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There is an epidemic of transphobia spreading through this fandom amidst announcements from the reboot, and this needs to be acknowledged. And to make this clear, I’m not talking about characters in skirts. I said I wasn’t going to talk about the show anymore but I no longer feel like I can tiptoe around it because of events in the last few weeks. The longer I contain my thoughts in an attempt to not come across as messy or starting drama, the more guilty I feel for participating in this fandom as if I am not aware of the implications it has. There is only so long I can pander to an algorithm that leads people to source material that I condemn. With every announcement I’m seeing more people talking about it, hyping it up, telling people to go back to the originals, and anyone trying to dissuade people from engaging with the reboot is shut down.

I try my best to use the small platform I have to be authentic and hold people accountable. This fandom is supposed to go against everything it’s maker puts out into the world, but sometimes the call is coming from inside the house and I’ve been pretending it isn’t for too long. There’s only so much sincerity people will find in calling out supporting jkr when the comments are coming from a marauders account. I have tried to use my voice to address people who have financially supported jkr, commenting on videos to explain what their money will be going to, but I am often met with nothing. With deleted comments or rebuttals or excuses. I have had people say that jkr is so rich she won’t notice. THAT IS NOT THE POINT. She sees this support for her creations as support for her transphobic message, if everyone thinks that just one scarf won’t matter, just one visit to the studios won’t make a difference, that jkr won’t notice if you buy the boxset of books from amazon just once, she might not notice but we do. If £50 doesn’t make a difference to you when you give it to her then donate it to a charity that needs it. Because she is donating thousands to charities who want to eradicate trans people from existence. As a NB person, my gender is already not legal recognised in the UK, for the foreseeable future my gender marker is stuck as it is, but at least I still have protection from hate crimes and discrimination, but I am terrified this will get taken away.

I’m becoming increasingly uncomfortable with the interactions both within this community, people are far too comfortable sending abuse based on small disagreements or personal matters and then don’t understand the effects. I’ve only been in this fandom for a year and a half, and far too often what has started as innocent conversation about headcanons or even my own Autism and how it affects me has become a personal attack on myself and my beliefs or how I talk and present myself. I shouldn’t have to just put up with this.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that this fandom takes more than it gives these days and I’m so exhausted of being told that’s just how it is and to deal with it or leave. I’ll still be lingering and my asks and DMs will stay open but I won’t be the same Nox you might be used to.

Making this post feels like stating the fucking obvious at this point, but as a trans creator in the marauders fandom I feel so beyond unwelcome, so beyond unsafe and at this point I feel stupid for even trying to raise awareness to the fact that this is how fandom is making me feel.

I know I'm nowhere near the only trans person in this fandom that feels the same way, but I also know that so many, like myself up until now, feel like it's talking to a fucking door every time we try and bring attention to it.

This fandom claims to be diverse and welcoming and it's all a fucking joke. Genuinely. I entered this fandom not even a year and a half ago and in this short period of time the complacency but also the blatant transphobia has gotten so much fucking worse, it's absolutely ridiculous.

People will put fuck JKR in their bios but they'll still buy her merch because "oh well she won't even notice cause she's already got so much money". Which is a thing I've actually been told when calling people out for buying her shit.

It shouldn't fall on me or any other trans person to police what people do, or even to remind people that they shouldn't be supporting JKR but it sincerely feels like if we don't say anything then people will continue to give her money because people can only be an ally to trans people when it's convenient.

The amount of times I've gotten into fights with people in comment sections because I've been "too harsh" with telling people off is insane. If me telling you that you should be ashamed is making you so uncomfortable then perhaps it's because you actually need to look inwards. Being called out for being complacent and downright transphobic is not supposed to be a comfortable experience. If you didn't want to be called out then maybe don't give us a reason to do it.

Even as I'm saying all of this, it feels utterly pointless. The fandom no longer feels the same for me. With the rise of people falling for every bullshit queerbaiting tactic the reboot is pulling and with how blatant people are being in the fact that they just don't care about making trans people feel safe—not even when the political climate around trans people is so fucking terrifying for us right now, not even now can we just relax and enjoy fandom—it's hard to be a trans person in the marauders fandom.

The amount of guilt that follows with enjoying this fandom is overpowering, and just about everything trans creators do for this fandom is taken for granted, whether it's our fics that get called fetishistic or our headcanons that are too woke, there's always something. The fact that me making this post was inspired by one of our bigger trans creators having their deadname outed is insane. How can this fandom claim to be inclusive and welcoming and a safe space for trans people when this happens? How can SO MANY people ignore stuff like this? I don't understand how everyone in this fandom isn't absolutely pissed that this sort of people are in our fandom. But then again, if these people are your friends, your favourite creators, etc, it's much easier to be complacent.

I don't know what the point of this post fully is, I've not really posted much on my account lately, and it's because of stuff like this.

This fandom needs to get their shit together and they need to put their money where their mouths are. You cannot call yourself an ally to trans people while giving JKR money, no matter how little you give her. She might not notice it, but trans people do, because each cent given to her is being spent on anti trans bullshit and she's said multiple times that if you give her money then you agree with her.

Going to Universal Studios or buying a jegulus build a bear or some stupid game should not be more important to you than trans people feeling safe and welcome and accepted.

Maybe you'll finally start to care about trans people when we start leaving the fandom, but it really shouldn't be like this.

I have a new enemy, someone was in the comments of one of my crownest edits asking the ship name so me and Alex explained why they're called crownest and he called one of Alexander's headcanons a lie saying that they can't be scared of intimacy because Igor "do who he pleases" and Sev chooses to be a virgin, and when I told them to be respectful if they don't agree with headcanons rather than calling them lies, and that intimacy can also be emotional, they replied "no thx 👍" and deleted the comment thread and now I'm just laughing because admit you know you're in the wrong without saying you know you're in the wrong 😂 like come on Benny, we had something good going where I teach you basic discussion skills and what a headcanon is

*evan getting mad at barty for something stupid he did*

barty: you’re being homophobic

evan: WE’RE LITERALLY DATING??

daily reminder that hiding behind a keyboard doesn't give you the right to be rude

i eat sleep and breathe rosekiller like genuinely there is no other ship in the history of ships as good as they are

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