesting, and theres something else weird some friends and i have picked up on with regards to these puritanical mindsets.

They seem to dehumanize characters they dont like? Like they have the idea that unless a character is a perfect cinnamon roll like Ali from s1 they dont deserve empathy? Examples I've seen people commenting and making jokes about how thanos and sang-woo was thinking of suicide, and some saying they hope the baby dies because mg coin is a deadbeat etc and I'm like...they're not even real people but the commenters are and the way they can't even have compassion for fictional characters, makes me wonder how they would be in a situation worse, ie: with someone they dislike in person.

Also! I was the anon who has the dog headcanon and omg yesss I'd be honored if you wrote about the dog in one of your fics. You're such a talented writer I'd love to read your vision for this. I can imagine him thinking of the dog waiting for him 🥺 but not saying anything about it because again my dude would rather die in squid game than admit to an emotion (even though hia emotions are still coming out anyway!!) i also hc him as a dog person and not just because i am one haha but for the reason you wrote. Dogs are amazing, once they love you they dgaf who you are. That aside I also think he'd really like and respect that they come from wolves and how if they choose to they can mess someone up with a bite! Even the cuddliest good boy can go feral if threatened or a person he loves is threatened and I think nam-gyu would relate to that too.

I always see people saying he's cat like but I don't see it! thanos is cat!coded and a cat guy to me too so I love that you see that as well. I actually hc that thanos has a playful orange cat who has his own Instagram and thanos writes captions and comments as the cat lmao 🐈

And yikes I'm so sorry this is recoed yapping I've been writing this for like 23 mins!

anonnn you are so dear to me lol. i agree with all of your thoughts here. long ass post incoming...

in the time it's taken me to respond to this, i've been spending a lot of more time on twitter, and i've seen these arguments x10 over there. it's been driving me nuts seeing the lengths ppl go to try and paint namgyu as a saint bc they're afraid it reflects badly on them as a person (when it doesn't), AND on the other end i've seen people GENUINELY arguing "oh well i like gyeongsu and youngmi who have done no wrong, while you like namgyu who is a horrible / problematic person!!!" and like. ACTUALLY trying to establish a moral high ground because of that.

so it gets to a point where i'm like. ok if you're a nam-gyu fan trying to defend his actions and make him seem like a good person...... stop! he's done horrible things! and that's ok!!!! put the tweet back in the drafts... but on the other hand. i can't even fully blame them bc WHY the fuck are people trying to act as if the morality of your favorite character fucking matters and says something about who you are as a person. like y'all are out here MAKING these ppl feel like they need to explain themselves for liking a character who does bad things and giving them a reason to act the way they do. it's an endless cycle

also, to quote the previous anon (whom of which i agree with wholeheartedly and am so thankful started the conversation) "when I stumble across a "Namgyu defender 2000" in the wild it only disappoints, but not surprises me." 

WHEN WILL IT ENDDDD. HOLY SHIT. this squid game shit gets serious!!! i'm out!

Ive been having the opposite experience than the other anon and it might be because I'm more on ig than here tbh but! I feel like theyve hit the nail on the head about purity in fandoms and i see the reactions im getting coming from that too. Because every time ive made a comment on a thread on ig unless its on a nam-gyu fan account i get comments acting like ive just said i sacrifice small animals to the devil.

yeah idk what it is about fandoms and constantly trying to one-up people and feeling like you're somehow better than someone else based on the character that you found the most entertaining / decided to make your fav. it's just so annoying. and yeah lmao i've had similar reactions when i talked about squid game to some of my irl friends and they find out my fav is nam-gyu. "isn't he the dude that did x and x??? he's so evil how tf could u like him?" i like shitheads. that doesn't mean i wanna do the things that he's done. I PROMISE. HE IS NOT REAL.

I've come in contact with people saying he is evil111 and that I'm evil for not thinking he is (i got the same re sang-woo tbh) and it's like... being able to empathize with him while stilllll not being ok with him killing se-mi is possible. I think it's easy to see how it came about too, his mental state in there wasnt great already even when the one person he had some liking for was there, with that person dead, hes spiralling badly plus the pills hes gobbling, its a perfect storm. Again i dont think he should have killed her i can just see how the escalation happened. But like... yeah why can't I understand and still feel sad he killed her?!

yeah! se-mi is literally my second fav lmao, and i wish she hadn't died. i LOVEEEE her, and i ofc didn't cheer when nam-gyu killed her nor do i try to pretend he didn't do it or was completely justified. even then, i can still love nam-gyu and have him as my fav and have my fun with making my fun little stories about him without thinking that what he did was ok.

