sudden confessions
𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨: bff!haechan x bff!reader
𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘵/𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴: college au, fear of unrequited love, they're oblivious it's disgusting
the soft buzz of students speaking could be heard as you took your seat in the lecture hall. you were determined to attend all your maths lectures this semester - even the 9am ones. looking around you spotted a few of your friends, some still asleep, some on their phone but one person you couldn't see. donghyuck, your best friend, was nowhere to be seen. it wasn’t unusual for him to skip a lecture, especially maths, nevertheless you still expected to find him when you scanned the auditorium. disappointed, you sighed as you took out your notebook and made a mental note to text him later.
the rest of the day went by quickly, going from lecture to lecture, finding some of your other friends later on. it was now nearing 5pm and still no word from donghyuck, which was very unlike him. you were currently in the library with mark, yeri and jaemin, studying (or pretending to) for your upcoming exams.
"hey, have any of you guys heard from hyuck today?" you asked, looking up from your notes. jaemin shook his head.
"yeah, he said he couldn't be bothered for todays lectures." mark replied to your question.
"oh..." you said, confused. you shared a look with yeri that spoke more than words. you weren't even upset, just disappointed and confused. shrugging you went back to your notes, trying to remove a certain brunette from your mind.
you finally got home later in the evening after a (un)successful study session. having had enough university for one day, you decided to make a quick dinner and relax when your phone sounded with a notification.
"movie night?" read a text from donghyuck. you raised your eyebrows, debating your answer. with a sigh you typed back, "be over in 20". knowing that donghyuck was coming over, you included him in your dinner and brought out a few snacks. despite the excitement building inside you, you still couldn't help but feel nervous and unprepared. he makes you feel nervous, yet you couldn't exactly figure out why...
25 minutes later there was a knock on your door.
"puncual," you said opening it. outside your apartment stood a smiling donghyuck with his hands in his pockets.
"happy to see you too, y/n", he said sarcastically. you rolled your eyes and opened the door further to allow him to come in. you walked back to the kitchen, donghyuck following close behind. he leaned forward on the counter, looking at you as you prepared a meal for the two of you.
"so," you started, "what's with the disappearing act?" you said, not turning around.
donghyuck looked around your apartment, clearly avoiding the question, "i don't know what you mean". now you turned around and raised an eyebrow, looking at him incredulously. a small part of you couldn't help but wonder if he didn't show up today to avoid you.
"okay, i just didn't want to go today. we had shitty classes." he rolled his eyes, not meeting yours. donghyuck normally showed up to most of your lectures - more often than you did - he took his studies surprisingly seriously.
"i don't buy it," you replied, turning back to the pots on the stove. donghyuck sighed and burried his face in his hands.
"i just..." he took a deep breath "i don't know, i've been feeling weird." he finally said.
you furrowed your eyebrows, "how do you mean?" you said as you moved to the counter, standing opposite him. he couldn’t hold eye contact with you, knowing you were the cause of his misunderstood feelings. meanwhile you were wondering whether you did something to cause him feeling this way.
"just like...things are changing, and i can't do anything about it. even though, i so badly want to avoid this i just feel like i can't anymore." he speaks quietly, like he's afraid of saying these things.
"you're not making any sense..." you said with a confused expression. trying your hardest not to show it, you started to piece together his words and your heart did a few flips. donghyuck waved his hand, dismissing his words.
"nevermind, i'll get over it." he said, moving over to sit on your couch. you looked at him for a bit longer as he picked out a movie on your tv, before moving to sit next to him with two plates in your hands.
the both of you ate the dinner you made, and managed to finish three bags of sweets. now the two of you were laying legs up on the couch in your apartment.
"i'm going to die," you said dramatically, hands on your stomach "why did you let me eat so much?"
donghyuck widened his eyes, "don't put this on me!". you turned your head to look at him, and he did the same. after a short while the both of you burst out laughing.
"come on. i'll carry you, since it's all my fault," he said sarcastically, rolling his eyes and standing from the couch. you smiled at him and outstreched your arms. he carefully picked you up, carrying you bridal style to your bedroom. you suddenly became aware of his hold on you, and how it was making you feel. you felt safe. before your mind could spiral further, donghyuck placed you in your bed. he sat down by your side, tucking you in. the both of you looked at each other for a while, not saying anything. donghyuck raised his hand and moved some hair from your face, causing your breath to hitch. you'd never seen that look on his face. he was looking at you like you'd pieced together the universe and created everything good to ever exist.
"do you want to stay the night?" you whispered. it wasn’t unusual for the two of you to have sleepovers.
he smiled slightly, "no, i don't think i should." donghyuck replied, removing his hand from your face. he knew that if he were to sleep in the same bed as you tonight - after slowly coming to terms with his feelings - he wouldn't be able to control himself.
"goodnight, y/n. i'll see you tomorrow, " he said, standing from your bed and making his way towards your door. you laid in bed for a while, thinking back on the strange interaction.
you did not see him tomorrow. you actually didn’t see him for the rest of the week, and you couldn't help but think he was avoiding you. every text you sent him was answered bluntly and without any emotions. inbetween classes, you were eating lunch with all your friends.
"hey what's up with, hyuck? have you guys spoken to him?" you said, looking around the table. some shook their heads, while mark simply said "no, have you?"
you also shook your head, and at that your friends shared knowing looks. you furrowed your brows. "okay, what's with the weird looks?" you asked, confused.
"y/n, you're just slightly oblivious." yeri said with a sigh.
