OK INTRO (again...)

Welcome to all entities, ladies, gentlemen the inbetweens the not at all's, gods, humans and Non-humans to he NixieRain blog. He's cool, he's burned out, he's an artist. Best part is he's trans masc and Agender!! And now for rules and basic information!

DNI: Pedophiles/MAPs, Zoophiles, Necrophiles, TERFS, Homophopes, Transphopes, Anti-alterhuman, People who support zoo's and Pedo's. This probably goes with homophobes but people who hate fembois. emo haters. Scene haters. Just mean people in general. cishet middle aged white men. Trump supporters.

Names and pronouns you can call me: - Nyx (He/they possibly bun or ey/em) - Rain (He/they) - V1rUs (h3/1T) -- (Virus - He/it) - Onyx (He/him) - Sphynx (Any but she/her) Nicknames you can think of if they are approved (I wouldnt mind being called Bun)

I redrew some of my sprites for Arvil

I wanna -ost em cause I'm not sure if gmail worked and this is the easiest way to get them on my computer :b

Also I'm really tired... sooooo

I'm pretty sure ive posted Arvil before... maybe... but they're a character in the game me and my friend are gonna make that were working on. It finally has a name and its called "You trust me, right?"

so yay, if yall want to know more, just ask ig.

Uhhhhh....

Why is emo pink... out of all colors they couldve chosen... it was pink. and preppy is blue. at first I got them confused. wtf

Oh yeah, I was doing a cringe quiz for fun. I'm apparently hot too :3

haha... Not the thoughts of being false sneaking in at night

The thoughts that you might just actually be a cis girl in a phase rather than a trans boy whose really feminine

Or that you've been faking this entire time That maybe you arent a femboy at all. And that your life is a lie

And your dysphoria is a bit down and you actually might like havig tits for once and then you start paniking cause that means you arent a boy. But you are one, just not physically and it drives you nuts cause its starting to worry you. And cause everyone misgenders you, you start to misgender yourself and grow a bit too comfy with feminine terms a bit too much

But then you remember that you are literally just a feminine, agender, trans guy and that its fine. But then you think you might be genderfluid cause you used to identify as that, but no you arent cause you arent a girl. You are naything BUT a girl.

and AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH you just wanna scream and you with you were just born a cis guy so you can be a cis femboy

UGH

I hate randomly getting really cold And other times I feel like I'm dying from being too hot

W-what?? Who do I owe an eggroll?

uh... ok

[Gives eggroll]

Uh, I realized I'm a walking controversy today

I wore my school uniform with a skirt today... Soooooo. I'm a trans boy in a skirt... Which probably doesnt sit right with my, i guess a bit conservitive school, I mean of course theres queers there, those are my friends

But I realized this cause someone said that Boys dont wear skirts But uh, I'm a boy, and I wear skirts.... Cause boys can also wear skirts

I spent over 2 HOURS unlacing and relacing my knee high converse

But now the laces look cool :3

wish I got a pic

I hate my mind

I shouldn't take so much of a attack from losing in mario kart! And just a few races too, I still won (Cause I'm the champion)

Is it an ego blow. I never actually fully understood what an ego was. Or what it was for me. idk

But still, If I lose in that Then I'm not as good as I thought, and then I'm not good. Which means I'm not perfect, which means I'm not the best. Which means I am meaningless.

Thats my thought process so...... I'm a wee bit pissed off, But I think I'm going to be ok in a few more minuets.

My dad hit a deer

She'll probably be ok Just a limp and in a daze Poor baby. I wanna help And the worst part was I had a small feeling a deer was gonna run out in front of the car. I shouldve said something I feel so bad

But life goes on I guess Billions of living organisms die every day But the world keeps turning And mother nature protects their spirits So I know if the deer dies, shes in good hands in the afterlife And then maybe she'll live again

Social exaustion Xb

I'm so tired of people