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Love when a blog is like, "safe space for traumagenic systems" which yay cool, traumagenic systems can have separate spaces since our experience is different to other genics. But then they hit you with that DNI: Proendo support. Oh so I am only allowed to be in traumagenic only spaces if I conform to your personal ideas on what a system is or isn't. So anyways I am pro endo despite being a traumagenic DID system. My fiancé is an endogenic system so like they are valid & real.
I used to be truscum. You know, transmedicalism. I am trans, I genuinely believed that all nonbinary and non dysphoric trans people were faking being trans for attention. I argued that one required dysphoria to be considered trans. I fake claimed trans supporters of non binary people. I made claims that because they weren't suffering like I was, they were making a mockery of what I was experiencing.
I asked the question: Why would anyone who wasnt dysphoric go through this unless for attention? I accused them of stealing resources from 'legitimately' trans people. I accused them of being transphobic. Of wearing my identity as a costume to feel special. I had stories of a single individual nonbinary person who hurt me that I used to paint all nonbinary people as predatory. I accused happy trans people of faking because how could they like how they look and find joy and whimsy in what was to me nothing but suffering and pain.
I was blatently wrong about ALL of this. So when I say that anti-endos are the same as transmeds, this is where Im coming from. The arguments are EXACTLY the same ones I was making to excuse my own bigotry towards a group of people I didn't understand: nonbinary and non dysphoric trans people. I have yet to see a single anti-endo stance that doesnt have a direct parallel to the bigoted stuff i used to say when I was sipping the truscum koolaid.
sorry about this being disorganized or if my speech is off, but my hot take is anti endos use means of propagandizing their ideals the same way conservatives and right wingers do.
they definitely don't do as much harm as them! especially not on the global scale. but lets look at it a little bit closer, just a little bit.
fear mongering, hate-trains & harassment, misinfo, using manipulative language against the other party.. ostracizing and putting those they deem unfit for their standards on blast, and expecting people they come across to conform to set ideas of that standard when they learn they're of your own group.. demeaning and downright denying others experiences and the ways they live their lives because of their own personal issues with it.. manipulating and twisting others words when it benefits them and their ideals...
a lot of the time they choose to lead with hate and disdain rather than trying to understand and accept the way other systems function. distrust is frequent in their own community especially. the only way they're actually joined together and holding hands is through hating a specific person or group of people because they need the validation that they're doing this 'for the better'. otherwise its back to playing "Where's Waldo: CDD Faker Edition" behind the scenes.
kind of reminds me of something a lot of us on this site mutually disagree with.
just some food for thought. someone else can probably say this much more eloquently and put together than i ever could, so apologies again for any issues with vocabulary, structure and generalizations. thanks for hearing me out.
- a CDD system that has personally seen anti endos being genuine assholes in ways weve stated above multiple times.
this entire post, really anon
we've seen all of this far too often and the sad thing is they think they're doing something impressive by telling other people that are living, breathing and existing that they don't exist.
just how conservatives say being trans isn't real and that we're just all confused
saying something isn't real doesn't make it magically not exist
just saying
very cheesed to see someone else acknowledging the pervasive hypocrisy in anti-endo spaces. another big one is how they claim their stance is to "protect the community from fakers" or some other insistence that endos/related are bad actors, and proceed to.. you know. exclude other disordered systems from osddid spaces on the basis of supporting endos. a la the very blatant implication of "you're fake if you believe in them because a Real System wouldnt believe in them". like dude. seriously? where am i
yeah, also like... claiming endos are "fakers" is always so weird to me because... in order to fake DID or OSDD-1, wouldnt you kind of need to claim that you HAVE the disorder??? endos dont claim DID or OSDD-1 to begin with LMFAOO so how would they be faking it
My imposter syndrome for diagnosed DID went away when my answer for "Oh God what if I'm faking what if I'm just so mentally ill and making it all up?" Became "If I think I'm plural I can just... Be plural. No prerequisites, no trauma needed. I can just be comfortable with what's going on in my head."
Thank you endo systems ❤️
"traumagenic systems only, Endo supporters fuck off" just call me a faker bro
I cannot put into words how insulting it is to be a DID system formed from classic DID style abuse and be completely excluded from "traumagenic systems" because I think its okay to have weird identities that don't make sense . I did not get a dissociative disorder just to have some 14 year olds on Tumblr.com tell me "supporting endos" excludes me from DID/OSDD spaces
"nobody is denying that an innerworld is not a real place" we are 👋
Like gateway systems, which are systems who feel like their headspace is an existing world, aren't that uncommon. Hell that's what we've identified as since like 2016.
We view our headspace as a real place metaphysically. It might not have the same properties as the physical world and it's a complex thing, but yeah we would consider it to be a real place overall and more a dimension we inhabit.
This isn't even a system-specific belief. There are singlets who might have inner worlds that they consider real, see astral travel/astral spaces. We've met plenty of maladaptive daydreamers too who feel their paracosms are real.
Also once again, comorbidity with psychosis and sanism aside, boy howdy you guys have to stop telling people things aren't real when dealing with dissociative disorders
radqueers: glorify and encourage abuse, encourage grooming and pedophilic relationships, support ableism and racism, support "fults," support nazis, minors asking/posting about wanting to be assaulted by adults, support for CSEM, and other things I cannot remember. endos: exist without being disordered am I missing something here, or am I just stupid?
Plurality is so weird because half the time I don't even realize and just go "huh weird, suddenly I'm feeling a huge disconnect between current me and me from 2 days ago and my whole gender and identity have became something else and I feel a strong need to change what name I'm called and how I present myself almost like I became I whole new person within such a short time span. I wonder why that is. I must just be really fluid or was simply wrong about what I am the entire time before or something," and then five days later I go "huh weird, I have gone back to my previous state after this odd and peculiar phase so to speak and now I feel a strong disconnect from the me from five days ago like I just temporarily became a whole new person within such a short time span. I wonder why that is. Must have been just a phase, now I feel stupid for feeling that way so strongly then just changing my mind back," and despite having lived as a(n aware) plural system/collective/little kitty cat clowder for nearly a year now it still does not ever cross my mind that perhaps, maybe, just maybe, that was literally just a whole ass new guy that I split (as I do. Because I'm plural. Because that's what it does. Very often, mind you. Because I know that I'm plural and what being plural does) up until it's like, well after the fact. Despite it being so incredibly embarrassingly blatantly obvious the entire time. Anyway you won't ever guess what just happened