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ΘΔ | She/Her or They/Them | 25 | Poly | NSFW | Men + Minors DNI birdgirl into hypnosis, HDG stuff, and other assorted kinks i am a massive sub and half the reason i made this blog is to try and find people to play with me. if we're mutuals you are actively encouraged to please reach out in DMs and bully me @dumtranskitty-3 is my beloved floret

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It Takes Time: Chapter 1 & 2

Hi everyone! This is Raqi (formerly LightOfMiquella) here to announce that, after spending several subjective eternities in gay editor jail, I have now finished editing the second draft of arc 1 of my HDG story: It Takes Time (To Be Properly Taken Apart)!

It Takes Time is an interactive story-ARG hybrid fic (translation: it's HDG homestuck everyone who reads it keeps fucking calling it that) that follows the journey of Raqi Marr, a xenosophont from an undomesticated species known as the landamaeri, as she departs from her home society to seek out the Affini Compact. Shortly after arriving, she accidentally kidnaps one of the affini, and is forced to socialise with her; a rather unfortunate turn of events which will ultimately result in the domestication of 10 billion people.

But before that can happen, our little gay bird has lots to do! She must learn to navigate her new un-planned-for relationship with the homosexual spaghetti inhabiting her ship, and figure out how to endure being around the affini without giving in to the temptation to let herself get drugged and hypnotised into forgetting why she came to Compact space. Will she manage to remain independent, or will she succumb to the allure of domestication and drag all of her loved ones down with her?

Read part 1 here!:

There is also an Ao3 version; however I don't recommend it, as it's lacking all of the interactive elements due to an inability for me to port them onto the site. You can, however, use it to comment on the story if you'd like. The Ao3 version can be found below:

do you guys actually fuck with needy femmes? femmes that wake up from a nightmare at 3am and scramble for their phone because they immediately need to call and hear your voice? femmes that text 'i miss you' and 'where'd you go :(' when you leave the chat for two minutes? femmes that reply as soon as they see your notification? femmes that send 17 messages in a row? femmes that can't cum without you talking them through it? femmes that need to always be touching you? that get sad when you have to leave the house without them? that need extra comfort from you when they're sad or crying? that wonder if you're mad at them if you forget to put your hand on their thigh in the car or open the door for them? that can't cum if they're worried you're bored, so you always have to come up for air from between their thighs to tell them 'take your time' and 'i promise i'm enjoying this'? that tell you they miss you every second you're not there? that wonder what you'd think of something at any given point? that feel disappointed when you don't send them a photo of yourself that day? that can't take a shower without you sitting outside the curtain? that can't go to the kitchen for food unless you're following? femmes that can't sleep without you? that pretend like you're there watching over them and holding them every time they fall asleep alone? that constantly ask what you're up to? that cant do anything without thinking of you? that whine when you drop their hand for a second to do something? that always need to share your food? femmes who, the moment you entered their life, became obsessed? do you fuck with needy, clingy, overbearing, obsessive, high maintenance femmes? do you really rea-

so i was part of a discussion about marking play during which i had a very interesting idea about a unique way this could be employed with dolls. so a lot of dolls have bodies made out of wood, right? and you know what you can do with wood?

woodcarving

doll whose witch has literally etched arcane sigils into her form using a whittling blade, shaving away curl after curl with loving motions of the knife as she delicately carves the correct runes into her new acquisition that will keep it Still whenever she needs it to be. each shard that falls to the ground is a portion of the self lost, an irreplaceable marker of the identity that once existed and that they are now shedding. perhaps when the witch is done carving into them, she fills the holes with liquid gold to finish the process, metaphorically replacing what was lost with a physical indicator of her control; with Her own essence. that way, her dolls will never forget that in a sense, they now are Her; they are made from Her parts, Her actions; their own material now long since lost. perhaps after enough sessions, a doll becomes like the ship of theseus; every original part replaced with a gift from their witch. then, perhaps, they would be able to say that they are, truly and wholly, Hers

witch that uses hypnosis to enchant her dolls in order to keep them nice and empty and Still. whenever she starts to talk in a particular tone of voice, her dolls can feel their limbs starting to stiffen instinctually and irresistibly, as if the invisible force animating them were being drawn out and dissipated with every syllable

the last part to grow Still is always their minds; not because the magic affects them less than the doll's body, but because they cling on harder to awareness than motion, so they can hear more of their witch's words before everything falls to stasis

i just woke up from a six hour long dream of trying desperately to become someone's sub. core themes included worrying that i was being too needy by wanting them to interact with me more/pay me attention, worrying that i was too uninteresting and they were going to get bored of me, and worrying that i needed too much attention and they'd decide that i was cringe and clingy and leave me

honestly felt like a very accurate representation of the general misery of being multiple years into a search for a tist and still not being able to find one

can a hot bitch please just manifest out of thin air and decide i look very cute and birdcageable + would be vastly improved by 200 hours of hypnotic conditioning pls

bad bioessentialism - men are inherently violent and women are weak and fragile

good bioessentialism - her theriotype is a predatory species so you have to let her bite you it’s in her nature to bite you

