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Beast

@ourdyingbeast / ourdyingbeast.tumblr.com

i swear these things are full of rage
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I hate you. I fucking hate you. I swear to god I hate you more than everything else in this fucking godforsaken universe. You ruined my fucking life.

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I'm filled with divine love and undying rage

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I feel this. I'm filled with love, soft and sweet--caressing and empathetic almost to a fault. My tears falling for people I do not know and words I fail to say. I want more strong, steadiness in that divine love and will it to be loving toward myself as well, holy and pure to myself and my body-- every imperfection.

Simultaneously I'm trying to store that deep rooted carnal rage somewhere else-- in times when I need to dig deep, find my courage, voice, and shaking hands turn firm and clenched white bone with powerful confidence.

Because too often have I not loved myself enough, and gave myself fully and unconsciously to others who were not kind.

Too often have I lashed out too violently, and left hot wounds that guilt couldn't take back.

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It hurts

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I'm forever broken. I need help. I'm scared for my life.

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Hey. Things can get better, friends. I know we all hate ourself and want to die and will die evenutally. Just, do not underestimate love.

#recovery
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