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Kojin-Sei !

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🎐 ִֶָ 𓂃 Traumagenic ⭑ Anti-Endo ⭑ AuDHD Collectively ⭑MINOR!!!!! IM A MINOR!!!!!!!!! 20+ DNI UNLESS WE'RE ALREADY MOOTS ⚝

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Hello! We're Kojin or Kojin-sei! We're a traumagenic DID system with collective AuDHD. This account is just for headmates to post their thoughts, get energy out, have a sense of popularity/being famous(?) etc. Ask questions if you want, we'll get to them as soon as possible!

Boundaries —— ✧

  • Endos DNI please! We are not afraid to block, and we will not interact first
  • Feel free to spam like, reblog, wtv!
  • Don't ask intruding questions, flirt, start discourse, ect. I know that should be obvious, but still
  • Ask as many questions abt the sys as you please!! We're very open to questions

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Just to keep this intro short and sweet for aesthetic purposes, unnecessary things like intros, extra info, etc. will be under the cut

I think what singlets forget when meeting systems Is that..

That system friend, has always been a system. DID/OSDD forms In childhood. Let's say your 18 year old friend came out as a system; they're not a 'system now'. They were always a system, they just found out, that doesn't mean they JUST became a system, they were always a system, they just discovered their disorder and alters. I think this type of misconception leads to a lot of things like: ''i don't wanna meet any of your alters'' ''i only wanna talk to you'' You have already talked to their alters before. They are an alter too, always has been. Their disorder didn't just pop out of nowhere. They're not the 'original' or 'core' because there never was one. You have already talked to their alters, and they're not any different from the other alters. Please don't disrespect them and their system. sorry this is kind of badly worded, let me know if you need any clarification

Uhmmm hot take: DONT FUCKING HARRASS MINORS????

I don't care if they're endos, I don't care if they're willogenic, I don't care if they're proshippers, I don't care if they're dark or comshippers, I don't care if they have a paraphilia

THAT DOESNT MAKE IT RIGHT TO HARRASS THEM???

YOU KNOW THATS LIKE... AN ACTUAL CRIME RIGHT?? LIKE A SUPER SERIOUS CRIME???? CYBERBULLYING & ONLINE HARRASSMENT TOWARDS MINORS IS A SUPER SERIOUS CRIME ITS REALLY IMPORTANT TO ME THAT YOU KNOW THAT

Unfriendly reminder if you cyberbully someone into killing themselves you'll be legally responsible for their death and sentenced for murder

Systems who think final fusion Is turning Into a singlet seriously irritate me. Final fusion Is not that. It's 1. integrating the system Into one single and coherent identity 2. Processing and having full access to trauma from an integrated persepective 3. Progessing in functioning and taking upon more healthy coping mechanisms instead of dissociative ones Once you have DID/OSDD, you will always have it. You still have the capability of splitting, too. It does not magically go away when you fuse Into 'one'. You are still a system, your alters are still there, but they are simply apart of a single identity now and you hold their emotions, beliefs, thoughts, etc. Your alters did not 'disappear' or 'die'. They are still there. Right there, they did not go anywhere. Alters aren't these 'completely seperate people' (although some systems may want to view themselves that way) , medically, they are parts of you. They are all you, you are them. When you go Into final fusion, you aren't killing your alters. They will be there, with you, but Instead of being fragmented, you will have one, single, identity, where all of you can work together as one. Of course this isn't to say functional multiplicity can't work, It absolutely can and that is our goal. This post is mainly to clear up misconceptions systems have about final fusion. Your alters did not disappear. You are simply apart of them, as much as they are apart of you.

we've been realizing that we dont have much of a different handwriting style, except a few of us write faster and with bigger letters

but the "font" doesn't change

we struggle to come to terms with this kinda stuff. that the handwriting is the body's and doesn't change much because it relates to some of the trauma we have

and ya know what; its fine that we don't have largly differing handwriting styles. if anyone says otherwise, skill issue :3

Btw y’all crying that y’all won(like ik y’all would which is why I checked) you didn’t <3

I’m legit just not using the app bc I have a life outside of it 🫶

you clearly don't 🤣 I bet all you do is sob in the dark at what a failure you are, resorting to harassing minors over dumb shit

Fuck off like you said you would

-Blurry

Well now since you want me gone, I’ll check in everyday when I get a chance to out of sheer spite <3

Cry harder lesbiphobe 🫶

That's a really sad excuse to say your chronically online ass can't get off tumblr

The secret to a perfect performance for me isn’t anything that can be taught or learned— It’s biological!

Stumbling around like a drunken baby deer, always seeing the room spin and spin and spin… Do you know how much of a silly mood that puts you in?! Oh, it’s the perfect set-up for a performance where your goal is to be funny and make your audience laugh! There’s really nothing like it!

