GO FOLLOW MY ALT!!! I draw sun and moon on there!!!

@thatsundroplover

oops

Sorry I went radio silent for another 2 months, life has caught up to me recently😔

(and I'm also not hyperfixated on the marauders anymore, so this account has kinda been temporarily thrown into the backseat of a car going 100mph on a highway, where none of the others are wearing seatbelts, and it's going to be a WILD ride😭 #hopethatmadesense)

anyway random headcanon for the sigmas

regulus doesn't really remember much of his childhood. It's bits and blurs of screaming and hatred, none of it ever making sense. He knows more happened than what he can remember, he just can't remember it. He can picture Sirius leaving, he can still hear the sound of the door slamming as his only safety did. He still, after all this time, can feel the brass doorknob digging into his skin as he tried to open the door, and the resistance from the other side. He can smell the perfume Sirius wore as one last rebellion, and Regulus can taste the salty tears running down his face. The five senses. That's what his therapist tells him to remember, those senses, the ones that could help him recover his childhood. But little shards of it will never come back. Like his cousin Andromeda coming over, and the two of them staring into the night, talking about how absolutely fucked the world is. Him and Sirius escaping into the woods at night, to the streets, to the shops. Anywhere, really, anywhere that wasn't their house.

i had the baby dream everyone always talked about.

i recently had a dream. It was in the future, in an apartment I didn't recognize. I had a daughter, and a son. Twins. Rosie and Charlie. I raised those children. Within minutes, it felt like years. I watched them grow up. And then I woke up to just being in the present. Ive always said I'll never have kids (2 reasons: I'm ace, and I just don't think I'm mentally okay enough to actually care for a small human being.) but I miss my dreamt up kids. It sounds so corny but it's true😭 like they aren't my babies but MY BABIES. I literally raised two children just for them to disappear in the morning.

WDYM Vander adopted Powder(now jinx), Vi, Claggor, and Mylo? no he birthed those kids himself. can confirm I was his jacket

i am Remus lupin

lowkey living like Remus lupin rn. Transmasc(?) nerd with back and hip problems whos in love with their so much more popular best friend.

Hi! This is a rant about me just 'casual'ly being in love with my best friend.

ba dum tssss. casual by chappel roan joke in the title.

so like. I've been in love with my best friend for five years. She doesn't know. She thinks I stopped liking her two years ago. I never did. Even though we stopped talking as much, I still dream of her. Her long brown hair, her eyes bluer than the shiniest of diamonds, cut to perfection, ones I could get lost in for the rest of my life, if only she wouldn't look away. I want blue to meet greenish grey. I want j to meet e, I want to love her freely. Her smile shines bright, the words spilling out speak to my soul in ways nobody else could. Our minds and souls intertwined. Every time something changes about one of us, it changes about the other. Even when we hadn't spoken in months. I started liking something, so did she. Her sexuality changed, so did mine. We liked the same people, same medias, and same music. We were the best of friends, to put it simply. I've drawn her, but I could never truly, fully capture the overwhelming beauty she possesses. I could never express that to her. She has a boyfriend. I've hinted to her that I like her, but I don't think I'd ever tell her straight up. Another thing is- when her gender changes to male, I feel like a transmasc gay man. When her gender is female, I feel like a nonbinary lesbian. My gender and sexuality changes to hers, as she is the only one I will ever truly love. I could write books about her, but no amount of books could ever tell the amount of love I have for this girl. She makes me feel alive. My heart races, and my hands shake, as the words spill out of my mouth, ones that I don't want to, that tell her things I never should've said. I should've kept my mouth shut before, but I didn't. I should've waited. So I will wait now. She has said things that make me wonder, even though I know they're not about me. She says 'oh, yeah, I like bigger boys and girls' (we were talking about Claggor and Vander from arcane, for context.) I am bigger. She says she loves losers and nerds. I am a loser and a nerd. She likes people with glasses. I have glasses. She likes people who are funny. She laughs at every stupid joke I make. I know they'll never be about me, but I'm starting to hope. The other day she said we did like each other at the same time, a while back. And it hurts, knowing I could've had a chance to be with the love of my life. And I know that's a hold statement, at 14, but I know it is true. I have never loved anyone as I have loved her. Her laugh is like a song my heart beats along to. Her smile is pretty like a jewel. Her eyes are like suns, although they shine brighter. Her hands have been in mine, and I would do so much to feel her gentle touch again. Her hand in mine, giggling along to a cringey song I haven't listened to in years. It hurts so much. I love her more than I could ever say, and to love her in silence is to destroy myself. But if I tell her, it'll destroy her. I'd rather suffer by myself, as I know she is not in the mental state to deal with this. I can handle it. I always have, so I will handle it now. Johanna, if you're reading this, which you probably never will, it is about you. It's Elliot/Ezra. I've been in love with you since we were nine. My love for you has never wavered. Anyone else I've liked, they've just been people who remind me of you. Beautiful, funny, and nerdy. I love you, and I am so sorry that I do.

f it we ball

posting my drawings cuz some of my mutuals said yes to my last post. be warned its really really bad. two are fandom content.

ok so like. would you guys want me to post my art.

im not rlly good at it but I kinda wanna start posting it

mutuals would y'all want this @yourlocalbadgerscales @whydousernamesevenexist @chaserofstars11

merry crisis

@yourlocalbadgerscales @whydousernamesevenexist

i saw the TV glow.

idk. Just a short poem about what I've been feeling these past few months.

What if, in another universe, things were different? What if in another universe, we didnt have to just be man and woman? Things that nobody could understand, but we know it's right because that's how we all feel inside? What if our bodies were the same, and we could all just live in our rightful place of joy and delight, without having dysphoria to fight, what if I could just be me, you could just be you, what if our perceptions of ourselves hadn't gone askew? What if, boys were like girls and girls were like boys, not just what we think are mens toys? I've gotten off track, but as of late, I think homophobes need a real good smack.

yes😝😈😋

might give out my ao3

I write gay fanfiction about Harry potters dead parents friends👍

lowkey might be bipolar

uhh yeah. I have a lot of what is apparently called manic episodes. And close to every symptom of bipolar. Especially the 'manic eyes'.