It's been said before but I'm saying it again: being mentally ill and very self aware of it is extremely annoying because it's like:
My Brain: You are worthless and everyone is making fun of you.
Me: Uhh, no? I just had an extremely minor, low stakes misunderstanding, and everyone was very cool about it. It's fine. No need to panic.
My Brain: [immediately dousing itself in cortisol] You don't get to decide that. Now I'm cancelling all of the dopamine and serotonin. You can just sit there and think about your unforgivable error.
Me: Wildly unnecessary, but ok I guess