And it’s never-ending so I’m revving to go at any point, truly dedicated to my craft… Is there anything better than that? It’s a good thing being a jester is a pretty outdated career choice nowadays or I’d be taking everyone’s job in a heartbeat! ☆〜(ゝ。∂)

PUHLEASE don't cancel me for this but like... hot take...

Just because you have a cluster b disorder doesn't give you an excuse to be a BITCH

Yeah, cluster b abuse doesn't exist. You can still just be simply ABUSIVE though.

Yeah, I get that the symptoms can enable you to be abusive (ex. No empathy, splits, mood swings, etc) but that is NO excuse.

You can still control how you treat others. Paraphrasing something a friend with BPD told me, "You still know what you're doing when you split. You can still control it"

A lack of empathy is no excuse to treat others like shit, you still have sympathy and you can also just?? Fake empathy???

I see SOOOO many horrible mfs with cluster b disorders blaming all their bad behavior on their disorder. YOU CAN STILL CONTROL HOW YOU TREAT OTHERS!!!!! ITS LITERALLY NO EXCUSE!!!!!!!! SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!

its so unbelievable how some people with cluster b will still actively be shitty to people?? our boyfriend has bpd and he always has such a hard time coping with some of the toxic behaviors that he can't control as well. after seeing how much guilt it causes him I really don't understand how someone could use a disorder like bpd as an excuse to be shitty

An old toxic friend of mine with BPD would split on us (as in the friendgroup I was in) and say VILE things to us. So bad tumblr is the only website I can actually say what she said to us on, and I can't even say like a quarter of it because it's all slurs not even SHE could reclaim.

Had another friend with BPD in that same friendgroup. The nicest, most caring person I've ever met and we're still friends to this day.

Both had splits, one decided to keep that away from us and manage it as best they could. The other took it out on us.

Idk why I need to say this, but if you're anti endo, and you say that plural is a system exclusive term and only for CDDs, PLEASE just stop and learn what plural actually means. Coming from someone who is also anti endo, gatekeeping plural from them is ridiculous.

Like bro that is a term EXPLICTLY made to include endos. They have every right to use it ffs. Let them call themselves plural. Sure, it's fine to have issues with them using system, I do too, but don't get mad at them for using a term they made for themselves.

Anonymous asked:

as a (transgender, transsexual, genderqueer) system formed from trauma who is pro-endo, i don't really think transmed or sysmeds, which i don't usually use as a term unless it's being used under a very specific type of anti endo, are bad people? although i do understand most people treat them like they're bad people. however i do think, comparing me to people who are pro-the literal things that caused me to become a system, is kinda disgusting.

I get that, though in general I've never seen sysmed used in specific contexts, ever time I've seen people use it, it's to refer to anti endos as a whole.

Many pro endos *do* think we're bad people. I know there are plenty of others that don't, but there's a concerning amount that, at the very least, treat us like bad people. Many anti endos have been hurt by transmeds, us included, but we're still constantly compared to them and treated as the same by many pro endos. Even though it's not all pro endos, and by the sound of it, I highly doubt you're the kind to do so, it's still a lot of you that do.

The reason I'm comparing pro endos to radqueers is not to make pro endos out to be awful people, I'm just pointing out some of the similarities I've seen. I'm not comparing the people themselves, but rather their arguments.

I'd also like to note; I've been compared to my abusers by pro endos multiple times. I know how that feels, and it's awful, but I want you to know I'm not trying to say you're just like them. I know you, and the other anti radqueer pro endos, are not like them, just that the arguments I see a lot of pro endos use are similar to those radqueers make.

I'm not at all trying to say you're like the people who hurt you, not at all. The whole reason I made these posts was to point out similarities people have overlooked, and trying to spark a more nuanced discussion about the sysmed term, seeing as it's always been very one-sided.

I want to make it clear, I don't see you, or any other pro endo as radqueers, nor do I think you support the deplorable things they do.

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This also means they can spy on straight people just to make sure they aren't lgbt. This is not just against gay people, it's a cover up for violating human rights. It's never just against one group of people, it's always about controlling the masses while blaming a group of people so nobody looks at the root of the problem.

You will gain nothing and lose everything by ostracizing and judging your alters who split as fictives.

You are not protecting yourself from judgement of strangers on the internet, you are only making your alters feel unwelcome in their own system: making it harder for them to heal, and harder for them to process what the pseudomemories they might have could be a substitute for in your (collective your) literal memories.

No alter chooses how or when they split, no alter gets to choose if they split as an introject or not. No alter chooses how many or how little pseudomemories they split with, and no alter gets to choose how affected they are by them. It's nothing but unfair to hold these things against them, in a system that is supposed to be helping them work through these things, in a system where they are supposed to feel safe.

Turn off your ask box before you start talking to your other alters about how embarrassed you are to have a guy who looks like a skeleton in headspace.

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