if only » jeong yunho
SYNOPSIS: Jeong Yunho is somebody you've spent almost the entirety of your life with, coming up against almost everything together— troubles, trials, laughter, love. But perhaps it's because you loved each other too much and too soon... that everything has become a little too late.
PAIRING: yunho x gn!reader
THEME/S: "the one that got away", best friend!yunho
⚠️ WARNINGS: none i think (lmk if there are!)
Jealousy has never been really a frequent undertaker of problems in yours and Yunho’s friendship, but that’s also because neither of you are really entitled to feel the emotion.
To what extent can a friend be allowed to feel and contain an insurmountable amount of jealousy, for not belonging to the other’s arms? It stems from being just a mere little ignition; faint, unnoticed— until it sparks into bigger flames and burns a large chunk of your chest.
And god, do you keep telling yourself, if only I could say it out loud.
Then you’d ask yourself again, what’s stopping you from doing so? But like every other time, you couldn’t find a good answer.
Yunho’s laughter rings into a blur as you trail off in a haze, a daydream; captivating your very being and making it seem like there’s nobody else in the room but him. You take good notice of the crescents of his eyes, how there’s a faint glimmer radiating from his orbs; the crinkles of his nose, and the full, vibrant, smile on his lips.
And then you see it. You finally get it.
This is what’s stopping you from saying it out loud.