Anonymous asked:

I just saw Roh Jae-Won's interview and I have to scream about this somewhere sorry for the flailing so this is why anon, but oh my god when he said if Nam-gyu met someone like Da-eun he'd also want to be loved, I wanted to squeal.

Because I'd been thinking when watching that he really seems like he wants affection, care and positivity, and that's why he gets mad visibly when Se-mi made fun of him for the nervousness and Thanos was constantly getting his name wrong. He's constantly feeling like people think he's less than them!

And I was thinking if I was in the games I'd try to befriend him, even if I didn't think he was cute, because he seems so lonely and I'd want to show him friendship and care. I've done this often times in life with those others ignored or hurt/treated badly and built connections with them.

I even wrote that in a comment online and some who hate Nam-gyu attacked me, calling me dumb and naive, saying he'd hate and kill me in my sleep 😭

I have a similar personality to Da-eun, in how I'msoft hearted and communicate well with people/ like to reach out to those who I can see want to connect but are struggling in some way, so him saying Nam-gyu would want to be loved by her has me like !!! 😭

The urge to go back to that post and say to those haters that Roh Jae-Won basically confirmed that Nam-gyu would in fact not kill me though 😈

I just saw Roh Jae-Won's interview and I have to scream about this somewhere sorry for the flailing so this is why anon, but oh my god when he said if Nam-gyu met someone like Da-eun he'd also want to be loved, I wanted to squeal.

no need to apologize!!!

i know that interview is fairly old now, but yeah when i heard that i was happy lmaooo

while waiting for squid game season 3 to come out, i binged all of daily dose of sunshine, and i really really loved it, especially because i'm going to be going into the medical field

i LOVEEE da-eun so bad, and she's definitely one of my favorite kdrama characters (not like i've watched many, but still). genuinely don't know why everyone glossed over that line, too. of him saying that if he met da-eun, he'd want to feel loved and recognized by her.

like.... roh jae-won basically went ahead and spoke a crossover ship / crack ship into existence for us wtf...... and then nobody gaf 😭😭😭

for someone as difficult as nam-gyu, i feel like he'd definitely have to get lucky and somehow end up with someone patient and kind-hearted who's capable of good communication like da-eun for a relationship to actually last

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— inbox / request guidelines

- i'm open to most things! if you're unsure just go ahead and send it tbh. - i rarely ever write smut but am once again open to requests involving it - i'm a student, so i can be really slow with requests/asks at times. please be patient with me - emphasis on the fact that i love chatting; i'm very obsessive over the shows i post about, so pls don't hesitate to hmu if u have any thoughts about anything at all! even if it's not a rq ♡

— i take requests for...

squid game - nam-gyu, mostly, but i'm open to other characters... just ask :]

i'm extremely slow with responding sometimes, but my inbox is always open ♡

not gonna teach him how to dance (with you)

— PART ONE.

— pairing: nam-gyu x f!reader (the focus); dae-ho x f!reader (barely.) — summary: you spent the past couple months of your life successfully dodging all of nam-gyu's attempts to contact you after you two'd broken up (and for good reason). now, six months later, your luck runs out, and you come face-to-face with the same guy you promised yourself you'd never see again. luckily, your new teammate, dae-ho, is there to act as a buffer. nam-gyu's not the biggest fan of that. — w/c: 17.5k tags: jealousy. mentions of character death. drug usage. while this first part is generally sfw, the overall fic is 18+. mdni! nam-gyu is an asshole. reader replaces jun-hee in gi-hun's team for the pentathlon. while dae-ho x reader is in the tags, pls keep in mind this is mainly nam-gyu x reader!!! // tags for part 2: brief smut. pinv. unprotected sex. oral. drug usage (reader included). usage of 'bitch' and other unkind terms by nam-gyu.
— a/n: request for dearest ☁️ anon. thank you so much for this insanely fun request. i've been having a lot of fun while writing it. also, this is split into two parts bc i desperately need to release this from my drafts before i lose my mind!!! this first part is mostly exposition, aka, THERE'S NO SMUT IN HERE YET! anywaysss, i hope this is enjoyable while i crank out part 2 :]

he's got two left feet, and he bites my moves. i'm not gonna teach him how to dance with you.

finally I'm off anon and logged in!! But this isn't about nam-gyu. Idk where you live and obv no need to tell us, but I heard abt the earthquake in Myanmar that has also impacted surrounding places and just wanted to say I hope you are safe where you're at.

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<3 hello nam--gyu!!!

this is very sweet of you to check up on me and take the time to send me this message, so thank you so so much :((( <3

i don't live in/near that area, but regardless, seriously thank you for thinking to send me a message

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