Polyam possessiveness can be so hot. "You're mine, but I choose to share you, anyway. I own you, so I love to see you happy. Mine, but not mine alone. I love you, and I want to share that love with the world."

you know how some animals can hypnotize their prey? like cuttlefish? I'm thinking about that. like, running for ages and finally being cornered. nowhere to go. waiting for them to attack, and then all of a sudden there's these pretty flashing lights (or a different flavor of hypnosis I'm just thinking about cuttlefish). you're so caught off guard you're completely disarmed and the lights are so pretty that you don't even think to look away. then they purr at you "that's right, keep looking. you're so exhausted from how much running you did, aren't you? sooooo tired. that's all okay now. you're not running anymore. you don't have to run anymore. just relax" and you stare and nod because they're right, you're so tired and you don't have to run anymore. you can relax. you should just listen to the bigger, stronger animal in the room. smarter too. they caught you, so they must be smarter than you. so much smarter. it's not safe for dumb little prey like you to be wandering all by yourself. no, you need someone big and strong and smart like them to take good care of your dumb weak little prey brain. they offer to take you back to their den and you smile and nod. they're so kind to take in such a weak, dumb prey animal like you. they'll take good care of you. and you'll get to stare at their pretty lights as much as you want

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So like.. Think she edged successfully with the lovense for the first time today.. She was like.. Half an hour in on random patrerns when she thought hey, what if she was made still while the toy was kept on.. And so she asked keeper to cast it on her and like.. For the most part of like.. Mostly two to three hours she just remained motionless and she doesn't think she's ever been able to make a trail of precum like that in a very very long time.. Head funny stillnwawa.. 🌸

Zonked ™.. 🌸

You were very, very cute to watch while frozen, petal :3 A very good floret indeed~

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tried and failed to lab a post drawing comparisons between the trans temple priestesses of ancient religions and the way that lots of modern kinky transfems treat hypnosis as borderline/outright spiritual

my point in bringing this up is basically: can we make a new religion centred around hypnotising cute tgirls please i think thatd be really good

Oh God, please? 🥺

In all seriousness I think you're absolutely on to something here. It seems sort of, inherently obvious from the inside, that something special is going on to make hypnosis as an experience so magical, and do closely bundled up in feelings of awe, purpose, and the sense of a higher power (a power which, even if it only resides within each of our brains and doesn't correspond to some greater truth, is worthy of being acknowledged and potentially worshipped).

Okay, rant over. Go back to being super correct and hot and horny and stuff.

the thing is something doesn't need to *actually* be God:tm: to be worshipped. anyone who knows anything about psychology will tell you that spirituality is a thing humans just Do, we are inherently storytelling creatures that get twitchy if we are provided only materialist explanations for everything (specifically things to do with our emotions: being told "X shitty thing is the way it is just because dialectical materialism", for example, is not emotionally persuasive to almost anyone) and we naturally seek out more emotionally fulfilling explanations for why things are the way they are

you literally can't not do this either. people who make a personality out of trying not to do it invariably end up looping back around to doing it harder; which is why when you examine a lot of ultra hardcore atheist "Oh my science!" types, they start to look an awful lot like religious people who worship the idea of there being no god

but anyway the point of this is that when confronted with the fact that having someone talk at you in a specific tone of voice can make you orgasm harder than ten non-hypnotic climaxes combined and also just generally saturate you with pleasurable feelings so strong that they overwhelm everything that you feel in any other situations, deciding this is in some way sacred is in fact an extremely normal human response

oh you poor little thing, poor... broken, creature. what happened to you? what did they do to you? they made you human? oh i see, they made you think you were human. and they threw you out into the world, didn't they? oh sweet thing, i'm so sorry. that never should have happened. you should never have been sent here. come home, darling, come home with me. a creature like you isn't meant to have such, agency. come home with me, become my pet, and be what you know, deep down, you truly are.

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Teasing a cute sub and trying out different phrases until I stumbled upon "you're safe now" and they audibly moaned and started shaking. Did it again while hushing them and petting their head, stroking their back, and they dissolved into an incoherent, crying, dripping mess that needed to cum so, so, so bad that they didn't know words anymore. Softly encouraged them to let it all out safe in my arms, how precious and good they are for me, what a perfect little toy, until they came so hard, they just went blissfully nonverbal for awhile. I'm different now 👍

This post is among my top ones, so I'm speaking it into being, creating this energy via vibes, using my mind powers, etc. to make this real for all of you in the coming new year 🙏 May you have heart-rending, cathartic, ecstatic release while safe in your lover's arms ✨💝

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