"what's that supposed to mean?" you asked defensively.
"what she means," jaemin said, giving yeri a pointed look "is that you should talk to hyuck. i think you would both benefit from an honest conversation." he finished.
you furrowed your brows further, "can you stop with these criptic messages, and just say what you want to say?" you sighed.
mark shook his head, "not our place to say." you looked at all of them confused, feeling like they know something you dont. "okay..." you trailed off, "i guess i'll go over to his place later on." you went back to your food. a feeling of dread and excitement started brewing within you. could this finally be the time donghyuck returned your feelings? or could it be something totally the opposite?
after classes finished you stopped by your place to pick up all the notes from this week, then made your way to donghyuck's apartment. you heaved a sigh before bringing your hand up, and knocking a few times. footsteps could be heard from the other side, then the door opened revealing donghyuck looking slightly disheveled. there were bags under his eyes, he was dressed in sweats and a hoodie. his eyes widened slightly when he saw you on his doorstep.
"y/n, hi." he said, in disbelief.
"hey? you okay? i came to bring you the notes from this week, and apparently to check on you..." you trailed off, taking in his appearance.
donghyuck shook his head, "you didn't have to, i'm fine." he insisted, forcing a small smile. you nodded softly, looking at him. the two of you stood there, looking at each other.
"can i come in?" you asked finally. the boy before you looked like he was contemplating your question, before he opened the door wider motioning for you to come inside. you walked into his apartment to see his bedding on the couch and the tv paused, it was quite messy which was unlike him.
"i'm really fine, you didn't have to come all this way y/n." he said, walking after you and picking stuff up off the floor.
"yeah, looks like it." you said, placing the notes on the table in his kitchen. you turned to look at him, as he stood behind you with his hands in his pockets. narrowing your eyes you looked at him.
"hyuck," you tilted your head, a ghost of a smile on your face. he looked you in the eyes for a moment, before he resorted to looking around his suddenly very interesting apartment. "what is going on?" you asked softly, not wanting to pressure him.
"nothing's going on," he shrugged, still not looking at you. the brunette was hoping he could avoid having this conversation with you. he hoped that if he didn't show up to any classes this week, he'd get over his feelings and everything would go back to normal.
"something is definitely going on. mark won't tell me, he said it's not his place. you're not looking well-" you said, pleading with your eyes.
"you know what i mean, you look like you haven't slept in days. you haven't been showing up to classes, even renjun is worried." you sighed, exasperated. "please, just talk to me. you know i'm always here for you. we're best friends, hyuck, and it feels like you've been avoiding me and i can't figure out why." you looked at him, hoping for an answer that will clear up your running thoughts. "is it... is it because of the other night?"
donghyuck suddenly looked up at you. "no! i mean yes," he shook his head. "kind of?"
as he looked at you, he realised that his detachement, that was supposed to help him get over his sudden feelings for you, hurt you more than he imagined. he sighed heavily, knowing he's going to have to tell you the truth.
"look, i just want to say i'm sorry. and i was actually hoping we could avoid this conversation, and that this wouldn't take this long and that everything would just go back to normal." he rambled, without getting to the point.
"what are you talking about? what wouldn't take this long?" you looked at him with furrowed eyebrows.
"me getting over you." donghyuck said quietly, avoiding eye contact. your eyes widened - this was the last thing you expected him to say.
"what?" you breathed out. he finally looked you in the eyes, and you could see all the emotions he had been holding in.
"i really didn't want this to ruin our friendship, you're my best friend and i don't what i would do if i lost you. that's why i've been trying to get over this, but y/n" he chuckled "you're extremely hard to get over." he smiled softly, looking at you.
unconsciously, you had moved closer to him, now standing only a foot away. "how long have you felt like this?" you asked.
donghyuck shrugged in response, "a few weeks, maybe months," he looked at you, ashamed and awaiting your rejection.
"hyuck," your eyes softened, and you took a step closer placing your hand on his cheek.
donghyuck looked down, "i don't want your pity y/n, please," he pleaded, shaking his head slightly.
"i don't pity you, hyuck. i um," you paused, searching for his eyes, "i actually feel the same way." you almost whispered. he immediately looked you in the eyes, searching for any signs of lies or deception.
"are you serious?" donghyuck asked quietly, his eyes showing raw emotion. it wasn’t often that donghyuck was vulnerable with you, usually fighting his own battles.
"one hundred percent," you nodded, a smile spreading on your face. a smile made its way to his own face, mirroring your expression.
"really? are you sure about this?" he asked again, incredulous.
you laughed softly, "i'm so serious, hyuck. i've been wanting this for a while actually." he looked at you fondly, holding that same look from a few nights ago. your own eyes moved down to his lips and lingered for a few moments. donghyuck took a deep breath before moving closer to you and finally placing his own lips on yours. the kiss shared all the feelings the both of you had been holding in for too long.
"is this okay?" he whispered inbetween kisses. your nod was a good enough response to keep kissing you. he wrapped his arms around your waist, pulling you impossibly closer while yours stayed around his neck. the both of you pulled away after a while, big smiles spreading on your face and his too.
"you really came here to bring me notes?" donghyuck laughed. you leaned your head back laughing with him.
"shut up," you said, leaning back in, feeling his lips on your once again.
first post!! kinda very nervous but excited. i haven't written in actual YEARS so this might not be that good 😅 let me know and i hope you enjoy! my asks are always open PLS SEND SMTH I NEED IDEAS 🙏🏻
