just a vent blog ig

I'm definitely going to edit this at some point but just some initial thoughts

I just made that to be able to repost BPD things without my fp seeing them so I don't guilttrip them into staying. And because they know my sign off on the BPD culture is blog. And now that they don't give a fuck about me anymore, it's just to exist(that last part I mean like half the time)

DNI:

basic dni criteria

zionists(covered in basic dni but I wanna put it out there)

ableists(including ableism against cluster Bs)

people who think anyone is abusive for having thoughts

kinda funny how everyone cares until they get to know me

"that's toxic" well, it's either that or numbness

*crying screaming throwing up* guys I'm so over them I swear

the worst part of being still here is realising that everything's changed but it's still exactly the same

I'm just waiting for the day my heart stops and I can rest

I don't know what younger me was on but they should have died from it

idk about you all but ceasing to exist sounds more than perfect to me

it's not fair that I have to work on getting better when it's not my fault I'm like this

this whole existing shit ain't working anymore

trauma made you stronger bla bla bla. it did. it also made living joyless

why do you always come back into the lives of people who don't want you around?

in my defence I was close to ending it all

the urge to destroy all the evidence of the pathetic little being I was

wanting closure is so annoying

I have no idea why I'm acting as if I wanna be close to them ever again

you ended it. it's your responsibility to reach out now