One day I hope I forget the days I wasted sitting alone in my room. All I did was waste my time and fuel my stress with gloom. The stairs to my dreams steepen, slowly with every step, is the pain all worth it or will I just fall down again, lonely and depressed.

Hell's door

(i know it's a bit random, and doesn't really mean anything, but thought I'd better write it down)

English lessons are ruining poetry, there doesn't have to be a meaning behind fricking everything!

(ARRRRRGRGGGHHHHH)

I needed you when I was screaming into my pillow, when I was laying on the bathroom floor. I needed you, but 'it wasn't convenient' for you. So now I have left you in the past to make room for the present, but there is still a gaping whole from where those sad memories used to be merry.

I think new years resolutions are useless. It is just another opportunity to not succeed at a task you set yourself, and if you do stick to it, why did you wait till new year to do it if it was so important?

To that one girl

I know your mental health is bad because you don't seem to go a single day without bring it up. I know it is so bad that you can't consider the possibility that anyone around you is struggling too. You are the smartest girl I know, because you have told me so. If someone isn't smart enough you act like they're beneath you, I know this because you tell me how stupid you think they are. I know all this about you because you don't know what should be kept in your head and what should be said aloud.

Stay with me please, you say you love me but do you love me enough to not pack up your bag and leave.

I thought you were happy.

I will follow the trail you left for me with the stars in hope they will lead to an answer for why you chose to leave so soon. Instead i am lead to the lonely moon, but in my life you were always the sun that shone so brightly all my faults were overlooked and forgotten.

I want to hold your heart in my hands and watch you die a painful death for what you did to me, but my body won't let me because I once thought that heart would belong to me for all eternity. So, instead I stare at you until you notice me, but I look away. I feel guilty for disrupting the peace because I feel as though keeping it is my responsibility.