all my life i have dictated myself by these numbers
How many calories have i eaten today?
I did better in this test than the person next to me, but still not good ENOUGH.
How fast am i bowling? Is my run up too little steps? Is it unprofessional??
How much do i weigh? I need to weight less i need to be like that girl over there who’s so skinny and composed, and has such self control.
How many times have i eaten? Oh its 12pm wait one more hour to have lunch. But im so hungry. Just drink 1 cup of water, have two if youre extra hungry.
My life has been revolved around all of my numbers.
And it’s never been enough. No number will ever be enough for me ever, its either too big or too small, never perfect.